Hack Stasis Forum

Hello @Latapy. Some of your story really resonates with me. One exception is all those drugs you mentioned I only tried similar ones at 21. I got better from pssd and drug-induced mania, weight gain, possible liver damage, and so much more a couple years later. It was very very hard but extremely rewarding. If you truly do have a disorder --- keep in mind treating that (if it's safe and you have a correct diagnosis), will fix a ton of your other related neuropsyche problems. Easier said than done and obviously misdiagnosis is rampant.

You may feel lost right now but it doesn't need to stay that way at all. Ideally no drugs is the best. It's difficult to find a doc you can trust when it comes to psyche, but often possible. For me treating the right thing made life like 100 times better. It was a double edged sword though. Because I saw the time I lost and all that pain, but I saw my potential once again. Also I was lucky/unlucky enough that my eventual chosen specialist suffered from the same thing I did. It was his speciality and he understood it. There's a lot of help available on this forum.

For school - get "letters of accommodation". If you want to return I mean. Try and get extra time, flexible deadlines, and "isolated exams" (writing tests alone).
At the Counselling And Disability/ Learning Disability Center (or whatever it's called at any particular school). This helped me get closer to grades I needed, and coupled with the correct medication (and tons of arguing), helped me graduate. But I realized this really late. After SNRI/SSRI-damage I was too scared to get help. If you establish a true "disorder", you can get some help at post-secondary+ programs. Even if you don't believe in the diagnosis, it can help you in the school system.

Also what is your main goal? Cure PSSD? Repair all drug damage / depression?
I'm sure you'll get better with the help of this forum.