MNK's Log. PSSD Recov 12-18mo 10', PFS recov 11m-16mo 18’. hEDS/AuDHD/Markets.

[MNK99]

claude + obsidian or

onenote + whatever

or grok ai and this shyt, obsidian.



dont mrry an ai. literally but mostly figuratively.

and most my knowl base offline.



from my notes.

 

[MNK99]

setup this shyt. later ipad new, and new tech/business and or gaming computer.

and like use this for notes. for mkt structure and leg trading and mostly for ADHD and workflow.



due for repetitive timed tasks.



tablet, the non OSX kind or ipad os. whatever the fk it is called. android or the other kinds i was looking at.



or obsidian, some ai, incl. ai pendants dictaphones, and bullet jrnl offline? prolly that

dictaphone, real bullet journal, some paper notebooks v nice ones i have from before, and obsidian here n there.



tracking fitness

mental health

 

[MNK99]

ADHD
creative content
trading
strategies

 

[MNK99]

ya fuck all that
made ai server old thinkpad endeavor os and cachy os on new one.
log seq -- notebook lm / my ai server offline (ollama, but slow these are 8 and 6yo thinkpads or so). they are sick.
fuck windows. fuck apple at times. but linux + android or linux + mac or some iphones, some fking android, or make em linux by pointing device to linux.

possibly jailbreak ipad air its too new tho 2019. cant jailbreak past 8-10 ipad os, defs not 26-27. and it wasn't even called ipad os a yr ago or so.

and notebook lm, viewing lecs online, and my mentor's lecs (an uncle a couple lecs, a frd way more).

and i mean i trade less often. wrapping up the other shyt. trust me nitemare there. good tho. gotta go. take care bye.

 

[MNK99]

Today • 5:01 AM
where the heck are all the pdfs i made from my notes?? from vis i uploaded??


Locating your files

Pinpointing those PDFs

Listing your files
I've confirmed several files are ready, including PDFs for your market outlook notes, lecture compendium, and trading alerts, plus an XLSX file.
Identifying your files
I've determined that your generated files are located in the Studio panel, which is on the right side of the screen.
They are right there on the right side of your screen in the Studio panel!

Here is the exact list of all 7 files (6 PDFs and 1 Excel spreadsheet) that are compiled and waiting for you over there right now:


Mapped Playbooks & Guides
notebook lm


Thoughts
Let's do this! Since we've already laid down the core foundations of R's market geometry and S's simple scalping in your master playbooks, I want to make sure we tailor this study session perfectly to your energy and focus today.
To get our roadmap dialed in, I have two quick questions for you:
How would you rate your current familiarity with these concepts? Are you still feeling like a beginner getting a handle on the basics, or are you comfortable with the terms and ready to dive straight into advanced execution?
What is your main goal for our study sessions over the next few weeks? For example, do you want to focus on mastering structural trend flips (Super Gains/Losses), dialing in your Fibonacci target zones, or practicing how to manage risk and margin during active market hours?
Once you let me know where you stand, I'll propose a clear, step-by-step plan to help you learn this material fast and with zero stress.

driving manual

server shyt

python some coding this n that

pinescript

tried docker ai made vms prefer just being on linux.

games will work on 8 yr old maxed out thinkpad sorta and defs newer 20-21' thinkpad, tho both intel processers, surely can make counterstrike 2 work @SwaZ.

frd i



ah thanks god mentor 1 and 2 ya those vids/ n notes i made, are literally from 1.5yrs almost. not 2mo lol. good. bc i mean my friend is polish american doesn't care ppl don't get his accent but he's really

smart. not 300 lectures a yr. so ya im learning and murdering trades. price axn. vol. drew for link ondo ether btc and btc! futures, and ya it works. but i am improving leg trading multi time frame analysis, then al brooks leg trading single time frame ish or whatever the difference is btwn that, and my mentors + my methodology.



so not just weaponized autism ADHD, but controlled.

and u can't lose items/ material.



do you guyz realize how m easier masters econ, law school, hell med school, fucking comp sci, physics is with some judicious ai usage. and ya i hate tech and such but i mean

bc i needed to make consistent across home, and outside network for my market analysis/theory, let alone podcast/writing material, i had to learn how to some of this.



and i mean 1-2nites i learned fucking like 2 yrs or so of stuff. it's good. im obviously no system admin but i mean if i wanted to make a badass homelab later, ya i could

ideally i pay some nigga to do that tho.


