Fighting….

[bruschi11]

Thanks dude things real bad @rwac I know if I had oligoscan in late 2010s through even 2023 I would’ve been ok but I know how bad the situation is now.

An AI health thing looked at my test results and said “severe advanced mitochondrial disease”.

The 1 andro was bad yesterday but I was horrible before it. I think when I turn bh4 system on manually (1 andro or Androgens), I push thyroid too hard (tyrosine) and it kills my already depleted cellular potassium.

It’s possible thyroid really puts magnesium in the cell. A cell already overloaded with magnesium that is in bad potassium deficiency.

I have the worst potassium out of anyone I scanned with Oligoscan.

My dad has severe chromium deficiency like me. Yes he’s overweight. But he’s neurotypical. He’s not sick. But his potassium is quite good about -7% as most are in that -10% to 0 range.

I don’t know how I’m gonna fix this but 4 andro seems to be extremely necessary next to chromium and calcium. Some zinc b2 Ala coq10. Need to use b5 and beta alanine as my bh4 sources. Not fuckin androgens.

1 andro= androgen. 4 andro= more of a universal feeding of all hormones at once. It accesses estrone sulfate better than probably any other hormone.

1a hydroxylase for D seems to be biggest enzyme now that 4 andro/ chromium are going in. It’s reliant on nadph. Which is interesting as my nadph was high (high threonine in plasma aminos) in June 2024 when my boron dropped.

I’ve seen igf/ gh can raise 1a hydroxylase too. I do have gh peptides on hand ipamorelin/ mod grf129 . But too much use of these can hurt insulin sensitivity.

This is one of worst mornings of my life. A really bad life. A life I really am considering ending. It just has to happen. One of the two. Progress or death.

It’s been 32 months since I’ve had a decent day in this horrible life. I think i should give up soon.

Don’t want to quit on my dog whose getting older now 11 next month and grandmother who is dying.

I really don’t want to end my life with her on her way out like this. My dog is obsessed with me and I don’t want to leave him. He’s my best friend.

I want to cry because I know it’s over. And I knew when it was over the only option for me was suicide. But I can’t just leave the planet just yet.

I hate everything.

Dana summers caused me to develop a chromium deficiency in 2019/2020. Her approach was for women. Oligoscan has taught us women barely ever have chromium problems. Where men have chromium issues. That’s literally the main cause of why men’s health suffers.

I did a lot of dumb things in my life. But the worst mistake of my life was hiring that woman.

 

[RebelWithACause]

I also had deaths when I was in a severe downswing/dark hole. Sometimes a lot of bad stuff happens at once. I remember my grandmother dying and cat dying during this dark time in a short moment after each other. It's like the universe comes together to fuck with you even more and take away people and things that helped you through your life. It's hard. But don't give up. I don't feel sad about my grandmother or my pet anymore and I loved them dearly. The suicidal thoughts will go away after a while.

That's all I can say. And if you have deficiency it's fixable. I had low chromium too now it's normal. If I take it now I feel worse and not herxheimer. All this stuff is fixable. But even now after fixing a ton of deficiencies my health is not 100% I can tell. This is why I made that post a few weeks ago being frustrated with that fact. Try to enjoy life the best you can once you get to a stable level is what I would say.

I try to go less hard now and focus on what I can enjoy. I start small. Very small.

 

[bruschi11]

I also had deaths when I was in a severe downswing/dark hole. Sometimes a lot of bad stuff happens at once. I remember my grandmother dying and cat dying during this dark time in a short moment after each other. It's like the universe comes together to fuck with you even more and take away people and things that helped you through your life. It's hard. But don't give up. I don't feel sad about my grandmother or my pet anymore and I loved them dearly. The suicidal thoughts will go away after a while.

That's all I can say. And if you have deficiency it's fixable. I had low chromium too now it's normal. If I take it now I feel worse and not herxheimer. All this stuff is fixable. But even now after fixing a ton of deficiencies my health is not 100% I can tell. This is why I made that post a few weeks ago being frustrated with that fact. Try to enjoy life the best you can once you get to a stable level is what I would say.

