MNK's Log. PSSD Recov 12-18mo 10', PFS recov 11m-16mo 18’. —Studying/Work now. And hEDS.

[MNK99]

--ladies love a vascular and determined man. most important is cock vascularity and stopping power. but also, ambition and being who you are (if it's awesome, in my case it is). Made 21000cad today, shyt, still have 40-45k unrealized should be 122k 200k 500 2mn. but good mo i guess. most rekt. ya i am doing well health wise. most issues are disability related. can't understand me? i mean i can monetize and make like 2mn 3mn a yr with podcasts and shyt.. and could make 300-400k later a yr in law.. and 500k-2mn a yr at times in trading, investing. this isn't a free course im running. later 5x ten x all that. shd be 400-500k cad this yr and 100k usd at lst. that's from zero dollars basically.

 

[MNK99]

--Choline, AGPC, possibly uridine, theanine a bit def help u restore mental fn, and make ADHD less bad, and therefore Cannabis less bad for hEDS/HSD, the joint instability, hypermobility. I want more weed bc i couldn't go to gym... but im working out here, defrosting Costco steak. they aren't the best, ribeyes from them. They're ok but tenderloins are way better, as if most the meat from the farm I use., incl ribeyes. but it is filling, im gonna workout here at home. could have 10 11pm ffs. but that is ok.. 2 lifts, break 2lifts, 2lifts break.. break 1 lift. good enuff. nf too. and rake it in. get more margin cash to secure one bad coin I'm in, then rake it in. Cash in 10-20k usd.. take home profit and 50k -100k cad and 50k in the tsll and the other shyt in this other stuff im in. soon enuff shd be up 50k more so 100k 120k tk home. later 200k more.. and 400k more. well just make 300-500k tkhome this yr and ill be set ish for life.

Partially. minus getting raped in tax and other shyt i have to worry about.

Gotta go take care bye.

 

[MNK99]

Goodbye horses, I'm flying over you!! goodbye horses...

--I guess i had in beard for a while some greys. but some long grey or white hair. not sure. looks like animal hair growing on the side of my head or like robotic hair, that is meant to mimic human hair??

 

[MNK99]

May buy dips CYNGIN and this other shyt, coin... today at gym, or rite after. Second thing isn't buying dip, just making sure I have even more excess margin... so I can't get fucked over.
--cant do this forevere unless i take major profits and stocks and put 10 20k cad (took 21300 profit a couple d ago monday).
--down ten k on paper soon 5 k then up 30k but also up 42 k 45k or so on tsll unrealized. but ya i sold a lot. and shd be 2x or 4x that... so fuck it. soon richer.
--gotta keep cutting i will be lean and perfect. and happy. i will look great and succeed more but also be able to use my persona and talent and secure more hoes. i will close.
--wwhen really lean bang first date or 2 or make them jealous bang someone else.
--nofap for sure.

--RE: 02.05.2025: EPIC CUT for bday.


DID damn well last week, however, I fucked up with a crypto trade but ill get out alive and make good mny, with tight af 3% stop losses, I'll still win this tho, but cost me a lot of time. And made me workout 4x or so last 2 weeks... and I was down 7lbs then proceeding to 11 but I as too hi to workout at times, as in too dangerous, edibles/tinctures/sprays can sneak up on you. Tho I feel great mostly! NOFAP. Strength training soon, minus 30 celcius or so, did dishes, did laundry... gonna switch and Air Dry the clothes I like in there. It is mostly guest bedroom sheets. Anyways, I will lift at a gym nearby, just got 25 dollars for five drop ins, I guess I paid 180 or so 150 or so for 20 or 15 10 guest passes at this nice rec centre they are like 800-1000 a yr the fuck used to be 450 500 or so.. this place 400-500 a yr ?? near house, not sure. gonna go. it is dark. I awoke 11.30pm napped before cuz of weed, then now it is 4 i took vits minerals 1am and coffee cannabis prog and taurine and water 1.40 and then like test cream ostarine 3.45 pm after showering n shaving, appllied tape slowly while watching american dad 4.45 near 5am that's me. that's my next stop both gyms. I SHALL FURTHER BUY DIPS ON CYNGIN and this trash coin I'm in, or at lst, keep excess margin, and actually long some non retarded coin ideally with 2-4k usd soon. and then buy dips on this shyt, or at lst have excess margin. GOOD. workout twice, i was down 7-8lbs, soon 11-12 ate badly lots of chocolate a day or so, and had sandwiches now barely 4-5lbs down but soon far more. I will be ripped and godly and not waste time using the washroom nor anything except winning, meeting women, showering 1.50-2x a day, I only shower 5-6x a week now bc injuries and timing is all fucked up. ANYWAYS SMOKE 2 wrkts, eat at 10pm or 1am or so tmro600-900cals just meat and fat and salt. andill rip up. im already quite big but im cutting ill be down. i hope a lot but i may fuck up and only go down 12-15lbs but the last 15 easy enuff. but ya i Need to be ripped. pretty inside and outside. TEST cream 150mg/ml, ostarine 22mg or so, dex 20mg at 3.55 or so. 4.56am now, il shovel later if need be maybe rn.

