MNK's Log. PSSD Recov 12-18mo 10', PFS recov 11m-16mo 18’. —Studying/Work now. And hEDS.

[MNK99]

Fk. need to workout main gym... but need to wait for 2 sets of sneakers and brace to come here. So I look stylish doing it (ppl are vain, namely me). -note: tk 200k feb march 480k nov. and get my other stuff. and work on TA. and study.

And if i go too late Ill be less athletic. either can do hard things at nite or am. joints move out of place and such. fk i guess i can tape and use cheap brace. covered in tape. looks like im faking a disability. but i know im not. i mean i went to a brain doctor and have like a lot of braces. and i can kick most ppl's asses at the gym. i also look pissed off all the time. want to go happy. maybe there's something i can take that makes me tolerate others? weed but that worsens gross motor skills plus I'm rewiring and doing nofap. weed ain't. gym ain't open. other stuff ain't here. razers, brace, sneakers. logged.And if i go too late Ill be less athletic. either can do hard things at nite or am. joints move out of place and such. fk i guess i can tape and use cheap brace. covered in tape. looks like im faking a disability. but i know im not. i mean i went to a brain doctor and have like a lot of braces. and i can kick most ppl's asses at the gym. i also look pissed off all the time. want to go happy. maybe there's something i can take that makes me tolerate others? weed but that worsens gross motor skills plus I'm rewiring and doing nofap. I used weed like 10x a yr, for a decade 2-5x. for a year or so a lot. then not at all till like 30, after PFS. Condensed/ logged. If log is too confusing, seek a priest. You'll need one to deal with me hahaa. getting better happier but ya i mean.. i have trust issues. fav razors coming soon. I grow a full beard like in 20-36hrs or so. 20-24hrs on androgens and with stims. good for shaving the body also, but guarded blade is preferred with joint instability. I will strop it with a Prada belt.

MNK99 — Yesterday at 3:23 PM
RAZERS FOR FEATH AC SHAVETTE. CAPTAIN KAI RAZOR PINK.

MNK99 — Yesterday at 3:39 PM
Any ideas for ADHD? Bullet journal and online planner. Sample plan during lockdown. Much of this got disturbed. I did some of it tho. There are daily reminders and times events. maybe I will start cutting others. meth should be good for fat loss. OooH. Year of the DRAGON last yr. YEAH SON!! I feel that. YEAR OF THE SNAKE NOW. "delayed - severe weather event." it is minus 16 these beta cucks. i am outside in a SAXX breathable T. VAPING. COVERED IN SOME TAPE. "Severe weather???" this is AB, CANADA. IT GETS TO MINUS 50. Worthless hogs. While these construction bald grunts "work on A HOUSE", VISIBLE from the backyard. I am going commando. Playing w/ the snow. While dehydrating/defrosting BISON, LAMB, and SAUSAGES. I will train INSANE and FEAST. What are they looking at? I will go there and leap at them like a JAGUAR. Pacing back and forth on my patio, shrouded in darkness. The rage within my soul, is the only light I need. working out 4.30am 5.45 or so next day twice. ya. despite disability. and i mean at 190 or 212 ya im bigger than all the cucks who got stupid thoughts towards me. usually i have 16-18 vains running up and down my arms like lightning.
MNK99 — Today at 4:42 AM
-- i sacrificed to become excellent. cured both your main beta cuck diseases here. im up at 4.30am working self employed and working out 2x despite a disability (tho i don't workout 2x a day ev day anymore i can later or like 8-10x a week but im older now). that's discipline. and ya i like being excellent. if that offends u or u wonder who im talking to.. what have u done? ever... ? in any regard for anyone? 4.30am . working out here adding trendy young person gym or a powerlifiting gym or rec centre. closed early frd yd. thought it was weds.



--i HAVE TAPED MY MAJOR JOINTS. And the area of my penis. I am preparing to lift at the maingym. I shall procure some cheaper earphones, so I don't get germs on my FLAC/MP3 walkman and my nicer SHURES.

Any ideas for ADHD? Bullet journal and online planner. Sample plan during lockdown. Much of this got disturbed. I did some of it tho. There are daily reminders and times events. maybe I will start cutting others. meth should be good for fat loss.

THE AMAZON FALSE FLAG REFUGEES ARE LATE WITH MY RAZORS... DELAYED TILL 25th, between that and the dumb guidos from LA, the brace and that are late.

ADD the 2 new balance sneaker pairs, and I'm starting to lose it.

OooH. Year of the DRAGON last yr. YEAH SON!! I feel that. YEAR OF THE SNAKE NOW. "


delayed - severe weather event." it is minus 16 these beta cucks. i am outside in a SAXX breathable T. VAPING. COVERED IN SOME TAPE. "Severe weather???" this is AB, CANADA. IT GETS TO MINUS 50. Worthless hogs. While these construction bald grunts "work on A HOUSE", VISIBLE from the backyard.

I am going commando.

Playing w/ the snow. While dehydrating/defrosting BISON, LAMB, and SAUSAGES. I will train INSANE and FEAST. What are they looking at? I will go there and leap at them like a JAGUAR. Pacing back and forth on my patio, shrouded in darkness. The rage within my soul, is the only light I need.


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--c u in hell gary gensler. and J Powell u cucks.
oh no my 600usd profits is now 400 450 but ya later 3k 5k 10k 20k and ya my unrealized 83k cad soon 200k eat a dick. and later 450k 500k cafd and 200k usd. steal from me ill end u. this is a pit stop. i will become a golden god again. i will go the gym, and i will take out those 4-5fat girls on my list (not a dating list).
see u in hell u fat fucking nurse and that bitch with glasses and that other fatty (they all blend together, idk which fat cow is which), but ya i threw bread at u and u try and get me in trouble?? what the fuck.
--add a good powerlifting gym or a trendy gym w/ hot young ppl (as in 22-30 35 etc).

 

[MNK99]

--for ev1 who says it is impossible what does have to do w health. umm. ive been cured. in fact i only started keeping a schedule at like 23-24 agn after PSSD. etc. PFS, after that. im up at 430am 4am i chilled. slept 10 or 11pm till 3.45am fell asleep on a couch. looking for gyms yday, i cooked. it was 7.45pm, i realized it was Friday. not weds. Ill go workout here at home gym and at a main gym. Im covered in tape, with a disability. what are you doing? im getting fresh air in a see thru tshirt in minus 20. so ya i think u can take some herbs and lift weights. im working. in a job that will kill u. and my other job / career thing ya they dont want losers and retards. crim or business/ niche law. the other shyt? ya u won't make it writing nor acting. so gfys if you dislike me. otherwise well i mean you should love me.

For dumb dumbs that ask me dumb q's. what are doing? being a fat slovenly landpig?

I was looking for less nice earphones so I don't make my formerly 400 dollar FLAC player and 500 dollar SHURE earphones or whatever (more at purchase cost, I got good deals tho), dirty nor broken.
And gyms were closed. What is your excuse?

Why am I so m bigger than u??


working out 4.30am 5.45 or so next day twice. ya. despite disability. and i mean at 190 or 212 ya im bigger than all the cucks who got stupid thoughts towards me. usually i have 16-18 vains running up and down my arms like lightning. edited at 4.30am so i dont hurtppls' feelings kept it on my log. most ppl natty health and otherwise and forums are retards btw. --Turns out it was friday, not weds. ah well most gyms closed early. minus 20 ill workout here and at a new (well prolly new membership eventually but not necessarily new to me, new in several yrs) gym. Slept. 4.30am getting rdy. fresh air in minus 20 and a tshirt and track pants. i have kinesio tape on was awaiting 2 pairs of New Balance sneakers (one can wear with chinos tho I have better dressier shoes) and one for gym, my razors, and brace, not here none... ill still outlift 90% of dbags out there. ill ragdoll whoever gets in my way. im irritated when i enter gym, bc,.. well I go there to change. im not just posting ass pics on instagram or chatting w my fat friends. i go there so that i can become deadlier. "who are you talking to? who are you talking to??" don't ask me stupid q's. you trolls.

 

[MNK99]

These are not "books", this is called a run on sentence. This is just bullet journal stuff. this is so i can plan and get things off my mind. it is called rapid logging. and I can make it make sense. But I am in a rush.

--shaved 12 hrs ago with an agressive double edge razor. can't wait till i get my shavette blades. so i can have no shadow 16hrs or something. less needed if no androgens and no stims but still could shave 4-5x time a week. full beard < one day. since like 12 yrs. ago trying find good gym. want nice trendy my age and lower ish gym. or a nice strength coach available gym but not paying something insane ubering it far.. nor going to a gross gym. ill find something. rec centre perhaps. tapel.. taped, and could not use it l nite. missed killer sol trades and shorting top despite like up at 4am.. and earlier. stomach probs, bc of diet and heds/hsd, and also ya supps meds and laundry. laundry screwed me over. but risk managed. and ain't losing at all so pretty good. but ya i was shorting at 270 fk. got limit orders.