I try to go less hard now and focus on what I can enjoy. I start small. Very small.

I’m not upset about my grandmother being on her way out she’s 90 and is suffering she needs relief.

My dogs not dying he’s fine.

What I’m saying is I can’t end my life before my grandmother dies. I can’t do that to her and make the last days of her life end with a tragedy happening in her family. She saw her son die of pancreatic cancer 12 years ago. She doesn’t need this. She needs to die knowing I was still trying. She cries knowing how sick I am.

My dog is 11 and he has a couple to a few years left. I live for him. He’s extremely human in how he acts. The quintessential dog no other way to put it. We have done everything together. I don’t want to quit on him.

But I know ending my life is probably the best thing for me. I can’t keep going on like this.

Why? Because I let a fat cunt nutritionist and a Lyme doctor pushing extra antibiotics. Both knew nothing about what they were doing in 2019. Leading to all this. I can’t handle it.

 

[RebelWithACause]

I’m not upset about my grandmother being on her way out she’s 90 and is suffering she needs relief.

My dogs not dying he’s fine.

What I’m saying is I can’t end my life before my grandmother dies. I can’t do that to her and make the last days of her life end with a tragedy happening in her family. She saw her son die of pancreatic cancer 12 years ago. She doesn’t need this. She needs to die knowing I was still trying. She cries knowing how sick I am.

My dog is 11 and he has a couple to a few years left. I live for him. He’s extremely human in how he acts. The quintessential dog no other way to put it. We have done everything together. I don’t want to quit on him.

But I know ending my life is probably the best thing for me. I can’t keep going on like this.

Why? Because I let a fat cunt nutritionist and a Lyme doctor pushing extra antibiotics. Both knew nothing about what they were doing in 2019. Leading to all this. I can’t handle it.

Ah my bad. I get what you say now. I can't imagine suicide is ever a good solution for things. But I have thought about suicide a lot especially on days where I suffer a lot. But it's a thought. For me never will actualise in reality. I know that. I hope for you this is the same.

If I was on the edge of suicide I'd just do ARL and ignore the rest. Do some protocol that's tested and tried even if it's slow like ARL. Fuck the noise. If you get to that point your protocol isn't working for you to have a better life. That's my opinion.

I mean ending your life how is that better for you... it's just that you won't suffer. But suffer can be temporary. Death is forever. So it's a one way street. One choice. With suffering there is always possibility one day you will not suffer in real life and live better.

 

[Yura]

I was helping with my dying grandmothers. in my early 20s. I have PTSD from it 100%. THe only people I will ever take care of are my parents. After that I am done with people.
In terms of suicide I really can relate. I live in 12th floor. It is miracle that I didn't jump yet. Because in my worst I really couldn't think clearly. Now I know for sure that even if I wanted badly end it all I can't do that to my parents. I saw my grandparents when their son got sick with pancreatic cancer and died. It broke my heart to see them..
Anyways how I see that is if someone is physically fucked to the point of no return where you know for sure it will be nothing but suffering for the rest of his life. I can understand suicide. It is reasonable decision. I am talking 3 degree burns whole body, no face due to some cancer and stuff like that..
But if you don't have this physical, structural damage to the body from which you can't recover. I think you shouldn't kill yourself. Even if at the moment the quality of life is 1 out of 10 or less. If there is even small chance you could get better it is irrational to kill yourself. My body is fucked up pretty baldy. I lost so much tissue. My cardiovascular system is completely fucked. Clogged everywhere with plaque. I can't function like even bellow average human. But killing myself? It is simply not rational. There is still some chance that I will get better and I could live at least somewhat normal life like enjoying simple stuff. I know I will never experience life that really healthy people have, but 50-60% to me it is still better than giving up and not watching what is going on in the world, enjoying some nature etc. simple stuff like I said.
I can give you comparison with people who killed themselves during covid. Because they felt so depressed that they can't live their life like the want to..
I was looking at this and was telling to myself. Like imagine if all people during world war killed themselves because they couldn't live their life like the wanted to.. No they pushed through that shitty time and now have that experience. So they can enjoy their life even more after that. Life is about not giving up. Like I said there is a point of no return, but fo sure it is not our case yet.
I still hope that you regain some trust in ability of your body to fix itself. But for that you need to stop worry and think 24/7 and trying to catch 100 fish with your hands at once. It is impossible.
You have to give your body break. You will fix shit in stress mode. You need to realize this. So many people recovered by "miracle" when they gave up and just let their body finally actually rest..
Like shut off your crazy thinking. Eat normal balanced diet when you are hungry and what taste good at the moment. Enjoy your dog and grandmother and feel good that you can be with them.
But you really have to change your approach. I know it is hard to change what you always did... But it has to be done. Otherwise you will not get better. By posting what you are posting you can't get better with this crazy mix of thinking that is going on in your head 24/7.. Your body is tired of that..

