Banned from SolvePFS (for this personal blog thread)

[MNK99]

Those places are so bad, that they turned my usually homicidal thoughts into suicidal.

They're poison and fuck those places, man.

 

[Niles]

I used the word faggots one time after being a member for years, knowing full well it's going to get edited out in hours and I'm going to receive warnings from these clowns. He messaged me and said they'd prefer not to have words like that on the board (which is fine, because PH was an immature dump if you remember it in earlier years of the 2010s). But he had to add the homophobic insult/slurs claim. Which makes no sense, so faggots don't exist? Bad examples of young men can't be called out and good examples of them can't be commended because it might offend those who made shameful actions or unrelated homosexuals who aren't even involved in this straight-male culture?

As far as I'm concerned gay men are the only ones who have business taking fin or saw.

So why in the hell would I be homophobic on a forum for its side-effects. Speaking in terms of self-interest what do I care if gay men want to preserve their hair and good looks and make balding and ugliness seem more masculine when it would only help me.

And if some assholish tough-guys who practically have concubines of pretty young women want by their own volition to reduce their unquenchable sex-drive (or their muscles and penis size) with Fin? That just gives me hope of less fierce competition for guys like me and more chances to get a quality gf.

But you're not allowed to make such logical connections on PH over the course of a few days you'd get censored and face disciplinary action at the first sign of controversial words or sentences. But they don't even know what they're doing or why they're doing it or who's benefiting from their compliance. These Brits have been conditioned to fear leftist thought crimes. They said the forum is to be welcome to all lifestyles which of course can't exist and means you will eventually run out one side and have domination of the other. You have to take a stand somewhere and protect one group at the expense of another, they're cowards and don't want to admit that's how life works, fortunately PH is just one of many meeting points and not the only resource.

I agree that the mods over there are clowns, but besides that you're making some pretty wacky claims. "Faggot" is a homophobic slur, and to think that you have the right to use it because you took a drug that "gay men are the only ones who have business taking" is not a "logical connection" - that's nonsense... Do you think gay people would be happy to have PFS? If that's some kind of joke, it's not a very good one.

The rest just sounds like toxic incel resentment, and as far as internet cesspits go, spfs and ph are nothing compared to incel forums...

 

[pedal]

Do you think gay people would be happy to have PFS? If that's some kind of joke, it's not a very good one.

I never said that and they're probably less likely to get it but I could be wrong. I'll add my theory when I come back

 

[Walker]

I care because of “the dude that just gets pfs, goes on that forum, and then blows his brains out immediately. lol it’s not a good place. There must be some recognition that we are making some major progress over here.

Agreed. One hundred percent this. There is blood on the hands of that forum.

 

[raven]

I used the word faggots one time after being a member for years, knowing full well it's going to get edited out in hours and I'm going to receive warnings from these clowns. He messaged me and said they'd prefer not to have words like that on the board (which is fine, because PH was an immature dump if you remember it in earlier years of the 2010s). But he had to add the homophobic insult/slurs claim. Which makes no sense, so faggots don't exist? Bad examples of young men can't be called out and good examples of them can't be commended because it might offend those who made shameful actions or unrelated homosexuals who aren't even involved in this straight-male culture?

As far as I'm concerned gay men are the only ones who have business taking fin or saw.

So why in the hell would I be homophobic on a forum for its side-effects. Speaking in terms of self-interest what do I care if gay men want to preserve their hair and good looks and make balding and ugliness seem more masculine when it would only help me.

And if some assholish tough-guys who practically have concubines of pretty young women want by their own volition to reduce their unquenchable sex-drive (or their muscles and penis size) with Fin? That just gives me hope of less fierce competition for guys like me and more chances to get a quality gf.

But you're not allowed to make such logical connections on PH over the course of a few days you'd get censored and face disciplinary action at the first sign of controversial words or sentences. But they don't even know what they're doing or why they're doing it or who's benefiting from their compliance. These Brits have been conditioned to fear leftist thought crimes. They said the forum is to be welcome to all lifestyles which of course can't exist and means you will eventually run out one side and have domination of the other. You have to take a stand somewhere and protect one group at the expense of another, they're cowards and don't want to admit that's how life works, fortunately PH is just one of many meeting points and not the only resource.

I don't think I've ever read something so ridiculous in my life.

 

[Walker]

I never said that and they're probably less likely to get it but I could be wrong. I'll add my theory when I come back

Do us all a favor and don't come back.

You're a homophobic, moronic internet troll who deserves no attention.

 

[pedal]

Faggot" is a homophobic slur

Let's stop getting distracted. And don't use discriminatory words like "homophobic". And no it's not a slur it refers precisely to burdensome men who aren't gay, sort of like women and homosexuals in the past who would stay home while all the other men would go hunt or go to war.

