Ihatefin log

[IHateFin]

dont get me wrong its all very livable, but im not "cured" yet. im a happy camper tho

 

[Helen]

i have been off for a week now 7 days

I was talking about Tubzy.

 

[Helen]

dont get me wrong its all very livable, but im not "cured" yet. im a happy camper tho

We need to wait a little bit longer, since cortisol needs to come down.

And then we will see what is going on .

 

[Helen]

body hair is not growing back in where it should, no spontanious errections and libido aaalllmost there lol also im more angry now... just threw my controller after missing the ball in rocket league lolol need dht conversion to calm me down.. im more hot headed now i can tell... yikes
body comp is still not quite where it should be either quite yet

hold on , so all of this stuff was not on anavar, right? you are gettting bad effects while it is leaving your system ? So you are worsening off VAR?

So you are getting anger, that is understantable since cortisol is high, which lowers 5AR. it needs to go down.

|but libido and erections are all good now right?

 

[Helen]

@IHateFin

Stop the Bs. they might cause agression

 

[Jaxx]

Just a observation, why people say it is important to get off fin/ssri slowly/taper but this is hardly the case with steroids? Is it longer half life?

 

[IHateFin]

I was talking about Tubzy.

oh lol my bad... i though he had asked about me lol

 

[IHateFin]

hold on , so all of this stuff was not on anavar, right? you are gettting bad effects while it is leaving your system ? So you are worsening off VAR?

So you are getting anger, that is understantable since cortisol is high, which lowers 5AR. it needs to go down.

|but libido and erections are all good now right?

oh no no no im waaaaaay better off var then before i took it like WAAAAAAAY bertter lol i just have a shit ton more aggression and frustration which is super appearant when i game. i just threw my controller at the wall and made some rather big holes. and i also threw my phone a few times... jesus like i cant help it when i get that mad lol

theres nothing worse when your teammate is a fucking inbread in rocket league.... or when your computer takes a poo on you

 

[IHateFin]

Just a observation, why people say it is important to get off fin/ssri slowly/taper but this is hardly the case with steroids? Is it longer half life?

i think its more so that the body has time to slowly adjust... its the cold turley quitting and rapid change of hormones that ends up fucking us long term... not the drug its self

 

[Helen]

oh no no no im waaaaaay better off var then before i took it like WAAAAAAAY bertter lol i just have a shit ton more aggression and frustration which is super appearant when i game. i just threw my controller at the wall and made some rather big holes. and i also threw my phone a few times... jesus like i cant help it when i get that mad lol

theres nothing worse when your teammate is a fucking inbread in rocket league.... or when your computer takes a poo on you

Yeah, lets see more. as I said, var could have just increased the stilt. Increasing the stilt, will not solve it, we need good allo conversions.

Otherwise stress response will be shit.

Dude, can you test your cortisol now?

is it possible for you to go tomorrow and test cortisol and electrolytes in blood?

 

[Niles]

oh no no no im waaaaaay better off var then before i took it like WAAAAAAAY bertter lol i just have a shit ton more aggression and frustration which is super appearant when i game. i just threw my controller at the wall and made some rather big holes. and i also threw my phone a few times... jesus like i cant help it when i get that mad lol

theres nothing worse when your teammate is a fucking inbread in rocket league.... or when your computer takes a poo on you

You play on PS4, by chance?

 

[brix]

You play on PS4, by chance?

Rocket league rules. Add me mash_guts

 

[IHateFin]

Yeah, lets see more. as I said, var could have just increased the stilt. Increasing the stilt, will not solve it, we need good allo conversions.

Otherwise stress response will be shit.

Dude, can you test your cortisol now?

is it possible for you to go tomorrow and test cortisol and electrolytes in blood?

yeah i can. ill see if i can squeeze it in. have some plans, but i must do what i gotta do for science!

also i can tell my body doesnt use potassium well.... evry few days ill wake up needing to shit and be constipated and poop pebbles... then ill take 1.2g of potassium and an hour later shit a huge log and be good for the next few days. what does this indicate?

 

[IHateFin]

Rocket league rules. Add me mash_guts

i play on PC. is this your steam account or ps4 username?

 

[IHateFin]

You play on PS4, by chance?

nah im PC, but soon ill be able to create parties with cross platform once they launch that update

 

[Helen]

yeah i can. ill see if i can squeeze it in. have some plans, but i must do what i gotta do for science!

also i can tell my body doesnt use potassium well.... evry few days ill wake up needing to shit and be constipated and poop pebbles... then ill take 1.2g of potassium and an hour later shit a huge log and be good for the next few days. what does this indicate?

it indicates that cortisol and aldo are high. and they waste potassium

This is why you need to test cortisol , please. so we know more

 

[IHateFin]

it indicates that cortisol and aldo are high. and they waste potassium

This is why you need to test cortisol , please. so we know more

will do!

 

[MNK99]

oh no no no im waaaaaay better off var then before i took it like WAAAAAAAY bertter lol i just have a shit ton more aggression and frustration which is super appearant when i game. i just threw my controller at the wall and made some rather big holes. and i also threw my phone a few times... jesus like i cant help it when i get that mad lol

theres nothing worse when your teammate is a fucking inbread in rocket league.... or when your computer takes a poo on you

HOLY SHYT MAN CALM THE FUCK DOWN!!!!!!!!
No harm no foul, just don't burn anything down, nor beat up 20 people. TRY NOT TO CHOKE A BITCH, you'll be ok. MEDITATE.

IS IT REALLY ALL B's... not anavarz at all?

DUDE I THROW PHONES AT PPL ALL THE TIME, it's a part of business. It's fine.


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Helen said:
@IHateFin

Stop the Bs. they might cause agression

FUCKING KNEW IT, glad I stopped before arressted.

DUDE I HATE IMBRED TEAMMATES, hence only solo sports, running, lifting, sole practice, storm out of jobs and relnships, and countries.

@IHateFin this is probably the single greatest advice anyone has ever given anyone: "DYING's FOR FOOLS!!!!"

 

[jacknap]

update;
libido and wood seem to be very very much more normal! i maintain erections for a long ass time withoput stimulation and with stimulation they are so hard they hurt... just like back in the day! i will also note that dick has been consistantly warm finally all day for the last two days and balls are hanging low. today even my balls were warm all day too. they took a day to catch up, but i could feel them starting to seem less and less cool over time.

still no spontaneous erections, but with how normal my sex drive is feeling where i get the urge that fire and sexual frustration.. im sitting pretty happy rn.

mood is also very bright even today after only getting 5 hours of sleep due to late night arguments with my gf i feel good and horny.. a bit tired, but im handling lack of sleep light years better than before.

i even got a few bursts of random joy. i miss those. back before this i would get a random rush of euphoria that would sometimes take my breath away (no homo) and i would get a feeling that everything is good and will be okay.
so this lighter feeling is promising of something reversing.

she's trying to tire you out because she can sense the beasts is coming back and she wants you all to herself haha

 

[BeLikeWater]

Im now at 30mg/day I really want to stop taking it, 1 week more to go, I will go to 30 20 and 10