Had an interesting weekend.
Got some emotional shit off my chest and felt really good after.
I started reading "the rational male" blog site, I think it might of been recommended to me before after my breakup?
@Nina a lot of red pill stuff there but I dont think it's as bad as it's made out to be. He's not saying to cheat on multiple women, he's saying to not be exclusive until you've seen your options for a few years
Also I've been exercising this week for the first time in awhile. I've actually been pretty inactive until recently. So I did some exercise this week, and played tennis on the weekend. Saturday I played shirtless to soak up some sun (it's been the coldest winter I've ever lived through, recently moved city) which felt great. Then had a match on sunday and brutalized my opponent and we're normally very evenly matched. We've played 10 times, have won 5 each, with each match we've played going to a tie breaker. Yesterday I won 6-2 6-1
I was also extroverted all weekend, super happy and upbeat (I've been pretty down and introverted since the breakup).
Really weird to explain. I dont know what happened, I feel like it's all more psychological and physiological related tha TEI though. It's like exercising more increased my testosterone which increased my risk taking and "putting myself out there", which just snowballed.
I felt like a beast unleashed.
Unfortunately my scalp feels tight this morning like all that vitamin D and testosterone was bad for my hair.
But God damn, its probably better to be bald and happy than have hair and be depressed.
HOWEVER this also makes me think maybe I just went super hard and lived off stress hormones? My scalp feeling tight indicates some imbalances. I also feel great when I'm drunk lol, but that's known to be a bad thing.