ballheadbuddha
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Hello there, flat-earth tripulants
Trying to get my life back together to its full potential.
First I would like to thank all the comunity for sharing knowledge and care, and that's truly beatiful to see how a positive collective mindset can lift up lives that have been crawling through obscured perspective.
Being a bit inspired by @Grambo's log, I'll try to make it chronological.
- Born on 1996
1996 - 2010
- Stressed out kid, would easily get into fights
- Poor diet, sugar, too much dairy, mostly carbs (breads, cakes, biscuits..), red meat protein, little fat, at least I aways liked legumes, but here in Brazil we have the costume to over cook everything we eat.
- Getting to know sexuality and going nosedive in porn, masturbation (3 times a day) and video-games.
- some family crysis here and there, developing social-inadequancy (anxiety).
- was always into sports, so I was pretty active.
- good sleep, 8 hours
2010 - 2014
- a bit better diet, much dairy (cheese, milk and derivatives), much sugar still, not much vegetables, mostly carbs, red meat protein, little fat. Would skip meals to do something else and eat a bread instead.
- still doing very poorly on porn and masturbation (worse than before), would cut off games for a while.
- crazy heavy headache that I could just lie on bad in total darkness - or I could throw up -.
*Doctor said it was normal and was just because of puberty (???).
- social anxiety increasing (shaking body, cold hands and feet), first signs of brainfog appearing, trouble concentrating.
- not as much active as childhood was, getting lazzier.
- not too fat, but bloated, stuffed face.
- first signs of depression and suicidal ideation, morning fatigue.
- realizing that's something wrong, started to study about general health.
- first signs of frontal diffuse hair loss, but would just notice it later on.
- Got my appendix removed, would get one bad flu by year (antibiotics use most likely), taking pills for headache, Azithromycin for acne.
- low life drive, confidence, low self-stem.
2014
(now things started to get more interesting)
- worst diet ever, premade microwave dishes for almost the whole year
- crippling stomach pain (awakening in the middle of the night), nervous gastritits (endoscopy exam)
- depression and suicidal ideation getting worse
- Sleeping too much or too little
- no physical exercises at all.
- Hairloss getting worse
- Black stools, worst digestion ever.
2015
- started drinking and smoking (tobacco and marijuana)
*cigarretes from 2015 - 2017
- social anxiety still the same but founding ways to cope with it
2016
- Getting into college
- Better diet, much dairy (cheese, milk and derivatives), going vegetarian, cutting sugar off
- getting into NoFap, but would not follow it strickly
- Social anxiety on a medium level, would still get shaky in stressful situation, brainfog, trouble learning and absorbing knowledge.
- Cold hands and feet still.
- Hairloss in its peak, started to consider ways of treating it, used minoxidil for a while (1-2 months), some multivitamins
*lost 30-40% of hair on front, diffuse mixed with V-pattern.
- Still low self-steem
2017 - 2018 (Awakening)
- Best diet (but not nearly optimal), still mostly vegetarian through 2017, would eat a bit of everything, much dairy (cheese, milk and derivatives).
- Almost no sugar.
- Stopped smoking, no masturbation, no porn, no orgarms (except when having sex)
*2,5years of NoFap.
- Started to get into fitness (cycling), it would manage my stress so much, but I really think I over did it, as I could cycle for 30km to 40km almost daily.
- Got leaner and skinnier, lost a bit of muscle.
*Height: 1,82m
Weight: 63kg
- Strict cold showers routine followed by buddhist meditation.
- Hairloss stil a big deal, but not shedding continuously, I would shed heavly for 2 months then no as much for 1-2 and repeat.
*I have long hair, so I can still cover it, but its slowly going. Almost 40% of top-head hair gone (worse on the front and temples).
- Much more happy and content.
- Depression is still here somewhere, but I can manage it, no suicidal ideation.
- Crazy sleep patterns, 5-8 hour of sleep a day.
- Learning got much easier.
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Just some back ground,
main concerns are:
- Severe Premature Ejaculation, this one being my top priority. I can get stone hard in no time, just by thinking, too easily aroused. I'm lasting 2 - 3 minutes of slow thrusting, or like 1 minute with the girl on top, with my head too tense to really enjoy it.
*Wet dreams
* Could it be anxiety?
* Low serotonin? High Histamine?
* High sensitivity because of NoFap?
- Anxiety can really mess me up sometimes, I don't remember the last day that I woke up and went to bed being anxiety free for the day.
- Hairloss is still a thing, did salt scrubs for a while, knuckle massaging improved my condition a little, but overall, I'm still shedding too much, and can also see miniaturization happening.
- Remaing signs of depression.
- Energy comes and goes, I have days that I could wake up fully rested and ready for the day, and ones that I just want to be quiet.
- Bad sleep.
