MNK's Log. PSSD Recov 12-18mo 10', PFS recov 11m-16mo 18’. hEDS/AuDHD/Markets.
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i shd be a phd econ instantly analyzing well price axn from memory silver platinum us stocks btc etc.
but im bad at math and ya im not doing another four yr degree LOLLL
i shd be monetizing my podcast/ blogs... and making mns on my rants and books
but i need fking money to exist in this gay corporate technocratic oligarchical hellscape that our tranny incel school shooter baby eating/ raping
govts have forced onto us.
i will be rich and i will be young forever.
and i will never die
but even whales... die.
when i go, i rtn to the ocean.
you'll see me in the skiez.
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also keep treating me like a criminal canadian banks authorties
and ya ill ivy league law your ass into bankruptcy. or liquidate u when im at 10 figs later.
but im bad at math and ya im not doing another four yr degree LOLLL
i shd be monetizing my podcast/ blogs... and making mns on my rants and books
but i need fking money to exist in this gay corporate technocratic oligarchical hellscape that our tranny incel school shooter baby eating/ raping
govts have forced onto us.
i will be rich and i will be young forever.
and i will never die
but even whales... die.
when i go, i rtn to the ocean.
you'll see me in the skiez.
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also keep treating me like a criminal canadian banks authorties
and ya ill ivy league law your ass into bankruptcy. or liquidate u when im at 10 figs later.
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ILL get the funds i need.
and ill stay young looking forever
perfect hair density volume lashes brows
and leanness for genetics plus enhanced. dht. and sexual fn optimized too.
and financial and legal freedom. as a human being.
i hate it but women like some stubble i mean it looks good but i go stubble to full beard and there's some grey in like fking 10hrs or 24hrs at times if no HRT.
ill go to gym may shave but ya i put on clothes after just showering wiped off test and derma a bit so double the dose basically and took rad.
defs looking more aesthetic which is nice but i had perfect skin but depresn fkd me up, didn't wash 2x a day, now i shower 1.4x a day only bc of disability. it shd be 2x a day tho.
i actually am ripped 560-80R% of time its just fking up diet and water retn but sure i prolly have mid hi test mid hi estrogen or hi both but for rad140 fking up test but i need lower estrogen and
higher dht. but no estrogen = fuck my joints. too much = even crazier prolly. well ya.
too much dht = also bad for joints/ ligament laxity.
is the fingers subluxing the double dose of test? no i think randro 4andro sarms all .. and prollly anavar, dht comps do that too.
androgens do weaken conn tissue
and u rest and grow and tear down and recover muscle fibers,... faster than you do conn tissue. hence injuries when going natural and no longer as m of a superhero.
most of the less superhero stuff is well for sure hEDS (or if I have HSD, agn may be same disorder, maybe im not as flexible myb its bc of scoliosis or fusions or who knows but the 1/1mn neuro disorder, pssd, pfs.. i mean im pretty fking rare every other way, why wd i have 1/500 hsd and not 1/5000 hEDS possibly 1/3500)). Or well a rarer eds, maybe.
and ill stay young looking forever
perfect hair density volume lashes brows
and leanness for genetics plus enhanced. dht. and sexual fn optimized too.
and financial and legal freedom. as a human being.
i hate it but women like some stubble i mean it looks good but i go stubble to full beard and there's some grey in like fking 10hrs or 24hrs at times if no HRT.
ill go to gym may shave but ya i put on clothes after just showering wiped off test and derma a bit so double the dose basically and took rad.
defs looking more aesthetic which is nice but i had perfect skin but depresn fkd me up, didn't wash 2x a day, now i shower 1.4x a day only bc of disability. it shd be 2x a day tho.
i actually am ripped 560-80R% of time its just fking up diet and water retn but sure i prolly have mid hi test mid hi estrogen or hi both but for rad140 fking up test but i need lower estrogen and
higher dht. but no estrogen = fuck my joints. too much = even crazier prolly. well ya.
too much dht = also bad for joints/ ligament laxity.
is the fingers subluxing the double dose of test? no i think randro 4andro sarms all .. and prollly anavar, dht comps do that too.
androgens do weaken conn tissue
and u rest and grow and tear down and recover muscle fibers,... faster than you do conn tissue. hence injuries when going natural and no longer as m of a superhero.
most of the less superhero stuff is well for sure hEDS (or if I have HSD, agn may be same disorder, maybe im not as flexible myb its bc of scoliosis or fusions or who knows but the 1/1mn neuro disorder, pssd, pfs.. i mean im pretty fking rare every other way, why wd i have 1/500 hsd and not 1/5000 hEDS possibly 1/3500)). Or well a rarer eds, maybe.
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also i dont know last nite sex fn 85/10 w testes big better and feels better
but am... maybe that day or day before ya i mean 5-6/10 not pleasurable as m and couldn't feel the o
however less fluid and sarms will fuk sexual fn but also help it
maybe dex leaving system maybe lith leaving system longer term there dex is well that's taken longer term but leaves system daily.
maybe carbs.. but i have hi sexual fn even w just milk as carbs or as a treat on top of carnivore.
fkd up my stomach was the candy oh henry frozen bar helpful for gains prolly but bad for stomach helpful for sexual fn? i dont fking know but either
dex vasoconstrn or rad140 or pfs or just fucking no lh and fsh fk things up and yet like being ripped i mean sex fn and rippedness are their daily.
so what fks it up?
the hypermobility and dign issues and water retn and estrogenic comps: test cream, dermacrine, rad140 with no dht initiated to reduce estadiol... -- water retn/ not seeming ripped.
the sexual fn idk i think just infertility n never using hcg and the like, i work on overall fitness rather than think of pfs, and same w fitness/mobility, rather than think abt EDS (tho ya that's hard to totally ignore., but i gotta live w/ the latter foreverz).