 

[MNK99]

--god. tried go to gym yday. after cooking realize it is friday not weds. bc working late and early early mostly. trying to find a good gym that is a good price and or not far away, not packed. taped first time 6mo or a yr or longer. kinesiotape. of c no brace in no sneakers in. tues shd get sneakers. missed top of sol to short but have higher orders. took good profits, easily take way more, and way more. anyways, meditating working on habits also. and laundry and stomach problems delayed me bc of carbs and heds/hsd. woke up 4am can workout here and elsewhere. it is now 9am. worked like 90m, watched something half hr. i mean barely worked really. but getting ready supps 1hr and 30mins... ate food. stomach issues waste 3hrs a day easily. not with strict carniv nor after tei. i can only workout at certain times . may use low dose rad. i don't think ru58841 would hurt me. may drop prog or only use that when leaner and on var. but ill buy that soon. shd have secured 1900usd, secured 1600. easily could have far more. w/ever. fx health trust me on that. ill make a half mill cad this yr tho in one market. maybe 17mo. so overall pretty good. but need clean diet so i can focus and get 2 main areas of study done. trying to use DUE app and also offline journal for ADHD - planning. day to day business stuff. and studies. but ya i gotta force that and meditation and lifting for a bit. tho was doing better there. should not have had.. dairy lactose free cheese, sauerkraut nor tiny bit of bread. it will mess u up coming from carniv. if u have stomach issues, and u will with heds/hsd. but i had em for yrs but ya i can fix em easily. maybe lose coffee and nicotine but there's so m stress in life but ya like pron, or say overtrading, ain't gonna help. i don't think black coffee early am an hr or 2 after waking up is that bad... nicotine either but idk. i was getting rdy so fast for 2yrs 2.5yrs. u delay things with adhd. fixing dopamine and pleasure reward pathways. ketamine will be key. nofap is nice ot have and pretty important. or whatever u call not using pron mb and self o. and carniv is more imp. and i mean tei would be good too but these make more sense. i cant do all at once and im not gonna do 20 things for this nor trauma. ketamine will do in 3mo what tei would take 2yrs to do and 10x better. and same with carnivore. for me i feel.

een if i bought a car i mean i need to practice and what delay work and exercise to go practice? and i mean am i gonna drive at 5am? i guess so. 5-6am for gym close by ya i guess that's fine.
uber is cheap and i mean i lived downtown in 2 cities most adulthood. rite now in a house. further away.

 

[MNK99]

Trying to find a non terrible gym besides the one i worked out at in 2018 and sometimes in lockdown or around that time 2020 2021. And besides the condo gym and the paid gym I went to downtown.

Delay getting ready 3h a day, already delay it 2h a day bc of ADHD, cough treatment. --offending foods:rice bread, pita. some has veg oil. mayo well ya. herbs and spices. sauerkraut, B+/A- tier yogurt. Carbs. Good foods i ate: bison, sausage, lamb (raised gmo free, antibiotic free, hormone free, species approp diet). Long run no meds, only diet. Perhaps. but ketamine, test/ostarine and the like have their uses. Mostly for hEDS/HSD, anx, trauma, depresn. But carniv has its uses there too. maybe also b2 and b6 are issues. Prolly fibre from no fibre. and ya i mean mayo was good gmo free, organic but ya that isn't carnivore obvsly. Just trying to mx mental health, focus, fitness. and min trauma, anx, depresn.
but i gotta do what i can to keep deprsn away long term and lower anxiety and max focus and mood and remove trauma. so carniv or near it... it is for now. unless i can't take it anymore. it shdnt be that hard ive done a lot of hard things. stress eating and random trauma triggers also i feel bad when disability is like more significant.
MNK99 — Today at 2:40 PM
literally hate all the gyms i look at. will workout near old apartment and at that gym and reconcile with some chicks... bc ya i mean they reached out to me a lot when i was there.. but need a low key gym near house. every option looks bad except rec centre. maybe just buy more weights at home but no room and can't install a leg press or whatever. i guess i can pay someone to do that but still. im not gonna move to a condo with tons of weight later. maybe just join an expensive downtown gym but ya i mean 40km a day for gym is stupid. ill get something nearby. University gym too i guess. i hate school tho so. but ya could get some babes there but idk i left this school and fled the country a long time ago.
What is orange theory? all classes? actually good workouts ya i can't live on some group schedule. big box gyms suck. elite private gyms or rich ppl or young professional gyms i dont want dirty highschoolers or uni kids touching my stuff. luckily, basically no one will mess with me.

this crypto nonsense never ends. need trump coin on dips. and to use protocols more... and like... ya take profits. and study the ta.
get a gym. i can't find a good one. most my frds are in Toronto. i mean i can find gyms obvsly but I don't want to commit just yet. working out at home isn't optimal necessarily but you can do a lot.

Should just go back with the hot women at the downtown gym. this is far easier when u live there tho. not gonna ride a train carrying a bag and stuff. then work in a public space. trading. no thx.
fk.

-random notes. ill make sense later. on phone tho.
--fk just get a friend to help me build a gym ya i dont know about that...,
MNK99. Happy New Year: I'm leaning up and physio. Master 1st TA, 2nd Ls. T SL’s 2-3% max, --tkpi ek/1mo. cut wrk 80-90hrs to 45-50hrs, 75-80h w study for cc. Use Due—ADHD. * for TKpi. -wrk discipline = freedom. TkPi: 199k, Nov. 400k ttl, and 100-200k usd.
--focusing work... studying. I'm cutting bf% and MSTR habits.-1. discipline-2, and exec 20000feet view. Tech, STgy, Tkpi. Set time aside for study 2 practices. ketmn. Visit/vacn. Ppl. relns. Face fears. RjnSens. Fof. Live. Cash in stat. TrlingSL/Cash in when see nice pi.

 

[MNK99]

this crypto nonsense never ends. need trump coin on dips. and to use protocols more... and like... ya take profits. and study the ta.
get a gym. i can't find a good one. most my frds are in Toronto. i mean i can find gyms obvsly but I don't want to commit just yet. working out at home isn't optimal necessarily but you can do a lot.

before the retarded pandemic (made by incel scientists so they could look cool and feel good ruining the world. and incel directors of health and whatever worldwide), ya pretty sure i was fking ripped 17-18/21 yrs or so. more like 17/19 minus being bedridden and suicidal in PFS crash and PSSD/being a victim of extortion (as a kid, death threats fleeing the country). and pre neck injury. glad fucking refugees were hired to kick me out of the gym, despite me beinga legit hero. i wonder if ill do law for fat ugly canadians or for rich as fuck g's like me?


i will go early when i can. nearby or a better gym. i can afford it. and i can get some cash or visa and pay parents back if need be if im not super liquid or my visa is hi (tho ya i mean ill be a mmaire. should be responsible rite now) but i can more than afford it yr end and now really and like 2d ago. so i guess im fine.

but, i want to get some tracks and also some shoes the new stuff and some earphones so i can focus and drown out the fucking degenerates that go to the gym and outside/ inside.

i try and be friendly but ya i hate ppl i mean why wouldn't I? ill make more room for women tho and know they're scared and shy and like ya i mean they wave talk hug this and that smile ill smile at mofos more. even tho i mean most ppl ya im just waiting for next fuck up from canada and their garbage retarded voters. and ill fly away during lockdown or war. u know like rich ppl do.

--ill get some prada and versace tracksuits or similar. maybe john varvataos rather. something american. and get some cheaper shures so i can lift in peace without the trash radio and without idiots that think that we all friendly and it's all good. i focus and become better. most ppl are wild hogs and canines. they belong in cages.

--tired of mofos fuck the post office, fuck that fat bitch nurse, that bitch w glasses i was trying throw bread at, and that fat girl w glasses this other one, and this other piggy bitch , and that fucking gay kid who tried to get me in trouble. fucking losers. and fake ass gangstas.
--i rem these chicago cucks 3 whiteboys talking shit in totonto i shd have ended all of em. and this fucking other cuck. this fucking bitch ass trick in NJ talking shit.
--22-24 i got into altercations all the time in downtown toronto ppl tried 25 26 but ya ill end em all. self defense.
--ill stay strapped and hire an armed driver. just carry around a kara. and smash fools. and if some OF failed model wants to talk shyt ill put her in her place, same w faggy beta cucks at the gym.
--no one unless insane is gonna fuck w me. i will be ripped and godly. i run these streets. law is bc of being criminal minded. Trading crypto too. You're welcome.
--i could be a phd, this and that an instructor whatever yo. i could teach poor kids how to act. but ya i was sent here to win. and destroy all those who oppose me. TO BECOME A GOD.



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6.05am 1.19.2025:
--i remworking out at this big gym great weight roomin 2018. kids college kids and hi school students were miring. these kids were like "gtfo out of this guys way." lol/ i talked to some theywere cool. and the ppl at my new trendy gym in 2019 were nice andlots of babes there but in general i hate ev1. or i mean all i see are dollar signs and polygons. i befriend the biggest guys tho this IFFB Egyptian dude yrs ago and this Columbian dude like in recent yrs like 280 300lb monsters. so ya they can help me. and some other athletic types (actual athletes of normal human size like hockey players, EMS/firefighter types). some of these mofos and ppl my age and younger can get me gear. gym not so bad but ya i mean the internet makes it seem it is all OF failed models and others. "models", give me a break. they have no face for high fashion / runway, and are barely catalogue. real modelesque women are often conservative and not dressing like meat market workers.

