Cnb30’s Post Accutane and PFS log.

[cnb30]

Also, I am going to return to using Abilify for now. I don’t give a shit what you all think, I’m having a lot of trouble this quarter and I realize that a huge part of this is because I haven’t been taking it (I credit it with helping me last year).

I’m at a point now in life where I will end my life if I am unable to complete architecture school. I am going to do what I need to do for the short term and do not care about the long term at the moment 5-10 years down the road. If I fail out of school in the short term, there will be NO long term.

 

[MNK99]

-Do what you gotta do mate. I understand... took dex for masters econ and undergrad. Guess what... Just as smart but 1-2 petitions rather than waking up not knowing what day it is and shyt. And 10 petitions. But I also worked out and ate clean, ran, and walked, and barely drank the last 7 yrs etc (esp in comparison to a couple yrs like 21-22).
-I understand what it means to stay on track during school...
-Hell I'd be done all my goals on dex earlier on mostly.
-It's clear to me: School was not "on my health's" nor my schedule. It's on school's schedule. So I get it. No judgement from me.

 

[cnb30]

Some comments
-My Sex drive has been randomly much higher lately
-Still doing the electrolyte protocol, but haven’t been 100% on top of it daily
-Went up to NYC yesterday and could tell I was feeling worse since the last time I was there (July)
-Starting a new fast today. I have literally 0 hurdles until thanksgiving weekend.

 

[cnb30]

So I’m well into day 2, and figuring out how long I want to make this. I’m feeling more off and light headed currently on this fast than on others. I also feel like I’ve had some long term effects from previous fasts and I feel like it has been easier to get work done than it was before at least the second fast (I should also mention that I don’t trust anyone telling me that not eating for 5-7 days multiple times clost together will have a negligable health effect. Still I’m trying to go for longer this time so that I can hopefully change course at a greater rate.

 

[Orion]

So I’m well into day 2, and figuring out how long I want to make this. I’m feeling more off and light headed currently on this fast than on others. I also feel like I’ve had some long term effects from previous fasts and I feel like it has been easier to get work done than it was before at least the second fast (I should also mention that I don’t trust anyone telling me that not eating for 5-7 days multiple times clost together will have a negligable health effect. Still I’m trying to go for longer this time so that I can hopefully change course at a greater rate.

I'm heading into day 9 of my fast, gets easy the further you go

 

[MNK99]

I did 6 days 4 x this yr if not more and 13-17 days juice a couple x last yr. Surely helped. But*** continuous helped more. I likely cut those BC I freaked out or didn't believe in it... Some water fasts were just to cut tho (bodyfat).

 

[cnb30]

Another concern I should mention is that my psychiatrist (the one prescribing abilify) takes my weight every time I visit. She’s commented on the drop, and says if it keeps happening, she’ll be concerned. I’m gonna try to make it to day 9 at least on this fast though, perhaps day 10.

 

[RebelWithACause]

It is your body why gives a fuck what psychiatrist think. She is trained to be concerned let her be concerned. It is time to get better no time for concerns. Good lucj bro you can do it. Keep your chin up and get to dat 9/10

 

[IHateFin]

Also, I am going to return to using Abilify for now. I don’t give a shit what you all think, I’m having a lot of trouble this quarter and I realize that a huge part of this is because I haven’t been taking it (I credit it with helping me last year).

I’m at a point now in life where I will end my life if I am unable to complete architecture school. I am going to do what I need to do for the short term and do not care about the long term at the moment 5-10 years down the road. If I fail out of school in the short term, there will be NO long term.

all good, brother! do what ya gotta do.

 

[cnb30]

all good, brother! do what ya gotta do.

Lid off of it again. I think what I’ve realized is best for me is going through about a 2 week cycle where I take half the pill one week, then problems start, so I go off of it for 1-2 weeks, then problems start (each of which seem to be solved by doing the opposite of what I was doing the past week).

 

[MNK99]

@cnb30, Sometimes need to lie and play the game. There are things you can attach to yourself to keep weight up at the clinic. Pocket stones and weights. Just lie.

 

[cnb30]

@cnb30, Sometimes need to lie and play the game. There are things you can attach to yourself to keep weight up at the clinic. Pocket stones and weights. Just lie.

