MNK99
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-Yeah dude I'm not actually anti-drug... I am anti-drugs-that don't make sense, but surely it's helped some. NOW? possibly could help me... but at a high percentage... doing nothing could also help. 0 % or negative 1000%... almost everything I did hurt... gluten, good food, sleep, no sleep... etc. Couldn't exercise or anything.
-I am anti misuse and anti mis-prescription and anti misdiagnosis tho*. (pharma, med, net dx also). ---altho there is some good advice online*. I gave and heard out before.
-Well I guess tbh I am pretty anti psyche and pharma (drugs). But that's for personal, and life exp reasons...
-Great hair, confidence, fitness = best mood stabilizer (different story if mood issue was way worse than ADHD issue tho***). --it's case by case.
-And BPI ... probably super visible a lot more.
-"You managed extremely well." for whatever that's worth -- still Yeah if a med existed that wouldnt at v least cause baldness and weight gain... sure I'd take it...
-Art and Choosing rite things and people and support... helps way more... only when treating part of it tho. Treat nothing? I'm just a confused but sharp and not happy person... after a while*. At times fine... but things always get messed up in a way but not forever... and I can deal with them better 23 25 on... for sure.
-Also extremely self destructive and showing up ... different everyday a bit*... but still the same. Can change it up* no issue. Extremely adaptable ** but to dangerous levels**.
-stims different story, worth downside sometimes or a lot of time... but depends on stim and person... and self knowledge, cycling off, harm reduction, etc.
---> I mean for like 0.1-2% of people or so, max like 5-6%. --and certainly not for "fatigue" nor ... cortisol issues, nor... PFS, etc. --I mean like serious shyt, that won't go away completely, but I'm fine with it. -It makes me, me*. Can't just fight everything.
-All of this irrelevant much of last year, considering PFS was just that bad... But that's why partly super suicidal. Family won't get it + kind of fucked anyways before and after + and "i ruined my life." ... but not true. Felt like it was tho. anyways moving on.
-Plus thought it was my fault, or was cursed or destined to see good things evaporate anyways... and that was final straw PFS... but yeah thank God and H/S i was wrong.
It was like a few imperfections, and several *chequered past issues* became like a million... and "it was over", better off gone. but not true. horrible state of mind to be in for sure. happy im out of that.
-I am anti them screwing me up and abandoning me... esp as I got stronger and older, I cut off ppl not other way around.
-I am anti misuse and anti mis-prescription and anti misdiagnosis tho*. (pharma, med, net dx also). ---altho there is some good advice online*. I gave and heard out before.
-Well I guess tbh I am pretty anti psyche and pharma (drugs). But that's for personal, and life exp reasons...
-Great hair, confidence, fitness = best mood stabilizer (different story if mood issue was way worse than ADHD issue tho***). --it's case by case.
-And BPI ... probably super visible a lot more.
-"You managed extremely well." for whatever that's worth -- still Yeah if a med existed that wouldnt at v least cause baldness and weight gain... sure I'd take it...
-Art and Choosing rite things and people and support... helps way more... only when treating part of it tho. Treat nothing? I'm just a confused but sharp and not happy person... after a while*. At times fine... but things always get messed up in a way but not forever... and I can deal with them better 23 25 on... for sure.
-Also extremely self destructive and showing up ... different everyday a bit*... but still the same. Can change it up* no issue. Extremely adaptable ** but to dangerous levels**.
-stims different story, worth downside sometimes or a lot of time... but depends on stim and person... and self knowledge, cycling off, harm reduction, etc.
---> I mean for like 0.1-2% of people or so, max like 5-6%. --and certainly not for "fatigue" nor ... cortisol issues, nor... PFS, etc. --I mean like serious shyt, that won't go away completely, but I'm fine with it. -It makes me, me*. Can't just fight everything.
-All of this irrelevant much of last year, considering PFS was just that bad... But that's why partly super suicidal. Family won't get it + kind of fucked anyways before and after + and "i ruined my life." ... but not true. Felt like it was tho. anyways moving on.
-Plus thought it was my fault, or was cursed or destined to see good things evaporate anyways... and that was final straw PFS... but yeah thank God and H/S i was wrong.
It was like a few imperfections, and several *chequered past issues* became like a million... and "it was over", better off gone. but not true. horrible state of mind to be in for sure. happy im out of that.
-I am anti them screwing me up and abandoning me... esp as I got stronger and older, I cut off ppl not other way around.
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