Both words you wrote are a form of shaming language, but notice whereas one group is being correctively shamed by their male peers for bad behavior that many people like their girlfriends and families directly suffer from physically and financially, another group (anyone caught using the word) is being unfairly singled out and shamed for using language which was politicized and deemed bad by moralizers who don't have a leg to stand on.

 

[Minime]

Let's stop getting distracted. And don't use discriminatory words like "homophobic". And no it's not a slur it refers precisely to burdensome men who aren't gay, sort of like women and homosexuals in the past who would stay home while all the other men would go hunt or go to war.

Both words you wrote are a form of shaming language, but notice whereas one group is being correctively shamed by their male peers for bad behavior that many people like their girlfriends and families directly suffer from physically and financially, another group (anyone caught using the word) is being unfairly singled out and shamed for using language which was politicized and deemed bad by moralizers who don't have a leg to stand on.

Please clarify...who exactly is being “correctively shamed”? I just want to make sure I understand your message.

 

[Chapman]

@pedal I kind of get what you mean. We'd call it a ponce in the UK, old fashioned term for an effeminate male, regardless of sexuality.

 

[pedal]

Please clarify...who exactly is being “correctively shamed”? I just want to make sure I understand your message.

I guess the faggots are being shamed for being low quality young men. Who are selfish and proud of it no less. And the thought-police are shaming anyone saying the word using the justification that someone's feelings when they are insulted are paramount to the result, which is usually viewed as the type of boyfriend they will be when they are older. Lets move on already this isn't a critical issue

 

[bruschi11]

Well, we are here and we haven't blown our brains out. Chances are most PFS people will be able to find this forum. Any person who truly wants to survive will eventually realize PH has nothing for them. The best thing we can do is keep going so that others will see our progress, and you have already made great strides. There is more value in that than anything on PH.

I’m not taking bout the PFS veteran although I’m glad that a lot of guys are gaining hope and joining this site like you.

I’m talking about the mailman whose girlfriend just left him who knows nothing about the human body who takes fin prescribed by his doctor, has incredible crash, finds the website while in a really bad state, then who knows what happens.

Honestly I may have had one of the worst pfs crashes ever when I crashed Dec. 2016. I’ll never forget reading Mew and Awor’s “epigenitic theory” and crying my eyes out thinking my life was over.

I’ll never forget how physically messed up I was until I got drugged. How there was legit nobody there to tell me I was going to be fine. No recovery story I read had the severity of my symptoms. And finding recovery stories was nearly impossible on that site.

I didn’t take my life but for 7 months that’s all I wanted to do. My brain racing at the fastest pace imaginable (when not drugged with antidepressants, anti anxieties), or feeling like I got my ass kicked by stone cold Steve Austin all day everyday (when on the drugs.) Brain shouting at myself “you have to die, you have to die, you have to die.”

I knew I was going to take my life eventually. Wasn’t a matter of if but when.

If there was a site out there where there that was around using science to treat people along with severe recoveries like myself, with explanations of what happened to us and how to get better I certainly would’ve been in a much better place mentally.

Ask @Concerned .... he probably is one of the worst cases we have here and he found hackstasis. What would have you done if you didn’t find this website man? I know you’re not in a great place, but at least you have somewhere to start and some guides.

And I’m all for the cdnuts ways of beating pfs that was out there when I crashed... but for some people it just doesn’t work. Ask @Moonman who has been the epitome of health for 12+ years since he got pfs. PFS is an imbalance that can be tricky to cure- cdnuts can work and it does for some but for others it does not.

Also, I wasn’t physically capable of much exercise or fasting or doing much of anything when I crashed. I needed to kill a pathogen first and foremost. The chemical depression and anxiety was too bad.

This site gives hope. There are several guys cured, there are a bunch of major improvements. There is science backing what we are doing backed by doctors as this science has developed over 200 years. Don’t forget Eck and the mineral balancing docs learned a lot from doctors in the 1800s.

People should at least have the ability to know that we are experimenting quite well over here. It should be a known thing on PH.

 

[Niles]

it's not a slur it refers precisely to burdensome men who aren't gay, sort of like women and homosexuals in the past who would stay home while all the other men would go hunt or go to war.

The fuck? I don't even know where to start... Your thinking is so backwards it's hard to read. "Faggot" has never been a socially acceptable thing to say, and the only people who would define it the way you have would either be homophobic, or playing Halo online as a 10y/o in 2006. You have clearly been wasting away on forums instead of living in the real world, because if you talked like this in public in America in 2018, then you'd get the shit beat out of you. Christ...

 

[bruschi11]

Who owns propeciahelp.com does anybody know? Axoloti keeps deleting stuff I write or making my account something where I am only allowed to post or PM once a day haha.

I wish we could get into contact with someone over there who has authority that is more open minded.