 

[MNK99]

--so many bloody expenses. good im not getting new comp, music player, phone.. esp all at once. wait a yr sure raise funds 500k cad, and such and ya it won't matter but you don't get rich by being stupid. brace and tape 550, in canada this would be like 1200 which is insane but brace originally was like 350. but i added tape. sneakers... i may sell some sneakers maybe or dress shoes that i can't wear Boss, maybe some Prada or donate em. And like I may sell iphone 11 pro and an ipad air (one of the best ones), and maybe some other stuff, i will get some cheap Shure's to bring to gym. Maybe i will sell my FLAC/hi res walkman get something new. I will have a SOL phone, proprietary Android OS, closed system (vs Google or stock vanilla android). Should be way better than Iphone. I guess windows and android it is again for work and studies. I really liked Mac air for masters econ and organizing but ya i Mean it is slow in trading and you can get a Desktop or a tower/ power station (whatever they are called). Maybe i make a desktop sometime but ya that doesn't seem all that fun... ill j pay someone, my brother wants me to make one for some reason. It would take him or someone a few hrs, me like a couple weeks or 4-5 days or something and it would be very frustrating. but there are videos all over the place. Technology u don't need brand newest thing. I kinda want a gaming setup but ya i mean i barely touch my PS4pro... ill set that up and get a new tv sooner.. maybe phone and shyt later. new comp, mp3 player, phone sooner than later. want shyt to work for academic and work reasons. surely this comp is a lot faster since removing dual boot, resetting, ridding linux and only using win 11 but ya win 10 pro is faster. --random tech update 7.45zam 1.19.2025. oh ya i need gear and test cream and dex. and like 2-3k usd margin and like 5k in broker and like 20-30k usd more offline and 400-500k cad in stocks and 10-50k gains in other stock acct then im liquid. need like... defi more and locked in lqdty and loaning out shyt. and avax sui and sol and btc long term and 5-6gaming coins. ill slay lev trades but ya get out and take 800 rather than have it be 500 next time but ya id rather 12k usd later and 4k and then 200-400k usd in next bull and 100k new in bear but whatever. planning dif times. also oil stocks when that shyt crashes. but usd up and usd been soaring and will and oil may too. usually move together. fucking cad shd sore too. i hope pierrepollivere wins and not the new guy for liberals but that guy is really smart too but why the fuck run rich from priv industry. pierre pollivere is cda and future's and mine's best chance for finl and all propserity.

gotta live too can't only have all mny going to trading saving up at home tho thankfully. but if i had to id still survive and thrive hell get ketamine and more hrt and ugl.. and fking ill do a dishwasher job well prolly not but some writing/ ad agency job tho time unpaid and studying mastering this above and the test eslewhere is better for me. rake it in later in 2 fields. master law and trading. and investing. you're dope afk then. u can act and write for fun. but ya i dont "need need" law but i mean i know i can do it. ill see.

 

[MNK99]

--RE: TRUMPoffical coin ill buy some but ya i mean dips major dips ideally to 15 10 5 dollars or smthing.
--i guess his financial probs are gone.
--get more rawr, retardio, popcat later. and one more or so. maybe a few more but ya mostly i trade real things.
--need more defi. sui. sol. eth. avax. and gaming coins. hold em and link.
--tsla ai quantum stocks also need the fucking CYNGIN and CGTX.
--stomach probs will make u lose opps and ya u dont want to date if u work or study and like can't drink so tighten up diet. time to get ripped as fuck.
--will add ru if need be but no rad ill still cut a lot and also regrow surely.
-var soon and test e and like get it stat and hcg. and then dex and test cream script (mostly for aesthetics but also hEDS and sure sexual fn and dating).
--re: dating, you better have neurosteroid support on hand, if you suffer from anxiety, are prone to severe depression, and are trying to transcend thru trauma.
--maybe var helps chronic trauma. I sure hope so bc ketamine may be months away. I will try stat tho.

--could have made 42k usd or 90k or more or well if i was insane. 6mn or more (i wouldn't destroy stock ports to do that, tsla will make me 5-15mn cad later anyways 5-6yrs). Trump coin. fuck me. my bro told me 30 and now it is 60 wtf. but im winning my other stuff. but ya sm amts put in there. inaugeration ttmro. mlk day too (a holdiay that is highly deserved unlike a lot of fake holidays of late, in CDA for sure).

---cd have easily made like 6mn in 2 days if i kept all well if kept all ever maybe 200mn 300mn or something. on trump coin. but ya whatever. i mostly have good long term things. will get some but on dips. 60000% or something since friday. just saiyng. lol. bull mkt hardcore 2-3yrs but ya major crashes will happen.

-get trump coin (official) on dips. @RebelWithACause

--stupid things shd be like 1-2% of your assets.

--workout at home and a gym.

--no time like the present but ya mostly fk rad140 but quickly working out (doing 16 or so small sets here but did ten or so) and will try hitting main gym. new sneakers will be good. old brace and tape.. and rad and cardarine make me feel like throwing up don't need it. test cream is enuff. and dex. and carniv is enuff if u can only do that. and tei... also would be enuff. but ya im trying to rip up. rad 140 16mg this week. that is low dose as fk but ya maybe cardarine and rad taste so bad u feel like throwing up. idk. i didn't take b2 and b6. var will be better. and on 90-100mg test a week and 100mg/ test cream daily, I shed way less than rad140. may as well remove toxic bad side fx compound (for me and many) and use osta or var soon. I shall hide it. prolly fine on ru58841, with the prog and taurine im taking. Maybe b2, b6 make me feel like throwing up. Despite fibre and bread and saurekraut not that bad dign even with no hcl and enz, just some coke zero and lots of carbonated water. less supps. can lose these compounds, just trying to get ripped but ya i was ripped before any compounds at 22-29 near all of that. only tried stuff at 27 and barely after. discard or remove rad and add ostarine only. or var soon.

-get some games. get mp3/flac sold, headph maybe, or nah. old iph. and old thinkpad.. or this one.. no keep the newer one.. and raise funds for other stuff and also for ai coinsgaming.
--and less stuff. or just keep em all fk it. but ya i don't need all that. minimalism. sell ipad air perhaps. but i like using old stuff and not having to incur new tech costs.
--mp3 player and ipad can use upgrade tho for sure. and so can phone. sol fone q3. new thinkpad perhaps ya.
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-note: get defi and protocols avax and the like. and sui and link and whatever. and stake.


-Peruvian Coke: "Honey I'm home, nevermind why our bank account's suddenly grown It's funny, we're so out of this debt from this money we owe Woulda ya... mind if I told you I had two governments overthrown To keep our son enrolled in a private school, and to keep ya tummy swollen C'mon, our fuckin' home was built on the foundation of bloody throats The hungry stolen of they souls, of course this country's runnin' coke I took a stunted oath to hush the one's who know But CIA conducts the flow of these young hustlers who lust for dough" Immortal Technique classic song.
--double top sol nice. myshort i shd have stayed in at limit order 293 id have smoked it fuck man then buy instead of adding fiat to crypto but that is fine fuck it. shd add later and shdnt been in posns whatever. im likelysafe but to be safe n not waste work ya. so not "whatever" but ya.
--was up 200usd but like 1000usd this wk or shd be 20k or 50k but ya i got screwed 195d ago and 30d ago or so... and wasnt cashing in my lev trades as m. but trump coin 1 dollar to 67 dollars or so. flash crash ish r now. and buying dips on my lev trades (not that coin mostly real things), id be safe nyways but look fwd to not being in posns minus a short or 2 when btc falls to 72k... then longs when it goes to 120 or 160 220k. /sidenote.

 

[MNK99]

--9.15am 1.20.2025:
Up at 7.35am had to sleep slept 4h ten min upstairs usually near bsmt office tho/guest room tho but stop falling asleep couch.
--shd have done main gym thurs fri sat sun any of those j go when parents are at work or asleep bc i can't fk up schedule w their stuff. and get rides here n there ow move dt agn soon.
--but ya lets save mny 400k cad 200k usd then move at 2mn 1300k usd more ya.
--evntly I'll 5-15mn cad and 2-3mn usd nyways but gotta work on the latter and be secure and need to get in and out of tsla and tsll and such so i can get closer to higher side. ok.
--rip up and look fucking good and be lean and godly. ignore fat dumb fucks.
--run nofap and get ketmn soon rather it is just qting pron and mbn so ya like "nofap" but reallyjust addiction stuff. and open door policy at times and cold showers of c and meditate and use DUE* and also bujo. cool.
--USE TIGHT SL's you (fyne) PSYCHOPATH!! YOU CAN LITERALLY WORKOUT MORE AND SEE FRDS MORE AND HAVE MORE FUN and fking sleep more and relax. AND GET OTHER WORK DONE like add 40h to
--study and like 10-20h free time maybe 30h to study and 20h gree time not sure maybe 30h to study and 15h free time who knows.


