-I'm very sorry man. I was lucky... did get some help but that's against a lot of "counter-helpful" things... --> they will not get it, but get better, despite them.
-Don't ever give up man.
@Dhair -- this place was therapeutic for me, for sure. And over the phone... parents just can't see wtf is going on / and often they'll assume the kid is crazy. - the forum... now I can explain whatever... and usually don't bc I find it agitating (explanation), however* back then in crash -- yeah it was pretty hard to be coherent at all for me.
-Also* Like Jacknap said; If Helen made you an offer --- fuck it man, just do it. I would cross the ocean for the help I got here esp in Jan and the coming months/ let me eventually be self sustaining again and who I was before and better in some ways, but work on things that I worked on before*.
-Ppl been letting me down way before adulthood, 21 22 stopped letting that happen but yes*** needed severely help last yr and start this yr... but usually not so much....
--> but no man is an island 100% of the time, everyone needs help some time... no shame in it, and no reason to give up, and if your mother doesn't understand - that's awful but it's no reason to lose it out there, you can still recover. Recovered all kinds of shyt ppl don't even know about, myself, including money, time - which should be impossible, but got more in a year and 2 years than 5 yrs before that at times, and will continue too, esp after this PFS stuff is behind me. Continuing 6mo ago, and now for sure*.
Never give up.
-My biggest motivator in life for yrs was proving others wrong and related things, but also myself*.
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@Dhair there was a kid here very young, told me he can't and he isn't strong enough/ doesn't get it... other problems with his life (some pretty major* and I relate to them);
-And 2mo later he mysteriously got to 40% he did a 7 d water fast (skinny/ lean kid)... and he just got better and better, went back to his university*.
-One person's support/ one friend can make all the difference in the world man, I know that first hand, and also being there for others in their time of need, pfs and otherwise.
-as well as I can / could.
-I had no one dude, I was 22, life was destroyed mania, legal/illegal things/ friends betrayal./ had to leave the country + PSSD all at once + mania + depression + mixed cycling + severe memory issues -- it was brutal. + 3-4 addictions, on the run. It was fucking crazy. Moved to a big city/ slowly got my life on track. That was before this pfs stuff/ finally an adult... in many ways, and looked successful or nearly... and it was taken away, but I didn't let it stop me. It was close*, but Hackstasis and other places/ got me out of it... and resiliency. For a long time/ acted like it was alright, but now it is... it was even longer this "faking it to make it stage" after Effexor/ but no guidance somehow got there or little guidance.
-guidance can save a life man, i know it.
