Ihatefin log

[hairsuit]

i feel ya on that. our gfs are troopers. but they wont be prepared for the amount of dick down they will receive once we are cured haha

so sexual sides are basically your last issues?

well hey man maybe var could be an option for you. i will say thats its the only thing i have tried for pfs that has just immediatly switched on or ramped up sexual function just out of nowhere like a normal person would feel if they took an AAS

That sounds like heaven

 

[IHateFin]

I also lost friends in the period I got bad PFS just after I crashed. But that is life my friend. Friends come and go anyways. Just like girls. I never told my friends I had PFS. But there was a period where I treated my friends really bad. I am working on rebuilding connections again. It takes some time but I think you can rebuild friendships. Only if you want to.

I have become much stronger since I got PFS it is crazy. I do not recognise myself. I have become a brick wall. In a way I lost my innocence completely. I stopped caring about what people think of me. I stopped letting other people control me. I stopped caring about a lot of the insecurities I had. I started to see that people will leave you to die if you are sick and in a weak spot. The only person that will wipe your ass is YOU. That is what I found out. I lived in la la land thinking that people will wait for you or help you when you are down. Most people do not.

In a way this experience has improved my mental strength to a point I do not think I would of ever reached. I have learned a lot. And I hope to become stronger in the mind and body even more. Through vigorous physical training and also mental training. Training my mind to become unstoppable. This for me is big part of my life. I want to become unstoppable. And not be enslaved to my insecurites but also people around me.

Anyways it is good to see you are doing well.

i feel ya, buddy. i think us PFSers come out of this with a ton of wisdom and new perspectives on things. i definitly have learned to appreciate the little things so much more, and i can attest that this makes you stronger and pushes you to overcome some of the weirdest things... like my goodness haha
im glad youre doing better too, man. i read your log so you have come a loooong ass way haha

also
update:

i think the bleh feelings may be setting in at this point.
i feel very tierd and fatigued, but keep in mind i also slept like shit last night due to who knows what... i feel okay. not bad by any means.
my face and waist seems slimmer and more and more improved as far as fat distribution goes. im very vascular and muscles look great.
i felt some light pain in the chords or veins that connect to my testicles haha so not pain in my testicles dorectly. its almost like a pain or even a pressure that is close to blue balls maybe? im not sure how to describe it, but i think that this is where the drug really starts working.

my theory is that anavar is either a partial agonist and partial antagonist to the androgen receptor. it competes with testosterone and has higher affinity to the androgen receptor than test since dht derrived; however, it weakly activates the receptor... sounds like a partial agonist/antagonist to me. would explain why this can help a lot actually if thats the case. alsoi as helen has mentioned cortisol blocking is part of whjich i know has an effect on potassium cuz i felt some potassium like effects when i first dosed it.
since its already dht it may even displace what dht i already make with this weak dht which would be good. almost like lowering androgens with an androgen, but more so than just through merely HPTA suppression.

its a very interesting compound to say the least and i hope im feeling is what im supposed to and will lead to recovery.

 

[Helen]

i feel ya, buddy. i think us PFSers come out of this with a ton of wisdom and new perspectives on things. i definitly have learned to appreciate the little things so much more, and i can attest that this makes you stronger and pushes you to overcome some of the weirdest things... like my goodness haha
im glad youre doing better too, man. i read your log so you have come a loooong ass way haha

also
update:

i think the bleh feelings may be setting in at this point.
i feel very tierd and fatigued, but keep in mind i also slept like shit last night due to who knows what... i feel okay. not bad by any means.
my face and waist seems slimmer and more and more improved as far as fat distribution goes. im very vascular and muscles look great.
i felt some light pain in the chords or veins that connect to my testicles haha so not pain in my testicles dorectly. its almost like a pain or even a pressure that is close to blue balls maybe? im not sure how to describe it, but i think that this is where the drug really starts working.

my theory is that anavar is either a partial agonist and partial antagonist to the androgen receptor. it competes with testosterone and has higher affinity to the androgen receptor than test since dht derrived; however, it weakly activates the receptor... sounds like a partial agonist/antagonist to me. would explain why this can help a lot actually if thats the case. alsoi as helen has mentioned cortisol blocking is part of whjich i know has an effect on potassium cuz i felt some potassium like effects when i first dosed it.
since its already dht it may even displace what dht i already make with this weak dht which would be good. almost like lowering androgens with an androgen, but more so than just through merely HPTA suppression.

its a very interesting compound to say the least and i hope im feeling is what im supposed to and will lead to recovery.

this is the whole idea of taking it. Since it is very low androgenic and high anabolic.

But we still need to know for which case this anavar is.