--2 new sneakers soon.
-also brace.
--and like taped up wrk out home 3-4x and gym 3-4x and walk 2-3x but cold.
-get new mins/vits.
--and like sell ipad air old mp/flac buy ebtter ones and new cheapo earph for gym and keep 800 wellsellold thinkpad pocket like 1000 1200 mayb e 800 for all that and got some emerg mny or wahtever ya keep in offarmp good. do that evntly.
--study 2 areas. gotta go. gl.
ill go closer for now but rem lots of wmn like me there. go to the closer gym for now.

b2 b6 only out of habit after d/k mg turmeric then taurine water and prog in coffee
and some t cream and dex 20mg.

and rad day before dont take that anymore. it is bad. take var soon. get var, test e, and hcg.
--and get test cream rxd and also dex refills and further script and ketmn.

that is for hEDS/HSD. and anx depresn trauma. all of that is and of course aesthetics.
quitting rad taking less liver and hair and life toxic var rather than rad.

and working out: doing strict carniv and cutting and recomping get to 190-195lbs and ripped.
ow a bit chubby. lose bread, dairy and whatever. just eat bison, lamb, beef, some salami from butcher and farm. good. near no dairy but some in coffee fine.

lose most coffee and nic too.

lfgo melania coin prolly fuck me over. but was un liquidatable a while ago
and eth and cyngin and tsla.

--u shd buy some melania and trump coin on dips and flip em in 2-7d or keep em as gambles. and also now's ur chance to buy retardio. 45 perc down. also... sui solana. solana at 220 maybe 2mo from now btc 160k and sol 485 or so then shyt down. long eth 3300 or rather 3118 to 3675 or so. low lev. peace.
hype
sol
popcat for some gamblers
and this n that.
mostly real projx but some sm lev trades here n there. stock mkt closed. come on on that stuff.

CONGRATS TRUMP inaugn. And plz GOD LET POLLIVERE WIN IN CDA.

 

[MNK99]

--here is y it fx health. when u vote for retards u vote for them allowingppl to burn down cities and the police not being allowed to arrest serial criminals (but being allowed to shoot u for no reason) hence vote the rite way Canadians. Don't be idiots for once.

--this is now an anger mgmt/ anxiety log.

--mood/thought/rapid logging/ trauma log. prelim to bujo.
--cant wait to go to the gym and scare the shyt out of some ppl (i can be intimidating and most ppl cannot be trusted). what these punk mofos looking at outside? i may get fkd in melania coin of all the stupid things... i will go there and fking beat them to death and throw a fractional wrapped btc at them. fucking punks.

not ev is about your fucking ed or lack of dates. you beta cucks (to haters, 3 of 4 old members all banned).
---what are these cucks looking at. i think androgens and stims may be bad for some ppl. some make u happier tho. im happy. with my excellence. not super happy with melania coin at the moment. fx health ya go make and lose 1k 10k 100k ina day and cry about ed gfys.

--im doing 300 pushups outside in minus 20 just to fuck with the neighbors then hitting gym after hard trading day. ill wear a back brace but i can take it off and strangle someone if need be (self defense). i dont need a brace i do more with 100mg of test than most do with 400. --minus 16-20 is a joke to me. i wash my balls in ice water. i will ragdoll 4-5ppl at once at the gym if need be. only if need be.

Im sure itll be fine.

ok bezos:

Partially true. But stress can also come from things you cannot control 46 Reply 2 replies @zookaroo2132 16 hours ago so long as we have enough power and relationship, we overcome, otherwise legacies will Reply @xerethnsbane 16 hours ago Change what you cannot accept, accept what you cannot change -someone probably Reply @mosuilleabhain 3 hours ago Stress comes from.overburden and unrealistic expectations of you from work, family or friends. Stress is hard work. Most dont have a choice.
do my work now. thanks jeff the motivation guy

 

[MNK99]

ignore others.

make 2300k while they think gambling and fucking get bags that will be 3-5mn later. and fund defi and new tfs a etc. while they were talking abt me crashing or asking stupid qs 50x. and wasting my time not realizing losing supermodels and fucking 10btc or whatever and more imp mentally not applying to law scl while being moderately disabled, and forced to take a medicine that damaged me (one of my most significant fears) was actually what was happening.



--im shy but met mylast gf on the elevator she asked me out and this other woman that i went out with but ignored on and off for yrs (i hate one of her friends, for good reason, he tried to get me arrested and him and his bf were talking shyt about me and i was gonna beat them up but im a good guy), met her at gym. others ya i ignore 99% of women and men, this other woman was trying to con me into getting a massage at the massage place attached to my building. i met others at gym but honestly most ppl irritate the hell out of me. other women,

this Ukranian woman yrs ago in class some 6th yr econ class, and like this other woman at a friend's house party(russian woman's friend's house party). ill take something or rather ill use carnivore over time to lessen depression, anxiety, and trauma, and ketamine. and also nofap to rewire the brain and take more risks and give people more of a chance. but ya i was totally pissed at others. also dating apps , im pretty funny i can make frds w couples in a new area. im in suburbs rite now 25-30 yrs olds mostly can't afford this nbhood. ill hangout downtown (fx health making relationships, def fx health, no finasteride no lamictal causing hair loss, no vax, with longer term relnships and frds u can trust). cut off one of my best frds and lots of family during crashing then stayed cut off in healing, from pfs 2017. and then had others contacte but barely talked till in at law scl then cut off ppl esp during lockdown and getting vax injured. met this hot punjabi girl also at a house party. and met like lots. when ur ripped and young looking and you speak well, and u dont make time for idiots and prioritize urself n business ur good. but ya u need to practice long term relnships more. lose fear of failure, anxiety, rejection, depression, and trauma. nofap and no pron and some mb 2-3x a week but no pron is better than freq mb. low carb and keto 5-6d a week is better than not. but can do better and have less stomach probs and cut. go to gym. have tight stop losses 3%loss max ave 40h a week and enter less freq 50h and better ta 60h a week an i mean in lev trds crypto but also ports one x. and also.. for prev osses substantial ones and also in stocks to max rtns. stop loss is the ultimatedefense. also use 20-25%of acct at cross lev max in a leveraged crypto acct (this is all for me), and...wait on things. and so cash in 3k-5k put half in bags 10-25k, cash in 12k and 3k 15k-40-45k. in offramp aand do some lite lev trades.. and fking offline. and also.. nmore.. and in bank later. 3rd time. and by then stocks 300-400k cad. but fund tfsa.

YA i meet 10/10 women on own. so get more frds, easier and take more chances. mk frds at gym but this gym nearby is bs. but i know some ems/firefighter, hockey player types there that tried to friend me like 30-50x but ya i look intense and ya i mean i wasn't telling anyone anything, i told one couple : trading, writing, law, that is enuff for now but ya ignored their kids (young 20 smth couple), and like they were frds w some hot women at gym and in bldg that liked me a lot.

work on trust issues by taking chances and removing trauma and isolation, NOFAP 40% of that and anx depresn. 100% with strict carniv and 2002000% with ketamine. i can do tei etc whatever to balance later.
funny u help ppl and they think that u have to do what they need to even tho they can't eat food, nor do anything.

and ur trying to cut 20lbs to be more ripped than 90% of ppl fitter than 97% plus of ppl again if not way higher for both.

ill get ru58841 too and
--1000 UGL GEAR.
--1500-200 meds test cream and dex maybe 1000 a yr not sure i barely use it.
--and 2000 or so ketamine, prolly street stuff.
--and new chinos 500-700.
--and new vnecks 250.
--and socks 50.
--and new comp and mp3 maybe nd earphones and ipad maybe 1900-2200 and
--sell old ipad and old iphone.. and some other stuff and comp one or 2. 1000 bucks plus.
--and fund 3-5k gains then 30k gains and 20-30k more offline all usd.
--and later 2-3 yrs 200-300k usd in play. and hav 500-900k cad in cash and play then in stock acct 1-2yrs fr now or so
--and like ya fund tfsa.
--this is over longer time but 500k plus saved up this yr and more shyt, crypto.
--tight stop losses 3% save 40-50h wrkt early am.
--get ru58841 too fk it. esp on sarms, test, and prog.
-after u regrow hair and u stop shedding.. and u wait and ya use on var and other injectables besides test.
--lose rad, dont waste cylce. looking good but hair thinning
-and u need to lose fat and build muscle that's what im doing. im semi vascular at 210-215lbs tho but ya im ripped at consistent 195-198 and v ripped at 192 185 maybe -189 super ripped on r androgens but prolly depends on type and ya ill be 192-194 ripped soon.

 

[MNK99]

--if i had access to pre and post mkt easily like 2mn 3mn there 30x and 60x and 300x later when im 80-90x fking hell. but i need to learn more TA the style ill be using to do it more confidently.
--and also... keep sl at 3% and get out and glad i tsfd one port much to phmx last nite. let this shyt go up 5kusd stat.
--and take in 8-15k a few mo. in bank or oofframp or offline or both. a couple areas. fund tfsa stat.

