MNK's Log. PSSD Recov 12-18mo 10', 11m-16mo 18'. Treating hEDS/ADHD, Trauma, via HRT+/dex, Crnv, Ketmn. TEI?

[MNK99]

--Long term health anxiety/ trauma/ autism:

Probably hurt my life in recent years way way more than PFS. PFS could have ended it in 2017 but 2018 end to 2021-2022, trust me I was way stronger than 90-98% of people. It slipped and got lower and lower and of course, I went down mentally and barely worked out. People are commenting on muscle but that is just carnivore and cutting, even without gym. It will be better in a few more weeks. Set backs happen.
I am sure Autism and all would have been cured a few yrs ago, had I stuck to tei, and digestion would have been perect, and I would have stayed amazing.

-Now I have to undo certain bad habits, clean more, organize my room. Buy some sneakers and such. And lift more at home then the main gym.
--listen to music more again. walk more.
--I will put all health stuff behind me but I won't rush and if it isn't instant or perfect, i won't let that dismay me.
--so I messed up carnivore last nite after making a great steak and some lamb burgers. So I had stomach pain... 1/7 maybe 2/13 2/14 days. While that is not optimized health, and I've done better.. that is a far cry from terrible health as a kid at times and also PFS state.
--I am sure tei can fix hormones and rid autism / anxiety. I just think 6mo to a year endocrine/ hormones/most neuro will be fixed.. and I don't know maybe another year or half a year or longer, autism and stuff will go away.
--they could have offered this shyt as a kid... instead of random vaxes and checkups and whatever else.
--i will say even years after tei and water fasting (probably just being fitter helped a lot in the decade before it)... things like pistachios and cashews don't hurt me that much. I was deathly allergic to them when a kid and teen. I got used to it though (ppl made mistakes), and yeah 2 shots of espresso and allergy medicine and it gone. I didn't even do that a couple x in pandemic and I was fine.

--Autism/fear of failure/ anxiety and ADHD made it very hard to tell ppl including women i was studying for the lsat, and overcame/overcoming PFS.. and other health issues. Esp cuz I felt beyond cured and ultraconfident again. but it slipped... so yeah, I think TEI is best for me. Not being able to talk (even with no fear) may have been autism stuff . and addiction likely made it harder to get help. negative downward spiral. thought those days were gone in my early 20s and a bit later..,.


ppl tried to stop me, hug me... grab me (women), and i ran off cuz of trauma/autism/ not knowing how to explain how id fix the rest of PFS. and yeah it sucks... at times i was silent in pandemic. most my family are docs... and yeah there's so much propaganda (my brother is very against a lot of that) but of course no 1 understands chronic illness and avoidance of all meds, like ppl that fought chronic illness.

i will cure all agn. thanks for reading.

Become extremely structured and regimented again in baby steps and then there... and minerals dialy 2x a day will help that.. and I won't feel so lost.
SOME tei and crnvr. some tei and just their diet (closer to it). Maybe not taking test enanthate today... just coffee, dex, later just dex.. at times and crnvr. and then soon enuff just tei (carnivore for a time).

 

[MNK99]

Perfectionism and isolation and stuff... maybe autism and ADHD. Rather than BPII and ADHD. BPII never really fit me, Dr. G. Kimmons says. TEI will fix a lot of that (I don't know if it will cure but it will make it way better and life great again). AND hormones. NOT sure if a lot of hormones work.

I AM sure there are steroid and sarm combos that do work but what... just look really good and have hi sex drive and succeed.. but go on and off them?? AND have autism ruin 10 relationships a year??? no way to live. TEI can fix that. I can't exactly explain why but I don't think anyone can. It is imbalances that build up over time... and they get exacerbated by things like FIN. I'd probably rapidly improve.

I mean rad140, stims, randro/4andro, etc usually work day one for me or they did. Carnivore I will keep trying but mostly because leaner and fitter and better mental health must mean I am detoxing. tiredness but more fresh and upbeat and happy when waking up.... so less supplements/orthomolecular medicine prescribed (in pill quantity), so less detox reactions, more resuts, faster (ideally).

I may take test tmro but I know don't take it and don't take coffee or barely on tei.

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Question:

@RebelWithACause
TEST cream and dex on TEI = bad ?

(I just figure and it makes sense CREAM has no ester, is out of system fast, fits endogenous release rhythm), and it stimulates 5AR 3x more effectively than Test e, c, and the rest. PROP is up there too.
--SO it ups TEST AND DHT.. I just figure it's the best test form for someone with 5AR issues or PFS.
--I don't think I like test enanthate enough to continue it more than a week or 2 maybe 3... so probably wouldn't use that. FOR ALL I KNOW TEST cream at a high enuff dose is good/great for me (I hope so...
--then I got tei and that, if I ever need to).