_______________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
As I'm not able to get a Hairtest for now, I thought some blood work could share some light
Cholesterol HDL: 39,5 mg/dL ref.: higher than 60 mg/dL
Urea: 33,0 mg/dL ref.: 15,0 - 45,0 mg/dL
Uric Acid: 3,1 mg/dL ref.: 2,5 - 7,0 mg/dL
Magnesium (blood): 1,74 mg/dL ref.: 1,6 - 2,6 md/dL
Creatinin: 0,78 mg/dL ref.: 0,40 - 1,40 mg/dL
Iron (serum): 128,0 mg/dL ref.: 65 - 170 mg/dL
Ferritin: 65,0 nanog/mL ref.: 20 - 250 nanog/mL
Zinc (blood): 76,8 mcg/dL ref.: 70,0 - 120 mcg/dL
Copper(blood): 87,5 mcg/dL ref.: 70 - 140 mcg/dL
Free testosterone: 10,46 ng/dL ref.: 4,58 - 18,33 ng/dL
Testosterone: 504 ng/dL ref.: 175 - 781 ng/dL
Progesterone: 1,37 ng/dL ref.: 0,14 - 2,06 ng/dL
SHGB: 33,7 nmol/L ref.: 13,0 - 71,0 nmol/L
17-beta-estradiol: 22,0 pg/mL ref.: lower than 47 pg/mL
FSH: 8,66 mui/mL ref.: 1,27 - 19,26 mui/mL
LH: 6,03 mui/mL ref.: 1,24 - 8,62 mui/mL
DHEA: 8,3 ng/mL nanog/mL ref.: 1,4 - 12,5 nanog/mL
DHT: 243,00 pg/mL ref.: 47,6 - 956 pg/mL (too wide range?)
Ceruloplasmin: 21,1 mg/dL ref.: 22,0 - 58,0 mg/dL (LOW)
Prolactin: 11,17 nanog/mL ref.: 2,6 - 13,10 nanog/mL
Transferritin: 274,0 mg/dL ref.: 202 - 336,0 mg/dL
TSH: 2,25 microUI/mL ref.: 0,38 - 5,33 microUI/mL
T3(total): 0,98 ng/dL ref.: 0,76 - 1,76 ng/dL
T4 (free): 0,91 ng/dL ref.: 0,54 - 1,24 ng/dL
Cortisol (8 hours): 15,0 microg/dL ref.: 6,7 - 22,6 microg/dL
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@mattyb @Helen @MNK99 @RebelWithACause @barbaar @Orion @bruschi11 @Pedro melo @SwaZ @Aleksandr @raven @Niles @Trump_1776 @lakehouse
If you guys could share some of your experience I'd be forever grateful.
Hope the best of future for you all.
Thanks!
Trying to get my life back together to its full potential.
First I would like to thank all the comunity for sharing knowledge and care, and that's truly beatiful to see how a positive collective mindset can lift up lives that have been crawling through obscured perspective.
Being a bit inspired by @Grambo's log, I'll try to make it chronological.
- Born on 1996
1996 - 2010
- Stressed out kid, would easily get into fights
- Poor diet, sugar, too much dairy, mostly carbs (breads, cakes, biscuits..), red meat protein, little fat, at least I aways liked legumes, but here in Brazil we have the costume to over cook everything we eat.
- Getting to know sexuality and going nosedive in porn, masturbation (3 times a day) and video-games.
- some family crysis here and there, developing social-inadequancy (anxiety).
- was always into sports, so I was pretty active.
- good sleep, 8 hours
2010 - 2014
- a bit better diet, much dairy (cheese, milk and derivatives), much sugar still, not much vegetables, mostly carbs, red meat protein, little fat. Would skip meals to do something else and eat a bread instead.
- still doing very poorly on porn and masturbation (worse than before), would cut off games for a while.
- crazy heavy headache that I could just lie on bad in total darkness - or I could throw up -.
*Doctor said it was normal and was just because of puberty (???).
- social anxiety increasing (shaking body, cold hands and feet), first signs of brainfog appearing, trouble concentrating.
- not as much active as childhood was, getting lazzier.
- not too fat, but bloated, stuffed face.
- first signs of depression and suicidal ideation, morning fatigue.
- realizing that's something wrong, started to study about general health.
- first signs of frontal diffuse hair loss, but would just notice it later on.
- Got my appendix removed, would get one bad flu by year (antibiotics use most likely), taking pills for headache, Azithromycin for acne.
- low life drive, confidence, low self-stem.
2014
(now things started to get more interesting)
- worst diet ever, premade microwave dishes for almost the whole year
- crippling stomach pain (awakening in the middle of the night), nervous gastritits (endoscopy exam)
- depression and suicidal ideation getting worse
- Sleeping too much or too little
- no physical exercises at all.
- Hairloss getting worse
- Black stools, worst digestion ever.
2015
- started drinking and smoking (tobacco and marijuana)
*cigarretes from 2015 - 2017
- social anxiety still the same but founding ways to cope with it
2016
- Getting into college
- Better diet, much dairy (cheese, milk and derivatives), going vegetarian, cutting sugar off
- getting into NoFap, but would not follow it strickly
- Social anxiety on a medium level, would still get shaky in stressful situation, brainfog, trouble learning and absorbing knowledge.