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Test cream is good. even better w dht / dht derivs all that on hand stat.
but ya while it works and such i want to get married have kids sooner than later and yet... i mean, im gonna have to spend 1-2 yrs fixing fertilty. gonna get on Marek Health's protocol soon,
already had micronized prog and the b.. need the hcg.
dermacrine helps my anxiety and mood depresn.
I think sexual fn but i mean... im sure it does.
I think sexual fn at times fine on test cream alone.
better w/ rad140. surely better consistently more w. anavar and dht comps.
and after for a long time (if randro/4andro cycle results and the herbs and all that repeats with strong sexual fn like 1.5-2yrs later still)...
but whatever ill stay on hcg or better.
in essence so many psyche, hormonal, i guess cancer drugs too cause "chemical castration" and yeah I mean I'd like to avoid that and I think you should too....
but if this guy gets results and isn't painful/ harmful.... then perhaps go. Do a lot of research. I don't love Dr. Powell but surely he has helped some with this.
Good to be optimistic and realistic as we can be. Not get hopes up too too much but not live in despair (when reaching out medically for some rare insane illness, like PFS - Admiral).]
my sexual fn also could be POIS/ porn a bit but ya i mean 4-5d a year. down from hrs a day. and down from like need needing internet blockers but ya i use greyscale color filters/ similar and did delete x dot com etc... so ya i mean im hyperactive and hyper addicted to a lot of stuff. 99% of relapses are fantasy and non nudes but sometimes model videos. and ya that's bad. or fantasizing abt someone i met or just idk force of habit need to cum. but i want it to work best so i shd abstain a yr straight but its fking hard.
but am... maybe that day or day before ya i mean 5-6/10 not pleasurable as m and couldn't feel the o
however less fluid and sarms will fuk sexual fn but also help it
maybe dex leaving system maybe lith leaving system longer term there dex is well that's taken longer term but leaves system daily.
maybe carbs.. but i have hi sexual fn even w just milk as carbs or as a treat on top of carnivore.
fkd up my stomach was the candy oh henry frozen bar helpful for gains prolly but bad for stomach helpful for sexual fn? i dont fking know but either
dex vasoconstrn or rad140 or pfs or just fucking no lh and fsh fk things up and yet like being ripped i mean sex fn and rippedness are their daily.
so what fks it up?
the hypermobility and dign issues and water retn and estrogenic comps: test cream, dermacrine, rad140 with no dht initiated to reduce estadiol... -- water retn/ not seeming ripped.
the sexual fn idk i think just infertility n never using hcg and the like, i work on overall fitness rather than think of pfs, and same w fitness/mobility, rather than think abt EDS (tho ya that's hard to totally ignore., but i gotta live w/ the latter foreverz).
--RE: ON NOFAP:
Test cream is good. even better w dht / dht derivs all that on hand stat.
but ya while it works and such i want to get married have kids sooner than later and yet... i mean, im gonna have to spend 1-2 yrs fixing fertilty. gonna get on Marek Health's protocol soon,
already had micronized prog and the b.. need the hcg.
dermacrine helps my anxiety and mood depresn.
I think sexual fn but i mean... im sure it does.
I think sexual fn at times fine on test cream alone.
better w/ rad140. surely better consistently more w. anavar and dht comps.
and after for a long time (if randro/4andro cycle results and the herbs and all that repeats with strong sexual fn like 1.5-2yrs later still)...
but whatever ill stay on hcg or better.
in essence so many psyche, hormonal, i guess cancer drugs too cause "chemical castration" and yeah I mean I'd like to avoid that and I think you should too....
but if this guy gets results and isn't painful/ harmful.... then perhaps go. Do a lot of research. I don't love Dr. Powell but surely he has helped some with this.
Good to be optimistic and realistic as we can be. Not get hopes up too too much but not live in despair (when reaching out medically for some rare insane illness, like PFS - Admiral).]
my sexual fn also could be POIS/ porn a bit but ya i mean 4-5d a year. down from hrs a day. and down from like need needing internet blockers but ya i use greyscale color filters/ similar and did delete x dot com etc... so ya i mean im hyperactive and hyper addicted to a lot of stuff. 99% of relapses are fantasy and non nudes but sometimes model videos. and ya that's bad. or fantasizing abt someone i met or just idk force of habit need to cum. but i want it to work best so i shd abstain a yr straight but its fking hard.
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telling this dumbass frd of mine that. this homo attkd me at gym and i put him in his place
and he brought 2 homos w him, his bf's. told my brother my frds that get into fights everywhere would understand that I DEESCELATED and would destroy those idiots
and that just bc i get in altercations and or am accosted frequently (in past, in toronto, when i was hyper/hypomanic). just bc i understand the streets doesn't mean im sketchy.
u want a cockboy soyboy lawyer?? or a street smart lawyer? same w/ trading. i never started no fights.
i ain't want to fight but these gay kids tried to start shyt i scared the shit out of one. im still a nice guy
i try and hide my krziness around attractive females that i like (so usually i dont, i dont give a fuck son). u hide, i ain't gotta.