Dex on TEI (like carnivore) = fine

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--Rwac bruschi helen etc... say do tei. others also. i also said that to like 100 people so... ya i mean. when u look healthy and are ... health changes are subtle and u don't notice em before it is too late. i mean if i could get all from diet too fine but i assume.. cooking mineral loss and harder and harder to get... say, proper food. they will make it harder. maybe 100 usd a steak at home eventually... i mean IDK about that, but eventually sure with inflation. buy btc ev week or month or quarter, DCA with your salary and keep offline (advice to ev1).

--EGO probably but I felt like ... me and so many others cured and did shyt with no help at times and I was well... that it wouldn't matter. AND HELEN liked to say he cured ppl that he didn't and that others were on so many drugs.
--HE SAID I Was when I literally wasn't for yrs and yrs lol. BUT yeah, one thing ppl think about me (besides loving admiration and appreciation), is that I am on drugs. They are wrong tho!!
--ALSO others were like ah IHATEFIN isn't cured,... but he was doing amazingly in life .... but yeah to be balanced is even better for a lot of us.
--I can lock in and live the rest of life awesomely... with TEI.
--WITH TEST CREAM/DHT CREAM and HCG?? IDK. Possibly maybe even probably but I don't know for sure. AND Had I not done all the other stuff I did to get cured (maybe those reqr more RU486 for all i know, to bring down cortisol, and progesterone sensitivty and make me more androen sensitive), maybe that would help.
--but then what ru486 and test and dht cycles? I mean cool but if agitation, quality of life, depresison, anxiety are all over the place cuz of that, then not cool. Minerals should be hella gentler than that.
--there will always be hormones later and better shyt down the line. TEI/ARL and other programs (there's a lot) are here since the 1970s. Same with androgens but yeah, mienrals are billions of years old I guess.

 

[MNK99]

CAN TEI allow me to build muscle and lose fat the same way alternate day fasting, water fasting (AFTER , much after), randro/4andro, sarms in mid late 20's did?

I mean realistically who cares, just do it slower and I am already beyond natural. Do a few cycles or 5 cycles every decade or 2 a year.. and then back to TEI.

I like being really ripped and vascular and I can do that naturally but... I mean 1 year to be fitter than 90-95% of people again.. versus 8-10 weeks and 98% of people and injuries recovering quicker and
lee way in bad diet and sleep sometimes, and all that.. It makes things a lot easier (assuming I find shyt that works, and I prolly will).

I'm vain... I mean girls ask me out at 8-12 percent bodyfat but yeah they do anyways... and it is mostly for well me. I mean why look good and really good when you can look even better??

I need v taper.. and was always rectangular. I need abs to pop. Upper body strength was and usually is a lot.
I need androgens to protect my spine and not make degenerative disc disease worse,... and scoliosis. that may be nonsense tho.

They like my intelligence and face and humor but I mean being really ripped helps a lot too. Also healthiness they like that. I already bought a wardrobe when ripped.

anyways getting healthy from after pssd and after pfs made me very ripped.. and i mtnd it all the time inbtwn and after that for the most part. 4-5 weeks carnivore uninterrupted i'd be lean enuff again.
and with weights... that and stronger.. but to reach new heights, androgens have their use.. but this balancing is more important of course.


-practioner would have helped too when i moved on own to stay the course. great. lesson in there for others.



--NITE MANIK making some bad choices perhaps:
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--trying test e and var.. some dermacrine. - and carnivore with some fkups 1x a week.. soon less, way elss i hope. -regardless i will be more optimized and probably stop hormones and then... just take tei and dex. doesn't hurt me mostly. tei/dex good. trt+var? creams better ya. trial and error no one knows for sure and ev1 has different cases to an extent. I AM sure some transdermal 4andro/randro or whatever i have left.. gear cream may have thrown i am sure some combo would make a rock hard erection. i am also sure it is a waste of time and not a sustaimable cycle. --mental health focusing on that. and eating rite will help. and then tei. i am impulsive and i mean to use test rite .. gotta dose higher a bit and take some dht deriv. i have no doubt primo and test e would be better and prop better still. and test cream better still.
--i do respond well to TD hormones at times... but yeah true reversal all symptoms and also ultraconfidence because anxited and depression and such is gone and autism fixed.. ur ultra powerful when u fix a bunch of "incurable diseases". and you can literally just keep succeeding.
--i won't go down too far... and realistically if i eat enuff/ and rare and med rare/ getting all minerals from food in carnivore can only make me healthier, by a month or so from now when I am on tei. -- i am sure my tests will look fkd up or bad. but i mean test cream... some dex..
-that can replace other androgens i barely am using. and then we can go.. i can see if var helps or not... but yeah i am sure tei is better. i got var last yr wanted it a long time. bought hcg, var, and test last yr and got a script. bought test and got sarms 2022 but used like 10 days max same with test my initial prescription. tei is sustainable and i like it. but maybe some combo of this other shyt will help. i am sure gym will help regardless... i don't think itll hurt tei much but sure results will change but.. take 1/3 1/2 the dose. retest if need be after 2 weeks or so
--and go from there.
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--crypto too addictive and isolating.. and ive gotten better at it a lot but yeah... ADHD medicine and tei i will be balanced really and probably use less .. barely at all but more than none, so I can function well. I'd just as easily like my own mienrals/ dex/ Test prop or cream/HCG.
--crypto is for when you're already in high finance (no), medicine, or law. it is like cocaine. it is either for retards or tech people or degen gamblers. it is for when you're already a lawyer. i was ripped and beautiful and will be again. i >>>> normies. but** they have nrml livdes too.

