Awesome man.
Felt great then a tiny bit of issues.
But like MMJ
Maybe better sleep than in like 8-12 yrs
Pretty crazy, in a good way. I like it.
Stocked up 4-5 months at a lower cost just in case ... Well some was a pretty high cost but Arizona to Western CDA and national mail services were fast and cheap.
I love (not all the time) myself but kind of hate myself for using accutane (surely terrible for mood disorders - should have fasted 21-30 d or so instead), and TEI instead of effexor... And money instead of Lamotrigine and TEI and other stuff like Choline instead .. and Fin? Well it's such a terrible drug... Could literally use those same things or nothing instead. So kind of feel bad that I didn't know about Tei at 20 or 24 or even last yr but you live and learn.
Yea man most people (95%+?) don't know about TEI. All the bad shit forces you to learn about this. In the end it will be beneficial. Otherwise you might have felt OK (if you never used all those drugs) but never to full potential. Some days I feel better then I ever felt. Even pre-fin. Just without the libido yet. Other days I feel worse - those days can sometimes hit you in the face and overwhelm you but it always gets better next day for me.
I think I would still be eating pizza, PUFA all the time and overall ruining my (mental) health. Eventually it would of bitten me in the ass anyways. I was living very unhealthy. I was also not healthy in the mind.
Biggest thing I learned is that you need to be able to be alone. I was always scared of being alone. Now I am alone and I feel great. I still have good amount of friends I talk to. But I am not dating and my social life is not that vibrant. Yet I am still happy on most days.
I learned that I can be alone and this has stopped me from chasing the wrong things. Giving girls a lot of attention, wasting time on crap instead of going after what I want. Now I do what I want. I don't care about a lot of the smaller problems people talk about anymore. I have become more assertive at work through this experience. I do not care so much what people think about what I do. It is a great feeling and for me it is close to freedom.
It is not all bad. Bad shit gives you personality. And it puts things into perspective.
Even if you do not have experienced PFS. A lot of people experience other bad shit. That bad shit will also make you appreciate the good.
Anyways I will throw an update out there when I have something important to say lol.
I think TEI is step in right direction for me. At least it is something I can focus on. Instead of just guessing and trying random shit.