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and he brought 2 homos w him, his bf's. told my brother my frds that get into fights everywhere would understand that I DEESCELATED and would destroy those idiots
and that just bc i get in altercations and or am accosted frequently (in past, in toronto, when i was hyper/hypomanic). just bc i understand the streets doesn't mean im sketchy.
u want a cockboy soyboy lawyer?? or a street smart lawyer? same w/ trading. i never started no fights.
i ain't want to fight but these gay kids tried to start shyt i scared the shit out of one. im still a nice guy
i try and hide my krziness around attractive females that i like (so usually i dont, i dont give a fuck son). u hide, i ain't gotta.
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every fking day some 2-10k bill
window washing who cares fk that guy where is he im trading and trying to lift at home gym n play forza and drink water and try on outfits
furnace cleaning this n that
fix that
fix the fking roof snow damage/wind damage...
fix this fix that
like can i just fking work in silence
my mom forced me toronto trip wh was fine but i have 8 figs pending. im back. it was so short.
cdnt see my biz partner, nor any of my old frds.
im booking next trip and flying am... or at nite where i ... went to bed early or smthing.
anyways murder all my trds. and lift smthing heavy. and finish meditating nearly done. wrkt here n extnl gym? perhaps.
the fuck i gain muscle n fat quickly and only muscle on gear.. recomping but ya this isnt gna be like first cycles. and also ya i cant train 4-6 x a week unless lifting lower weights, cannot afford to fk up my rite ankle and wrist. well i mean ankle is fkd up permanently... but.. idk cant afford knees ankles wrists fkd up... ideally only 2-3 injured at a time and minorly.
window washing who cares fk that guy where is he im trading and trying to lift at home gym n play forza and drink water and try on outfits
furnace cleaning this n that
fix that
fix the fking roof snow damage/wind damage...
fix this fix that
like can i just fking work in silence
my mom forced me toronto trip wh was fine but i have 8 figs pending. im back. it was so short.
cdnt see my biz partner, nor any of my old frds.
im booking next trip and flying am... or at nite where i ... went to bed early or smthing.
anyways murder all my trds. and lift smthing heavy. and finish meditating nearly done. wrkt here n extnl gym? perhaps.
the fuck i gain muscle n fat quickly and only muscle on gear.. recomping but ya this isnt gna be like first cycles. and also ya i cant train 4-6 x a week unless lifting lower weights, cannot afford to fk up my rite ankle and wrist. well i mean ankle is fkd up permanently... but.. idk cant afford knees ankles wrists fkd up... ideally only 2-3 injured at a time and minorly.
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fk outta test a couple days
been lifting hard.
but ill get it friday or monday, my 400 dollar test cream vs 20-80 for vials. not cov by insur. fk me.
hurt. defs wants it.
glass joint, liquid imagination paper joint, and cannabis in coffee, advil, turmeric for now.
ill quit test cream n derma temporarily and rad, to de estrogenize...
then ill be more ripped.
crypto mean coin whale called me baddie mos ago
and babes and gay guys like me at the gym nearby
the gym w all those girls except non fitness girls, is downtown
i go there soon
for now i trade, take care of the other business side of stuff, and workout, but for nows i rest and plays... and i monitor .. 3x and 3x then 3x this shyt for some shyt to wrk with. fk me.
been lifting hard.
but ill get it friday or monday, my 400 dollar test cream vs 20-80 for vials. not cov by insur. fk me.
hurt. defs wants it.
glass joint, liquid imagination paper joint, and cannabis in coffee, advil, turmeric for now.
ill quit test cream n derma temporarily and rad, to de estrogenize...
then ill be more ripped.
crypto mean coin whale called me baddie mos ago
and babes and gay guys like me at the gym nearby
the gym w all those girls except non fitness girls, is downtown
i go there soon
for now i trade, take care of the other business side of stuff, and workout, but for nows i rest and plays... and i monitor .. 3x and 3x then 3x this shyt for some shyt to wrk with. fk me.
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cant my brother j send me anavar scripts and like 2k worth of medical tape lol . no.
the guys a rockstar. you're an inspirn to all (cool hot couple, hot ukrn girl at gym more recent idk 2-5d ago that one, you are a movie star, when did u become so ripped). ppl said to me recent days. first was yrs ago. but that's nice. uh hu then whys my life on fucking fire all the time???? fuck me how the fk i solve all probs immediately and workout heres and main gym. and go meet girl downtown 13km away, and solve legal and financial shyt, and work on myown stuff, without getting agitated w business prtnr, let alone other mofos? and why cant i do any govt shyt at nite, online?? and why do i need to fucking operate in 9 to 5 world when im fucking self employed. i did this shyt to be a whale and stay pretty and yet life's still such a bitch at times. i fuck up, i may ruin both ankles and wrists, like this is krazy. lol. older family frdsand stuff ur ignoring hello i have a disability... ppl are fking making me krazy. i go play forza and workout soon. ya i look good but i need to become perfect. a perfect godtier mammal. a lean sexually charged/ sexually deviant whale.