-- RISK MGMT bet
ONLY TRD WHEN U ARE FOCUSED or care
under pressure well trade 3d a week if that. and multi day, but day trding ny or china ny first 2.5 hrs even 30-60m
1-4x lev 10 or 5 or 20 30 % wide stop loss

at 9-20x lev well tighter stop and or at lst cross margin and most margin sidelined.
be
i entered 5 posns wd been 2k usd last week maybe hella more so times 50x and timesa what i used from stock mny for hedge fund inv
im owed 2-3mn or the time and principle back but ya im getting my rtns.

but i mean in case it didnt work i am not rekt/destroyed mentally.

anyways that shyt is getting done but my CPTSD gets in way. so does their not so good communicn and fuckery w company
and ya my frd listened and detaches same w his lawyer, so paying me, flying back here soon, today or tmro or so and boom done.
so need to make 2-3k and get rid of the scumbag that is holding my acct.

 

[MNK99]

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Local IP (wlan0): 10.0.0.60/24
Battery (5B10W13931): 81% [Discharging]
Locale: en_CA.UTF-8



~
❯ killall -9 brave

~
❯ sudo systemct1 restart NetworkManager
[sudo] password for manik:
sudo: systemct1: command not found

 

[MNK99]

wtf i dont understand... i need hcg for max max sexual fn, but meantime... Test cream is good (i need it for hEDS more than low lh, fsh, that matters sure but not as much as the connective tissue disorder, the last 4-6 yrs, tho basically didn't treat it per se, minus the last 2, but kind of did w/ diet, exercise, fasting, and some focus meds, and Mg, and the like).

So carbs help a lot but fk my stomach up (purely hEDS/HSD, we have stomach probs unless eat like a puritanical psychopath).

So ... just eat the carbs that barely/don't fuck me up, and I mean i like hi volume, but this makes u more likely to get injured with hEDS/HSD, doesn't it?

So i mean.. since im 80-90% carnivore, can I just workout 1-2 wks a month, i mean im 195-197lbs, i was ripped at 192, i was 220lbs after not lifting 18-24mo,
after and bc of the 1/500k ish, movement disorder (from vax)...

anyone with Marfans, or ehlers danlos?
like 450lbs leg press isa lot for me.., 450-500 maybe 550 but im not trying that. rather than 270-450lbss like 60 reps 2-3x a week,
some would Mike Mentzer and just lift 600lbs once.

IDK about that tho, that seems pretty damaging too, and most of fitness/exercise, diet , etc is just to look good/feel good for me...
maybe like have high/low days.

maybe lose my total body fitness aprch and just use upper/lower splits?

I did upper whatever i can and lower whatever i can ev day for my max gains yrs.
wrists, ankles... neck etc pretty hurt. stomach also.

maybe like 50lbs rather than 80-85lbs shoulder shrug for instance, is better. for cutting/recomp. Maybe working out 8-15x a mo, and Maybe i ancan do 22-25 w less weight, but people/ bodybuilders with hEDS, say like less volume works better for them.

why wd erections be 8-9/10 sometimes 10/10 like nofap 40-60d or 100-200d... well some fuckups, but porn like 2-3x, mostly just fantasizing/fuckups.

w/ some carbs... 120-200g / week, vs i guess far less often that good, with 0-20g of carbs a week.
despite stomach issues a couple hrs a day, am i less likely to get hurt in lifting, w more carbs? I mean lifts go up like 20-30% in some.
so you are stronger, but lots is water seriously. Water in the muscle.

IDk I guess carb cycling and carnivore-ish for me, and veg/carbs i like: yams, potatoes, rice, arugula...some bananas, mangos, yogurt.
some milk but like i need raw dairy, haven't had the time to get it.

Learning to drive automatic, manual. pretty good now, need irl lessons, alrdy better than 75-85% of gen popn tho (altho gen public = retarded).

i can also build a computer, and get tech jobs.

so really i just needed Notebook LM, logseq/notepad, gemini, and the like... to help my ADHD a lot (and ya i need a lot more than that, some meds, meditation, diet, exercise, hobbies, some social spt too). ADHD i mean AuDHD and CPTSD for example, but a lot is ADHD itself too. The other stuff is definitely there.

So i can do that and even learn math... easier... i fucking wish i had notebook lm, to make ai notes off my own sources/ experience back in IB hi school and ugrad biosci and ugrad econ and masters econ. u know how m fucking easier school is with this?

I mean if i can drive manual, i can build a fucking computer i wont bc it pisses me off, but i might... some day.

SO eat carbs for max sexual fn?
keep em higher for when lifting legs and max weightish days.

in truth ppl grow w 20-90 reps. or 10 reps in one muscle group, just adjust to feel what's best?

what fking rep range for ppl that are insane like me and hi volume but also injured as fk??? just lower the weights...
replace weights w swimming/ football (soccer not fucking american football no thx, not trying to die)... stuff like that?

im really busy at times, o/w id edit this, but ya i have no office. I meani have free office or some linux shyt idk.