 

[MNK99]

--I didnt mean to sleep got higher slept till 1130 5am now guest passes near new gym.. here. not great. but nicer gym too far like 4km vs 13.. anyways so guest passes lots of em, ill join smth later, buying two dips, will get richer. good morning. snow minus 30 . gym here n there main external gym. buy 2 dips. im out . good day . update///? random why me no understand u say? ya i dont care, this is for me. i win.

 

[MNK99]

PREMKT trading and after mkts. no rigetti no cyngin before a lot.. ya cost me like 100k 150-200k potl profits easily. for sure sell tesla highest price ever put in rigetti 400k.. and like now in cyngin 800k instead ill get a measly 150-200k 300k later and 2mn five mn 20mn. but not this yr but ya i could have been set for life with change... what a plastic srgn makes in a yr., but wo tax. like 900k here 400k there.. and ya anyways ill get rich.

CYNGIN near lowest price ever but need more. alot more like 300k shares or 500k shares total but hey it can go to 2 cents shyt up 50 percent at times pre mkt. gotta cont lifting at home.
and maybe rinse but showerd 2hrs ago or so.. 3hrs 10mins i guess. fast shower after wrkt wo. 9.01am eastern gotta go pre mkt.

--up 11.30pm only bc of weed, could have made 30k 60k 80k or 100 k maybe.. even 150-200k today.. but ya i mean, i didnt make some of those gains before but realistically like 600k shares times half a dollar.. 300k today in pre mkt for cyngin fuck me instead break even or iup 2-3k but ya i bought at 12c american or 15cents canadian... and it went to 7,9cents fuck me. i slept bc of weed but i had 7900 cad more and if i converted all tesla ya dude id buy 100k of tesla then and keep 40-50k cad for dips on TSLL. fuck me. but ya i thought more chaos. No one is talking about cyngin . good comp. not m on reddit nor current youtubes good. i fucking bought 21k but could have 29.9k or even 89-90k maybe more. and up 45-50k soon 100-200k. fuck me. but i can still get a profitable sick as fuck trade, always banking keeping some cash to fix low market cap stocks and also to add for final dips and bear mkt. ah well. but ya that sucks.. 160k tsla buy all dip.. wait no trades then in that bitch like 80k rite there, then rigetti when it breaks down 20k in there.. and later 80k new. anyways ill pay attn. and get tangerine or some other shyt, get open pre mkt post mkt hrs. and fucking make sure i murder crypto. workout one.. ov head press shrugs shrugs, dips... this that... lat pulldowns seated rows.. 8-9 things... shiulder shrugs, side raises yada yada. now at home chinups some pushups plancks, and like crunche., asome back rows. but ya i did well for sure. and im gonna get rich. and im gonna keep cutting. handsomeness, prettieness, genius aside... i can still freeze to death so briing fucking keys and grg remote opener. keyless entry no work back in time as dad was getinng rdy tho typos r cuz i dont care and my limbs n ligaments shake and i dont try and no time fix i have srs nmoney shyt to do so ya.

 

[MNK99]

typos= bc i refuse to look at keyboard and or this screen/tab.

buying ultimate dip w more size id be up 30k, even 50k maybe 60k today. fk me. but thatis aite second lowest price ever on cyngin 2 d ago was gna get more but felt good recovering from cannabis and jt stability. plus side got great price gonna get more also pre market after market hrs id have half a mill 2mn in igetti profits and this shyt. easily. that is how u 20x or 10x in like a mo. but ya... instead ill 1.5x-2x. soon... then 8x-15x yr end but at lst i have more stocks now only tsla 67% it is 2x levered. later ill have the same amt in tesla at one x and same amt cash. and 20-30k usd tsla and 10k cash in a nother stock acct. plus crypto. ill do law when more ripped. and ill do the other shyt substack this n that audio stuff later. i need mny. and i need to look good so ya that shyt waits. trust me law scl uni here is harder than starting a podcast nearly every retard does. same w wriyting. if wiritng afsdfasfdagsf for mny ill atry. trying to fkup on prpose now. trust me im smarter than u. i can make this make perfecaseasfeatews sense but why bother. good day. leave me alone.