the guys a rockstar. you're an inspirn to all (cool hot couple, hot ukrn girl at gym more recent idk 2-5d ago that one, you are a movie star, when did u become so ripped). ppl said to me recent days. first was yrs ago. but that's nice. uh hu then whys my life on fucking fire all the time???? fuck me how the fk i solve all probs immediately and workout heres and main gym. and go meet girl downtown 13km away, and solve legal and financial shyt, and work on myown stuff, without getting agitated w business prtnr, let alone other mofos? and why cant i do any govt shyt at nite, online?? and why do i need to fucking operate in 9 to 5 world when im fucking self employed. i did this shyt to be a whale and stay pretty and yet life's still such a bitch at times. i fuck up, i may ruin both ankles and wrists, like this is krazy. lol. older family frdsand stuff ur ignoring hello i have a disability... ppl are fking making me krazy. i go play forza and workout soon. ya i look good but i need to become perfect. a perfect godtier mammal. a lean sexually charged/ sexually deviant whale.
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is this lady on drugs or smthing???
i said my neck dislocated. from the vax and ya i was exercising during many various injuries, but that was an issue exacerbated by a fking defective-collagen-disability, it was the vax....
anyways, oh u alm die all the time "stop doing drugs. stop exercising so much. actually eat,: or "get laid" if pissed off depressed, when i was hiding my neck moving all over the place, and inability to walk.
that was other ppl not this lady and that was ages ago, telling me to get laid when disability was peak minus the peak in pfs crash.
ppl are retards. and ya i know im hypersensitive but ppl are mean. telling me to ge ta job when i was harmed w/ a tbi.
this fmly frd says i look like a movie star.
so ya ive gotten that a lot of times, rockstar, young as fk, and stuff. an inspiration to us all this ukrn gym woman said.
that's nice.
and ya thanks for compliment but no it isnt just over exercising.
it's defective collagen
jesus christ
i hate explng fk all.
even ppl that are on your side are half deaf or in their own world anyways.
need more fresh air, tiny bit more weed. i workout home gym + extrnl gym , and shower first agn.
or i play forza five workout at home. and fking short this current bs, make back some cash... and fking then 10x that and 2 x then i got enuff for some visa payments, paying a frd back, and any
last emergency cost for this other shyt, im wrking on.
i said my neck dislocated. from the vax and ya i was exercising during many various injuries, but that was an issue exacerbated by a fking defective-collagen-disability, it was the vax....
anyways, oh u alm die all the time "stop doing drugs. stop exercising so much. actually eat,: or "get laid" if pissed off depressed, when i was hiding my neck moving all over the place, and inability to walk.
that was other ppl not this lady and that was ages ago, telling me to get laid when disability was peak minus the peak in pfs crash.
ppl are retards. and ya i know im hypersensitive but ppl are mean. telling me to ge ta job when i was harmed w/ a tbi.
this fmly frd says i look like a movie star.
so ya ive gotten that a lot of times, rockstar, young as fk, and stuff. an inspiration to us all this ukrn gym woman said.
that's nice.
and ya thanks for compliment but no it isnt just over exercising.
it's defective collagen
jesus christ
i hate explng fk all.
even ppl that are on your side are half deaf or in their own world anyways.
need more fresh air, tiny bit more weed. i workout home gym + extrnl gym , and shower first agn.
or i play forza five workout at home. and fking short this current bs, make back some cash... and fking then 10x that and 2 x then i got enuff for some visa payments, paying a frd back, and any
last emergency cost for this other shyt, im wrking on.
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jesus fk.
i wish u all well.
i lost my sony headphns fuck me...
so its hard to mtn
stoicism playlist - meditation - workout 1/1 or - workout 1 and 2 - and my own trades, and wake up 1-2am. been waking 8 7 5pm fuck. but slept a lot only bc of weed and or lith.
spacing out mood meds from exercise and performance meds (dex, test, dermacrine, rad/anavar/dht).
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with ADHD/ being eccentric
oh break up your fault
injured nearly dead your fault
graduate late your fault
no1 understands what the fk u do for a living, and that's also your fault somehow
PTSD over NDE's also my fault. anyways ill work on trauma and marry an 11/10 but see abt some chicks this girl i really miss but i cant ex
\be relaxed when legal financial and well over seven figs is pending.
im going krzy at times
i distance myself and meditate a lot, then i deal w / ppl.
whether business, the gym, going outside, family, women, frds, new frds, work, well i mean i wake up and work and meditate but i really hate dealing
with arguments/ stress, wo my meds/ meditating a bit, at lst some test, dex, or weed... then wait then dex, and then HRT.
--actually no. test --dermacrine --weed ideally -- dex, later rad or var. but ya order changes at times, as does my waking time. im fixing that.
been like 20yrs++ my bro and i nocturnal tho ya i mean he was a resident in a competitive surgical prgm.
I am a trader tho, its still hard.. esp w the Audhd and all.
anyways, im sorting out some more. and making myself a perfect ish day, ev day, later perfect when i get the girl that matters most.
i wish u all well.
i lost my sony headphns fuck me...
so its hard to mtn
stoicism playlist - meditation - workout 1/1 or - workout 1 and 2 - and my own trades, and wake up 1-2am. been waking 8 7 5pm fuck. but slept a lot only bc of weed and or lith.
spacing out mood meds from exercise and performance meds (dex, test, dermacrine, rad/anavar/dht).
