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Yura

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Yesterday I had 200g of squid tentacles. Crazy headache and nausea whole day. Weird intense dreams. Today still pressure in the head.
Gbolduev was recommending sea food as ideal protein source. I don't know. It is loaded with copper but also toxic metals..
Will feed toiled with the rest and will stick to whey protein, chicken..
 

RebelWithACause

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Yea you're still jacked and lean. Funny when I was really sick right after stopping finasteride I also abs and insane vascularity. TBF you don't look unhealthy from a body perspective. Funny how fucked up you can still be...

Also the average person will probably not even suspect you are sick. I noticed people often got angry at me because I was "slow" they thought I was a normal person and 100% healthy back then. But I had very low energy they thought I was just being weak willed even though I was mostly laying on my bed out of sheer fatigue most of my free time possible except for doing physical exercise and walking in nature and some running - which was too much for sure but still. This was the biggest disconnect. I looked normal. I even look at old pictures and looked normal except when I first crashed I had insane weight loss and looked bad. But after that I felt terrible but still looked normal from the outside. So people assumed I was some lazy POS even though I was trying daily my best to get better.

And funny because I was way more active than those people and stronger before I got sick. So it was like other assholes who barely did anything started to judge me all of a sudden and I could not stand up for myself it felt like I was completely weak.

This experience all made me jaded. Still has me jaded today. I wish I could not be like that but all these experiences made me dislike majority of humanity and life in general because of the way you are treated when you are down on the ground. It's like people just wait for you to go down and then they pound on you. Especially other people who are weak. I noticed a few people in my life they still treated me like a normal person but this was an exception. So I still salute those people when I see them. The rest I just ignore.

Anyways enough rambling but your pic reminded me of that, that you can look normal but be absolutely fucked. And yea I don't do good on seafood. Seafood is tricky. Maybe if you are used to it and live in an environment with fresh seafood. I doubt it though I barely eat it.
 
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@RebelWithACause before I crashed I was always watery=high estrogen. Now I am dry=issues with low estrogen.. No libido. Not even thinking about doing something with my dick for like last 6 months(I am not watching any porn or anything sexual at all. I am done with that for sure..).. But lately it got at least little better and sign of that is I actually enjoy looking at pretty girls lol. Before I was like whatever...
I need to stop that job. The amount of stress is out of control. My body runs in red zone all the time. Made/saved at least some money. Hopefully I will find something more normal soon. Would love to do some summer job somewhere. So far no luck finding something..
 

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@RebelWithACause before I crashed I was always watery=high estrogen. Now I am dry=issues with low estrogen.. No libido. Not even thinking about doing something with my dick for like last 6 months(I am not watching any porn or anything sexual at all. I am done with that for sure..).. But lately it got at least little better and sign of that is I actually enjoy looking at pretty girls lol. Before I was like whatever...
I need to stop that job. The amount of stress is out of control. My body runs in red zone all the time. Made/saved at least some money. Hopefully I will find something more normal soon. Would love to do some summer job somewhere. So far no luck finding something..
Alright dude good to hear you at least have some improvements now. Good luck