No longer ruined, no more than all the slobs drinking, eating, doing mind-numbing, soul-crushing work that the masses are. It isn't permanent, Pedal (most at least for many people). I've been thru way way too many things that seemed practically permanently damaging (swore I had serious brain damage post antidepressant (luckily it was untreatable, "permanent disorders" and side effects).
Merck didn't ruin me... Many have tried, they've all failed. In the end I'll get what's coming to me, but not until I have a lot of fun for every second lost.
"Alpha" this and alpha that.
If someone called me a beta in real life, they'll wish they had pfs, BC as I said I'm not ruined and there are people out there that deserve all that's happened to me, more than me. But I'm not gonna whine and call everyone a "fag" on the internet, because a actually manly (alpha, true, whatever stupid word one may use), at least tries to walk away from fights, and doesn't have anything to prove to anyone, except themself maybe and loved ones.
In a few years "Merck" will be like "Pfizer" to me... Conjures up resentment for a couple years, vague anger for a few more, and just a memory from the past in a couple more after that.
If someone ruined me, best believe you'd hear about it on tv, because unlike the average asshole, I'm very hard to kill (ruin, feminize, etc).
As a man, have to do whatever it takes to survive/get better / succeed /win or whatever it is others want to do.
If I cure all this shyt, I honestly think my second university was worse than pssd and PFS (minus suicidal and manic parts --- that was fucking horrendous), but sexual sides and less friends --- who gives a fuck, I'll work on meeting more women as I get better and already have... Friends lost? Weren't useful anyways.
I'll leave crying out for being ruined to the protestors who scream at me in genders studies classes (just joking but also that has happened).
I'll ruin a lot before I go. Can't kill me if I'm dead inside.
Just never let this kind of thing happen again, and you can't be ruined. In the end, life kills us all.
Also
@pedal, I took it to offset other medical stuff that literally if true has and will ruin my life again (bad approach offsetting side effects with more drugs), I'm not some weak beta boy... Anyone who thinks this is funny or we are all ruined and we are not men and if they feel ruined, then everyone else must be too, is incorrect.
Coming from someone who hates pharma.
Ever had a gun to your head? I have... Immediately went to school after.
Ever wake up not knowing what happened 6/ the last 14 h and really most of the last month? I have... So how could these fuckos ruin me ?