--z-ero ish ta or just others not even best ppl i know of nor know personally. could have done 122k tsla tsll rather than 200k rigetti then 200-400k more. in major breakdowns. in 2mo 800k or something nearly. fucking pos tsla. will make me 5-15mn cad later... in 4-5yrs 6 maybe but ya it is moving trash. was up 300usd/ still down 320 unrealized... but was 1000 1200 nearly,.. for lev trades in crypto now only up a bit. but it will be 500-2000 late.r and then 10000 cuz fk this. shd have wrkd out. slept extra 3.hrs but maybe 7 9 total not sure. not that much 9-10 max. but ya had to sleep. finally getting sneakers more. and need cheap earph to not ruin my 390 or was 500 i got em 390 or so earphs. and need new flac/mp3. and cant use bluteooth like that at gym. shaved and all w shavette. looking good. messed up hair. need ru58841 it is messy i mean. sure shedding but sleeping and too long hair. find gym for now. add chciks i know to insta or smthing. and meet new ppl.. this fucking stock mkt. no reason why tsla is 400 -420 and rejected 400 10-11x. in a row. it shd be 500 530 600 but ya i mean im above 200. ill make a lot there but i mean itd be 1-2mn next yr or this yr rather than 500k or something, if i just got rigetti or TEM today or y2d ago 5 8 days ago and 2-3wks ago on breakdowns. -4 weeks ago maybe 5 for rigetti the first time when 19 .80-->12 and 8 and 6. or hell short, itd be 4mn next yr or so. but whatever. risk managed. and i know tsla will be here. i need the earphones and also a haircut. and working out. eating once a day or so . having aged cheddar and the like. mostly beef, bison. some tuna. lamb later i made... low processed meat. but salami and butter is better than bs. some yogurt raw dairy or near it.. made at home sure. raw. a or at lst a2 protein then raw. and otherwise get dairy connect. gotta go. tk care all.

--gotta use ostarine rather than rad140., order gear for once the real kind from UGL, and that will be var, test e, pct.. and also get test crema represcribed, and get one of 2 or so refills of dex, been a mo and barely using it 1mo lasts over 2mo. perhaps not true in l. school... but ya ill use more leaner. go to gym. need earphones wtf. easier to go if i made 200k in a day or 5k-10kusd. but ya not greedy but this is retarded shouldn't hyped ai and quantum stocks crash. TEM or whatever is a nancy pelosi stock hence 45 percent or so in a day. premarket cyngin was 150% or so sometime iafter xmas or so.. anyways ill get rich over time.

this pos tsla better be 550 then 600 soon ow fuck this sell half and buy other shyt that 4-5xs in mean time, then buy breakdowns when it is 40-50% down and make twice as much..
so split it. for sure 200k soon from nov. but ya i mean 500k-1mn if not 2-3mn in rigetti, cyngin (using getting far more), alone and a couple nancy stocks.

--ill master the TA i am supposed to be learning. anyways. could have gone earlier, but tired. surely rad140 is quite suppressive.
--keep running nofap, open door / blinds when i can/ need to, policy. and 95-97% strict carnivore.

 

[MNK99]

--RE: JAN. 21 2025:

fking market stress killing my workout timing and sleep.. and ability to meetppl. easy 500k missed out on and like 5mn with that trump coin. or like 200-300k w rigetti 4-6weeks ago and today and 2 nancy pelosi stocks. this other shyt better flip. shd be 200x-1000x when illbe 100-200x in a few yrs. need pre/post mkt stock trading ability too. probably can in 2 of myother banks oh yeah. There must be something in that vs. whole coconut. Or it could be the metal. Or maybe whole coconut has some protective compound, against a protien or something else that you're reactive too. Learning TA or should be. no ta, just cyngin and rigetti in breakdowns and pre/post mkt trading id be up 800-3mn cad instead of 100k. so not sure wtf why i listened to "mentor" but ya sure, risk mgmt. i mean i already own cyngin.. and rigetting made sense to buy when nsdq down 3 percent and it went down 50-60% then agn. 3x and 2x. 6x ya id be up 600k++ the original 122k. wtf. tsla doesn't move. even if this pos makes me500k this yr, i mean i lost life changing opps. --so when i has 5-15mn in tsla mostly, id have 15-45 50mn instead. well fk me. well ill master the ta. 200k-300k tkhome and usd and crypto and the other stuff im doing is still pretty good. messing up my socializing, exercise, and life schedule tho. there is no reason this pos is 400 except wall street doesn't get it. it will be 600 1000 2000. 10900 later. ill go workout and chill. keep up crnv. and nf. workout and cut fat. need to be ripped by my bday and prolly ill get on ru58841 that and ketoconazale aint crash me but i dont need liver damage etc. ill get var soon. and sell some extraneous tech so i only have things i want. 2-3 nancy stocks id be 200x when imgonna be 70-80x. shd have been 200x at like 28, and 1000-2000x now make 45-99mn u can retire. cant live off 200-300k a yr.

--paid these guidos in LA for this brace 225 usd cancel. new card. they messed up tho charged me asked authorization form ya it was authorized (idiots). Then taking 7-8d to process this other bs 550 with tape cad. like 385 365usd. better be up 3-5k usd in some lev trades soon. cash in 50k there, some yrs in ports 200-500k and then i got several good ports. anyways can ignore all this, and prolly print 150k more cad soon enuff. and then 100k usd. but ya that's not enuff.

-------
---probably better than avg physician (when i make time and i will for school and also for my work - to get good docs), chatgpt 4 or 4 nought and grok are probably better than your basic bitch GP (ya id get into med school, you're on crack if u think someone 160iq + can't get in somewhere, tho ya my GPA isn't that strong. life's actually hard in Canada for a descendent of immigrants, id get into all kinds of shyt in states easy like 50 law schools there vs like 4-5 here for instance). anyways, grok will come in handy, summarizes info. was trash for hEDS/ PFS, and stuff but good to summarize data. I think Chat GPT 4 the paid one is a lot better. BUt for sure, bias in all. Bias of developers and google's ai and bing's was all anti right and extremely racist and making up data and history... but surely some will get better. AI destroys mankind in under 5-10 yrs. Fertility crisis, gender crisis... ev1 under 30 thinks the'yre a made up gender. it's over. ill make money tho regardless. tired of these cucks. ill get super ripped also i mean i want to go to the gym relaxed and at least focused and chilled. i guess going there agitated is fine, later happy. i relapsed nofap a bit but not to pron.

--shaved face and body have weepers. senstive as fuck skin. need clarins pre shave oil and vichy or bioderma shave foam.
--get that, get UGL, get new rx for T cream 200mg if I can, get dex refill, get more prescribed --> SEE GP.
--> get rid of mp3/flac, and 2 thinkpads, get a better one, get sol phone later, and android maybe for now. or use thinkpad 2020 and this iphone 11pro. hmm. get cheapo earphones.
--and ya get liquidity get 20k into tfsa or 5k and turn it into 20k and get this other shyt. murder lev trades, make ai gaming coin bag 5k 5k 5k and make it 100-150k usd cash that in. get these main stocks
--to 500k cad.
--make time to study TA and also the test.
--meet more women. use insta too. and get group photos but really just look pretty and ripepd. lots of women are fine w some guy that is srs strong and silent usually and doesn't need 20 retarded do nothing douchebag faggy friends.
--and lift stat.
--getting new shoes in 2 of em.
--get chinos dry cleaned.
--get var and test e and hcg stat.
--and get 2 pairs of fav zipper nike track pants.
--donate tracks I don't like 3-4.
--and get new Saxx black Vnecks.
--lets fucking go. upgrade my threads (gear clothes i mean, i call that gear), actual gear, and test cream, and dex.
--murder these trades.
--go up for once pos tesla.
--get out... maybe pre earnings prolly not.
--ntflx crushed earnings this qtr.
--get this shyt done.
--murder it on melania coin and popcat and better things like those are leveraged, get major downs in batch order. and get btc and such at 82k usd.
--and get ai/gaming coins.
--don't waste my time, bye.
--cool ppl that don't annoy me only.

--guidos come give me brace. paid like a lot. and then shoes amazon. then get rid of old mp3/flac. and get new headset and new tv, and new comp, sell 1-2 thinkpad x1's. and ya more better gear. get cheapo Shures, don't ruin 390 dollar ones at gym with dirty cucks there. get a nice elite str training gym /trendy boutique firm. incorporate trading shyt so i don't get fkd in taxes later. tho i can keep most in play and a lot offline and just never cash in but ya i need to live and have fun too.


peace out. busy.

 

[MNK99]

Glad i had my mental health and career and relnships destroyed protecting the dumb fat fucks... like these common ppl. for the lockdown. for a 99.99% survivable illness. a cold.
that their dumb govts they voted for made.
and also didnt vote for but ya iy shd i ruin my life to protect lefitst??

--fk all these common garbage ppl i missed out on 200mn and 80mn and 2bn w unallocated money in my mid 20s. and ya ill get multimillions but shd be 5-15mn cad in 5yrs, but shd be 50mn if i just got rigetti and sold tsla. but im not going to some group home gym with 5 idiots waiting around. not one person will ask me for a machine tho unless it is a chick. ill go to an elite gym later. workout at home. i hate ev1 and all the gyms round me.