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with ADHD/ being eccentric
oh break up your fault
injured nearly dead your fault
graduate late your fault
no1 understands what the fk u do for a living, and that's also your fault somehow
PTSD over NDE's also my fault. anyways ill work on trauma and marry an 11/10 but see abt some chicks this girl i really miss but i cant ex
\be relaxed when legal financial and well over seven figs is pending.
im going krzy at times
i distance myself and meditate a lot, then i deal w / ppl.
whether business, the gym, going outside, family, women, frds, new frds, work, well i mean i wake up and work and meditate but i really hate dealing
with arguments/ stress, wo my meds/ meditating a bit, at lst some test, dex, or weed... then wait then dex, and then HRT.
--actually no. test --dermacrine --weed ideally -- dex, later rad or var. but ya order changes at times, as does my waking time. im fixing that.
been like 20yrs++ my bro and i nocturnal tho ya i mean he was a resident in a competitive surgical prgm.
I am a trader tho, its still hard.. esp w the Audhd and all.
anyways, im sorting out some more. and making myself a perfect ish day, ev day, later perfect when i get the girl that matters most.
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stoned less smart. rad less smart. and ev1 loves me.
drink ev1 loves well i mean to an extent... not always the best drinker.
be dumb = retard maxing = max women.
and yet**** you need to be smart to not die, get murdered, go to prison, win your trades, do well academically.
fuck.
so i was onl;y on dex for yrs
needed less, and more test/dht.
and some fking weed/ psychedelics, hella kt tape and braces too. like at 20 i needed that. well not the test so much till 27 -29 or so, but ya earlier better
25 i shd have been on gear i alrdy trained 9 yrs by then
remembering like 90 x stood up wmn or dissapeared ran away usually
i was hiding EDS/ ctpsd... autism i guess
fuck my life
and ya disability parts, it is scary and i mean i dont look disabled till meds or till hurt or i move the wrong way.
im stoned, and some dex but wrong order so not the smartest, and also rad140 makes u a bit less intelligent perhaps.
although it has some focus like/ concentration like benefits. prolly being exhausted and hurt, and needing to make back funds in own personal trades,
and ppl constantly over at the house, and not having my fav headphones to meditate, game, and listen to music (i.e. zone the fuck out/ lock the fuck in, hyperfocus, help AuDHD), that's what is fking
making me messed up in terms of anxiety.
same time, rad makes u more depressed and anxious.....
but yes a lot stronger, taking 15-25mg a couple x a week but not for long.
insane nausea with things like zinc, carbs that are bad (not sweet potatoes, yogurt, arugula... i mean like candy. american/canadian oh henry i.e. poison).
and horrible hunger pangs w carbs
none or near none without em.
ah whatever i gotta run take care
still cant run my life young youthful good looking. really smart. hard working.
none of that matters... except setting your approach to life and work ethic to optimize for your goals.
i mean above is good but ya my life still is fkd in some ways.
ASD/ADHD, cptsd. relnships. soon tho more chill and more time for fun.
drink ev1 loves well i mean to an extent... not always the best drinker.
be dumb = retard maxing = max women.
and yet**** you need to be smart to not die, get murdered, go to prison, win your trades, do well academically.
fuck.
so i was onl;y on dex for yrs
needed less, and more test/dht.
and some fking weed/ psychedelics, hella kt tape and braces too. like at 20 i needed that. well not the test so much till 27 -29 or so, but ya earlier better
25 i shd have been on gear i alrdy trained 9 yrs by then
remembering like 90 x stood up wmn or dissapeared ran away usually
i was hiding EDS/ ctpsd... autism i guess
fuck my life
and ya disability parts, it is scary and i mean i dont look disabled till meds or till hurt or i move the wrong way.
im stoned, and some dex but wrong order so not the smartest, and also rad140 makes u a bit less intelligent perhaps.
although it has some focus like/ concentration like benefits. prolly being exhausted and hurt, and needing to make back funds in own personal trades,
and ppl constantly over at the house, and not having my fav headphones to meditate, game, and listen to music (i.e. zone the fuck out/ lock the fuck in, hyperfocus, help AuDHD), that's what is fking
making me messed up in terms of anxiety.
same time, rad makes u more depressed and anxious.....
but yes a lot stronger, taking 15-25mg a couple x a week but not for long.
insane nausea with things like zinc, carbs that are bad (not sweet potatoes, yogurt, arugula... i mean like candy. american/canadian oh henry i.e. poison).
and horrible hunger pangs w carbs
none or near none without em.
ah whatever i gotta run take care
still cant run my life young youthful good looking. really smart. hard working.
none of that matters... except setting your approach to life and work ethic to optimize for your goals.
i mean above is good but ya my life still is fkd in some ways.
ASD/ADHD, cptsd. relnships. soon tho more chill and more time for fun.
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MNK99. - i killed pfs in 6-12mo after a yr bedridden. and killed pssd pre forums. as a kid. hEDS/AuDHDtrader/ economist, lwyr myb. . podcaster/ racecar driver/ god's whale. the devil wears prada. crypto fascist nazi . /various contracts.