 

[Troy]

i feel ya, buddy. i think us PFSers come out of this with a ton of wisdom and new perspectives on things. i definitly have learned to appreciate the little things so much more, and i can attest that this makes you stronger and pushes you to overcome some of the weirdest things... like my goodness haha
im glad youre doing better too, man. i read your log so you have come a loooong ass way haha

also
update:

i think the bleh feelings may be setting in at this point.
i feel very tierd and fatigued, but keep in mind i also slept like shit last night due to who knows what... i feel okay. not bad by any means.
my face and waist seems slimmer and more and more improved as far as fat distribution goes. im very vascular and muscles look great.
i felt some light pain in the chords or veins that connect to my testicles haha so not pain in my testicles dorectly. its almost like a pain or even a pressure that is close to blue balls maybe? im not sure how to describe it, but i think that this is where the drug really starts working.

my theory is that anavar is either a partial agonist and partial antagonist to the androgen receptor. it competes with testosterone and has higher affinity to the androgen receptor than test since dht derrived; however, it weakly activates the receptor... sounds like a partial agonist/antagonist to me. would explain why this can help a lot actually if thats the case. alsoi as helen has mentioned cortisol blocking is part of whjich i know has an effect on potassium cuz i felt some potassium like effects when i first dosed it.
since its already dht it may even displace what dht i already make with this weak dht which would be good. almost like lowering androgens with an androgen, but more so than just through merely HPTA suppression.

its a very interesting compound to say the least and i hope im feeling is what im supposed to and will lead to recovery.

What potassium like effects did you notice?

 

[IHateFin]

What potassium like effects did you notice?

I noticed what I notice when I take high dose potassium.
Weird feeling, low blood pressure, body temp rise and slight off feeling in face m extremities. Twas a lot more subtle with var, but enough to draw the comparison

 

[Troy]

I noticed what I notice when I take high dose potassium.
Weird feeling, low blood pressure, body temp rise and slight off feeling in face m extremities. Twas a lot more subtle with var, but enough to draw the comparison

Interesting thanks. I noticed the potassium built up in my system the more I took it over time. Maybe yours is still up from last week.

Any snap back from your potassium experience?

Also you sound nearly recovered - having sex etc.

 

[IHateFin]

Interesting thanks. I noticed the potassium built up in my system the more I took it over time. Maybe yours is still up from last week.

Any snap back from your potassium experience?

Also you sound nearly recovered - having sex etc.

I started to see something, yes.. the week before starting var I was taking 2g of potassium a day with high dose trib and quercitin. after I dropped the quercitin and the potassium I started to feel pretty darn good mood wise and I continued taking high dose trib. I dropped everything a few days leading into starting var.

im livably recovered I would say. im still inconsistent in mood, sex drive, morning wood stregnth and personality intensity, but yes im always able to have sex and find more often than not im having a decent day.
im not recovered enough to not be constantly thinking about PFS or to have a teenage libido again or euphoric like I always was prior.

 

[IHateFin]

update day 5:

today I woke up from some good sleep. I think most of my bleh-ness and issues yesterday was mainly from the poor sleep I had.
today I feel better and more optimistic but with a touch of anxiety of a family trip coming up. that may be normal though I don't know.
morning wood was strong and good. not raging or hard enough to split diamonds, but strong and lasted a bit after I got out of bed. wasn't expecting much wood with suppression im sure im experiencing.
took about 20mg of var since the pills I split aren't always exactly 1/2 a pill so this one seems closer to 20mg than 25mg.
mood is good and im looking forward to being social so that's good.
noticing some new hairs on arm, but they are light. im hoping this means receptors are fixing and once im off and test goes back up ill find that my body is at a new baseline.

if anything its nice to see that there is something that has a very apparent affect on mood and sex drive that is an androgen since most of us feel worse with androgens... seems like the weaker the androgen the better we feel.

 

[jacknap]

my gf knows of my pfs

lmao I mention it to all my regulars and even 80% of one night stands cuz a lot of girls want multiple rounds from me so gotta splain

 

[IHateFin]

lmao I mention it to all my regulars and even 80% of one night stands cuz a lot of girls want multiple rounds from me so gotta splain

bro you are a machine! hahaha well im glad youre open with your "clients" although it would be easy to hide it from them, but very very hard to hide from a gf.

 

[hopenew]

Hi @IHateFin so happy for u man, hope we all find a cure for this
I am going to try the anavar protocol soon & will update u with the results. so I have 2 questionsL
1) do u take all 25mg one dose in the morning or split doses as the anavar have a short half life of around 9 hours? which leaves the body for half the day without anavar effect? this might be the reason behind ur headaches
2) are planning to have a pct i.e clomid/nolva to restart the HPTA after your anavar cycle?

