Fighting….

[Yura]

@RebelWithACause Well it is about that contrast. You have to experience that bad, uncomfortable, painful stuff. So you can truly appreciate the good, pleasurable stuff.. Most people try to avoid everything uncomfortable, painful, hard and seek only the opposite and don't understand how crippling it is.. You end up doing just pleasurable, comfortable, easy stuff thinking that doesn't even feel pleasurable, comfortable, easy anymore because you can't remember how that opposite feels..
Smart people know this. That's why they constantly make their life harder on purpose, get bored on purpose etc.. I was also thinking that it is probably great idea from time to time to live like you have no money. Basically as a reset to remind yourself what is important. What you really need etc.. Like for me it would be more sad to end up like some rich dickhead addicted to buying expensive stuff, drugs, sex etc.. than be completely broke, but also be normal, nice, kind, humble person..

 

[ruprmurdoch]

btw Rebel mention about battlefield. You should read marxists writers/sciencists Foucault, Bordieu. They have very hard style of writing, but it is done on purpose so not everyone can understand it and they might be seen as a ,,elite" but they are writing about very simple idea: weaponification of everything. So if we consider that those writers shape minds of people who rule the ,,west", you have to be conscious that battlefield is present everyday in almost every situation. Those guys weaponize even basic biological things like ,,sex". Those guys even weaponize language-you cant say some things.

 

[RebelWithACause]

btw Rebel mention about battlefield. You should read marxists writers/sciencists Foucault, Bordieu. They have very hard style of writing, but it is done on purpose so not everyone can understand it and they might be seen as a ,,elite" but they are writing about very simple idea: weaponification of everything. So if we consider that those writers shape minds of people who rule the ,,west", you have to be conscious that battlefield is present everyday in almost every situation. Those guys weaponize even basic biological things like ,,sex". Those guys even weaponize language-you cant say some things.

There's a lot of people like that in general now. In a way life is a warfare everywhere especially as a guy. But at the same time not because society kind of makes it able to lower that instinct of having to fight over every little thing. Probably the biggest benefit of societies are protection so you can be more creative and live differently from just following primal instincts.

But now you see people revert because money is harder to get so everything becomes more primal/basic/etc. Less creativity. More conserving of energy, etc. More aggression. More destruction of creativity.

The west was really good in the 70s-early 2000s. Even though people say that's when it started to go downhill. I don't think so. They had the luxury to be more openminded and creative but still had a good baseline of protection. But ironically this is also what destroyed the west slowly.

You need the combo of rightwing and leftwing. Protection (right wing nationalism) with freedom for it's people to be creative (more leftist ideas) and create stuff. I mean Hitler I think had this idea of national socialism. I am not pro Hitler at all but I think this idea is closer to his idea than current systems in place now.

Also capitalism overwrites everything incl. traditions because it's about money. Not creativity. Creativity only counts in their eyes if it makes money. So you get simple creativity that appeals to a wide audience because this is wha tmakes most money.

The problem with communism is I think it doesn't stimulate people. Very little stimulation of creativity because you get stuff anyways. Not much to do within a society like that so the balance is important to still be able to shine. But also not make the differences so big you get huge gaps.

I also see some people I know they say libertarianism is good or extreme ownership/individualism. At that point just bring back darwinism/anarchism. No reason to be a society in that case.

And then you have globalism like now where it's like the whole world is connected in a way. Not sure how you can ever make a good system like that because simply too many people in 1 system. You're "competing" with billions of people. The bigger the group the less you count as an individual.

 

[bruschi11]

lay off my log jerks! lol whatever but general stuff use that log rebel created it for. I really don’t care tho.

Sulfur and phos are really raising in Oligo’s. Boron and fluoride dropping . Boron heavily fluoride just started dropping again as I have started intermittent keto again/ iodine.

I’m at iodine literally 12.5mcg. That is all and it has sparked things. It’s been about 5 days of it . The funny part is the 12.5mcg that tiny dose is starting up my whole system and that ends up lowering my Oligoscans in the long run which just tells us tyrosine is running good. Inositol production must be good too b5

Doing something’s right .