--Ei Ei YOH e i ei oh. and on his farm he had some friends E i E I Oh. buy 100-300k more shares cyngin later. ignore cucks. lean up. getting lean and ripped. ostarine is good but i gotta keep at it... keep diet tight. gotta be ripped and save up an additional 100-150k soon. gotta. for bday and april.
--THEN 300k june and 500-700k new mny in dec and jan next yr. or well 500k take and buy dips and 2-3mn in nmext bull mkt, and ideally a lot ..a good amt in crypto, i need liqdry there.
--2.06.2025 1.44pm was able to trade execute today for stocks, fund TFSA, get money into defi, smoke my long on this bitch, get 2k usd margin.. secured buy better shyt or short if time is rite. wait..
--and collect, then cash in 10k and let TSLL go to 60-90k cad up then 199k and make it rain with biotechs and the other shyt. then make sure im up over 370k usd.. for the yr, and i beat 1000 tsla shares good.'--maybe 740 800k end yr u need, then ur solid. some tsla here in registered acct some in 2x TSLL, and some cash, and some in TFSA. we good. keep taxes low. lets get rich and wrkt hard.
--add sauce and herbs n spices tiny bit if need be. mostly just butter. ill keep cutting 211 212 210 and then 205 204 and then 200 195. we good.

----soon ill bae rich ish. 400-500k saved up and 200-300k usd... so do that n better most yrs and mn + yrs ahead. but ya i gotta be careful. b2 b6 mg enz turmeric taurine water coffee prog cannabis, test cream, ostarine, dex.

--get it to guaranteed take home 300k i think it is at lst.. w no trades except end when tsla or tsll for me is 400% and cyngin 300-900% or so (even 2000-3000%). that is a lot of mny, relatively\
--for a poorish upper mid class kid. more later w more credentials n studies. - i will be careful. wont get fkd up.

--my nigga here, lend me some at times and ill make u 100% to 400-500% at times. say 30% and capital reserved... but likely ill give u higher than 130% back but I don't want to mislead nor stress out.
--less stress, ya ill give u a lot back.

 

[MNK99]

-_habits
--Discipline
--Work Ethic in Alignment with Approach to Life.
--Meditation.
--Lifting.
--Showering.
--Sleeping.
--Working.
--Analysis. Investments and trades. TA.
--lst for exam and getting doctorate despite the ADHD.
--date more.
--and stay taped get cannabis or smth that doesn't fuck w gross motor skills or more tolerance ... and more tolerance. and also... ya plan day around that, worsened disability... meditate then, walk a bit, pace at lst.
--then go workout later. ill be fine.

--fuck me. I hope I don't get fucked... CYNGIN further tanking but I will buy a bit more.. minus 40%. I will take 10k out of TSLL if need be and buy more on a low price. Mkt is barely even down, wtf, tariffs play. This is a real company and not some bs, and it is a bull market, but don't be bulltarded. I am sure waiting will be fine, but that is like 3d /7 d or so like minus 50 percent. man. I have what I consider to be a good price. It is volatile, and yeah makes it a bit hard to chill out. Should be fine tho, definitely not a joke tho... keep tight stop losses and let new market structures develop. I will try buying some,... but it is extended hrs and sketchy, and also... I mean I will buy the dip later with TSLL up ideally. I ain't tripping but glad I have 27k worth and not like 50-100k... i will avg down tho. but i mean i won't catch a falling knife fk that. Do not want it to get delisted, I hope unlike BIORQ, they have great management.. and they pay their staff. Anyways, one day this goes to a dollar agn then 8.00 or something insane, like that.. it will be worth it. 8-16. 20. but ya i think ill buy at lst a bit more, but tmro in day time. I ain't bragging abt nothing here, I am trying to live to my potential and succeed. I am happy and proud where I came from but a lot of this i had perfect health 5-6 yrs ago and like i shd have been rich 4-3 yrs ago or so or 5-6 relatively well off by now but this will be a crazy af yr market wise. then bear. later this yr. crypto and nasdq. nyways i shovelled snow basically in an autistic fashion, ill workout light here and try and hit the external gym one of em.

 

[MNK99]

I find myself engaged in spiritual warfare… for years now.

I am running campaigns of self improvement.

Heartbreak is one thing, my ego’s another, I pray you don’t embarrass me motherfucker.

I will win the fuck out of cyngin and buy major dips in tsla so 2000% or 500% or whatever in this shyt (800k- 200k, or 2 min later or 20 mn but less retarded targets like 50-200k is good).