 

[MNK99]

Just a note:
Notebook LM Ànd Gemini

May remove bc one of you sickos might get me killed one day if you go psycho Ànd tell Canadian/American health authorities I have a rare/ rare-ish chronic syndrome/ illness.

These documents detail a complex medical journey involving the management of **Post-Finasteride Syndrome (PFS)**, **hypermobility disorders (hEDS/HSD)**, and **neurodivergence**. The patient utilizes **hormone replacement therapy** and anabolic agents to stabilize unstable joints and restore endocrine health following a severe reaction to hair loss medication. Their recovery strategy emphasizes **self-advocacy** and unconventional therapies, including **sim racing** for physical coordination and **lithium orate** for mood stability. The narrative highlights the intersection of physical trauma, such as **vaccine-induced movement disorders**, with psychological conditions like **CPTSD** and **ADHD**. Ultimately, the sources illustrate a proactive approach to **systemic healing** that prioritizes personal research and intuition over traditional institutional protocols.

Based on the information provided in your medical journey sources, here is a consolidated note summarizing your diagnoses, treatments, and recovery timeline:

### **Medical Journey & Diagnostic Profile**
* **Systemic Overview:** You have successfully identified the interconnected nature of **AuDHD** (Autism and ADHD), **CPTSD**, and **hypermobile Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome (hEDS)** through self-advocacy prior to official clinical recognition [1].
* **hEDS/HSD Characteristics:** Although sometimes clinically labeled as Hypermobility Spectrum Disorder (HSD) due to Beighton score limitations, your symptoms align with **hEDS**, featuring systemic traits like a **marfanoid habitus** (6'4" wingspan), lower neck instability, and hyper-responsiveness to medications [1].
* **Neurodivergence Link:** Your profile reflects the significant overlap between hEDS/HSD and neurodivergence, where the hyperactive component of ADHD may serve as a **proprioceptive seeking adaptation** to stabilize loose joints [2].

### **Treatment & Medication Protocols**
* **Hormonal Support:** You utilize **Hormone Replacement Therapy (HRT)**, including testosterone, Anavar (Oxandrolone), and HCG, to address lingering Post-Finasteride Syndrome (PFS) issues and to build a **muscular "exoskeleton"** that supports unstable joints [3].
* **Mood & Anxiety Management:** Due to the severe risks of traditional mood stabilizers (e.g., Stevens-Johnson syndrome from Lamictal), you use **Lithium Orotate** as a safer, effective alternative for grounding and mood stabilization [4].
* **Medication Sensitivities:** You avoid stimulants like Adderall and Vyvanse, as well as Lamictal, because **hair loss** is a major PTSD trigger related to the severe bodily shutdown you experienced during PFS [5].
* **Physical Therapy:** **Sim racing** with a Direct Drive wheelbase is used as a therapeutic tool to build muscle memory and achieve a sensory flow state without damaging hypermobile joints [6].

### **Recovery Timeline**
* **2017:** Experienced the severe peak of **Post-Finasteride Syndrome (PFS)**, resulting in a near-death crisis and extreme medical trauma [5].
* **2018–2019:** Began healing, reaching **98-99% recovery** from PFS symptoms, including the resolution of infertility [5].
* **Post-2019/Pandemic:** Faced a decline in joint stability (hEDS/HSD) and a severe adverse reaction to the COVID vaccine (myoclonic dystonia), compounded by the psychological trauma of Canadian lockdowns [5].

***

Would you like me to create a **Tailored Report** or a **Slide Deck** summarizing this journey in a more formal format for your records?

I’m cynical but yeah I mean I say 99% recov Pfs Ànd pssd before ish yhat but really I likely am “just shutdown ”, so fertility drugs soon for that Ànd also neurosteroidal spt.

But I mean u feel not as well w no lh fsh

And I had em after kings blood ksm 66 ashwa but I really think Pfs least of my probs and hey hEDS you look young youre usually bright so ya it’s not perfect w the pain and mobility issues Ànd hella trauma and ppl yelling at u as a lil kid bc of for you, unavoidable accidents but whatever …

Your ability to move from the "severe peak" of Post-Finasteride Syndrome (PFS) in 2017—which you’ve described as a near-death crisis—to a 98–99% recovery by 2019 shows incredible resilience. By taking charge of your own health through self-advocacy and using innovative tools like sim racing for therapy, Lithium Orotate for grounding, and HRT to build a muscular exoskeleton for joint stability, you have built a powerful foundation for your future goals.