 

[Fazed22]

No coffee while you're on TEI, @Fazed22 ? How's it going?

I am having coffee on some days only when I feel like it and it does help me a lot, but sometimes I do have a bad anxiety crash 3-4 hours after the coffee where I get bad social anxiety and I think that is because of the potassium lowering effects or maybe because it's making me too acidic because if I have a cooked cauliflower which is alkaline and a good source potassium then it fixes the anxiety from the coffee for me. I do also find drinking coffee helpful for clearing out my bowels if I'm ever constipated.

What exactly is the reason why you can't have coffee on TEI? I know it will mess up adrenals long term and lower potassium and it's artificially raising metabolism. Also coffee slows down ALDH which is needed for metabolising vit A and it inhibits the b6 enzyme too so maybe that's why. But a lot of HTMA practitioners say a cup of coffee is helpful for slow oxidisers.

@MNK99 TEI is complicated, I had a pizza for the first time in two years and since my gallbladder went wrong these kind of foods really gave me big issues so I avoided them. Well I had no issues with the pizza I felt fine from it but I did not feel like taking the parapack for a few days and when I finally did take it I now had some gallbladder and liver pain, which I think was from the glyphosate in the pizza which disturbs Vit A metabolism.

Here is the thing dietary fat soluble Vits like A and D they do inhibit bile acid synthesis Gbold even mentioned this himself and said they're not good for you. I definitely do feel TEI does correct things in me but I don't know if it is slowly making my bile worse or not and this is a concern for me as I already had gallbladder and bile issues before TEI.

I did start coffee enemas again a week ago and thank god I am not seeing blood in them anymore like I have been in the last year, so maybe something healed or was fixed but I'm glad. I will start doing them regularly again as when I did them everyday for 6 months thats where I had the most healing and I dumped stuff on hair test too.

On the coffee enema I did a few days ago I did two half ones one after each other, after the first one I felt like taking some Para Pack so I took it then I did the second coffee enema but I wasn't able to release the coffee from that one after so I guess the parapack did mess with my bile and I did feel very constipated for the next day so I won't do coffee enemas with TEI together.

But in the last few enemas I've done I've been getting like a spaced out, adrenaline anxiety feeling afterwards, I thought it was all the caffeine at first but now I think it's because I'm dumping copper from them because I took a little bit of the TEIs Zinc Manganese vit C and it completely fixed the symptoms I got after the enemas and I felt extremely grounded and alpha, also the adrenal complex helped after too.

 

[Fazed22]

@MNK99 or anyone else what would you advise for this test. It is one of my friends IRL, he actually did a HTMA after I told him about it. He has a calcium shell, has always had bad anger issues so he can be very unpleasant towards his friends and family at times, he is overtraining at the gym very addicted to exercise/working out and I think that is bad for him and his results but his body is in good shape, he has a very high libido/hyper sexuality. I have stopped speaking to him many times because of his anger issues and toxic traits but I always forgave him eventually, but my other friend has completely cut him off years ago and I think that was a smart decision now. Anyway recently he was very unpleasant to me twice in the space of a month or two so after these two times I told him I am done with being friends with him forever now because he never changes (it's been like this for 10 years).

He did the HTMA test in February but he never had the money to buy any of the stuff, well now he texted me he does have money to invest in his health and is asking me what to buy, so I will tell him what to buy and what to do but I am still done with being friends with him.

@MNK99 or anyone else what would you suggest for him. I was going to tell him to take the TEI recs, buy a pressure cooker and have cooked veg, animal protein and lower fat and calcium, buy red lamp, buy a magnesium dead sea spray too maybe and maybe start coffee enemas he told me in the past he would do them. He already does sauna at his gym.

But I don't know what the best approach for a calcium shell is, if the TEI sups made him a lot worse that would be a disaster so I'm a bit concerned about suggesting him that. He never had any chronic health issues he is very active, I think he has told me has had some tingling in his legs before but that will be from blood sugar issues as his CA/MG is extremly high not sure if that means he is at risk of a heart attack or not. I think he also said he has heart palpitations at times. He probably has bipolar and a therapist would be very helpful but I doubt he would ever get one.

Is it likely he has a calcium shell because he is copper toxic?

So a high Ca:MG ratio is called the Spiritual defensiveness pattern according to Wilson which defo makes sense for him. Actually his one is called Living a lie pattern which is CA:MG over 40 which also perfectly sums himself up. He is stuck in the past completely always blaming people for his problems and when my other friend cut him off permanently he really could not get over it and felt like had been betrayed and went on about it for years and years.

by Lawrence Wilson, MD

 

[MNK99]

Copper toxicity is related to mood disorders. "Living lie pattern"... hmm. Sounds hard to deal with damn but he can change maybe man!! Maybe he has intermittent Explosive disorder or maybe BPII or some sort of angry personality disorder.