 

[RebelWithACause]

For me COVID was good lol. The world became quiet. People flipped the fuck out saying they have trauma from it and they can't party and "live their lives". Insanity. That shit was GOOD. Especially here in The Netherlands where there is way too many people on one place I finally saw how the world is supposed to be with way less humans on the streets 24/7. And I enjoyed just working out, going for walks in the forest, etc.

For me I get suicidal when I think of what life is supposed to be vs. what it actually is right now in my current reality. Same for why people get depressed from looking on social media at others lives.

Even when I was sick sick sick, it was actually easier to shut myself off from the world. I couldn't even care about what happened in the world I tried to survive. As I got better I started to put more importance in "normal societal" stuff. Ironically that made me unhappier!

 

[bruschi11]

I was helping with my dying grandmothers. in my early 20s. I have PTSD from it 100%. THe only people I will ever take care of are my parents. After that I am done with people.
In terms of suicide I really can relate. I live in 12th floor. It is miracle that I didn't jump yet. Because in my worst I really couldn't think clearly. Now I know for sure that even if I wanted badly end it all I can't do that to my parents. I saw my grandparents when their son got sick with pancreatic cancer and died. It broke my heart to see them..
Anyways how I see that is if someone is physically fucked to the point of no return where you know for sure it will be nothing but suffering for the rest of his life. I can understand suicide. It is reasonable decision. I am talking 3 degree burns whole body, no face due to some cancer and stuff like that..
But if you don't have this physical, structural damage to the body from which you can't recover. I think you shouldn't kill yourself. Even if at the moment the quality of life is 1 out of 10 or less. If there is even small chance you could get better it is irrational to kill yourself. My body is fucked up pretty baldy. I lost so much tissue. My cardiovascular system is completely fucked. Clogged everywhere with plaque. I can't function like even bellow average human. But killing myself? It is simply not rational. There is still some chance that I will get better and I could live at least somewhat normal life like enjoying simple stuff. I know I will never experience life that really healthy people have, but 50-60% to me it is still better than giving up and not watching what is going on in the world, enjoying some nature etc. simple stuff like I said.
I can give you comparison with people who killed themselves during covid. Because they felt so depressed that they can't live their life like the want to..
I was looking at this and was telling to myself. Like imagine if all people during world war killed themselves because they couldn't live their life like the wanted to.. No they pushed through that shitty time and now have that experience. So they can enjoy their life even more after that. Life is about not giving up. Like I said there is a point of no return, but fo sure it is not our case yet.
I still hope that you regain some trust in ability of your body to fix itself. But for that you need to stop worry and think 24/7 and trying to catch 100 fish with your hands at once. It is impossible.
You have to give your body break. You will fix shit in stress mode. You need to realize this. So many people recovered by "miracle" when they gave up and just let their body finally actually rest..
Like shut off your crazy thinking. Eat normal balanced diet when you are hungry and what taste good at the moment. Enjoy your dog and grandmother and feel good that you can be with them.
But you really have to change your approach. I know it is hard to change what you always did... But it has to be done. Otherwise you will not get better. By posting what you are posting you can't get better with this crazy mix of thinking that is going on in your head 24/7.. Your body is tired of that..

