May 2015 I was depressed and started taking 10mg fluoxetine every day for a couple months. After that I felt better and stopped and I felt no bad side effects
fast forward
February 2017 I started the same medicine and dosage and maybe a month or two in I start feeling bad side effects. I stop taking the medicine in maybe April or May 2017 because of these side effects
Unfortunately these side effects never go away, if anything they got a little worse at first.
The side effects included in order of when I noticed them if I remember correctly
-stopped getting morning wood/nocturnal erections
-penis felt weird
-often trouble sleeping. I would wake up in the middle of the night with half a night sleep and wouldn't be able to fall back asleep
-penis sometimes felt weird after masterbation. almost uncomfortable
-noticed penis was not getting proper bloodflow it used to get and I could not get erections the way I used to
-orgasm quality decreased
at this point I stop taking the SSRI medication
-all symptoms continue after ceasing this
-notice my sperm volume is drastically lower than it used to be (maybe less than 20% of the volume)
-notice sometimes my sperm is less thick/white and more watery
-when I masterbate the sperm does not shoot out with high pressure force all over the place in spurts, it sort of just oozes out now
I read symptoms and think maybe if I take some natural testosterone boosting pills it will help me so I start this in maybe early June
I go to doctor and in August end up finding out from Blood test I have extremely low testosterone
I also find out I have very high Estrogen levels in early september
I notice I can no longer get runner's high at the end of the run / the adrenaline rush and tingles in your body that make you finish strong
I stop taking the testosterone supplement and I find pssd suggests ST JOHN'S WORT
I take this starting middle of september and notice my numbness is starting to go away and first couple nights I get strong morning wood erection
I feel tingles like I used to I do not know how to describe the tingles almost like when you get goosebumps and a chill down your spine. I have had them all my life but forgot about them after SSRI. I feel them again after starting st johns wort but it is weak
I start doing kegel exercises to lift my penis up and it feels very numb but I feel like I am training an atrophic limb that has been paralyzed and trying to relearn how to use the nerves there. this sometimes causes the tingles in my spine
st johns wort generally made me feel very happy sometimes
More bloodwork comes back in october, I still have very low testosterone (like low 200's), my estrogen is extremely high (like very high) and my prolactin levels are slightly high as well (15.3?)
sometime around sept or oct after st johns wort initial effects stopped and I realized it would not cure me, i tried other things
KUDZU root seemed to have no effect
LICORICE ROOT had a definitely weird effect. A day or two after I took it, I would not feel any numbness in my penis, my ball sack would hang very low and feel not numb at all. sometimes, my balls would actually hurt almost like I had blueballs from this I do not know how to describe it. I would take this every now and then but never regularly. Sometime I gave up on the st johns wort after a couple months
doctor gives me some viagra but not much. maybe once every 2-4 weeks I take one viagra before bed to try to give good bloodflow to penis while asleep but im not sure if it helps
Sometime in October I try the 6 day ella trial with 2.5 mg dose x 6 days of ellaone pill
after day 5 I wake up in night with hardest erection I had since the SSRI
for about a week my numbness is completely gone, libido is higher, erection quality and orgasm quality better
semen feels more white and less watery again, maybe the volume is even a little higher but is still a fraction of what it used to be
To combat the high prolactin in November? I started taking
DOPA MUCUNA and
ASHWAGANDHA root
these seemed to slightly improve my numbness as well and slightly improve blood flow to penis and maybe even boost libido a little. maybe the pressure of which my semen came out slightly increased so it doesnt ooze out as much but it still does not spurt out like it used to
LATEST bloodwork comes back and I find out my estrogen level has completely HALVED and is in normal range but my prolactin is even slightly higher now out of normal range since i started the ashawganda whichg I thought would lower it
MRI reveals I have no pituitary tumor which could be causing my high prolactin, we do not know why it is high.
IN mid december I see the ZINC FINGER THEORY thread on this forum and decide to order the
L-HISTIDINE
L-CYSTEINE
after a couple days of this I honestly FEEL CURED
a few days before this I tried micro-dosing the fluoxetine 2.5 mg once as well, I don't know if the effect was there. I had done it before a month ago and felt a hard erection afterwards.
-zero numbess
-nocturnal erections
-morning wood
-better stronger longer lasting erections, balls feel normal, dick feels normal. BEST ERECTIONS ALL YEAR OCCUR DURING THIS PERIOD
-semen volume starts increasing every day and less watery/more white. it even seems to spurt a little bit more but still not pre-SSRI levels
-orgasms feel amazing, libido increased
-bloodflow to penis feels normal
THIS CURE FEELING DID NOT LAST THOUGH it ended a week or two ago
I started this maybe DEC 20 and the benefits last maybe 10 days
doctor gave me testosterone patches, I try one of them one night wake up with hardest morning wood ive had
after this everything starts regressing. I notice if I don't take the cysteine/histidine for a day the numbness starts to come back ever so slightly. i always immediately take it again because i am afraid of the numbness coming back full force.
anyways most of these symptoms seem to regressed back to where I am at right now.