I’m all for keeping this forum private, but we need to make that forum something where our stories have a place at least.

Lol I Axoloti, a moderator in his 30s said on that site that I had “psychological issues” when I crashed. I couldn’t believe he wrote that and refuted his post with another post “I am so appalled you’re saying that it was in my head “ I wrote. And he then deleted his posts and my post.

Guy is the epitome of a coward.

 

[bruschi11]

The fuck? I don't even know where to start... Your thinking is so backwards it's hard to read. "Faggot" has never been a socially acceptable thing to say, and the only people who would define it the way you have would either be homophobic, or playing Halo online as a 10y/o in 2006. You have clearly been wasting away on forums instead of living in the real world, because if you talked like this in public in America in 2018, then you'd get the shit beat out of you. Christ...

Lol the guy has been sick for awhile so the 2k6 statement might be correct. He clearly has a potty mouth. Do gays find the word “faggot” offensive? I feel like they use it with each other, but might find offense if a heterosexual uses the word.

Lol there’s a really good 25 yo gay sportscaster in Boston right now on the radio. I mean we are talking Boston and Sports here and he’s only 25- shows how far we have come with gay acceptance in this country. Kids name is Alex Reimer and he’s the one that made the comment about “Tom Brady’s annoying daughter” and got suspended for it making national news around Super Bowl. I’m a big fan of his, he’s really good.

If anyone’s into Boston Sports radio I’m betting that Kirk&Callaghan will be Kirk&Reimer within 5 years.

 

[Niles]

Lol the guy has been sick for awhile so the 2k6 statement might be correct. He clearly has a potty mouth. Do gays find the word “faggot” offensive? I feel like they use it with each other, but might find offense if a heterosexual uses the word.

Lol there’s a really good 25 yo gay sportscaster in Boston right now on the radio. I mean we are talking Boston and Sports here and he’s only 25- shows how far we have come with gay acceptance in this country. Kids name is Alex Reimer and he’s the one that made the comment about “Tom Brady’s annoying daughter” and got suspended for it making national news around Super Bowl. I’m a big fan of his, he’s really good.

If anyone’s into Boston Sports radio I’m betting that Kirk&Callaghan will be Kirk&Reimer within 5 years.

Haha, Tom Brady's annoying daughter... I'll have to check him out.

The contexts in which it's acceptable to say "faggot" are pretty slim - think of it almost like the "N" word. This guy was using it to describe someone as a generally lesser person, which he thinks makes it okay because he's not using it to derogatorily describe someone as gay... which is just plain stupid. To use it this way is to equate gay people to generally lesser people. Imagine you called a white guy the "N" word, with a similar implication that he is a generally lesser person, and a black person overheard you. Do you think the black person would be offended? Or would he be cool with it because, "no no, I wasn't derogatorily calling him black, I was just calling him stupid!" - fuck no lol. Idk how this isn't common sense.

 

[noprop]

Who owns propeciahelp.com does anybody know? Axoloti keeps deleting stuff I write or making my account something where I am only allowed to post or PM once a day haha.

I wish we could get into contact with someone over there who has authority that is more open minded.

I’m all for keeping this forum private, but we need to make that forum something where our stories have a place at least.

Lol I Axoloti, a moderator in his 30s said on that site that I had “psychological issues” when I crashed. I couldn’t believe he wrote that and refuted his post with another post “I am so appalled you’re saying that it was in my head “ I wrote. And he then deleted his posts and my post.

Guy is the epitome of a coward.

Yeah, ph is strange in a way. I said that one german soccer player had pfs and is now cured. I know for sure he had pfs but cannot tell my source. Docs found some irregularities in blood, they named it a metabolism disorder officially. He has been treated with drugs and is able to play professionally again. I dont know what drugs he got.
People do not believe that you can find pfs in blood - but you must do comprehensive blood work.
PH told me this is impossible. Thread was closed.
I personally believe that in some guys epigenetic changes happened. But if it is epigenetic, you can solve it.
@Bruschi: I can tell you that I am one of the worst cases or was. I got Epstein Barr Virus, Morbus Crohn beside all the other bullshit like anhedonia, depersonalisation, derealisation, out of body experience, no reading capability, no memory, no energy/being exhausted, staying for 5 minutes induced almost inconsciness (it was getting dark), two suicide attempts, daily suicide ideation for hours, heavy insomnia (no more sleep than one hour in a row), grey and white hair, bone changes in face, no penis feeling, shrunken penis, no erections at all, sperm almost inexistent, libido at 10%, aggression, no stress resistence, difficulty sometimes to walk straight ahead, pain in the knees and back.
It took me several months to publish my knowledge starting with the important and comprehensive analysis and the following treatment of coexistent diseases and symptoms through different treatments and cures. And hackstasis is the best website therefore. We are open minded and get help and ideas from brilliant people with a huge knowledge I will never get. Very cool. I am very thankful.