- Cold hands and feet still.
- Hairloss in its peak, started to consider ways of treating it, used minoxidil for a while (1-2 months), some multivitamins
*lost 30-40% of hair on front, diffuse mixed with V-pattern.
- Still low self-steem
2017 - 2018 (Awakening)
- Best diet (but not nearly optimal), still mostly vegetarian through 2017, would eat a bit of everything, much dairy (cheese, milk and derivatives).
- Almost no sugar.
- Stopped smoking, no masturbation, no porn, no orgarms (except when having sex)
*2,5years of NoFap.
- Started to get into fitness (cycling), it would manage my stress so much, but I really think I over did it, as I could cycle for 30km to 40km almost daily.
- Got leaner and skinnier, lost a bit of muscle.
*Height: 1,82m
Weight: 63kg
- Strict cold showers routine followed by buddhist meditation.
- Hairloss stil a big deal, but not shedding continuously, I would shed heavly for 2 months then no as much for 1-2 and repeat.
*I have long hair, so I can still cover it, but its slowly going. Almost 40% of top-head hair gone (worse on the front and temples).
- Much more happy and content.
- Depression is still here somewhere, but I can manage it, no suicidal ideation.
- Crazy sleep patterns, 5-8 hour of sleep a day.
- Learning got much easier.
_______________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Just some back ground,
main concerns are:
- Severe Premature Ejaculation, this one being my top priority. I can get stone hard in no time, just by thinking, too easily aroused. I'm lasting 2 - 3 minutes of slow thrusting, or like 1 minute with the girl on top, with my head too tense to really enjoy it.
*Wet dreams
* Could it be anxiety?
* Low serotonin? High Histamine?
* High sensitivity because of NoFap?
- Anxiety can really mess me up sometimes, I don't remember the last day that I woke up and went to bed being anxiety free for the day.
- Hairloss is still a thing, did salt scrubs for a while, knuckle massaging improved my condition a little, but overall, I'm still shedding too much, and can also see miniaturization happening.
- Remaing signs of depression.
- Energy comes and goes, I have days that I could wake up fully rested and ready for the day, and ones that I just want to be quiet.
- Bad sleep.
_______________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
As I'm not able to get a Hairtest for now, I thought some blood work could share some light
Cholesterol HDL: 39,5 mg/dL ref.: higher than 60 mg/dL
Urea: 33,0 mg/dL ref.: 15,0 - 45,0 mg/dL
Uric Acid: 3,1 mg/dL ref.: 2,5 - 7,0 mg/dL
Magnesium (blood): 1,74 mg/dL ref.: 1,6 - 2,6 md/dL
Creatinin: 0,78 mg/dL ref.: 0,40 - 1,40 mg/dL
Iron (serum): 128,0 mg/dL ref.: 65 - 170 mg/dL
Ferritin: 65,0 nanog/mL ref.: 20 - 250 nanog/mL
Zinc (blood): 76,8 mcg/dL ref.: 70,0 - 120 mcg/dL
Copper(blood): 87,5 mcg/dL ref.: 70 - 140 mcg/dL
Free testosterone: 10,46 ng/dL ref.: 4,58 - 18,33 ng/dL
Testosterone: 504 ng/dL ref.: 175 - 781 ng/dL
Progesterone: 1,37 ng/dL ref.: 0,14 - 2,06 ng/dL
SHGB: 33,7 nmol/L ref.: 13,0 - 71,0 nmol/L
17-beta-estradiol: 22,0 pg/mL ref.: lower than 47 pg/mL
FSH: 8,66 mui/mL ref.: 1,27 - 19,26 mui/mL
LH: 6,03 mui/mL ref.: 1,24 - 8,62 mui/mL
DHEA: 8,3 ng/mL nanog/mL ref.: 1,4 - 12,5 nanog/mL
DHT: 243,00 pg/mL ref.: 47,6 - 956 pg/mL (too wide range?)
Ceruloplasmin: 21,1 mg/dL ref.: 22,0 - 58,0 mg/dL (LOW)
Prolactin: 11,17 nanog/mL ref.: 2,6 - 13,10 nanog/mL
Transferritin: 274,0 mg/dL ref.: 202 - 336,0 mg/dL
TSH: 2,25 microUI/mL ref.: 0,38 - 5,33 microUI/mL
T3(total): 0,98 ng/dL ref.: 0,76 - 1,76 ng/dL
T4 (free): 0,91 ng/dL ref.: 0,54 - 1,24 ng/dL
Cortisol (8 hours): 15,0 microg/dL ref.: 6,7 - 22,6 microg/dL
_______________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
@mattyb @Helen @MNK99 @RebelWithACause @barbaar @Orion @bruschi11 @Pedro melo @SwaZ @Aleksandr @raven @Niles @Trump_1776 @lakehouse
If you guys could share some of your experience I'd be forever grateful.
Hope the best of future for you all.
Thanks!