 

[MNK99]

Need ketamine may take lith orotate and not relapse nf and also not drink. need ketamine long run. meditate. lith will make me more disabled tho idk i have half my tape ion it isnt that bad. better than drinking surely and eating badly. have some carbs maybe but thatll fk my stomach up.

just drink. cannot drink, take lith, and rad140 in system, and test, and dex. not good.

--can't take it anymore losing out. some great relationships due to this all. and also lockdown. and maybe b2 b6 messed me up. relapsed nofap a bit, but not to pron. will drink some vodka or a beer. but i cant bc ill take rad140 later tmor prolly or soarine. sarma nd alcohol esp harsh af sarmlike rad and alcohol, youll be fkd. 20lbs down id prolly stilllook 25-28 w alc and rad and dex in system. but ya later.. id bfeel horrible. and prolly more depressed. i rem one of my frds as a kid would drink beer and use coke (he was a coke dealer). but ya i had lots of vodka and coke in my youth. i gotta study soon and make more frds, not gonna happen if on drugs by myself... but this mkt is stressing me the fk out. meditate. i used to meditate and lift twice a day. but im busy w this bs and yet ignoring it means making like 50-100k more. prolly lose 2hrs 2d in a row if i drink and be sustbantially less smart. i drank like 25x in 5yrs or something. like 50x pre water fasting then like5-6x a yr if that. 99%+ down since early 20s. 0-4x a yr mostly. i keep falling asleep on my couch barely watching tv, but bc i was half done laundry in guest room and my bedrom and didn't want to mess it up. it is a pain in the ass taking off tape, adding tape, removing glue, waiting on iditos to send my sneakers, and the brace. and other bs. need to buy the gear and stuff i need. if this pos stock tesla goes to 450-500 soon, itll go up a bit then crash, so pre crash go buy any of the moronic ai stocks taht are printing millionaires that cannot even read nor write.

--surely forcing workoout at home and if i cant find nice gym that is for intermediates and not riff raff, and has nice chicks there without randomcollege and hi school idiots all over the place. and doesn't have gros facilities, i can just force workout here, get fresh air in cold, and then meditate after shower, then hit real gym. o/w im gonna drink (drank like25x in 6yrs or so a lot in crash pre fasting and like 3-5x a yr, for 5-6yrs before that cut down 99% since early 20s), relapsed nf earlier but not to pron. and then, ya if i drink, then lith orotate perhaps, then worsened disability, then test, rad140, lith orotate, and alcohol in system, and dexedrine. and that is not good. gotta workout or eat more meat then wait, then workout. ill force mediation. makes zero sense tho the market is irrational. same w lots of stuff. my a- last 20 classes and 93 lsat vs an absence and wose avg befrore, just as smart before... so wtf. im getting more consistent gains. jiust need tight stop loss. may take measly80-100k gains and then double in other stuff that moves way faster.. and then buiy major dips of tsla. ideally i iugnore it and it goes up 30 % then 60% and i get 60 and 120% gains at 2x or near it.. and i... kill it in lev crypto trades. feel lkike a beer or some vodka is fine. vodka esp on carnivore/keto and while cutting. and yet i think RAD140 is 60% liver toxic ostarine only 20. 50% suppressive, osta ten percent. some say lgd ois worse, i think rad is tho.

--lith orotate safe. bad for gross motor skills in my case and a bit of ADHD but who cares if not studying at 8pm. weed vaped is better.. alcohol i drink 25x in 4-5 yrs. can't have vodka, lith, and dex, and test, and rad140 in system tho. stressed the fk out. need to run errands dont want to order a bunch of stuff all at once even if i can afford it usually. ill workout at home more and then find an ok gym for now then an intermediate 9no riff raff, no dbags) gym. most ppllike me alot anyways, but ya i can only deal with 5ppl 10 20ppl. 200 500 5000 ppl in in psychopath/terminator mode. i mean there won't be 5000 ppl at a gym obvsly. im shy and i hate ppl. wasting time to be top 1 -2 or 0.5% earners in canada over time, when u can do stupid things and be top 0.1% now. is stressing me out.
--may drink or use weed. or go workout i mean cutting tape off, not hurting skin, trying not to. that is annoying. waiting on idiots to send me a spine brace.. etc also annoying. going to a gym with a bunch of ppl i hate when there's gyms with hot women that literallylike me rite downtown would be better. but i mean im not gonna go travel 16km to old apartment rite now. and ya those idiots are closed probably. bsaic large gym with gross people and bad hygiene practices. no thanks. need a 1000-2000 a yr gym. not some trash.
--beer is trash for keto. vodka is a real drink. as is scotch. both are "basically" carnivore. esp vodka. scotch or vodka if necesary. just a tiny bit.

--k long run for scl and for trading: take supps 3.45am 4.10am and weed 4.20am and dex 5.20 or 6am and or test. o/w ketamine 3x a week, dex 3-5d a week. that shd be cool. -->planning ahead.

--beer is trash for keto. vodka is a real drink. as is scotch. both are "basically" carnivore. esp vodka. scotch or vodka if necesary. just a tiny bit. -nope. weed is safer. weed 4am dex 6am. test too.
MNK99 — Today at 7:56 PM
--literally u can beat 40-50% of trauma 80% anxiety and depresn w routine diet and exercise. carniv or strict pretty strict keto and nofap. rest is psychdelics and love. LTR's. and passion. and like, meditation. and ego death. in mean time just get cannabis spray and use in coffee. to force myself to slow down and meditate. yeah, way better than drinking, and way safer than other drugs. ketamine soon as i can. buying gear and getting more test cream and dex first. netting at least 200-300k takehome first bc i will feel sick if i gave up insane (way more than that) opportunities and don't do at lst 50-60k a mo for a few mo. i mean u can't control mkts tho. so who cares. just gotta relax. weed will force me to slow down. with tape it isn't gonna hurt coordination. i prolly have AVB here and leftover hash. may as well do that bc drinking will lead to lith or depresn/ axniety. then weed anyways. or coffee at lst. skip the bs just dose weed in coffee. later ketmaine.
--vodka and cocaine. and carbs. and being young = safe. ish. not that safe really. rad140 test dex and weed and lith and alcohol = very bad. so coffee, dex earlier, test earlier.. and some weed and coffee is fine. ya. should be on 3-4 drugs max ideally but most often im on 2. long term it was 1. i guess 3 if u include caffiene and nicotine. ive done zero tho. for yrs straight.

--in store is better, and delivery from their site is less sketchy than Uber eats (better deals, better menu). but I have some thc tinctures and cbd tinctures and THC brownies coming. nice. This should calm me the hell down. That and dex. Or drinking after dex. Or lith after dex, and presumably psychdelics after dex, allows me to focus.. and not trip out as well as not be in danger due to joint instability. Nice, adding main gym soon. Working on dopamine, serotonin, and oxytocin tho via NF and rewiring, unwiring, and hardwiring in good habits.

 

[MNK99]

--wait a min. if i did this daily for mood, ya like 300-500 600 a mo. and i dont even like weed that much. and im in canada and that is insane cost. this was 150. but 20mg/ml thc 2 bottles and 20mg/ml one cbd bottle and 400mg cbd gum (20 pieces). Sprays are like 120mg cbd/45mg thc 150mg cbd/20mg cbd per mg (1 or 2 sprays), like 120-180 dollars. Anyways, definitely a good add on for ADHD, anxiety, and stress management and yeah I'd still have cleaner HTMA's than you. And no it isn't imparied metabolism, I cured asthma like 3-4yrs, and yrs before hackstasis site was up. But sure, I like taking nothing. It is easier to take nothing after TEI. Most will not react well on cycle one, bc they are not healthy. And no that wasn't the only thing that helped my PFS. That is in response to crazy q's I get.

Sprays and creams way better. Before trudeau maybe 900 a yr plus meds 800 and rent in an upscale condo in toronto 1500-1600 now our dollar is 40% weaker and ev including food costs 2x as much.
Sprays and flower vaped maybe 1000-1220 a yr, with some edibles, 1400. if I used this at appropriat doses it'd be 300-400 a mo. Ketamine prescribed prolly 4000-5000 a yr, nasal spray, like 2-3000.
--a dealer and insufflation? prolly 500-1000 and dose controlled (check it for fentanyl etc tho first).