 

[Walker]

AxolotI and I went back a forth a few times on my last visit over to SolvePFS when I had to reign pvdl in a bit. He's a classic "my case is the worse case ever and you just cannot understand - mine is permanent you just don't know it, I am the all knowing" type of person who will never 1.) get better or 2.) accomplish anything in life - while I will agree there are different levels of severity of suffering, just assuming because you are worse off than another doesn't mean you are incurable. He's probably also the type of person who flames out in their career (if he has one) as a low level manager or his managers' best friend. Always content that the environment he exists in is controlled by factors that cannot be influenced by his own active participation or involvement. Reference propecia help, his new kingdom - why try to cure yourself when you can let someone else (i.e., the Foundation) do it for you with no actual participation (other than passive donation) of your own. And better yet, since we cannot handle adversity of any sort, we'll create a state of eFascism so that we can come be complacent and not have to deal with our ideas being challenged and making us uncomfortable. A safe space, for all of us to wait for the white knight to ride in and cure us all.

It's the problem with society nowadays. It's so much easier to pass the buck, blame, and discipline to someone else instead of just owning it yourself. Especially in the American culture, I won't speak to others as I've only had stints in some European countries.

Just own your situation - I don't mean to sound like a self help book, but Jesus Christ, we're talking about men who are talking about whose dick is broken worse and who's mind is shittier than the other. Seriously? I've been there, but good God, there's better ways of going about life in the middle of a crisis.

 

[Concerned]

Yeah, ph is strange in a way. I said that one german soccer player had pfs and is now cured. I know for sure he had pfs but cannot tell my source. Docs found some irregularities in blood, they named it a metabolism disorder officially. He has been treated with drugs and is able to play professionally again. I dont know what drugs he got.
People do not believe that you can find pfs in blood - but you must do comprehensive blood work.
PH told me this is impossible. Thread was closed.
I personally believe that in some guys epigenetic changes happened. But if it is epigenetic, you can solve it.
@Bruschi: I can tell you that I am one of the worst cases or was. I got Epstein Barr Virus, Morbus Crohn beside all the other bullshit like anhedonia, depersonalisation, derealisation, out of body experience, no reading capability, no memory, no energy/being exhausted, staying for 5 minutes induced almost inconsciness (it was getting dark), two suicide attempts, daily suicide ideation for hours, heavy insomnia (no more sleep than one hour in a row), grey and white hair, bone changes in face, no penis feeling, shrunken penis, no erections at all, sperm almost inexistent, libido at 10%, aggression, no stress resistence, difficulty sometimes to walk straight ahead, pain in the knees and back.
It took me several months to publish my knowledge starting with the important and comprehensive analysis and the following treatment of coexistent diseases and symptoms through different treatments and cures. And hackstasis is the best website therefore. We are open minded and get help and ideas from brilliant people with a huge knowledge I will never get. Very cool. I am very thankful.

Has your anhedonia and derealisation improved? If so, did you do anything specific to improve these symptoms or was it just time and/or consistent healthy lifestyle (to an extent that was possible with your list of symptoms)?

@bruschi11 yes I’m very thankful this site was open when this all started for me. I think all pfs related sites should be open for the inevitable new guys who crash. When I first crashed, Swole Source was all but closed and wasn’t accepting my sign up attempts, propecia help still hadn’t had the site revamp and there weren’t many active posters at that point and Solvepfs looked closed when I tried to view the forum. So Hack Stasis was the only site at that point available really.

Yes, I am in a very bad way, suicidal much of the time. Some days are better than others. My face is turning to mush and today my shoulder blades and spine are aching despite not doing any strenuous activity for months. My brain is utterly numb. At least the mirtazepine is allowing longer sleep and increased appetite. I’m no longer skeletal.

 

[Shadow]

What is the point of this thread?

 

[ruprmurdoch]

The number of suicides essentially enabled by Propeciahelp is what is scary. You have idiot nerds essentially making you seem like your life is over when u access the site.

Awor, Axoloti, and Xprtriado all come off as smart people with their evidence based medicine type of research displayed on the site.

While they may come off as smart people and they actually may be so.... a smart person can be horribly horribly wrong on so many levels. A smart person has been known to be wrong many times before in this world haha.

Anyways, look at my first two posts on PH guys. Took finasteride while on TRT 2.0

I’m pretty close to cured now. Life is great. Those “smart” people couldn’t have been more wrong. Their stuff should be taken off the internet, it’s honestly sad knowing that it’s very likely they’ve caused suicidea.

it's all about ethics. Does Marcuse, Habermas, Adorno were stupid. No they are smart guys but with gangsters mentality.