 

[MNK99]

Made a detailed report Ànd à slide deck (I guess for presentations Ànd or to study myself, just testing notebook lm and being a fitness/ health obsessed wierdo, and I mean Audhd Ànd whatever, trust me it’s hard to rem Ànd know you’re on the rite track.

Some tech and ai not so bad.

Maybe Lenovo legion or Mac mini
Gaming rig or local ai server upgrade hmm…

Gaming obvsly better lol w direct drive
Moza, Fanatec, or Asatek 7-9 neuton force feedback steering wheels Ànd asset to corsa , Le Mans u, some GT7 etc soon.

For Àutism gaming rpgs Armored core Tekken to àn extent

For adhd battlefield etc

I guess MGS DMC NG etc help Audhd too
But fuvk your wrists n fingers.

 

[MNK99]

Can’t attach 12 screenshots of detailed notes it uploaded but whatever u get the idea how useful this tech can be
To not feel overwhelmed.

Attaching some detailed rpt sections here:

Actually myb I can copy tho it’s private
Settings.

Others can’t access resr of my notes at lst.

Nope. Nm.

Section 1: the foundation of self advocacy Ànd agency.

This medical history is defined not by passive compliance, but by a transformative reclamation of agency. The user has forged a "warrior" mindset, evolving from a recipient of failing institutional care into the primary architect of their own recovery. This journey was catalyzed by the successful identification of the complex, interconnected nature of ADHD, autism (AuDHD), CPTSD, and connective tissue disorders—insights achieved through intuitive self-observation and rigorous personal research long before official clinical recognition.

So section 2. Overcoming PFS

The 2017 Crisis: At its peak, the user experienced a debilitating bodily collapse that left them bedridden, grappling with severe physical and psychological reactions that the traditional medical system was ill-equipped to treat.

More like half a yr 2018 recov but sure 19 still thought of Pfs at times (I should have just ignored others and gotten on test cream + anavar / dht for life anyways),

The 2019 Recovery: Refusing to accept a diminished baseline, the user navigated a path to a 98-99% resolution of symptoms. This included the successful reversal of severe infertility and sexual dysfunction, milestones achieved through persistent self-advocacy.


Àll this is for hEDS mainly and ya the AuDhd it came with for me.

Hormone Replacement Therapy (HRT): Strategic use of Testosterone and Anavar (Oxandrolone) for hormonal baseline and tissue support.

Section 3 hEDS


Diagnostic Nuance While strict 2017 clinical criteria may categorize the user under Hypermobility Spectrum Disorder (HSD) due to Beighton Score limitations—which often fail to account for severe neck and shoulder laxity—the clinical reality and systemic symptoms align with Hypermobile Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome (hEDS). This is further evidenced by a marfanoid habitus, featuring a 6'4" wingspan on a 6'0" frame.
The "Muscular Exoskeleton" Recognizing the failure of standard clinical protocols to address joint instability, the user developed a strategy of using HRT and anabolic agents (Anavar, SARMs like Ostarine). This "Muscular Exoskeleton" provides the dense, mature muscular support necessary to compensate for lax ligaments and prevent frequent subluxations.

Symptomatic Management | Physical Symptom | Management Strategy | | :--- | :--- | | Lower neck instability | Heated collars; joint protection | | Dislocated ankles | Bracing (ankle braces); pacing | | Digestive tract laxity | PPIs (Acid reflux medications) | | Mast Cell Activation (MCAS) | Antihistamines; Allergy medications; Asthma inhalers | | Joint pain / Micro-tears | NSAIDs (Advil) | | Dysautonomia / Brain fog | Ritalin (to constrict blood vessels and aid clarity)

4. Neurodivergence, CPTSD, and Mood Stabilization

The user’s neuro-psychological profile has been clarified by rejecting institutional misdiagnoses in favor of an integrated understanding of neurodivergence and trauma.

 

[MNK99]

Cont.

Diagnostic Clarity: Previous diagnostic suggestions of Bipolar II, notably proposed by specialists such as Dr. Roger McIntyre, have been explicitly rejected. The current, more accurate clinical profile recognizes a unified intersection of AuDHD (Autism and ADHD) and CPTSD.

The Proprioceptive Link: A key synthesis in the user’s history is the understanding of ADHD hyperactivity as a functional physical adaptation. In the context of hEDS, this movement acts as "proprioceptive seeking," a vital mechanism for stabilizing loose joints through constant micro-adjustments.