MNK99. - i killed pfs in 6-12mo after a yr bedridden. and killed pssd pre forums. as a kid. hEDS/AuDHDtrader/ economist, lwyr myb. trdr defz. fk me. ignore these fking trolls in life. /various contracts.
"And I wear my sunglasses at night So I can, So I can See the light that's right before my eyes While she's deceiving me, she cuts my security (has) She got control of me I turn to her and say
Don't switch the blade on the guy in shades (oh no) Don't masquerade with the guy in shades (oh no) (I can't believe it) (cuz) You got it made with the guy in shades (oh no)"
MNK99. - i killed pfs in 6-12mo after a yr bedridden. and killed pssd pre forums. as a kid. hEDS/AuDHDtrader/ economist, lwyr myb. . podcaster/ racecar driver/ god's whale. the devil wears prada. crypto fascist nazi . /various contracts.
MNK99. - i killed pfs in 6-12mo after a yr bedridden. and killed pssd pre forums. as a kid. hEDS/AuDHDtrader/ economist, lwyr myb. trdr defz. fk me. ignore these fking trolls in life. /various contracts.
"And I wear my sunglasses at night So I can, So I can See the light that's right before my eyes While she's deceiving me, she cuts my security (has) She got control of me I turn to her and say
Don't switch the blade on the guy in shades (oh no) Don't masquerade with the guy in shades (oh no) (I can't believe it) (cuz) You got it made with the guy in shades (oh no)"
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medt. stoicism. wrkt or drive or play armored core 6 orcyberpunk or finish SMT one day, or persona i start... next yr. finish cyber this yr and stellar blade and start n finish dmc 5. multiplayer gay but i need hardcore sim rides.
sim racing rig future....
btw i can drive way easier now... normal cars to gt3 / gt4. cuz of asseto corsa. not joking. helped me get over fear. ill practice 90-120 d and try and avd getting license in dead of winter. i have one from when i was a kid but untreated adhd and i was on effexor. so prolly only got it bc of reflexes and learning quickly. but ya ill drive like my bro now. lots of family into like AMG, porsche, and like motorbikes some cousins (defs not doing that).
sim racing rig future....
btw i can drive way easier now... normal cars to gt3 / gt4. cuz of asseto corsa. not joking. helped me get over fear. ill practice 90-120 d and try and avd getting license in dead of winter. i have one from when i was a kid but untreated adhd and i was on effexor. so prolly only got it bc of reflexes and learning quickly. but ya ill drive like my bro now. lots of family into like AMG, porsche, and like motorbikes some cousins (defs not doing that).
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will see about FANATEK VS MOZA VS ASETEK VS THRUSTMASTER.
--r3 works ps5 but ill see.
Comparison: Current vs. Upcoming
Brand Native PS5 Support? Status (Aug 2026) Recommendation for PS5
Fanatec Yes ✅ Available Now (GT DD Pro, CS DD+) Best Choice. Buy immediately for guaranteed compatibility and FullForce FFB.
Moza Coming Soon ⏳
(In Dev w/ Gran Turismo) Wait if you can delay. If you need a wheel now, you must buy an adapter (Raslution 2).
Simagic No ❌ PC Only (Adapter workaround exists) Not recommended for PS5 primary use.
Asetek No ❌ PC Only Not compatible with PS5.
Strategic Advice for Your Setup
If you need PS5 compatibility TODAY: Buy the Fanatec Gran Turismo DD Pro (8Nm). It works perfectly with Assetto Corsa Competizione, Forza Horizon 5 (via PC or Xbox), and Gran Turismo 7 right out of the box.
If you can wait 3-6 months: Hold off. Moza's upcoming native PS5 wheel will likely offer better value (higher torque for lower price) and will compete directly with Fanatec.
For your future PC: All these brands (Fanatec, Moza, Simagic, Asetek) will work flawlessly on your future gaming PC for Assetto Corsa Evo and Forza Horizon 6. The decision currently hinges entirely on your immediate need for PS5.
works for hardware i have now
there are new onces coming out and either Fantec or moza i think fanatec coming to ps5
Finished
New Releases & PS5 Compatibility Update (August 2026)
You are correct; the landscape has shifted significantly in mid-2026. Fanatec remains the only brand with native PS5 support, while Moza has officially announced upcoming PS5 hardware but currently relies on adapters.
1. Fanatec: The Native PS5 King
Fanatec continues to dominate the PlayStation market with official licensing. Their compatibility is built into the wheelbase hardware, ensuring plug-and-play functionality without third-party adapters.
Gran Turismo DD Pro (5Nm & 8Nm): This is the current standard for PS5. In June 2026, it received a major firmware update adding FullForce technology, significantly improving force feedback detail and low-latency effects. It is the official wheel for Gran Turismo 7.
ClubSport DD+ (15Nm/18Nm): The high-end option for PS5, offering massive torque and full native compatibility.
Podium DD (25Nm): While powerful, note that the newest flagship lacks PS5 support; stick to the GT DD Pro or ClubSport DD+ for Sony consoles.
asseto corsa 1 modded
acc on comp modded later perhaps
and ac evo and maybe gt7 or 8 later, and forza but forza fake as fuck . fun tho.
--r3 works ps5 but ill see.
Comparison: Current vs. Upcoming
Brand Native PS5 Support? Status (Aug 2026) Recommendation for PS5
Fanatec Yes ✅ Available Now (GT DD Pro, CS DD+) Best Choice. Buy immediately for guaranteed compatibility and FullForce FFB.