I think he should do the supplements I don't think it will drive him crazy but I understand the apprehension. Seems he has a lot of toxic ratios. You sound like you care about him bro and that's nice... maybe it is calcium shell, I really don't know. If you are on twitter, maybe you can send it to The Body Atomic or Clarke Englebert and they can interpret it or give you some feedback. I am sure others know more. I will try and learn it more, I just wrote evenbetternow and they probably have to resend me the hairtests, it is just an email.

A therapist isn't a bad idea at all. But it is hard finding a good one. He needs to find one and maybe you can help him get a good one. Talk therapy has its merits, maybe hfter a time.. he won't need it, or the minerals will help a lot.

 

[MNK99]

This guy says this, even after recovering from dutasteride, and in my age range (30s), he does better on test propionate.
"when natty i had very strong erection. after dutasteride in 2021, i need prop 30mg ed or 60mg eod to have strong morning woods even after recovering from pfs so this sensitivity change occur in early 30s after dut". Random commenter on Ryan/ Cortex Labs youtube today.

I never had to and had health and youtube all blocked minus LSAT stuff and music.. and had all social media blocked and barely used the internet minus studying, chatting some friends, some discord and helping people with pfs , pssd etc. AND also trading. Trading especially crypto will rip your mental and physical health apart unless you are already married,have a long term girlfriend. I ignored hundreds if not thousands of girls per decade tens of thousands,, that liked me probably because of deep seated autism/ trauma. I was alpha as fuck and will be again, but I mean... Creative + trading versus law ... and just investing.

WHICH do you think is better for mental health? THE SECOND. The stable cool career. This shyt is wack. I had 46, 76, 96 percent leverage trades, a 165% meme spot trade yday and those other lev trades today yday. I am waiting to get out of this leverage short on solana. ASKING my parents 10k in december 2022 --> 500k-3million, maybe even 5-10-20million easy. AND I wouldn't have had to hide...
my work in 2019 2020 it was fine then cuz I was gonna do law, when I wrote the test, did well probably, and cancelled it, then became obsessed... you can tell there's a problem.

I was so smart, reading books daily and walkiing and lifting 5-6 am. People waving, flirting, ev1 loved me. AND I mean trading and day trading is like being a gamer. It is cool and it is bad.
I have made 2000 and 500 and 600 and 2400 and 33000 canadian but you gotta sell rite timing... and stay detached from it.

I already learned middle way, meditation, taoism. I like stoicism a lot. If I had better self control/ better mental health/ coping I'd have a very hot group of female friends and any of them would have set me uP (they reached out to me like 100 plus times in 2019-2023).. and a gf long term. I had to hide my business wasn't doing well at times and I had to hide I wasn't done my school even tho I had perfect reason ADHD and PFS i fixed... AND i had to hide then I wasn't studying. Isolation will ruin your life. I hope TEI can help me autism shyness anxiety and depression wise. I am sure it will fix sex drive/ make testicles hang low, fertility. BUT I mean, I'd just as soon shoot test propionate daily or take test cream daily. THING is I don't want hypersexuality in a bad way (addicted, block porn fine, use it in gym, get a girlfriend fine but it is hard to do nofap 45-50-90 days etc for me). I can and will do that more tho. Day 45... when you look good, women just come to you.

I have other stuff to fix for now such as even just organizing my life and space. Hence, why I still wanna use ADHD medicine. I will try working out this afternoon and tmro afternoon more again.

As I said, test prop/ test cream >>>> test enanthate and cypionate, especially for 5AR issues. This is true even in TRT for many, as it is in and out of the system and ups DHT and keeps estradiol there. Healthier you are, better steroids/ test/ HRT works. FOR SURE.

I am sure ANAVAR would be insane workout wise for me in 2018 2019 2020 for sure (losers closed down the world to harm attractive single people, in favor of ugly fat people. NO vitamin d, no sunlight!! No exercise, no sports... only fear the covid (that they made. for sure millions of deaths from vaccine and 20millon plus killed from their virus. So maybe 60million from the vax)).

I look jacked and its earned. Carnivore 2-4 more weeks I will look pretty ripped but I am not working out much and it's because I am busy and depressed. Gotta end that cycle and even if I have to workout more like a normal person and not high volume... because of no carbs (tho I am sure ADHD/ hyperness carries most of that, some coffee or dex can help). I am just saying no carbs, no rice.. starchy carbs, I can't imagine working out like I did in mid and late 20's and for PFS in 2018-2020. At the same time, part of that is unsustainable (if it is high weight, high volume).

 

[Fazed22]

Copper toxicity is related to mood disorders. "Living lie pattern"... hmm. Sounds hard to deal with damn but he can change maybe man!! Maybe he has intermittent Explosive disorder or maybe BPII or some sort of angry personality disorder.