I was helping with my dying grandmothers. in my early 20s. I have PTSD from it 100%. THe only people I will ever take care of are my parents. After that I am done with people.
In terms of suicide I really can relate. I live in 12th floor. It is miracle that I didn't jump yet. Because in my worst I really couldn't think clearly. Now I know for sure that even if I wanted badly end it all I can't do that to my parents. I saw my grandparents when their son got sick with pancreatic cancer and died. It broke my heart to see them..
Anyways how I see that is if someone is physically fucked to the point of no return where you know for sure it will be nothing but suffering for the rest of his life. I can understand suicide. It is reasonable decision. I am talking 3 degree burns whole body, no face due to some cancer and stuff like that..
But if you don't have this physical, structural damage to the body from which you can't recover. I think you shouldn't kill yourself. Even if at the moment the quality of life is 1 out of 10 or less. If there is even small chance you could get better it is irrational to kill yourself. My body is fucked up pretty baldy. I lost so much tissue. My cardiovascular system is completely fucked. Clogged everywhere with plaque. I can't function like even bellow average human. But killing myself? It is simply not rational. There is still some chance that I will get better and I could live at least somewhat normal life like enjoying simple stuff. I know I will never experience life that really healthy people have, but 50-60% to me it is still better than giving up and not watching what is going on in the world, enjoying some nature etc. simple stuff like I said.
I can give you comparison with people who killed themselves during covid. Because they felt so depressed that they can't live their life like the want to..
I was looking at this and was telling to myself. Like imagine if all people during world war killed themselves because they couldn't live their life like the wanted to.. No they pushed through that shitty time and now have that experience. So they can enjoy their life even more after that. Life is about not giving up. Like I said there is a point of no return, but fo sure it is not our case yet.
I still hope that you regain some trust in ability of your body to fix itself. But for that you need to stop worry and think 24/7 and trying to catch 100 fish with your hands at once. It is impossible.
You have to give your body break. You will fix shit in stress mode. You need to realize this. So many people recovered by "miracle" when they gave up and just let their body finally actually rest..
Like shut off your crazy thinking. Eat normal balanced diet when you are hungry and what taste good at the moment. Enjoy your dog and grandmother and feel good that you can be with them.
But you really have to change your approach. I know it is hard to change what you always did... But it has to be done. Otherwise you will not get better. By posting what you are posting you can't get better with this crazy mix of thinking that is going on in your head 24/7.. Your body is tired of that..

I understand what you’re saying in terms of me thinking 100 things at once.

But in reality. All I’m doing is thinking electrolytes protocol. All I’m thinking is one thing. Potassium in the cell. Retaining it.

I cured myself several times. I see what happens. But it’s been 3 years downhill. I swung a golf club last 3 years ago this month. Since then I have been dying.

To put things simply…

Chromium = b2 to active forms = glycine recycling = chloride in the cell. Retaining potassium making atp.

Chromium = selenium utilization = vitamin E to coq10 and ALA. ALA both protects tyrosine needed for iodine utilization for thyroid. ALA needed to use glutamate for krebs to fuel it at akg.

I get it ^^^ the second one was a bit more complicated. But I’m just showing the severe necessity of chromium in human body.

I’m saying I need chromium and potassium retainment in the cell. Not much else. And it’s just not happening.

 

[Yura]

YOu see you trying to explain it to me and get lost in trying to catch 100 fish with your hands again. Not happening bro..
THe problem is you keep taking stuff that completely fucks you up in ways you can't even know.
I agree 10000% with Helen on this. Thake nothing but basic minerals, vitamins, amino acids. Nothing else..
Btw
People who play golf are dying left and right from insane amount of toxins that are used to spray on that grass.

 

[Yura]

@RebelWithACause DUring covind it was my era. I was like "welcome in my world bitches"

 

[RebelWithACause]

TEI gives a lot of chromium too. I used the website below and I remember someone on propeciahelp taking chromium for PFS:

Chromium Copper DRI/RDA, benefits, side effects, overdose, toxicity, requirements

acu-cell.com

Actually interesting these are all high copper foods but also have zinc:

Many people exhibit high levels of zinc and copper, in which case a common denominator such as Vitamin C has to be supplemented in larger amounts to help lower both, while foods such as shellfish, nuts, wheat germ (containing high levels of copper and zinc), should be avoided.

