merebalacy
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Hi all, I've been in the discord for a while but never made a post here. Wanted to put all my info in one place for the sake of convenience and hope that my story might help someone else too!
I took finasteride topically for a month or so in November 2023, and got sides on them; voice cracking, low libido maybe a little brain fog, body aches, and ball pain. All left after a day off of it, but like a dumbass, I went at it again and again until I realised that it was simply not sustainable for me. It was a week after that I got ball pain again, and woke up one day with hard flaccid. This gradually improved, until I took cyclosporine topically. I was getting super tired and I couldn't understand what was happening, POTS, my lips, hands and feet went blue couldn't exercise or do shit without almost collapsing. I got a viral throat infection after this, and here is where I noticed some bad things happening. My joints started cracking like a mf, not just a little but a fuck TON, I lost a little muscle but hey-ho at least I was okay symptoms-wise. Then my skin started getting progressively looser, and dryer. I dropped the nicotine that I was using and noticed an improvement in my symptoms straight away, was off of it for two weeks, and then crashed to oblivion when I restarted usage.
My side effects then were; dry ass skin, muscle loss (symmetrically throughout my whole body all in a couple of hours), no pumps, no mind-muscle connection, crazy saggy skin and a fucked up dick.
I recovered the above until August brought an odd body change. I had horrific histamine issues, exercising would fuck me up; my throat would close up, hot flashes, stiff neck, runny nose etc etc. I had no clue what was happening and I then got a bad eye infection, which led me to take cyclosporine which caused my joints and connective tissue to dissolve, until I crashed again and the same shit happened before. Severe POTS, hot flashes, then the SAME EXACT viral infection WITH THE SAME SYMPTOMS and degradation. This has now only JUST started improving, I noticed fasting for a little while would make me feel a lot better, so I kept on doing it for the whole of December. It was a horrible experience and I genuinely never wish that on anyone; severe suicidal thoughts, anhedonia, muscle atrophy (symmetrically throughout my whole body all in a couple of hours) no hunger, cold all the time, couldn't sleep even for an hour, crying like crazy... It was like I had finasteride in my body, which led me to wonder about re-exposure, or maybe it was still in my body.
Now, I want to get to the bottom of this, so I'll probably be doing TEI for a little while to fix my immune system and other shit when I stabilise. Currently working with Bruschi and trying some stuff to help push me forward a little more.
It would be great to revive this forum once more, RWAC, Tubzy, Mnk, Bruschi... It's fantastic that you guys are still here, which helps us who are in the shit a lot more than you guys could ever imagine.
I took finasteride topically for a month or so in November 2023, and got sides on them; voice cracking, low libido maybe a little brain fog, body aches, and ball pain. All left after a day off of it, but like a dumbass, I went at it again and again until I realised that it was simply not sustainable for me. It was a week after that I got ball pain again, and woke up one day with hard flaccid. This gradually improved, until I took cyclosporine topically. I was getting super tired and I couldn't understand what was happening, POTS, my lips, hands and feet went blue couldn't exercise or do shit without almost collapsing. I got a viral throat infection after this, and here is where I noticed some bad things happening. My joints started cracking like a mf, not just a little but a fuck TON, I lost a little muscle but hey-ho at least I was okay symptoms-wise. Then my skin started getting progressively looser, and dryer. I dropped the nicotine that I was using and noticed an improvement in my symptoms straight away, was off of it for two weeks, and then crashed to oblivion when I restarted usage.
My side effects then were; dry ass skin, muscle loss (symmetrically throughout my whole body all in a couple of hours), no pumps, no mind-muscle connection, crazy saggy skin and a fucked up dick.
I recovered the above until August brought an odd body change. I had horrific histamine issues, exercising would fuck me up; my throat would close up, hot flashes, stiff neck, runny nose etc etc. I had no clue what was happening and I then got a bad eye infection, which led me to take cyclosporine which caused my joints and connective tissue to dissolve, until I crashed again and the same shit happened before. Severe POTS, hot flashes, then the SAME EXACT viral infection WITH THE SAME SYMPTOMS and degradation. This has now only JUST started improving, I noticed fasting for a little while would make me feel a lot better, so I kept on doing it for the whole of December. It was a horrible experience and I genuinely never wish that on anyone; severe suicidal thoughts, anhedonia, muscle atrophy (symmetrically throughout my whole body all in a couple of hours) no hunger, cold all the time, couldn't sleep even for an hour, crying like crazy... It was like I had finasteride in my body, which led me to wonder about re-exposure, or maybe it was still in my body.
Now, I want to get to the bottom of this, so I'll probably be doing TEI for a little while to fix my immune system and other shit when I stabilise. Currently working with Bruschi and trying some stuff to help push me forward a little more.
It would be great to revive this forum once more, RWAC, Tubzy, Mnk, Bruschi... It's fantastic that you guys are still here, which helps us who are in the shit a lot more than you guys could ever imagine.
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