Trying to emulate hg7 in my own way really. Dump iron. Give lots of zinc and calcium. Zinc and calcium are dropping and need to feed.

B6 is getting very consistent in my scans. But now folate is jumping which I think is biggest need here.

Feeding dhea and preg like 25mg most days. 4 andro 1 pump some days. And testo daily 12mg. Hcg eod to e3d.

The Hume health scale I bought is incredible and is just telling me. “Fasting /keto is not good for your body comp. It destroys muscle, doesn’t burn fat well.” BUT when I come off the keto. I metabolize vitamin A incredibly. And I lose fat and gain muscle quickly.

According to this scale. I’m down about 10 lbs of body fat in 3.5 weeks. And up 8 lbs of muscle .

 

[bruschi11]

Got really fucked up overnight I think it’s the egcg in too high of dose.

Won’t go back to it for a few days and will start slow . I’m messed up bad.

Iodine usage system died clearly and there goes my fluoride skying high next to boron cadmium. The killer trio smh.

 

[Yura]

@bruschi11 what EGCG are you taking? You are doing HG7? Wonder if I should try it. Not full dose just like 10-20% of original dose max.. But can't buy biotin powder here. What you think about that megadosing of biotin? Is it really needed? If I would try it I would buy just 10mg capsules and use 1-2 a day max..

 

[bruschi11]

@bruschi11 what EGCG are you taking? You are doing HG7? Wonder if I should try it. Not full dose just like 10-20% of original dose max.. But can't buy biotin powder here. What you think about that megadosing of biotin? Is it really needed? If I would try it I would buy just 10mg capsules and use 1-2 a day max..

I wrote a lot and it got deleted. Not a lot but important stuff.

It’s about sirt1. Where fluoride kills melatonin and melatonin = sirt1 which is the key to chromium VDR. But if we push sirt1 (egcg 4 andro chromium melatonin b3 nad etc) first we just end up taking down tyrosine system b5/bh4/iodine/t4/inositol/sugar/testo.

So egcg is just to much on me. And I used it all week. I dumped iron really hard early this week and then this last time it’s like it just destroyed cysteine and it did. Using it with hormones just horrid.

I could experiment with it in future we will see. But that’s just not ok right now. God.

Iodine tyrosine sulfation approach seems right. When I say sulfation I guess I mean Bs with some minerals and low dose iodine.

Sulfur and phos were coming up and have stayed up since egcg but this was just alllll bad today. God. Really bad.

I have to wonder if egcg kind of led to my collapse in april. This was bad

 

[Yura]

@bruschi11 I can see that you are in your world. Anyways thx..

 

[bruschi11]

I can’t post

 

[bruschi11]

I guess I can post now

 

[bruschi11]

Bad way fuck holidays fuck family fuck everything.

My life got destroyed by 1 an antibiotic and 2 fluoride toxicity from bathing in our bath water in this pathetic fucking country.

I see it all happen. Late 2022 I broke up with my ex and moved into parents to focus on health. I took a bath literally every fucking day. Every fucking day.

And I see it. In the htmas late 2022 into early 2023. What went high? Zirconium. Why? Because zirconium is the strongest element in terms of fluoride binding.

And then I donated blood. Giving away precious fe3. What does fe3 do? It binds fluoride.

When I fell apart that spring and truly lost control for good and entered the severe neurodegenerative disease I have today. My zirconium dropped.

It’s like the body was fighting the fluoride the best I could. Until I just messed up.

It’s crazy. I see it all now in the htmas. The Oligoscans. When I sleep well I wake up and scanned and notice my fluoride is lower than normal. And when I’m horrible and can’t sleep my fluoride is so high.

Gbold would always say “something is there” and I think he was thinking metals for most part. Well fluoride is essentially a metal. It’s an element that does not belong in the body in bulk.

I’m pissed off. I’m about 10 days into no more keto. I gotta get back to the intermittent keto I was doing. But needs to happen slowly.