Thanks in advance for ur help

 

[jacknap]

bro you are a machine! hahaha well im glad youre open with your "clients" although it would be easy to hide it from them, but very very hard to hide from a gf.

I'm also screening for something a bit more intimate so I use it as a test to see how nice of a person they are etc lol my libido is so low but I still have the skills from my high libido sex addict days so it's a weird combo

 

[IHateFin]

Hi @IHateFin so happy for u man, hope we all find a cure for this
I am going to try the anavar protocol soon & will update u with the results. so I have 2 questionsL
1) do u take all 25mg one dose in the morning or split doses as the anavar have a short half life of around 9 hours? which leaves the body for half the day without anavar effect?
2) are planning to have a pct i.e clomid/nolva to restart the HPTA after your anavar cycle?

Thanks in advance for ur help

hey, man!
I think the var will do ya pretty well especially if you have been able to already reach some good improvements in some areas.

I personally have been taking 25mg of var all at once around 9:40am, but splitting it would not be a bad idea to keep plasma levels a little more stable. oddly though the times my sex drive has had the biggest spikes was later in the day around 4 to 8pm seemily when the var was leaving my system as opposed to right after taking it... could be a coincidence, but keep that one in mind.

I am not planning any PCT actually. im going to hop off and take nothing for two weeks before maybe considering herb cycling like trib and Vit D to boost my T if needed.

good luck, man!

 

[IHateFin]

I'm also screening for something a bit more intimate so I use it as a test to see how nice of a person they are etc lol my libido is so low but I still have the skills from my high libido sex addict days so it's a weird combo

ooooh well I mean in that case that's a good way to feel them out. guess once you hit that 400 or 500 mark its time for a deeper connection? haha youre like a real life barney Stinson, bro haha

that is an odd combo haha but im sure your just a bit suppressed rn so that will over time reverse if youre doing some kind of pct.

 

[IHateFin]

quick update:

ist 2pm and I feel clear headed, good mood, good energy and focused and I took me a phat poop.

 

[hopenew]

hey, man!
I think the var will do ya pretty well especially if you have been able to already reach some good improvements in some areas.

I personally have been taking 25mg of var all at once around 9:40am, but splitting it would not be a bad idea to keep plasma levels a little more stable. oddly though the times my sex drive has had the biggest spikes was later in the day around 4 to 8pm seemily when the var was leaving my system as opposed to right after taking it... could be a coincidence, but keep that one in mind.

I am not planning any PCT actually. im going to hop off and take nothing for two weeks before maybe considering herb cycling like trib and Vit D to boost my T if needed.

good luck, man!

Thanks a lot man @IHateFin

I try both to take it once a day & on splitted dosage, Will give updates once I start

Thanks again

 

[Jaxx]

quick update:

ist 2pm and I feel clear headed, good mood, good energy and focused and I took me a phat poop.

Went to a buddy yesterday, that just had a baby. Reports are rather similar

 

[Helen]

Thanks a lot man @IHateFin

I try both to take it once a day & on splitted dosage, Will give updates once I start

Thanks again

Why are you already taking anavar if we did not finish the trials. yet.
We have several people trying out anavar now. And when they get off the cycle, then you can make the conclusions. I have no idea why people react to other people's conditions while being on a cycle. There is nothing to congratulate about yet.

Please be careful. Don't look at people while they are on a cycle. If we get off anavar and everything works , then we will post it and everyone will try it. But no reason to risk more people now.
Of course you can do whatever you want. this is just to warn you , that being on the cycle, does not tell you what will happen after the cycle.

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@IHateFin Man , you need to make these things clear to people here, since if this does not work we can get some innocent people screwed up.
I think they need to wait for us to finish the trials and see exactly what anavar does.

 

[Jaxx]

Why are you already taking anavar if we did not finish the trials. yet.
We have several people trying out anavar now. And when they get off the cycle, then you can make the conclusions. I have no idea why people react to other people's conditions while being on a cycle. There is nothing to congratulate about yet.

Please be careful. Don't look at people while they are on a cycle. If we get off anavar and everything works , then we will post it and everyone will try it. But no reason to risk more people now.
Of course you can do whatever you want. this is just to warn you , that being on the cycle, does not tell you what will happen after the cycle.

@IHateFin Man , you need to make these things clear to people here, since if this does not work we can get some innocent people screwed up.
I think they need to wait for us to finish the trials and see exactly what anavar does.

Just out of curiosity, this trial only includes PFS for now?

 

[Helen]

Just out of curiosity, this trial only includes PFS for now?

yeah for now , only PFS people.