CAN relate to last sentence. I need citric acid for a different reason tho. BUT: I try and keep it just proper, actual lemons/limes.
I think I only got into fights up until 26, and later calmed the fuck down. STILL at times now... but it was more than rare before.
BUT* those people are still stupid. ... but dying or getting into fights/ arrested will fuck up a lot for me. Whereas people with nothing to lose, they simply don't care.
Mine is probably neuropsyche, and was there way way before Fin and probably at times way before any pharma. Some things calm me down a lot.
I only eat whole food ingredients and train/fasted... forever. Unless I find out this is bad. MAYBE, not in my best interest to take fast oxidation to super fast oxidation, bc
I have probably been there. BUT, for me, better than probably v slow oxidation as per during worst fin-crash.
I usually try and take the train, or handle annoying tasks late or in the morning pre- or post- rush hour.
I don't drive years straight, sometimes... but that's bc of other things, but also... rushing always, and disorganization, and occasional anger... not good. So rather,
just walk, run, take uber, trains, etc. Not possible in a small city tho.
I'll look into glutamate more. I think it's the case for me.... bc, LTG fixed that (not a great choice for many, that's a serious drug, and in part led me to taking fin).
And it's not just about being lazy or a slave mentality.... Running your own business, working out 20x a week, you can still be angry.
Had a friend worth insane amounts of money, maybe hostility linked to anger caused his heart attack. He's calmed down since. Although maybe all men calm down 30's to 40's, I really don't know. He's unmovable. Despite bad health of some of his family.... and a lot of other stuff. HE used to travel like 100+ times a year. He stepped back, took a chair job, sold the company, got rid of lawsuits, took less money, and is calmer than most people I see for the most part in similar roles.
It's not just one cause for everything.
Things that calm me down:
AGPC
Citocoline
Mg to a lesser extent
LiOr/Lith Aspartate (not reccing it, controversial here, but it works. AND aspartate is worse for ppl with MSG issues, and Orotate is worse for kidneys).
MMJ somewhat, but I need cito to get rid of the thc/make it functional quicker so I'm not spaced out. CBD helps anx/paranoia, but isn't enough for me.
Not recing this either, but usually dex helps my mood and focus... and I literally have no time to fight, but occassionally increases anger too.
Travelling and seeing how people actually suffer in the developing world can change perspective too.
Cannot control others, can control how you react to them and anything (when not completely fucked up at least).
Part of it's just natural and all human behavior's been pathologized. Obv, upset over effexor fin, lost opportunities, time, seeing idiots fly by life with zero issues, etc.