--summary:
-ok so ill get THC/CBD/CBG/THC-N spray and edibles and use weed and dex for time being and perhaps long run. i mean medical grade weed (but without a doc) and later. just ketmaine and dex. and later just meat and ketamine, then just meat. also some HRT+ just till im ripped. catching up time/rehabbing injuries.
--that shd help me relax and deal with not only work and studies.. but also people. Nice have THC brownies, 2 THC oils, 1 CBD oil being delivered on the way. Owner of the store is ADHD afk. In store is better if best store and medical products u can get great stuff prescribed but a connect/ some stores are legit.
MNK99 — Today at 8:28 PM
--nice. so dex and test cream, ideally dht cream or higher strength test cream 5am or so. and weed 9.30. can use weed 4am or 5am after supps, then dex 6am 6.30 then workout 1-2x, getting some work done, then major work 8am-11am or 9am-10am to 4pm then at nite. nice. dex, test, nic, cafe, rad140 1-2x wk (anavar 5-10mg or ostarine 10mg a da is safer). can lose nicotine and coffee. need some weed. you need some on hand anyways, same with lith orotate, and mg always. and lots of carbonated water. bottled water from Italy and the French and Swiss Alps and also homemade.
MNK99 — Today at 8:46 PM
--weed makes dating easier as well. Smoking no. Vaped, avb, edibles, and more than anything tinctures. I will wake up happy and try to meditate. But I need to add CBD drops to this coffee (cream, some leftover progesterone and collegen from am). Then take half a THC brownie. Ketamine or mdma or weed will make relnships far easier, despite dexedrine. And I can still workout but the "fun" drug, ketamine or weed, is definitel ymoderated a lot. As is dex use. Less is more. A little goes a long way. Yeah chewed 40mg cbd gum (wanted brownies 10mg/5mg but I missed their call), made 20mgthc + 18mg cbd into coffee, will split coffee dose for tmro, am. plus the AVB (old).
MNK99 — Today at 10:06 PM
--where's the drug induced mania? or being insane? I took 20mg dex this morning, and 100mg/ml test cream, and 10mg rad140 a day or 2 ago, and soon 50mg CBD, 20mg THC. I am just healthier than you. And fine tuned diet and exercise in teens. and a lot smarter. and wealthier. and better looking (to haters). and deadlier. with better hair tests, blood tests, when I get them once every 5 to ten yrs. In fact if anything, test long term or androgens would lower health, but occasional drug use, for CPTSD/ADHD/an actual disability, I mean what am I sup to do. Law is hard, trading is hard, being ripped can be hard, when you're literally disabled a (a bit). Let alone trauma.

--Meditate for alignment.
--and align work ethic with approach to life, so hard work and activity, and staying fit but flexible scheduling, ideally keep that up at lst for studying and when you have selection over course time (when in school),
--and you're set. Stoicsim.

--dht cream, var to see if it helps but also for sexual fn maxing, and aesthetics. can be healthy on test cream long run and dex. I think half as much dex or 1/3 used bc never redose., with test cream, and with carniv. If I really want no meds no substances, ever well I am easing into strict carniv or near it, perhaps 93-95% strict carniv is good enough. I know like fasting, the final period or final phase has outsized returns. Many case reports, Shawn Baker (M.D.), Anthony Chaffee (M.D.), and Bart T. Kay (PhD.) discussed this. So androgens, used a bit to get stronger faster and maintain superphysiological LBM helps you stay alive. And dex helps as well with propricoception. Some things like weed where and there is to chill, and as an "off switch", to hyperactivity, and amp medicine. And then to transcend further through hardshoip, is psychedelics, and the dissisociative anesthetic, ketamine. Then that and habits, discipline, an agenda, and a good social support network, and hobbies, you're a complete single... and are open to others.

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--ig having retirement set with right investments, then having additional BTC offline, will get rid of lots of anxiety, and stress (a bitch to get there tho, from nothing basically. well I mean I had some money before, but I've given back generational wealth and missed out on it a lot), but that will make it easier to run strict carniv, and leave all medicine, supps behind... perhaps. But some sups are fine on a rotating basis (after PFS, after PSSD. for healing them, you probably need something, if not a detailed regimen for 1-2yrs). Like suffering thru bad sexual health and resetting after HRT, and dex... but coming out on the other side. I'd need a vacation of sorts (even in city) to do that. But, no androgens no dex, and strict carniv may regrow all hair lost with chronic telogen effluvium, medication, androgen hair loss, and also the genetic (in my case) diffuse hair thinning. I mean, I can also get a fue and or new treatments (safe ones).

get sodif and paypal. ev i had and wanted and have but need more of all 2x 4x 20x or 5x quicker than 2x tesla does. tho not as safely kind of but tesla is dead money 2yrs 4yrs at a time, at times. so reallocate soon. as i feel ready. 3% stop losses or so 5% and rather just keep 20k then 40 then 50 then 100k then 200k sidelined and most port in cash. later when 1mn -2mn. and also have my TFSA and crypto elsewhere and in defi and some exch.
--sofi i had 4.00 3.00 and easily 10 12 20 200 later. so fuck. ya. but i needed tsla. mking mny nyways. gn.

 

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--RE: 4.01pm, 1.22.2026:
--Manage Risk and don't lose anything, you're still winning. have trades in profit, but soon one switched and I own it. That is strongly negative but was way worse. It'll float back up o/w get the fuck out.
--TIGHT as fuck stop losses to prevent longs and shorts and buying at incorrect times/price levels, with too low volume. You need VOLUME AND PRICE MOVEMENT, price action.
--Learn the TA. And then study this other stuff. Lets go. workout and get to new gym and await my new gym threads and brace and 2 sneakers, and get vits, and get UGL gear test e, var, hcg,
--and get RX Test cream + dex.

--every other bs ai / quantum stock up 40-50% recent 2 days, probably.
--My stuff (assets) ain't moving or if it is I undercut, 1700 shd have in xrp lev longs and like 1400 in popcat i took 455-550 profits there recent weeks but ya i was playing safe. this pos im in flips and ill do well.
--anyways,waiting on stocks, divy up reallocate. wlets workout and meditate.
--ADHD medicine helps physically and mentally, and so does Test cream (this if for hEDS/HSD, anxiety, depresn, trauma). Rewiring and undoing some bad habits with medical cannabis, ketamine (street, high q at least), and MDMA... will help me empathize and also slow down and learn new perspectives. Lots of weed last nite, slept 8-9hrs. And ate some oysters and got high again then took more coffee and cbd/cbg/thc + extra CBD. Then vitamins were done last nite and in early am, so just test cream, and dex. Chilled on patio. And listened to trance. Worked out a little, shall do more. My time will come, for things I am, they'll pump again a lot. And mean time, I mitigate risk, workout more. And soon I'll have more threads to workout in, and street wear. SO I can lift and do what needs to be done, and rip up. More gear soon as I can and vitamins/supplements. And test cream and dex. I can meet women easier with some stuff that makes me dumber and also more chill. I.e. drugs. The good kind. But, I need fresh air/ cold water.. to remove the intense high and also, not to redose too much. Woke 12.50pm, ate , had water and coffee, and cannabis in coffee and some prog 1.30-2.45.. and wait.. 3.20 took dex. And now I lift at home. Get ready when I can (can't just jump in shower and fall down). Then, I go workout for reals. SOme dairy, some sauerkraut, somekeffir, but o/w red meat, or fish, or sometimes other stuff lamb, pig, maybe elk later. bison these days.I love Tenderloins the best though, save for killer workouts in outside gym (even if I don't like the place nor peopl, just go).

--vitamins, haircut, more meat.
--minimalism keep my wc and my bedroom and office/guestroom clean as fuck. minimize throw old vits and donate/throw old clothes. lets look good always.
--tape and brace... at lst working out at home and i look good but pretty sure 15lbs fat and water melts off as soon as i do one mo or so at main gym. 6 weeks. 18lbs down perma and then im jacked and fairly cut. and then really cut. like batman chris bale.. then am spsycho agn. but ya i need more lean gains.. more cuts. i look fit but ya it can change if eat bad. but i want to feel and be fit as fuck then set aside time to meditate do that daily too fuck it. mos=isturize a lot ya.

-- ---wtf tracks nike szipper pockets and saxx vnecks 500, gear 2 yrs 1000 -1400, and like, test cream and dex 250-300 more later., and screen or new tv 1500, ketamine 200 5300, and cash in 5-6kud. and like 15k later and 20k 25 from small. bags. lose tslla take fking 78-99k and buy other shyt that moves faster. tk 99k profit or measly 80k. and get other stuff. then i feel richer at lst. and get back in when it breaks down. FSD, optimus, cybertaxi all that is good it will be 10 then 20 trillion dollar comp but not now. rn it is meme stock. and who knows who heads it if he leaves.. prolly someone better tbh. but let hype come in close feb march for sure u need at lst 100k new in there tk home. getting proper brace soon, 2 pairs of new balance sneakers... and wrkt. donate some tracks. and get chinos dryclnd. work, supps med, wrkt, meditate, wrkt* 2. 400-500k cad needed and 200k usd a yr.. but can do 250-300k in 1-2yrs tkhome and still ok but ya i need a lot more. ill do really well. 300-50k yrs are here but not perm. but will be perma ww more mny. get krnk and cnbs. use tang for tfsa. new visa rbc chck and verify and td.. ya.. get card if i didn't. i did. and pay that off build more credit.