My parents also mentioned that they could see that I lost weight by just looking at me.

 

[MNK99]

Ah man parents family always tripping asked me if I lost weight like 8 yrs in a row
No... Just the same or I became increasingly fitter minus 3 * with drastic changes.

"Eat eat eat" Basically... They don't get me.

Even my friends' mom's always pushing food on me lol.

I mean I get it that's kind of what moms do.

 

[cnb30]

Just finishing up day 4. Planning to continue this till day 9 at least but thinking about longer. I’m hoping that I will actually see some legitimate benefits from this fast. If not, I might fast a few days past day 9. Luckily I think I’m moving past the hardest part as well. The only issue at hand however is that I’m definitely more on the lean side. I hope that doesn’t make things more difficult.

 

[cnb30]

Is drinking electrolyte enhanced water ok?

 

[RebelWithACause]

Good job man. Keep it going. Just drink plain water I would say!

 

[cnb30]

Has anybody here dealt with any throbbing or sores, specifically above the eyes while fasting?

 

[MNK99]

-I think I had head sensations with ru, fasting, and also ella. Also herbs a bit. --Weird sensations, some you could describe as throbbing. I think it's normal. You mean feeling sore right? Not actual sores?

 

[cnb30]

-I think I had head sensations with ru, fasting, and also ella. Also herbs a bit. --Weird sensations, some you could describe as throbbing. I think it's normal. You mean feeling sore right? Not actual sores?

Yep. Anyway it went away

Also, I have been feeling incredibly tierd today. Is that normal? I remember feeling more and more tierd like day 5-7.

 

[MNK99]

@cnb30 srry super verbose rite now. -- in short: YA. NORMALZ, mayne.

--I mean no add meds no coffee I'm pretty wired but sleeping a lot like 6-9hrs at times. But less now as I've been busy/ office hours/ calling/ appointments. 7-8hrs is UNUSUAL for me. --ANd never existed during exams - school etc. A 9-5 sure, but likely for my future endeavors they will be >>> 9-5.
-SO for me I was so ungodly tired (CFS) that I actually was more awake during my fast. I was extremely ill for sure.
-I probably got pretty tired days 13-19 and sleep kind of restored. But Energy was up.
-Day 3-4 I saw tiny glimpses of my ADDness. So more hyper running around and shyt.
-BUT at the end pretty tired. First meal my mom made., not a chance in hell for weeks into refeed could I cook say all meals. I was pretty tired at that point.
-Maybe 60-80 dayz later a bit more normal. Then ups and downs with randro 4andro ru electrolytes ella, pct, etc.... --AND now pretty normal sleep.
-Acting very normal for most part except in times of stress. BUT Pretty much how I was 2014-2015 and 2016... except different goals/ time frame etc in mind... also trying to leave this city/ i think family gets it .... that I cannot just get the job i want here, and i can't get it friday, get a place saturday, and get into my choice school sunday....
---> SO i told them i can take some help/ but can pay my own way much as possible or if i need their help ill make them benefactor of something that I have.
--I need to raise capital there, in investments, and work... and all fronts really. ESP* if i went to an american school.

-anyways, I'm wired rite now, but yes energy took a LONG time to come back. BUT my normal energy is not really "normal" at all. I probably acted normalish 3-4 weeks after starting refeed. Pretty normal looking to others mostly* but friends and relatives and stuff know that I have tons of energy, randoms didn't. Now they do, because I'm fast as fuck again. Thank God. For a time, thought never be the same or close.

-IN SHORT: I don't know man... depends on your normal "wakefulness"/ energy. And I'd expect weeks after refeed for it to be normalized. But Maybe your energy pre fast wasn't super normal. Also I did this like 8mo ago, and barely remember yesterday without my planner/journal... so I do recall being pretty tired tho esp early at nites. But I looked at it as a good thing bc proper adults probably should go to bed at like 10pm -12am. Esp when healing from some serious maladaptive health state such as PFS or PAS. Plus meds and all.

-I mean probably months to interact normally with girls (I'm still not super "normal"). And probably months to go to stores/ gym and not be pissed off. Months before normal in interviews (did not attempt till recent months). ALSO this isn't normal for me - bc I am meant for downtown... Not suburbs at all.