I think he should do the supplements I don't think it will drive him crazy but I understand the apprehension. Seems he has a lot of toxic ratios. You sound like you care about him bro and that's nice... maybe it is calcium shell, I really don't know. If you are on twitter, maybe you can send it to The Body Atomic or Clarke Englebert and they can interpret it or give you some feedback. I am sure others know more. I will try and learn it more, I just wrote evenbetternow and they probably have to resend me the hairtests, it is just an email.

A therapist isn't a bad idea at all. But it is hard finding a good one. He needs to find one and maybe you can help him get a good one. Talk therapy has its merits, maybe hfter a time.. he won't need it, or the minerals will help a lot.

Yeah intermittent Explosive disorder sounds like what he has, nah the toxic ratios are meant to be high thats normal if they were low then it would highlight an issue. Cool I'll tell him to get the supplements, what diet do you think he should do? He also lives in a tiny one bedroom flat with his mum (who also has mental issues) so thats not at all helpful either but at least he's got a cat.

The evenbetternow people are they helpful? Do these HTMA practitioners actually know any more than we do, sure they will understand HTMA and minerals a lot better but I am wondering if they would have extra advice or suggestions for me that I didn't know already myself, because if they do then maybe I should contact evenbetternow as well.

 

[MNK99]

Kind of helpful but I mean mostly they are used for ordering the supplements and like we ordered tests from there. Goose12 told us about the site. They are pretty good.
SOME practitioners are great/ seem great. We used to have Catherine here, I wrote her a few x back in 2018 and 2019 she was cool. She was helpful but IDK more motivaitonal/ a resource at least.

It seems we don't seem to like Clark E... I think the Body Atomic is cool. And a choice if other stuff doesn't work out or more likely if it plateaus (LIKE if ARL or TEI plateau for me).

Are a lot of practioners stringing people a long and scams? SURE, I have no doubt. Some of them are good maybe with extra complicated problems.

I am pretty sure you can request and get a practitioner either through evenbetternow or they get TEI to give you one (possibly ARL also, I am not sure). It may be worth it even for a cycle or 2.
AND if it sucks, don't renew. Always a risk with these people but surely some of them understand a lot about it.

Maybe check nutrition with judy on youtube to see how much they know. And guess from there. I know some know a lot, but I mean if I am gonna take the supplements anyways, what's the point.
Further guidance/ instructions can be helpful tho.

It is good he has a cat. WE should be careful diagnosing people we don't know (I mean me), and also people we do know... but for sure he probably has trauma or some impulse control issues and agitation/anger. And I can relate in some ways (incidentally I was so sweet and nice after treating pfs but at some point toxicity, life stress, and not being able to be "just a little different" = tons of success), hurt me.

I paid my dues in isolation but didn't want to admit to friends and girls in community (where I was new) that I was still building career and that I was giving back/ losing generational wealth with eth and btc ... leverage trades. PLUS side is I lose 3-4x a year now but yeah.. I mean 2-3k -60k or 10k-300k... is easily possible with no leverage. spending time on this shyt tho/ I mean... leverage makes it fun but that's just insane. AS all the people who didn't use leverage.. go down 60 percent 40 percent in majors, and then back up... on the worst days. Used to be 85 and 95 %.

Also I was stupid, girls were willing to help me and didn't need me to be 100 percent successful. 90 % is good enuff and needing some help. I can't ask for help tho and yeah that can fucking screw you over major. I finally have a diet model again.. but say... 4 times i messed up carnivore i'd say 2x were pretty healthy and not bad. 3 were decent. one was bad. It will push me closer to optimal health tho.

I look fwd to TEI but I mean i have nolvadex, test enanthate, cypionate, anavar, etc at my place. And barely any minerals / supplements. SOon I'll have their stuff.

 

[Fazed22]

@MNK99 Also I have never really tried hormones apart from progest e and t3 a few times , but I am definitely curious about Androsterone because it is a FXR agonist (FXR controls bile acids and regulates Vit A storage) so this could potentially really improve my bile production and I've heard others say they had crazy bile production on andro. My concern is will it mess something else up as a consequence? Probably I guess... The idea of taking any hormone now feels so wrong to me but what do you think?

 

[Fazed22]

Kind of helpful but I mean mostly they are used for ordering the supplements and like we ordered tests from there. Goose12 told us about the site. They are pretty good.
SOME practitioners are great/ seem great. We used to have Catherine here, I wrote her a few x back in 2018 and 2019 she was cool. She was helpful but IDK more motivaitonal/ a resource at least.

It seems we don't seem to like Clark E... I think the Body Atomic is cool. And a choice if other stuff doesn't work out or more likely if it plateaus (LIKE if ARL or TEI plateau for me).

Are a lot of practioners stringing people a long and scams? SURE, I have no doubt. Some of them are good maybe with extra complicated problems.