Between today and Sunday I’ll slowly reduce carbs and on Monday I’ll do24-36 hours of keto.

I have noticed fluoride drop on these keto cycles.

It seems like there’s a big 3 supplements for me that need to be monitored being egcg (or dhea/preg for VDR) next to biotin and iodine.

need to get rest. I fucking drank coffee and then did a coffee enema for energy to work the night of thanksgiving eve. Then ate a lot of food and sugar with family. My whole system is horridly bad.

A massive drop in sulfur occurred in the last few days that has not come back up yet. And honestly if there’s one thing I’ve done this fall is basically slowly improve my sulfur.

And I do believe that is so key to copper dumps . And I’d say yes I’m dumping copper again but with low sulfur body just can’t use the cu.

 

[bruschi11]

I think it’s time for me to die. I see everything that happened and I just can’t save this life.

Sure can I survive with the stuff I’m doing sure I can. But there’s no life there’s no dick there’s no human connection. There’s an immense amount of suffering .

It’s really hard to talk to people that are and have been chronically ill. 99.999% of people do not end up in a body chemistry like this until they’re very very old and sick.

I was chronically ill between 2015 and 2022. What happened in 2023 was bad. But what I’ve been battling between 2024 and 2025 is something you could never possibly imagine be possible.

It is a destroyed life. There is nothing I can do to save it at this point.

I blame the antibiotic damage and the fluoride in the baths more than anything . But a lot happened. Dana summers completely imbalanced me in 2019/2020. The blood donation to begin 2023 was kind of the moment that put me into the worst 3 years imaginable.

I don’t have a way to end my life. But I really should be focusing on that. Cuz the torture is becoming more and more unbearable. I hate every second of this existence. I deserve to have a peaceful death it’s just not fair

 

[Yura]

@bruschi11 Can you describe your symptoms? Like how you feel? how is your sleep. How looks your average day? Like are you in pain all the time or how should I imagine what it feels like to be in your shoes..

 

[RebelWithACause]

can only wish you good luck bro. And even in the worst situation I still felt it had good things to live for. Smaller things but I now look back at worst moments I had a lot of peace in a way. But yea it's rough.

No way anyones going to be able to help you anyways if I am honest. You seem to have an idea what works for you how is anyone going to help you, impossible. Nothing wrong with that but the suffering is alone. I had the same.

If you ever get to the point of ending it then I'd just seek help from a knowledgable person who can maybe help you out this hole. At that point who cares. Preferably someone like Helen. Although those people seem rare. A lot of people have very short sighted ideas sadly.

 

[Yura]

@RebelWithACause I wish he would share more stuff how he feels, what are his symptoms etc.. We know he is constantly thinking and testing. We don't know if he has even the basic stuff covered like solid daily/sleep routine etc.. If he is constantly watching social media and how others live etc.. All that has big impact.
Hard to tell when he doesn't say much. But I don't think he should talk like that. There are people much worse and still fight. Maybe he was used to really good life so it is hard for him to feel like shit and not be able to live like before. Some people live sad life form the start so they don't know how it feels to be really healthy and live great life.
I think it is my case for sure looking back. I was always fucked up. Also you have to be able to make fun of stuff especially of yourself. I laugh at my pathetic life all the time. I think I got it from watching stuff about special forces guys. They are able to be funny even in life and death situations.. Once you are taking everything and yourself extremely seriously all the time it is much much harder to keep going. Just watch some universe documentary and realize that none of this shit matters. You can kill yourself every time you want. So why not wait another day and see if something changes...

Watch this guys. One of the best stuff on universe I saw. It can really give you different perspective just wow...

 

[bruschi11]

@bruschi11 Can you describe your symptoms? Like how you feel? how is your sleep. How looks your average day? Like are you in pain all the time or how should I imagine what it feels like to be in your shoes..

Losing connection between brain and body. Feels like there is no brain there or it’s like dropping into my neck area like my brain used to in my head but now it’s down near mouth and neck.