Higher estrogen levels from 'hormone replacement therapy,' birth control pills, and pregnancy, increase intracellular copper and manganese levels, and they sometimes raise serum copper as well, which can contribute to changes in sugar metabolism, oxygen metabolism (asthma), and a female's mental and emotional well-being. Serum copper levels also generally increase during acute infections, whereas serum iron levels decline during that time. The only genetic association to toxic copper overload is found in Wilson's disease, which however is relatively rare.

Low copper:

Low Copper intake can increase the risk of high serum cholesterol, coronary heart disease, irregular heartbeat, decreased pigmentation of skin / vitiligo, premature graying hair, hernias, aneurysm (bulging of a blood vessel wall), varicose veins, dermatitis, fatigue, anemia, anorexia, thyroid problems, allergies, poor healing, lowered immunity, arthritis and fragile bones, neutropenia (low neutrophils), and mood & nervous disorders. Although higher copper levels support angiogenesis with most tumors (particularly estrogen receptor-positive types), colon cancer often develops in the presence of insufficient cellular copper, calcium, and potassium levels. Menkes syndrome is a fatal disease usually affecting infants, and caused by faulty copper absorption.

Pretty sure these guys don't work with TEI or ARL.

It's weird how it's hard for the body to fix toxicities if you see how little relatively is in the body, even stored.

 

[bruschi11]

YOu see you trying to explain it to me and get lost in trying to catch 100 fish with your hands again. Not happening bro..
THe problem is you keep taking stuff that completely fucks you up in ways you can't even know.
I agree 10000% with Helen on this. Thake nothing but basic minerals, vitamins, amino acids. Nothing else..
Btw
People who play golf are dying left and right from insane amount of toxins that are used to spray on that grass.

I just don’t think you’re smart enough to comprehend what I write. No offense.

Just because I’m sick doesn’t mean I’m not accurate and brilliant.

I know exactly what I’m talking about . Beyond what you can comprehend. So please just shut the fuck up and stop pissing me off.

I cured myself with chromium sea water diet vitamin A and E folate in 2020. I know exactly what I’m talking about. I didn’t understand the hormone part.

It is electrolytes protocol that is right. Gbold is right . It is about electrolytes in the cell.

But Gbold was 2017. It took me 8 years to learn it all. He didn’t know how to fix b2.

I solved it all. I solved all the fucking 4 andro recoveries on swole source . I solved my pfs turned Parkinson’s friend recovery . With 4 andro but tons of nutrients next to it . And hard work he put in.

I solved so much.

@Yura people like you who clearly don’t have IQs like me and Gbold should just appreciate that we exist and can talk and give truth . To people who need it.

The things your chasing I’ve read your log. You don’t know what you’re talking about. Your lost . And you said you’re lost.

I’m not lost. I’m just dying. Shit happened.

You did things not so wrong you did low Vit A. That’s a fine approach not gonna hurt anybody. Probably gonna help chromium NAD in long run.

I hired a fat wildebeest of a woman. She caused severe chromium deficiency and all my hormones went from mid range to low in 6 months.

I did the reverse of ARL. What Gbold warned against. “You can really hurt yourself with wrong nutrient approach.” That’s what happened to me. It is not fair.

 

[Yura]

Ok bro I don't want to stress you any more..

 

[ruprmurdoch]

I understand what you’re saying in terms of me thinking 100 things at once.

But in reality. All I’m doing is thinking electrolytes protocol. All I’m thinking is one thing. Potassium in the cell. Retaining it.

I cured myself several times. I see what happens. But it’s been 3 years downhill. I swung a golf club last 3 years ago this month. Since then I have been dying.

To put things simply…

Chromium = b2 to active forms = glycine recycling = chloride in the cell. Retaining potassium making atp.

Chromium = selenium utilization = vitamin E to coq10 and ALA. ALA both protects tyrosine needed for iodine utilization for thyroid. ALA needed to use glutamate for krebs to fuel it at akg.

I get it ^^^ the second one was a bit more complicated. But I’m just showing the severe necessity of chromium in human body.

