Something to be aware of when you start the program.
Some days you are going to feel worse and your mind will fuck with you hard. I get waves of this. You start doubting everything you are doing because of this. I start doubting all theories, etc. because I feel like I am getting worse on those days. All confidence I built up before that in the program or in believes vanish.
It goes like this:
Feel better than normal for 3-7 days. Then all of a sudden you notice a big downswing, your energy goes down, your mindset goes in the gutter and all of a sudden you seem to be exactly how you were in the beginning. You start doubting everything you are doing thinking you are not making progress, etc. I also notice I get muscle spasms on these downswings.
I had to experience this a few times before I could see what was happening. I have had this a few times. But every time after it gets real nasty I get better after. The muscle spasms disappear and my mind is better than before.
Nasty reactions: anger, muscle spasms (first was in my shoulder, then in my eardrum) negative thoughts, depression, no energy, irritation, insecurity, thoughts of the past, etc.
On TEI you will see how bad you really are. How far you have gone from being healthy - no this is not woo woo - it is REAL. And even old problems will start coming to the surface. Problems, anxieties and even insecurities from the past get right into your face. They become intense sometimes. But after you are better. The problem is gone. You feel cleaner after in the mind and more stable.
Retracing, Healing Reactions and Flare-ups
It is an all pervasive feeling. It changes how you think, etc. that is why some people need a practitioner. But now you know what it is and to welcome these downswings IMO.