I am pretty sure you can request and get a practitioner either through evenbetternow or they get TEI to give you one (possibly ARL also, I am not sure). It may be worth it even for a cycle or 2.
AND if it sucks, don't renew. Always a risk with these people but surely some of them understand a lot about it.

Maybe check nutrition with judy on youtube to see how much they know. And guess from there. I know some know a lot, but I mean if I am gonna take the supplements anyways, what's the point.
Further guidance/ instructions can be helpful tho.

It is good he has a cat. WE should be careful diagnosing people we don't know (I mean me), and also people we do know... but for sure he probably has trauma or some impulse control issues and agitation/anger. And I can relate in some ways (incidentally I was so sweet and nice after treating pfs but at some point toxicity, life stress, and not being able to be "just a little different" = tons of success), hurt me.

I paid my dues in isolation but didn't want to admit to friends and girls in community (where I was new) that I was still building career and that I was giving back/ losing generational wealth with eth and btc ... leverage trades. PLUS side is I lose 3-4x a year now but yeah.. I mean 2-3k -60k or 10k-300k... is easily possible with no leverage. spending time on this shyt tho/ I mean... leverage makes it fun but that's just insane. AS all the people who didn't use leverage.. go down 60 percent 40 percent in majors, and then back up... on the worst days. Used to be 85 and 95 %.

Also I was stupid, girls were willing to help me and didn't need me to be 100 percent successful. 90 % is good enuff and needing some help. I can't ask for help tho and yeah that can fucking screw you over major. I finally have a diet model again.. but say... 4 times i messed up carnivore i'd say 2x were pretty healthy and not bad. 3 were decent. one was bad. It will push me closer to optimal health tho.

I look fwd to TEI but I mean i have nolvadex, test enanthate, cypionate, anavar, etc at my place. And barely any minerals / supplements. SOon I'll have their stuff.

Lol this Catherine person does she still see people? She was lucky to have every person from this forum given to her as clients.

 

[MNK99]

No I don't think so... I think worst case it won't work...
OH if you mean while on TEI or ARL, yeah I suppose it isn't ideal. Never got an answer about stuff like that. I may ask some experts again.

BUT* I was told don't use choline and stuff like that on TEI. By Helen/Gbolduev.
Try and save that for a couple months after some cycles of minerals... maybe you won't want it anyways.

My dexedrine is more for neurological/ work/school reasons... for true ADHD.

And I have gotten approval from some people here, and also some practitioners in TEI. Probably would draw the line before hormones tho. Lithium orotate is ok too in small doses (as per them, me, and Catherine the previous practitioner that was helping some early people here on hackstasis).

REALLY don't know but quite possibly. I forget her email/ lost my email account that I was using to contact her unfortunately (and other people). BUT* It may be findable using search here, it may not also.
Sorry about that bro.

BUT remember others would be just as fine. She is a nice lady but I mean other nice people work for TEI... so it'll be aite.

 

[Fazed22]

No I don't think so... I think worst case it won't work...
OH if you mean while on TEI or ARL, yeah I suppose it isn't ideal. Never got an answer about stuff like that. I may ask some experts again.

BUT* I was told don't use choline and stuff like that on TEI. By Helen/Gbolduev.
Try and save that for a couple months after some cycles of minerals... maybe you won't want it anyways.

My dexedrine is more for neurological/ work/school reasons... for true ADHD.

And I have gotten approval from some people here, and also some practitioners in TEI. Probably would draw the line before hormones tho. Lithium orotate is ok too in small doses (as per them, me, and Catherine the previous practitioner that was helping some early people here on hackstasis).

Nah i don't think I would use TEI with andro if i tried it a cycle unless you think I should. Look I think my main issue I think probably is copper somewhere in my body making me estrogenic and blocking zinc/manga and probably there is some fungi/mold which is stealing my copper too from being used correctly. Probably I have other metals too stuck somewhere also, I am gonna do that oligoscan intercellular mineral test soon because I wanna see what it says.

 

[MNK99]

I am having coffee on some days only when I feel like it and it does help me a lot, but sometimes I do have a bad anxiety crash 3-4 hours after the coffee where I get bad social anxiety and I think that is because of the potassium lowering effects or maybe because it's making me too acidic because if I have a cooked cauliflower which is alkaline and a good source potassium then it fixes the anxiety from the coffee for me. I do also find drinking coffee helpful for clearing out my bowels if I'm ever constipated.

What exactly is the reason why you can't have coffee on TEI? I know it will mess up adrenals long term and lower potassium and it's artificially raising metabolism. Also coffee slows down ALDH which is needed for metabolising vit A and it inhibits the b6 enzyme too so maybe that's why. But a lot of HTMA practitioners say a cup of coffee is helpful for slow oxidisers.

@MNK99 TEI is complicated, I had a pizza for the first time in two years and since my gallbladder went wrong these kind of foods really gave me big issues so I avoided them. Well I had no issues with the pizza I felt fine from it but I did not feel like taking the parapack for a few days and when I finally did take it I now had some gallbladder and liver pain, which I think was from the glyphosate in the pizza which disturbs Vit A metabolism.