Like it’s a brain in complete turmoil.

Stopping testo I think. We are gonna see. Not 100% sure. But the last day I had of real promise was on egcg zinc chromium b6 b5 in march I believe it was.

I was definitely getting bh4 working last winter. Without testo. With barely any dhea.

 

[bruschi11]

@RebelWithACause I wish he would share more stuff how he feels, what are his symptoms etc.. We know he is constantly thinking and testing. We don't know if he has even the basic stuff covered like solid daily/sleep routine etc.. If he is constantly watching social media and how others live etc.. All that has big impact.
Hard to tell when he doesn't say much. But I don't think he should talk like that. There are people much worse and still fight. Maybe he was used to really good life so it is hard for him to feel like shit and not be able to live like before. Some people live sad life form the start so they don't know how it feels to be really healthy and live great life.
I think it ism y case for sure looking back. I was always fucked up. Also you have to be able to make fun of stuff especially of yourself. I laugh at my pathetic life all the time. I thing I got it from watching stuff about special forces guys. They are able to be funny even in life and death situations.. Once you are taking everything and yourself extremely seriously all the time it is much much harder to keep going. Just watch some universe documentary and realize that none of this shit matters. You can kill yourself every time you want. So why not wait another day and see if something changes...

Watch this guys

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@RebelWithACause I wish he would share more stuff how he feels, what are his symptoms etc.. We know he is constantly thinking and testing. We don't know if he has even the basic stuff covered like solid daily/sleep routine etc.. If he is constantly watching social media and how others live etc.. All that has big impact.
Hard to tell when he doesn't say much. But I don't think he should talk like that. There are people much worse and still fight. Maybe he was used to really good life so it is hard for him to feel like shit and not be able to live like before. Some people live sad life form the start so they don't know how it feels to be really healthy and live great life.
I think it ism y case for sure looking back. I was always fucked up. Also you have to be able to make fun of stuff especially of yourself. I laugh at my pathetic life all the time. I thing I got it from watching stuff about special forces guys. They are able to be funny even in life and death situations.. Once you are taking everything and yourself extremely seriously all the time it is much much harder to keep going. Just watch some universe documentary and realize that none of this shit matters. You can kill yourself every time you want. So why not wait another day and see if something changes...

Watch this guys

told you I was chronically ill between 2014 and 2022 and then I went anemic and started losing complete control of connection between brain and body.

I’m not just any old person that gets sick and is freaked out. I just lost my war and got into a new type of sick beyond Anyone can really comprehend

 

[bruschi11]

can only wish you good luck bro. And even in the worst situation I still felt it had good things to live for. Smaller things but I now look back at worst moments I had a lot of peace in a way. But yea it's rough.

No way anyones going to be able to help you anyways if I am honest. You seem to have an idea what works for you how is anyone going to help you, impossible. Nothing wrong with that but the suffering is alone. I had the same.

If you ever get to the point of ending it then I'd just seek help from a knowledgable person who can maybe help you out this hole. At that point who cares. Preferably someone like Helen. Although those people seem rare. A lot of people have very short sighted ideas sadly.

I’m trying. I got a new doctor like 5 hours away that I’ll be seeing in a month or so.

I reached out to a lady who’s making good Facebook posts about iron and atp. Gbold type mindset minerals. She’s got a following and I asked to work with her and I sent her some stuff and she sent my money back saying we aren’t a good fit.

Trying to get help but it’s not happening .

I want to get off test. I feel it’s the right thing to do give it one last shot off test

 

[bruschi11]

I think @RebelWithACause gets it…

Like I’m so advanced about my issues and there’s so much going on. Nobody can possibly come in and just fix me.

It’s gonna be up to me and nobody else at this point.

And my family says that’s a horrid mindset. But doctors didn’t go to school for fixing a person from a to z

 

[Yura]

@bruschi11 I also didn't said you should reach out for help. I know you understand your situation better than anybody else. I just said that you can keep making your situation worse without even realizing it..