Overall My baseline from PSSD is much better than it was almost a year ago when it started
-I no longer struggle sleeping most nights
-Bloodflow to penis does not feel normal but the baseline is much higher ever since September. March-August were worst months of my life I thought my penis was dying from atrophy but now it has some bloodflow
-My erection quality is not like it was a week or two ago but overall baseline is still higher.
-Semen volume is low as it always has been since PRE-SSRI. I am very depressed about this I don't know if I'll ever gush out large volumes of stick white cum like I used to. It is less than 20% of what I used to do pre-SSRI and it is more watery with not as much white as should be
-I don't get morning or nocturnal hard wood erections as of now. But I do feel slight bloodflow which is better than most of what used to happen. It is like almost a half-erection morning wood, it isn't completely soft and shriveled feeling but there is some bloodflow
I tried a third or fourth micro-dose of 1.0-2.5 mg of fluoxetine (maybe did this once a month past few months) but it didn't seem to do the trick
Prior to SSRI I was taking biotin supplement for about 2 years. I also took fish oil every now and then. and my whole life I have taken a multivitamin generic brand every day most days.
Since ssri I have occasionally taken fish oil. I try to take multivitamin (half of one) every day. I drink lots of water and get exercise and sleep. past 3 days I started the dopa mucuna/ashwa again with cystei/histi in case it was the combo 4 of them that gave me the cured-feeling
I took a Lysine pill today. I will probably take another Histidine/Cysteine today.
As of now I don't know what to do. A week or two ago I felt normalness again I tasted what it was like to be cured and alive again but now I am back to this.
I might try the ella trial again I do not know.
For now I will continue muiltivitamin and cysteine/histidine combo maybe a fish oil or zinc pill every now and then
numbness feels like it is mostly cured
on weekend i might take a viagra before bed maybe that is helping long-term
I don't know what to do sorry this was probably messy I tried to remember anything but it's been a very long year. the worst year of my life. But I am better than I was half a year ago and I hope I can find a cure...
fast forward
February 2017 I started the same medicine and dosage and maybe a month or two in I start feeling bad side effects. I stop taking the medicine in maybe April or May 2017 because of these side effects
Unfortunately these side effects never go away, if anything they got a little worse at first.
The side effects included in order of when I noticed them if I remember correctly
-stopped getting morning wood/nocturnal erections
-penis felt weird
-often trouble sleeping. I would wake up in the middle of the night with half a night sleep and wouldn't be able to fall back asleep
-penis sometimes felt weird after masterbation. almost uncomfortable
-noticed penis was not getting proper bloodflow it used to get and I could not get erections the way I used to
-orgasm quality decreased
at this point I stop taking the SSRI medication
-all symptoms continue after ceasing this
-notice my sperm volume is drastically lower than it used to be (maybe less than 20% of the volume)
-notice sometimes my sperm is less thick/white and more watery
-when I masterbate the sperm does not shoot out with high pressure force all over the place in spurts, it sort of just oozes out now
I read symptoms and think maybe if I take some natural testosterone boosting pills it will help me so I start this in maybe early June
I go to doctor and in August end up finding out from Blood test I have extremely low testosterone
I also find out I have very high Estrogen levels in early september
I notice I can no longer get runner's high at the end of the run / the adrenaline rush and tingles in your body that make you finish strong
I stop taking the testosterone supplement and I find pssd suggests ST JOHN'S WORT
I take this starting middle of september and notice my numbness is starting to go away and first couple nights I get strong morning wood erection
I feel tingles like I used to I do not know how to describe the tingles almost like when you get goosebumps and a chill down your spine. I have had them all my life but forgot about them after SSRI. I feel them again after starting st johns wort but it is weak
I start doing kegel exercises to lift my penis up and it feels very numb but I feel like I am training an atrophic limb that has been paralyzed and trying to relearn how to use the nerves there. this sometimes causes the tingles in my spine
st johns wort generally made me feel very happy sometimes
More bloodwork comes back in october, I still have very low testosterone (like low 200's), my estrogen is extremely high (like very high) and my prolactin levels are slightly high as well (15.3?)