And the. But more tsll when Tesla is 200 or 280 200 and 130 and fucking smoke show that to 340-450-500% and also get 1000 shares of Tesla overtime at 200 130 and 160 and 120 and 90 or 84 or 20 (prolly not gonna happen he knows)).

1000 Tesla shares overall and make over 1000 so make and take home profit over 360k usd later 1000 tsla shares and 3600 4500 gotta be more than 2777 or so tsll shares.

I had to sell some of that shyt barely 140-160% and 120% to fuel cyngin.

But I will win big despite being down now.

Careful on buying everlasting dips

Also tight stop losses.

Murder it. Murder ocean and cyngin quickly get 60-70k profit back and so I sold 43 k cad and took 27-30 k profit last week non and Friday and soon 90-100k cad and later 350-500k cad.

Ideally 800k-3 mn yr end but I’ll be happy with 500k cad or so. But make more of this other shyt well with tsll 650 k.

And crypto.

Good weekend byes.

 

[MNK99]

Here’s a longer response to that prick.
Just know, that I dumb myself down severely, incl. in grad school, dealing with ppl in real life, let alone online people.

kk good luck. im kinda busy. --cured your nonsense. wait on the science then that will be a good use of time. when fauci and gates and merck tell u how to save yourself. must be doing ok healthwise, considering I made 27k++ cad takehome this wk. soon 100-150k/ some single weeks. should have taken 122k but whatever. has a lot to do w health, and coping w stress. im working on actual health issues, not just ed or pfs. Scroll up and read thru like 30% of what i said, you have 20options for pssd pas pfs.. and ud see i don't love tei, either. I work too hard to answer bitchy q's, and am worth tm money. i prolly know more sci than you do, as well. Considering all my peers, siblings, sister in laws are like pharma phd's, surgeons etc. gonna make 600k off sci this yr then 3mn usd. then 50mn. so ya science. who cares as long as it gets results or gets u paid, wgaf. what u gonna do, tell me to kms, now? like u did another member. tf you think you're talking to?

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KK good luck. Cured PSSD at like 22, and PFS, yrs later... in like 8mo. Worked out twice today, late bc I got a ride and didn't want to uber it. Made like 27-30000cad takehome last week (shd be 100-150k, but I'll do that x4 later this yr). So ya, I'm fairly healthy despite actual challenges. You can think whatever the f you want to. Pretty sure if you read anything I said about PSSD and PFS, that diet, exercising, fasting were like 80% of it, even if I used supplements, meds. And I also had a fair critique of TEI like 7yrs ago and recently. As I said, my log changed... and I mean I'll just deal with cool ppl only. Maybe I should have waited for Pfizer to help me with Effexor in 2008, or Merck with Fin, in 2017... or Pfizer again with the vax in 2022. I get shyt done. The science that matters, I know it fairly well. The rest I can understand. I took TEI 3mo and had better results than ev1. I quit prematurely, bc life happens. There are literally Harvard pharmacology PhD's in my family, that know zero about this condition and surgeons who also barely know anything about it, besides what I begrudgingly shared with them. Fuck science, unless it makes me 20-30mn usd. in a few yrs, who cares. There is a lot of science behind DIET and EXERCISE, and a lot of it is bad. There is some science behind orthomolecular medicine, I am not an instant encylopedia for randoms. I'm busy. Good luck. Your last posts were telling members to Kill themselves, and yeah you don't deserve all this text. Most ppl are too stupid to read. I assume since you're a science master, you can though. Intermittent Fasting became really scientific yrs after I was already doing it, like 20 yrs ago. I mean, life is short... there's always asymmetric info, and you'll never know enough to obtain a singular cure in all cases.

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GP fired me too. I SEE. Nice. Fefi is back, saw an endo. Yeah.

-- I told off mesolimbic politely.
----downtrends in reversals, always get shorted, esp a penny stock so this shyt may fall to 3.7 cents, i hope not but buy 10-20k cad more.. not instantly, i mean that is max... like 4k-5k only when TSLL is up tho, will I sell. --agn i outrain ppl 10-15yrs younger than me 8x this week if not for weed. maybe 6. tmro.
--cyngin, get 80-200k shares more if falls a lot but do it in 3k 2k lots 4-5k lots... but no fomo, and only sell tsll 199-299-350-500% ideally.
--or wait, get out at 30-50-99% or 150-200%... and that's a lot of money. ideally 1000-2000% and if i held tsll trust me 40000% later, 5-6yrs, but ill get dips major dips at 280-310 250 200 135 and yet my price was 183 at near 2x.
--but whatever,ill earn faster here. need money to make money.
--gotta run.

