Zadig

[raven]

Zadig passed away today from suicide, it's very sad news. He always said he was desperate but from our private messages he always had a sense of humour. I didn't believe he would ever choose this option. Rest in peace zadig

 

[bruschi11]

Ugh I wanna throw up. I tried so hard with him. He just wouldn't listen to anything and wanted a quick and easy way out. He certainly had some ailment causing his chronic fatigue and PSSD. Ugh.

He was so young though. Like 20, 21. And you can't blame people at that age sometimes. You never know how you would react if it were you at that age. I got really sick at 28. I had a lot of good life behind me and matured me knowing how great life could be if I could get beyond the hell. He didn't have that.

RIP Zadig you crazy kid. This shouldn't have happened. His poor family and friends :-(

 

[vicecaz]

I too saw the thread on the pssd forum, is it true?
Really sad news indeed, may he rest in peace

 

[RebelWithACause]

R.I.P. zadig

I looked him up on Google and he was active on this suicide forum and talked about suicide quite a bit on other websites:

zadig777

This is the biggest risk with young guys (he was 20/21 I think?). They don't see the big picture IMO. They think it is all over and get into a downswing that they cannot get out of.

I think the Internet can also influence guys like this for the worse. He was obviously frustrated and down - you saw it the way he talked to people on this forum. In beginning of PFS I was the same. I attacked people constantly and felt like dogshit 24/7. It was because I felt like shit and you want to vent your frustration on random people. It is not good but it is what it is. Then he is on forums like that suicide forum and sometimes these PFS/PSSD forums can also be a cesspool of negativity.

In the end you cannot hold the hands of these guys. We are not close to each other and don't know each other IRL. You can't know if someone is about to jump off a building. These forums are self help. You have to want to help yourself and not give up. I think the younger you are the harder it is to see that.

 

[raven]

I too saw the thread on the pssd forum, is it true?
Really sad news indeed, may he rest in peace

Yes, his relative messaged a whatsapp group that he was running. I just wanted to share the news here too as he was active on this forum

 

[vicecaz]

R.I.P. zadig

I looked him up on Google and he was active on this suicide forum and talked about suicide quite a bit on other websites:

zadig777

This is the biggest risk with young guys (he was 20/21 I think?). They don't see the big picture IMO. They think it is all over and get into a downswing that they cannot get out of.

I think the Internet can also influence guys like this for the worse. He was obviously frustrated and down - you saw it the way he talked to people on this forum. In beginning of PFS I was the same. I attacked people constantly and felt like dogshit 24/7. It was because I felt like shit and you want to vent your frustration on random people. It is not good but it is what it is. Then he is on forums like that suicide forum and sometimes these PFS/PSSD forums can also be a cesspool of negativity.

In the end you cannot hold the hands of these guys. We are not close to each other and don't know each other IRL. You can't know if someone is about to jump off a building. These forums are self help. You have to want to help yourself and not give up. I think the younger you are the harder it is to see that.

Ouch. I did not know such forums exist. I really thought propeciahelp was the bottom in terms of hopelessness, it is not even close

 

[Helen]

Zadig passed away today from suicide, it's very sad news. He always said he was desperate but from our private messages he always had a sense of humour. I didn't believe he would ever choose this option. Rest in peace zadig

Are you serious? wtf. I thought that dude, was doing testosterone plus thyroid, plus NDT thing. And was posting about it on every forum.

Wtf people. hold yourself together.

 

[bruschi11]

Ouch. I did not know such forums exist. I really thought propeciahelp was the bottom in terms of hopelessness, it is not even close

I hate admitting it but I was on suicide websites for a solid 3 months after I realized my situation pre-Lyme diagnosis. I found a site it was really fucked up. Guy didn’t do the deed and decided to get married and live life all while creating an extensive website of all the things you can do to kill yourself. He looked down on it, but was like “well these are the ways you can do it.” Sooo weird.

I told mental health pros, nurses I was waiting for a (pfs) study to come out before committing suicide. Had a suicide note written. It was bad.

 

[Helen]

Zadig, when I die, hopefully not soon, I will find you there, and kick your ass, you little fucker. His parents must be devastated. I was so sure he was doing thyroid test plus cortisol. He was talking to Joe a lot also. WTF

He was a little prick , but killing himself? wtf Zadig. this is sad and makes me angry


I hope this is true information, since that PSSD forum lately is full of trolls

 

[wuf]

I was hit by PFS when I was 22 years old and I'm still here.
I remember I was very close to suicide in a couple of situation from jumping down from the window but something let me go back inside.
I can understand that dude, I spoke by phone with him just 3minths ago and he told me he was a PSSD guy...
I told him to wait and give time but I guess in this battle only the strongest survive.