Here is the thing dietary fat soluble Vits like A and D they do inhibit bile acid synthesis Gbold even mentioned this himself and said they're not good for you. I definitely do feel TEI does correct things in me but I don't know if it is slowly making my bile worse or not and this is a concern for me as I already had gallbladder and bile issues before TEI.

I did start coffee enemas again a week ago and thank god I am not seeing blood in them anymore like I have been in the last year, so maybe something healed or was fixed but I'm glad. I will start doing them regularly again as when I did them everyday for 6 months thats where I had the most healing and I dumped stuff on hair test too.

On the coffee enema I did a few days ago I did two half ones one after each other, after the first one I felt like taking some Para Pack so I took it then I did the second coffee enema but I wasn't able to release the coffee from that one after so I guess the parapack did mess with my bile and I did feel very constipated for the next day so I won't do coffee enemas with TEI together.

But in the last few enemas I've done I've been getting like a spaced out, adrenaline anxiety feeling afterwards, I thought it was all the caffeine at first but now I think it's because I'm dumping copper from them because I took a little bit of the TEIs Zinc Manganese vit C and it completely fixed the symptoms I got after the enemas and I felt extremely grounded and alpha, also the adrenal complex helped after too.

Thanks for the info bro.

I guess if I can have some dex (legal speed). You can have some coffee, but try and keep it low. Like I had 20-40mg dex in university and at times trading/ studying in recent years (less than back in university though because I handled ADHD better and it was after PFS, and after fasting/lifting lots/ fixing hormones/ balancing minerals although not forever... less worked well).

Like me using 10mg-20mg or 15mg is fine. Maybe 1 coffee or half a coffee or 1.5 instead of say 2 or 3.
Rebel told me maybe dex acts as some sort of supplement and may be ok... some thing that speeds us up. I forget.

I guess hormones are just worse or we feel that way bc of PFS. I mean at some pt., ppl still take 2-3 meds on carnivore, if it is down from 10-12 fine. If it helps em fine.

Same with on TEI. BUt I wouldn't take any or near none (maybe vape nicotine if addicted, ideally not. black coffee ok), while water fasting to cleanse. Now? yeah. AND I did back then too.

Can't let "BEING PERFECT" be the enemy of "BEING really good".

 

[MNK99]

Nah i don't think I would use TEI with andro if i tried it a cycle unless you think I should. Look I think my main issue I think probably is copper somewhere in my body making me estrogenic and blocking zinc/manga and probably there is some fungi/mold which is stealing my copper too from being used correctly. Probably I have other metals too stuck somewhere also, I am gonna do that oligoscan intercellular mineral test soon because I wanna see what it says.

I don't think you should. Use it months after perhaps. Keep up the TEI man.
Sounds mystical, but I think TEI will fix any fungi/mold issue. Minerals are behind a lot of this. Is oligoscan results interpreted and they give you suggestions?

I think some blind faith is needed and that is a problem for me and many here (and everywhere really, at least skeptical people). I will have faith in TEI when I begin again tho. I know I could deal with stressful people and situations easie ron it and it felt like I was on Lamictal again sort of (I used it mere weeks pre finasteride... , it was for bipolar II but it could easily be autism/ depression./ ADHD, bipolar II didn't make a whole lot of sense despite addictive nature. it worked really well but hurt my hair. and can cause SJS/TENS, but careful titration avoids that, ended up getting PFS tho).
Minerals won't cause anything like any of those conditions. SO it is fine to trust it.

SAME with your friend. DOING nothing, might result in violence/self harm or something. AND taking pharma/... one wrong adverse event and life can be over for a time.

MINERALS?? what is it gonna do? COPPER/ZINC balance (or something) is great for mood disorders anyways. I think TEI will help u a lot man. I was happy to start it when I felt cured or practically cured.
BUT now I am not as good health but it has to be easier than jumping around, doing nothing, and taking random things.

THE only other things I would take, make sense. DERMACRINE, test prop, test cream. hcg. but the ones I tried, I barely make 2 days, not because they really hurt me but because I get discouraged.

FOR all i know HCG etc could cure me 6months or 4months and I will feel great.

BUT I have some other health issues / also invisible unless really feeling down.

AND I get results quickly or have on TEI, I do on other minerals to this day/ enzymes etc day one they work for me. So did lamictal, dex, coffee, etc...
Hormones when they work are quick but... yeah I'd need more time.

I will do TEI soon. best not to overthink and get back to life even in babysteps for people that are really hurting. TEI makes a lot more sense than most protocols.
If it makes me 80% better that is well over 90 percent in everything/ like mental health illness/ and chronic health.. then I can move on, and I can learn more about it , to better me...

but it works well.

I only went off of it because it seems stupid/ nonsensical and there's other shyt, that should work. but what is that other stuff?

 

[Fazed22]

Thanks for the info bro.