 

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--worked out twice this am. just came back from rec centre. despite messy fkd up hair, some women flirting. dropped off chinos for dry cleaning. ill get more nice ones later. i did 15 exercises or so. light chest press. pretty good for back and core. t cream, dex, some rad. soon osta better for hair, liver, heart, lipids, etc etc.. same with var. --to get: NEW TEST SCRIPT and refills, dex refills and script; TEST E VAR HCG ugl; and NIKE TRACKS 2, and SAXX VNECKS BLACK AND WHITE a few. aat Henry Singer or elsewhere. Online maybe. And sell mp3 player and get cheapo shure earphones better thing player there.. and sell ipad and one or two comps. cash in. get the fk out of this retarded mealnia coin. shd have had funds buy max dip... but ya i was minus 600 700% hoping 100 200% soon enuff. minus 200 for now. but ya il avg down and NEVER WASTE QAORK WEEK AGN for studying, learning ta, meeting women, hwo??? BY USING TIGHT AS FUCK 3% or less stop losses. no sl in this shit market of all markets? are u fucking crazy? Ya. so mostly ill save lots of time. hope you are well, ok bye.

 

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--nice. 2 lifts, 9am and 12pm or so. 15 exercises or so some duplicates. maybe 500-600 reps maybe less. maybe only 490-520. feel sore. clothes coming, chinos dropped for dry claenainng, replacing bad track pants with zipper pocket nikes, and getting more black vnecks. getting more italian chinos. and more tech and selling old tech, to raise funds. getting out of this gd Melania coin. Weed 3-4days, defs hurts joint instability defs ok 12-16hrs or even 5-6hrs or 3-4hrs later... if used to weed, and like vaped rather than edibles/ spray. Spray is best. I look good. I will look fucking amazing in weeks. I will be ripped and athletic af (looking at least, i mean for running and volume training and some sports sure, i can beat most ppl up easily, but more importantly I can mindfk themmostly emphasizing slow dopamine drip. --nice lifted 9am, napped 730 or 6.50 to 840am. worked out at gym 12pm or so. nice 15 or so exercises, hella back, some core, legs a fair bit no leg press. 1/2 sneakers NB in. nice brace (for my spine, and yeah that's medical geniuses -your spine and brain are pretty fucking health and medical related). and rad140 and test and dex, and felt good. --gonna get a lot more test e, also VAR, and HCG. And gonna sell some tech (1 or 2 thinkpads), get some cheap Shure's for gym, and also sell mp3 player. I need minimalism, and the proper threads/gear (i mean clothes and shades, and like earphones, bags, and shoes) for streets, for studying, and for leisure. Dropped off Jon varvatos, Mason, and maybe a 2nd pair of JV chinos for drycleaning. I will be GODTIER again, super ripped. Jacked for now. I was more jacked than ev1 there, but the really athletic ppl weren't there, I will be again. I had weed in coffee, then prog, and vits before that, and then test and dex, then later rad. Osta safer 90% safe, 20-30% strength gains, rad 140 is like 40-50% safe 50-60% str gains, but not really at this low af dose. LGD better, var, injectables (that I never tried, like mast, primo) are better. Perhaps not all are better for hEDS/HSD, though. I look good. I hope you're happy. You're welcome.


--updated my log, about being ripped, and also drycleaning, purchasing new chinos, and also selling tech to fund trades, have more petty cash, and also to pay visa on time, but also to get new tech. I mentioned dopamine dripping, and long term habit extinguishing and remaking. Unwire-Rewire-Hardwire. Strategize and adapt to various situations that arise in real life.
Updated log about weed. and raving. and lifting 6-10x a week despite being older and leaner and stronger than u. and looking younger. and being faster, smarter, richer, and better as a person.
ill get haircut and such 20lbs leaner and 100k in and 50k usd in. when yr looks like 300-400k takehome yr, or so, then ill get a haircut. shd be 1.2-2mn 5mn 10mn with better TA, and insider info 200mn but whatever.--ya so things that help dating, relationships, even talking to 15 yr long friends after a while, defs hurt joint instability. weed. however, ya if u are w ppl u trust, and sleep over there, not bad. it's good even. but if ur in a new work setting, and with idiots everywhere, like a sketchy part of ny or toronto, ya i don't want to be on weed, altho i have been yrs ago. dex and test will kp u straight. bench press for sure i felt uncomfortable bc well ya the proprotions are all messed up. a bit tall and way "taller" (longer rather) wingspan. so it is just messed up. working on neck a little defs not rite now. gonna use roller. ill get massage therapist or smthing in future but idk im busy. ill get something like that and or physio. looking fwd to new brace and sneakers.. and soon track pants. im rebuilding my wardrobe. clothes i kept for law school and dating, ill just wear whenever i want to. ill get more prof school clothes too. i got delayed w trash pandemic. even at 4-5mn usd ya i mean i lost out way way more. potential profits and actual shyt i had. but that is ok, ev1 makes mistakes in a startup/business, and ya it fx health. if uve ever worked 100hrs+ a w eek and u win or u lose ur shirt, ud see it fx health. im safer now of c but i was trading w no normal job and pre entry into school, despite 93rd percentile plus on lsat. and ya if i wanted 20medschools in america or 50 law scls, ya i'd get in. i'm quite smart, and life is still hard at times.

--weed nearby, mdma, ketamine if she is a druggy like me. makes dates way easier., but yes joint instabilit.y.. ill trust fools more but not too much. and also: games, having trance, drugs, and games = insta date, but ya u need cool ppl only. u could just date women nearby and not make frds w ppl, and show up with them, and then get more. that is literally all ive missed, big frds groups but ya i mean last 3 condos spanning 10yrs i was noticed by ev1. so dont waste it.
--10s in yorkville toronto and tens here. so ya dont waste opps. that cute dc girl, go out w her. hangout bang whatever.

--society is corrupt. it is all a scam. make dumb money and smart money. get a hairdresser date. use her for haircuts. and trance and being medicated with drugs, will help me a lot. for anx, depresn, and trauma. the right way i mean. have a nice wknd. goodbye.

--have trance and music and weed. and coffee and chocolate almond milk. for chicks and friends. hangout w em more. good. i may go to a closer gym or a trendy gym ill see.
--cant wait to have a nicer brace that fits even tho thatll be tight but not a lot.. not for long. also tape.. and sneakers.
--need nike tracks my fav they ain't make em in 4-5yrs i threw last one 2yrs ago fuck. like the boss tracks i liked as a kid. ill get some designer shyt later. anyways better focus and maybe order food
--maybe not, found more weed, in the bottle.

 

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--i guess cough syrup and rad140, despite the safer test, and ostarine available (taking higher dose test, and test cream, esp dht seems to help anxiety and mood, but I can see it can be a slippery slope. and i don't want aging more than bare min). I guess the queasiness was liver damage, cough syrup and also the rad140 (very harsh as noted a bunch of times). And coughing a lot and anxiety. Salt water helped the feeling like throwing up, and also irritated throat. I think it indirectly helped the feeling like throwing up. I guess no rad in system or barely any helped just as much tho. i won't take acetaminophen except baby dosed, here and there for joint pain or if issues. One day, mess up diet, sauce, store bought donair type stuff and stomach issues, but not nearly as bad (like 20mins or an hr vs 2-3hrs), as if I had a bunch of carbs and fibre. I also drop fat and water fast, so ill try hitting main gym or getting one soon. Hi anxiety for sure. Autism/trauma... ADHD, and ya im taking barely any dex, but enuff to not be dumb from cannabis. Like 1/4 of my dose, to 1/2. Maybe 1/2 long run since curing PFS. I suppose if I enter school and have final exams, I may be back up to 25-30mg but 40mg or 60mg over 2 days is probably mostly behind me (8-9yrs ago during masters)., Also awareness of my disability, I realize that just being stronger, or more focused, or whatever isn't going to cure that, but sometimes it helps for sure. Taping you can help it 20-30%, add a brace and or wrist wraps or similar, 5040-50%, some test, ostarine like 75-80%< some other stuff for pain management. Long run, I want to be as natural as possible, to help anxiety, depression go away forever, and rewire and hardwire strong positive habits and new persepctives, w.r.t. trauma. I look fwd to psychedelics but even tho they can protect mood, for sure it will be hard, feeling more disabled... even if it is temporary (when done correctly on own, or medically).

Maybe 85-90% when really fit and maintaining it.. but even then, I definitely had hEDS/HSD when ripped. I was ripped most of last 18 or so yrs. Still tho if using substances or tired, end of night, or in am, getting ready for day, there can be issues. I see many am workouts and late nite workouts, were bc I had energy and focus then... and I could control gross motor movements and reflexes and I guess fine motor skills better (the latter 2 are great, even excellent, 2standard devns or more, 3, at times. but i need to practice). Find it pretty hard to "practice gross motor skills" but ya smoke weed then play some active wii game or go trying lifting weights, and I can see for sure there's a disabiity. I wouldn't with weights but, yeah I did younger. I'd wait 2hrs or 12hrs or whatever nowadays. I don't even like lifting without bracing and support just in case. I will feel confident in doing it with nicer better fitting clothes again soon. IDK i think like androgens prog makes me gain weight. Like one day of most androgens. I am trying to cut/recomp tho. I'll get there. I guess cooking, walking, trying to drive, random chores, and errands are practicing gross motor skills.

0--slighlty lazy today bc of carbs and anxiety. ill force 2 wrkts. then im sore. then i can take monday off as mkts will be crazy. damned trump, elon, and melania!!! what the f are they doing. can elon stop nazi saluting all over the place?? bad for the stock, son.