 

[MNK99]

People go to the hospital, if no family's around. Or if they are making you feel worse, if it's severe. Some days of mood stabilizing agent's won't make PFS worse.
---Choose the right drug. Mean time. I didn't do this, and should have fasted from the get go. Luckily while fasting and after, I realized Swole Source + Hack Stasis, were RIGHT about fasting. Thankfully.
--Don't give up. I have several things that get to me, but as far as PFS is concerned most of it is in the past. Completely cured? No, but one day for sure.
-And additionally other things , I thought incurable, will be cured too (at least some of them).
--And if you're in such a situation, don't lash out and make people hate you, but rather ask for sincere, actual help. People will respond more sincerely.
--All of this is easier said than done, I know.
--I mean like Mirtazepine and or whatever actually helped people. Not buying 10-20 random drugs online.
-Not being put in psyche ward and given some crazy shyt either... It's a difficult situation obviously. to put mildly.
--There's more to you, than your medical / health issues. Always.

 

[Helen]

I was hit by PFS when I was 22 years old and I'm still here.
I remember I was very close to suicide in a couple of situation from jumping down from the window but something let me go back inside.
I can understand that dude, I spoke by phone with him just 3minths ago and he told me he was a PSSD guy...
I told him to wait and give time but I guess in this battle only the strongest survive.

ukranian chicks kept you here , Wuf. I know

 

[raven]

It is true, the people who are verifying it are credible, he himself wouldn't fake it.

 

[raven]

We let him down in a massive way, I thought he was just a stubborn cheeky sod who enjoyed pissing off us mods in the PSSD forum, I temporarily banned him for bullying and he got permanently banned later on I think for repeatedly talking about irreversible brain damage. I am glad we have made the forum a more positive place but this is very fucked up. It's so easy to forget that there are potentially very vulnerable humans behind the username day to day. RIP zadig

 

[Helen]

It is true, the people who are verifying it are credible, he himself wouldn't fake it.

We let him down in a massive way, I thought he was just a stubborn cheeky sod who enjoyed pissing off us mods in the PSSD forum, I temporarily banned him for bullying and he got permanently banned later on I think for repeatedly talking about irreversible brain damage. I am glad we have made the forum a more positive place but this is very fucked up. It's so easy to forget that there are potentially very vulnerable humans behind the username day to day. RIP zadig

agree he did not seem like a guy who would actually do something like this. He was not even taking anything for the PSSD, he just talked about it , all different methods, but never took anything. so it is weird that he would follow thru with this. Still feels like a joke

 

[raven]

agree he did not seem like a guy who would actually do something like this. He was not even taking anything for the PSSD, he just talked about it , all different methods, but never took anything. so it is weird that he would follow thru with this. Still feels like a joke

Yes but he was also a hothead and a stubborn motherfucker, so seeing that other fucked up forum that he was visiting it makes some sense, if I had found that place when I was 19 it could have been different. Like Rebel said it is the young guys early on in the process who are vulnerable, there was another young guy who did it last year too.

 

[Helen]

Yes but he was also a hothead and a stubborn motherfucker, so seeing that other fucked up forum that he was visiting it makes some sense, if I had found that place when I was 19 it could have been different. Like Rebel said it is the young guys early on in the process who are vulnerable, there was another young guy who did it last year too.

Well I hope then, there is a reset , and we do live in the matrix. and all those people just reset themselves.

 

[bruschi11]

We let him down in a massive way, I thought he was just a stubborn cheeky sod who enjoyed pissing off us mods in the PSSD forum, I temporarily banned him for bullying and he got permanently banned later on I think for repeatedly talking about irreversible brain damage. I am glad we have made the forum a more positive place but this is very fucked up. It's so easy to forget that there are potentially very vulnerable humans behind the username day to day. RIP zadig

Nobody let him down man. You guys tried with him and sure people joked with him. He seemed like a troll at times. Kind of like the guy who eats a ton of bad food on the discord lol.

I just don’t get why he wouldn’t look at someone like you or me @raven . I get it, nutritional balancing is new and a process. But look at all the evidence of gut/pathogen stories. And he never even considered giving that a shot.

He didn’t give himself a chance. He got screwed with his situation/age, but he had a chance that he never gave himself and that’s what really sucks.

 

[raven]

Nobody let him down man. You guys tried with him and sure people joked with him. He seemed like a troll at times. Kind of like the guy who eats a ton of bad food on the discord lol.

I just don’t get why he wouldn’t look at someone like you or me @raven . I get it, nutritional balancing is new and a process. But look at all the evidence of gut/pathogen stories. And he never even considered giving that a shot.

He didn’t give himself a chance. He got screwed with his situation/age, but he had a chance that he never gave himself and that’s what really sucks.

he took a hard stance on what the cause of PSSD was and when it came to everything else he didn't want to know, he just wasn't ready to deal with this stuff

 

[raven]

There are some pure evil psychopaths on that forum he was visiting no doubt. Guys who are not really suicidal but are egging other people on to commit suicide. Horrible