sometime around sept or oct after st johns wort initial effects stopped and I realized it would not cure me, i tried other things
KUDZU root seemed to have no effect
LICORICE ROOT had a definitely weird effect. A day or two after I took it, I would not feel any numbness in my penis, my ball sack would hang very low and feel not numb at all. sometimes, my balls would actually hurt almost like I had blueballs from this I do not know how to describe it. I would take this every now and then but never regularly. Sometime I gave up on the st johns wort after a couple months
doctor gives me some viagra but not much. maybe once every 2-4 weeks I take one viagra before bed to try to give good bloodflow to penis while asleep but im not sure if it helps
Sometime in October I try the 6 day ella trial with 2.5 mg dose x 6 days of ellaone pill
after day 5 I wake up in night with hardest erection I had since the SSRI
for about a week my numbness is completely gone, libido is higher, erection quality and orgasm quality better
semen feels more white and less watery again, maybe the volume is even a little higher but is still a fraction of what it used to be
To combat the high prolactin in November? I started taking
DOPA MUCUNA and
ASHWAGANDHA root
these seemed to slightly improve my numbness as well and slightly improve blood flow to penis and maybe even boost libido a little. maybe the pressure of which my semen came out slightly increased so it doesnt ooze out as much but it still does not spurt out like it used to
LATEST bloodwork comes back and I find out my estrogen level has completely HALVED and is in normal range but my prolactin is even slightly higher now out of normal range since i started the ashawganda whichg I thought would lower it
MRI reveals I have no pituitary tumor which could be causing my high prolactin, we do not know why it is high.
IN mid december I see the ZINC FINGER THEORY thread on this forum and decide to order the
L-HISTIDINE
L-CYSTEINE
after a couple days of this I honestly FEEL CURED
a few days before this I tried micro-dosing the fluoxetine 2.5 mg once as well, I don't know if the effect was there. I had done it before a month ago and felt a hard erection afterwards.
-zero numbess
-nocturnal erections
-morning wood
-better stronger longer lasting erections, balls feel normal, dick feels normal. BEST ERECTIONS ALL YEAR OCCUR DURING THIS PERIOD
-semen volume starts increasing every day and less watery/more white. it even seems to spurt a little bit more but still not pre-SSRI levels
-orgasms feel amazing, libido increased
-bloodflow to penis feels normal
THIS CURE FEELING DID NOT LAST THOUGH it ended a week or two ago
I started this maybe DEC 20 and the benefits last maybe 10 days
doctor gave me testosterone patches, I try one of them one night wake up with hardest morning wood ive had
after this everything starts regressing. I notice if I don't take the cysteine/histidine for a day the numbness starts to come back ever so slightly. i always immediately take it again because i am afraid of the numbness coming back full force.
anyways most of these symptoms seem to regressed back to where I am at right now.
Overall My baseline from PSSD is much better than it was almost a year ago when it started
-I no longer struggle sleeping most nights
-Bloodflow to penis does not feel normal but the baseline is much higher ever since September. March-August were worst months of my life I thought my penis was dying from atrophy but now it has some bloodflow
-My erection quality is not like it was a week or two ago but overall baseline is still higher.
-Semen volume is low as it always has been since PRE-SSRI. I am very depressed about this I don't know if I'll ever gush out large volumes of stick white cum like I used to. It is less than 20% of what I used to do pre-SSRI and it is more watery with not as much white as should be
-I don't get morning or nocturnal hard wood erections as of now. But I do feel slight bloodflow which is better than most of what used to happen. It is like almost a half-erection morning wood, it isn't completely soft and shriveled feeling but there is some bloodflow
I tried a third or fourth micro-dose of 1.0-2.5 mg of fluoxetine (maybe did this once a month past few months) but it didn't seem to do the trick
Prior to SSRI I was taking biotin supplement for about 2 years. I also took fish oil every now and then. and my whole life I have taken a multivitamin generic brand every day most days.
Since ssri I have occasionally taken fish oil. I try to take multivitamin (half of one) every day. I drink lots of water and get exercise and sleep. past 3 days I started the dopa mucuna/ashwa again with cystei/histi in case it was the combo 4 of them that gave me the cured-feeling
I took a Lysine pill today. I will probably take another Histidine/Cysteine today.
As of now I don't know what to do. A week or two ago I felt normalness again I tasted what it was like to be cured and alive again but now I am back to this.
I might try the ella trial again I do not know.
For now I will continue muiltivitamin and cysteine/histidine combo maybe a fish oil or zinc pill every now and then
numbness feels like it is mostly cured
on weekend i might take a viagra before bed maybe that is helping long-term
I don't know what to do sorry this was probably messy I tried to remember anything but it's been a very long year. the worst year of my life. But I am better than I was half a year ago and I hope I can find a cure...