Moza Coming Soon ⏳
(In Dev w/ Gran Turismo) Wait if you can delay. If you need a wheel now, you must buy an adapter (Raslution 2).
Simagic No ❌ PC Only (Adapter workaround exists) Not recommended for PS5 primary use.
Asetek No ❌ PC Only Not compatible with PS5.
Strategic Advice for Your Setup
If you need PS5 compatibility TODAY: Buy the Fanatec Gran Turismo DD Pro (8Nm). It works perfectly with Assetto Corsa Competizione, Forza Horizon 5 (via PC or Xbox), and Gran Turismo 7 right out of the box.
If you can wait 3-6 months: Hold off. Moza's upcoming native PS5 wheel will likely offer better value (higher torque for lower price) and will compete directly with Fanatec.
For your future PC: All these brands (Fanatec, Moza, Simagic, Asetek) will work flawlessly on your future gaming PC for Assetto Corsa Evo and Forza Horizon 6. The decision currently hinges entirely on your immediate need for PS5.
works for hardware i have now
there are new onces coming out and either Fantec or moza i think fanatec coming to ps5
Finished
New Releases & PS5 Compatibility Update (August 2026)
You are correct; the landscape has shifted significantly in mid-2026. Fanatec remains the only brand with native PS5 support, while Moza has officially announced upcoming PS5 hardware but currently relies on adapters.
1. Fanatec: The Native PS5 King
Fanatec continues to dominate the PlayStation market with official licensing. Their compatibility is built into the wheelbase hardware, ensuring plug-and-play functionality without third-party adapters.
Gran Turismo DD Pro (5Nm & 8Nm): This is the current standard for PS5. In June 2026, it received a major firmware update adding FullForce technology, significantly improving force feedback detail and low-latency effects. It is the official wheel for Gran Turismo 7.
ClubSport DD+ (15Nm/18Nm): The high-end option for PS5, offering massive torque and full native compatibility.
Podium DD (25Nm): While powerful, note that the newest flagship lacks PS5 support; stick to the GT DD Pro or ClubSport DD+ for Sony consoles.
asseto corsa 1 modded
acc on comp modded later perhaps
and ac evo and maybe gt7 or 8 later, and forza but forza fake as fuck . fun tho.
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perfecting TA. actually studying. easier after hcore or sandwiched w hardcore 3rd person japanese, and now korean, and chinese... and also euro axn games
but mostly MGS, and Revengeance, DEVIL MAY CRY, ninja gaiden later.
o/w ya hackerfest battlefield 2042.
Playing racing games lately. realistic ones. more on PC soon. LMU. Asetto Corsa. Maybe BEAMNG, prolly not iracing, sounds like a whole thing, subscriptions.
ill prac the family cars, n cars ill buy. maybe i can build a gaming pc now ya i mean prolly could but it'd be a bitch.
and yes, tcb the other thing.
and boom... godly.
i ignored em for a couple wks too stressed, but letters from directors.
but mostly MGS, and Revengeance, DEVIL MAY CRY, ninja gaiden later.
o/w ya hackerfest battlefield 2042.
Playing racing games lately. realistic ones. more on PC soon. LMU. Asetto Corsa. Maybe BEAMNG, prolly not iracing, sounds like a whole thing, subscriptions.
ill prac the family cars, n cars ill buy. maybe i can build a gaming pc now ya i mean prolly could but it'd be a bitch.
and yes, tcb the other thing.
and boom... godly.
i ignored em for a couple wks too stressed, but letters from directors.
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I dont use ta. only price axn. and volume.
but im adding some ta, well i do that mentally but doing it properly. that n driving.
--orgnzn. try obsidian.. more., and use this guy's outlines. -- and use that for sim racing, trading, fitness, my projects - xy, xxyy. mostly, for ADHD, orgnzn, and trading. and writing*** helps me think. keep bullet jrnl offline, fk notepad for now., and monthly and dailys, learning expert level hedge fund mgr TA (like my uncle paid 10-20k usd yrs ago from such TA), it's similar to Leg trading. anyways, get that on this thinkpad, use other to study the remaining lectures 64 ndec - feb 2024, then do 3-6mo 2025 and 2026. and ya trade chinese session, i wake up 6-7hrs after sleeping in aftn, otherwise for school/ normal ish not really life, sw. back to waking am. im napping a bit at nite or early am then sleeping at nite. if i wake and trade ny time, then i mean ya its better to workout on am's where i can. oratnite. but i can wake up monitor existing posns, and also see abt direction, and what mkt structure is, and where we are going to. mostly naked charting, some very little indicators. 3 time frame analysis. classic leg trading, al brooks is one timeframe. read/view, understand, and take notes* (ai notes, w a pendant soon, new tablet or ipad soon, on old thinkpads for now). to learn it, and have a catalogue. journalling isn't for ev1. for writers, traders, ADHD (good luck tho), it can be really helpful. this shd help for further standard education too. tried onenote, agenda, dayplanner, quo vadis, etc, etc. need freefrom, and mostly just verbal notes. for law, econ, ya u can read or listen to audiobooks or podcasts 1.5-2.5 x the speed. for math, charts, need to actually kn how to visualize it. forcing myself randomly drawing 5-20charts a week. well 10-30 soon.
but im adding some ta, well i do that mentally but doing it properly. that n driving.