I’m saying I need chromium and potassium retainment in the cell. Not much else. And it’s just not happening.

mate take off pressure from yourself and go on tei. if you can afford it, try it one more time for next three cycles (around 9 months). finishing life when there is a chance to solve the problem is bad idea. you can post your htma result over here. we can help as well.

 

[bruschi11]

Ok bro I don't want to stress you any more..

I appreciate it. I’m sorry if I offended you but I wasn’t intending to do that.

I’m just saying the truth. You’re a normal guy with shitty health issues I’m sorry you have them.

I’m above normal. Where I learned every single piece of metabolism. “Why do men heal on hormones and some need them. Where tei and arl don’t work for some people AT ALL.” Where minerals mean nothing.

It’s because the capital mineral. The most important mineral in the body to keep everything else in line. Is chromium. BUT MEN don’t retain chromium with low estrone sulfate.

Bodybuilder kid 23 years old dying in agony I talk to him he got fucked by covid vaccine . But he knows he was sick before. Lowest chromium in oligoscan. Low estrone sulfate in bloods.

He probably hurt his chromium with steroids before fucking himself up with Covid vaccine.

 

[bruschi11]

mate take off pressure from yourself and go on tei. if you can afford it, try it one more time for next three cycles (around 9 months). finishing life when there is a chance to solve the problem is bad idea. you can post your htma result over here. we can help as

I know this is logical thing from outsider on this forum.

But the hormone part is where we got lost on this forum. It is a huge piece of men’s health.

Cuz again. Estrone sulfate retains chromium and that’s the key to b2.

And this is why the last time I went on ARL in July 2021 I crashed hard within a week. I had a life at the time…. I was sick and working and golfing but I was sick. I was at 50-60% fighting everyday but with a smile on my face with a girlfriend living with her.

The ARL program caused a severe crash. It was probably wiping out chromium worse no doubt in my mind.

I’m not finishing my life yet but it is very much on the radar. I can’t get up. The hormone approach has to happen as just minerals were not enough.

 

[Yura]

ARL recommended to me a lot of chromium almost 1mg.
How old are you @bruschi11 ? Btw did you considered what I said about chemicals in Golf clubs?

 

[bruschi11]

ARL recommended to me a lot of chromium almost 1mg.
How old are you @bruschi11 ? Btw did you considered what I said about chemicals in Golf clubs?

I’m almost 37. Yea I cured myself with about 2mg of cr daily in 2020…. While playing golf 4 times a week lol.

SMH it just sucks. I can’t golf and haven’t stepped on a course in 3 years so I don’t anymore. I can hardly stand up.

 

[Yura]

I have weak legs as well from that low bioavailable copper it is crazy. I used to squat 200kg+ now I can barely do body weight squats lol

 

[bruschi11]

I have weak legs as well from that low bioavailable copper it is crazy. I used to squat 200kg+ now I can barely do body weight squats lol

Smh it sucks I can’t believe this shit happened to us

 

[bruschi11]

I can’t try to manually raise tyrosine. I just can’t do that anymore. No more androgens. Only 4 andro. Beta alanine b5.

We want ALA to protect tyrosine. We want to make tyrosine with bh4. Bh4 is made by gtp—- electrolytes and sugar.

But we need fad and fmn to raise gtp.

And we need thyroid to raise fmn. But while working on d receptor/ t3 is good. It should raise fad and fmn.

Welll the problem is magnesium toxicity depletes fmn.

So even though thyroid works. We get only fad no fmn. Cuz all that fmn is being used up from the mag tox.

This is why August 2021 I crash and I see zero potassium in hair. Magnesium soared from a bunch of baths. All my fmn was depleted.

I’ve wrote this a bunch recently. Mag just killing fmn but I think the only way out is just using up my mag. Getting it down to normal levels so potassium and chloride scan be balanced there in cell so I can activate b6 make gtp.

Yesterday I just wanted a boost. 4 andro didn’t seem enough. So I took 1 andro. And I ended up with severe severe severe issues leading to me suicidal today .

Everything sucks. Everything sucks. Everything fucking sucks.