No fap

[MNK99]

basically like 100/110 days, definitely hangs more normally better erections on it like 8-10 days. tend to screw up, 10 11 8 21 25 days etc, often all i can think about is sex so i relapse sometimes so i can focus on other things, or mentally relapse with no imagery but then that chaser effect is there and a relapse occurs otherwise. down from 1000 -1500 times a year to only like 20-80x tho. definitely it's good for low inhibition but sometimes i cant go anywhere because of erection. i had dates recently and if i did ever relapse in the last couple months, it did hurt mood a LOT for like 24 hours or so. 20 to 80 sounds like a lot in a year, but even 90 divided by 15 days of screwing up, would only be 6 times a day, 15 times a year. which is bad obviously but not that many days. it's like cocaine do you count every dose? no you'd go crazy, you count the days (or better yet don't count at all, and just change lifestyle that's how I went from a few grams to several a week to zero in 2 years at a time). sounds like I'm rationalizing but most people don't count how many cigs they've had, they count days without. i tried burning myself slightly and even electrocuting myself ever so slightly it still doesn't get rid of all sexual thoughts. may even enhance them a bit. at 27/30 days still hangs better with nofap outside of relapse days, so 26-27/30 days hangs nearish normal but not quite. sex still good, but testicles can be larger. sensitive and can go again and again most the time. sex drive sometimes leads to bad choices. im going to stop writing rite now. sometimes for more control over addictive personality, I go commando, but that's actually a major trigger at times. a great way to stop relapses is to think of rosie o' donnel and other heffers. usually i just work or study till im exhausted and fall asleep too. but i've been all jacked up a couple months but actually did really well on nofap most of that time, but still... not super efficient. i also (mostly for time pressures for some goals i have) keep my sheet and pillows off my bed and hidden inside of a closet.