--orgnzn. try obsidian.. more., and use this guy's outlines. -- and use that for sim racing, trading, fitness, my projects - xy, xxyy. mostly, for ADHD, orgnzn, and trading. and writing*** helps me think. keep bullet jrnl offline, fk notepad for now., and monthly and dailys, learning expert level hedge fund mgr TA (like my uncle paid 10-20k usd yrs ago from such TA), it's similar to Leg trading. anyways, get that on this thinkpad, use other to study the remaining lectures 64 ndec - feb 2024, then do 3-6mo 2025 and 2026. and ya trade chinese session, i wake up 6-7hrs after sleeping in aftn, otherwise for school/ normal ish not really life, sw. back to waking am. im napping a bit at nite or early am then sleeping at nite. if i wake and trade ny time, then i mean ya its better to workout on am's where i can. oratnite. but i can wake up monitor existing posns, and also see abt direction, and what mkt structure is, and where we are going to. mostly naked charting, some very little indicators. 3 time frame analysis. classic leg trading, al brooks is one timeframe. read/view, understand, and take notes* (ai notes, w a pendant soon, new tablet or ipad soon, on old thinkpads for now). to learn it, and have a catalogue. journalling isn't for ev1. for writers, traders, ADHD (good luck tho), it can be really helpful. this shd help for further standard education too. tried onenote, agenda, dayplanner, quo vadis, etc, etc. need freefrom, and mostly just verbal notes. for law, econ, ya u can read or listen to audiobooks or podcasts 1.5-2.5 x the speed. for math, charts, need to actually kn how to visualize it. forcing myself randomly drawing 5-20charts a week. well 10-30 soon.
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just want to say when dealing w health challenges and work challenges, it's nice to work on other skills/ hobbies that challenge certain difficulties.
always scared to drive, i mean i was hypo/hyper and ya im distractible. and ya i forget what im doing but... ya ive been practicing sim racing.
if ur scared of driving, i mean this shyt isn't cheap tho cheaper than a WV golf, u can get a sick setup.
mine is like 700-800 only for PS5 (prolly xbox also, THrustmaster). getting moza/fanatek / asatek racing geat later.
anyways i thought id die driving but ya in 21 days or so.. even 2-3mo, driving 10-15x or 20x, im better. online and offline. tho ya i cant really drive wo a liscense.
use sims to work on last issues i neglected cuz of CPTSD, EDS, ADHD, etc. autism if i have that, i mean i am super shy and have rejection sensitivity dysphoria. and i mean i wore earphones/headphones like 8-16hrs a day, even longer. i need music or meditation playlists to drown out noises, even when basically i have half the house to myself. all at times.... but the fking noise drives me crazy.
anyways, face your fears.
if i can drive some AMG and get back the acura tl i had well something like that, standard/manual and automatic. then ya i mean driving's not so hard.
pretty hard bc post hard lifting, but i threw a baseball... weeks ago and ya i watched my shoulder. some other stuff like that. i dont play baseball but i mean im glad i could do a tiny bid... and not dislocate shoulder nor neck/ not have to worry abt that. i know its small and ev1 knows im active anyways but trust me there's a lot of shyt that can injure me. like brushing, sleeping, etc.
lots of uncles cousins brother etc love driving and le mans, gt3, all that shyt. however, some ya they got their license late.
i literally was scared of dying driving but im better in assetto corsa, after 5-10hrs than most idiots online. and that shyt is hard. i can drive. and come to think of it, last car was a manual, Acura TL.
always scared to drive, i mean i was hypo/hyper and ya im distractible. and ya i forget what im doing but... ya ive been practicing sim racing.
if ur scared of driving, i mean this shyt isn't cheap tho cheaper than a WV golf, u can get a sick setup.
mine is like 700-800 only for PS5 (prolly xbox also, THrustmaster). getting moza/fanatek / asatek racing geat later.
anyways i thought id die driving but ya in 21 days or so.. even 2-3mo, driving 10-15x or 20x, im better. online and offline. tho ya i cant really drive wo a liscense.
use sims to work on last issues i neglected cuz of CPTSD, EDS, ADHD, etc. autism if i have that, i mean i am super shy and have rejection sensitivity dysphoria. and i mean i wore earphones/headphones like 8-16hrs a day, even longer. i need music or meditation playlists to drown out noises, even when basically i have half the house to myself. all at times.... but the fking noise drives me crazy.
anyways, face your fears.
if i can drive some AMG and get back the acura tl i had well something like that, standard/manual and automatic. then ya i mean driving's not so hard.
pretty hard bc post hard lifting, but i threw a baseball... weeks ago and ya i watched my shoulder. some other stuff like that. i dont play baseball but i mean im glad i could do a tiny bid... and not dislocate shoulder nor neck/ not have to worry abt that. i know its small and ev1 knows im active anyways but trust me there's a lot of shyt that can injure me. like brushing, sleeping, etc.
lots of uncles cousins brother etc love driving and le mans, gt3, all that shyt. however, some ya they got their license late.
i literally was scared of dying driving but im better in assetto corsa, after 5-10hrs than most idiots online. and that shyt is hard. i can drive. and come to think of it, last car was a manual, Acura TL.