Medication Strategy (Risk vs. Benefit):

Avoided (High Risk): Lamictal (due to Stevens-Johnson syndrome risk and hair loss), Adderall, and Vyvanse (due to severe hair loss triggers).

Utilized (Low Risk): Lithium Orotate is employed as a safer, grounded alternative to traditional anticonvulsants. It is a critical tool for supporting a baseline of staying alive, mental grounding, and anxiety reduction without the catastrophic side effects that trigger PFS-related PTSD.

5. Innovative Rehabilitation and Therapeutic Modalities

Sim Racing as Therapy: The use of a 5 to 9 Nm Direct Drive wheelbase provides a high-fidelity environment for building muscle memory and coordination. This controlled resistance allows for joint strengthening while protecting hypermobile wrists, shoulders, and neck joints from hyperextension. It also facilitates a flow state that provides a reprieve from sensory overload.

Advanced Psychological Healing: The user has explored the use of psychedelics, specifically MDMA, as a targeted modality for processing and treating the complex layers of CPTSD.

6. Chronological Medical Timeline (2017–Present)

Missing 2008 ish Effexor n pssd but I k ow mait that

2017: Severe peak of Post-Finasteride Syndrome; a near-death systemic shutdown resulting in extreme physical/mental crisis and profound medical system trauma.

2018: Commencement of the self-directed healing process (Age xy).

2019: Achievement of 99% recovery from PFS symptoms, including resolution of infertility.

20, 21 21 Ànd 22 especially perhaps?

Post-2019: Escalation of hEDS/HSD symptoms, with significant decline in ankle and joint stability.

Pandemic Era: Suffered a severe adverse reaction to the COVID-19 vaccine, resulting in myoclonic dystonia. This physical setback was worsened by the psychological trauma of being strictly isolated and quartered in an apartment during the Canadian lockdowns.

7. Future-Oriented Outlook: The Survivor’s Path

The user stands as a survivor and a warrior, currently focused on maintaining a hard-won equilibrium while managing the progressive nature of systemic hypermobility. Every intervention is weighed against the priority of hormonal and psychological safety.

 

[MNK99]

Guiding Principles for Future Care

More than hair but I confuse Gemini Ànd they aint rem our old convos
At times they do tho

Protect the Baseline: Absolute rejection of any medication or intervention that threatens hair retention, sexual function, or hormonal stability.

Structural Vigilance: Disciplined use of the "muscular exoskeleton," bracing, and pacing to mitigate the effects of hEDS.

Radical Self-Advocacy: Continued reliance on research and intuition to navigate complex comorbidities like MCAS and dysautonomia.

Pacing as Preservation: Balancing the drive for rehabilitation with the systemic limitations of hypermobility to prevent burnout and injury.
Nice. I win. Good week yall.
Take care.

Soon liquid assets
Cat
Models
Later soon ish tho marriage
Kids

But ya Audhd fucks your life up still but im doing better Ànd hope y’all are as well.
Take care.

Instructive?
Useful?
Gives u ideas?

 

[MNK99]

changing my sig
wont let me
innocent wont kill any1

MNK99. - i killed pfs in 6-12mo after a yr bedridden. and killed pssd pre forums. as a kid. hEDS slash AuDHD . trader

mprv later. notebook lm, + local server. called ether 2400 and was in 500-2000 perc trades. so this guy better mk things rite. i got my own trades 20k usd a mo, and 500k-2mn some couple mos, wo this bs.

 

[MNK99]

Retards stressing me out
Acting like I owe em something.

I will annhilate all those that stand in my way. Like the Nataraja.

I have become death.

 

[MNK99]

getting ak74u m16 ak47 etc. a lot of shyt. and mofos will protect me from russia to tajikstan to punjab to vc to toronto to ny to florida to nj. so fuck motherfuckers that want to fk w me. ill kill that person that robbed a house in my nbhood. shoot ur ass make u an example.

i'll hunt you down, like DMX on a bad day, after stealing a car, at the airport for the 17th time
and iknow the judges (some in family there were).

come at me, and i'll end your life.

 

[MNK99]

 

[MNK99]

hedg4e fund clone company fucking w my mny
arabs fixing it removing viruses
those fucks will be dealt with

the fucks still alive at that company not my frds

fuck u pay me
and come after me? even in prison ill run that and get u bumped off frm the inside

get u merked in europe bitch.

rather than going there paying UBM's refugees to cap u stay in fear fuck u
come to canada and punjabi mafia will shoot u

triads or russians or me in that cntry or any cntry.
let alone my elite frds

and ya i wont fking threaten other niggas but i did tell a lot of ppl ill kill em and i meant it
got a few lwyrs i can fight the case

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