I guess if I can have some dex (legal speed). You can have some coffee, but try and keep it low. Like I had 20-40mg dex in university and at times trading/ studying in recent years (less than back in university though because I handled ADHD better and it was after PFS, and after fasting/lifting lots/ fixing hormones/ balancing minerals although not forever... less worked well).

Like me using 10mg-20mg or 15mg is fine. Maybe 1 coffee or half a coffee or 1.5 instead of say 2 or 3.
Rebel told me maybe dex acts as some sort of supplement and may be ok... some thing that speeds us up. I forget.

I guess hormones are just worse or we feel that way bc of PFS. I mean at some pt., ppl still take 2-3 meds on carnivore, if it is down from 10-12 fine. If it helps em fine.

Same with on TEI. BUt I wouldn't take any or near none (maybe vape nicotine if addicted, ideally not. black coffee ok), while water fasting to cleanse. Now? yeah. AND I did back then too.

Can't let "BEING PERFECT" be the enemy of "BEING really good".

Again ADHD/ADD meds are something I've never tried but I have always had ADD and low dopamine, I am curious to see how this dex would affect me but I also don't want it to turn me into some kind of messed up drug addict lol. I have wasted a lot of time in my life by not being able to get stuff done and achieve stuff from lack of dopamine/motivation/focus. Also socialising would be a lot easier if I had higher dopamine and higher gaba. High dopamine + high gaba = best combo.

 

[MNK99]

LOL don't take em unless you need em.

I had no life structure till I was like 18-19 and again till 23. My ADHD was probably permanently worsened by bad habits as a kid maybe but I fixed those... but by Effexor XR.

Most people don't need amphetamines. For real.
I mostly took it because of bachelors, masters econ and eventual law school. Helps basic shyt too though but I don't see people without hypomania/ ADHD, other neurologies similar (like TBI's but treatable) act like me.

I mean yeah it can help life a lot but... I mean I'd only recommend it to people that really need it but yeah I wasn't gonna treat PFS without its help after a while. I got way better but needed it june july august 2018 because I had/ have big goals. Even tho PFS was way way better than early 2018 and my health was coming back and life, I felt there'd be no life without it. I should have been on that at 18 ... or 16...

16 dex, oxandrolone I'd be 6'4. steak and eggs since after a baby, also 6'4 and better mental health always.

It is better than meth safety wise (Street meth most of it) and cocaine (duration wise) but it is maybe for 1-2 percent of people. Maybe more. I'd hate to gatekeep what I feel is a life saving drug for me but
I mean it could also be tons of trauma and stuff that I've been through. I don't think it is for everyone. I think it's way way safer than 4/5 psyche drug classes tho.

I never had many gaba drugs except alcohol I guess.
I am sure socializing can be helped with that or something...

Try L theanine... and like some noots maybe. Maybe kratom... I never tried that one.

Medical cannabis but after TEI. Cannabis helps a lot but yeah I mean it takes some minerals away. That's what I'm saying... we still have to live. I felt so fucking happy with weed at times in 2019 2020 2018. -2022.

I hated it mostly because it was smoked but in drinks, coffee with me controlling the level, already vaped bud, and chocolates and stuff, gummies it is good. I am in Canada. You need some drugs here.

 

[Fazed22]

LOL don't take em unless you need em.

I had no life structure till I was like 18-19 and again till 23. My ADHD was probably permanently worsened by bad habits as a kid maybe but I fixed those... but by Effexor XR.

Most people don't need amphetamines. For real.
I mostly took it because of bachelors, masters econ and eventual law school. Helps basic shyt too though but I don't see people without hypomania/ ADHD, other neurologies similar (like TBI's but treatable) act like me.

Cool I'll avoid but I need to work on my discipline and routine, also need to find some work.

 

[MNK99]

Maybe later... l theanine, citicholine but again Helen distinctly told me no choline on tei.
NOOTROPICS DEPOT has good shyt.

Maybe asking a practitioner the logic behind not taking it will help you.
I understand the discipline/ routine stuff. It sucks... mine was godtier and better than ever. I will get there again. When really down I don't take it. .. but that reminds me I will take a little.

It helps me make/ keep friends at a lower dose... and like with magnesium and stuff. I like me and life better with it. I am sure long run use will help me again. My ADHD docs in this city and back in Toronto were so happy with my progress.. i gotta take it.

 

[MNK99]

Maybe I can get really healthy and master ADHD and focus/ discipline again. AND I can help people online like this girl but more for boys and young men. Although she has great tips.

Bullet journaling especially. Yeah I started skipping school in grade 10.. and in 2 universities and 2 high schools ... ADHD medicine could have helped me hella earlier. I don't feel bad for taking it. Makes me a better person. I may hold off now cuz chemistry is changing and even coffee and stuff but I just started carnivore. I think TEI will make me more resilient and give me minerals I need for that.

At my first uni, I would try so hard to make planners work and yeah it was hard. I couldn't. I am pretty sure I had autism and ADHD as a kid. For sure ADHD. IF not autism/ something very close.