 

[MNK99]

--4 workouts, 2 a day. 2 tmro ideally, joint instability/ muscle, joint, etc pain permitting. SO bright... snow and sunlight is blinding. I am cutting, if zero cheats instead of once a week or so, ya id be 192 instead of 210-211. somewhat vascular at this weight. Women still like me, but I don't care about that, so much as I care about myself. However, I will be deadly lean eventually. WHo i am talking to ?? me you motherfuckers. FUCK SCIENCE. minus results 620k-800k or 5mn tns on cyngin cool, if only 50k-100k or 20-40k well that is still 50 percent at 20k. still better faster more accurate and safer (usually, not always), trading than the competition.

--4th workout, 2x today, maybe 2x tmro, if joint stability/muscle and joint pain, etc permit it. Test 100mg/ml, Ostarine (IDK a lot... 30mg+ if incl yday nite), and like 5 drops of Epiandro, bc I have it lying around. Great workouts, but tired. And first workout was like 10hrs ago or so, second was like an hr ago, would have been sooner, didn't want to uber it, and got a ride instead but late. Got drycleaning, and cannabis in store. 8 or so women checked me out. 2 def like me a lot. the rest were attracted but some may think that "I'm a bit mental/eccentric/crazy." I.e. cool as fuck. Some sad fatty was mean to me online, and I was nice and polite.My aunt is unfortunately very sick. She is a doc. Besides that and various family illness and stress, g in real life and online. Have a nice weekend.

--get super rich ignore ev1. get more bishes, but also get the 2 I like the most.

 

[MNK99]

--downtrends in reversals, always get shorted, esp a penny stock so this shyt may fall to 3.7 cents, i hope not but buy 10-20k cad more.. not instantly, i mean that is max... like 4k-5k only when TSLL is up tho, will I sell. --agn i outrain ppl 10-15yrs younger than me 8x this week if not for weed. maybe 6. tmro.

Minus 12 worked out minus 33 went outside after and was fine maybe only minus 27 the.
Tshirt basically super cold material.

And walked outside j now despite joint instability worsened with hella oil and spray cannabis. Dec 25 mg Ostarine 30 mg or so and test cream 100mg. These are just things I took like 12-20hrs ago weed most recent.

And I’m fine.

Smoking sure could land me in hospital and for sure make anxiety horrible.

This I can chill and talk to women easily and strip down and initiate better. Thank God/ the universe.

However, ketamine, mdma will be even more beneficial for dating and more critically transcending thru trauma.

I will not display the 200 studies and sources in my mind and films for thoughts about cbd thc cbg mdma ketamine etc.

Bc I mean I just get haters or randoms with questions.

Doing well. Will improve.

I guess sexually after fasting all day or even just normally for me tho that is normal for me…

Red meat then sex function works but better for sure with no PIED. Maybe eating meat or it is dexedrine and it’s vasoconstriction leaves system but I don’t know I tapped and had sex lots of times, here and there on coke before. But also dex at times.

Sure vasoconstriction is a factor.

If anything it is lower testicular volume and intertesticular sperm. Ie no HCG or hmg or rfsh.

Long run carniv will help lots.
I could use TEI for my few remaining issues. Not pfs.

Real drugs make even more sense.

 

[MNK99]

Fuck, lots of mistakes above lol but I was really high.

By "being hospitalized by weed", I mean that if it worsens joint instability, gross, and or fine motor skill worsening in conjunction with hEDS/HSD. I am careful, but I will make sure to only go out a bit when I am only able to do that. Like walk on patio.. wait, order food. Stay inside if strange apartment, and I don't trust/ know people yet. Most ppl won't hurt me... but there are lots of terrible ppl out there, and If I am high and more open and honest , I can explain to ppl I need help at lst. Nice. I will get a haircut soon.

lifted 5x, easily 6x today for second time, if I could have slept earlier, and didn't need a lot of cannabis. Also joint instability is worsened by cannabis but it has its merits (medically taken, or dispensaries. used for sleep this and that - not for PSSD, PFS). Tho, yeah when I first used it in 2018, it didn't crash me. It is a bit dangerous with the hypermobility, but I make sure to wait 2-3hrs if not 12-20 pre lifting. Ate some carbs, drank 2 carbonated iced teas (THC 10mg each), and had lots in coffee. Tiny bit of carbs 1-2d, o'w I'd be down 12-14lbs last 2 weeks instead of 8.
--im cutting, i look pretty fking jacked but ya sure, need more definition, but bigger than 100% of cucks i saw at gyms 8-9/9 x whatever. but ya this about me. i will be more ripped and godlike just for haters, also for hoes. blow me i dont care, i have money shyt to focus on then ill just go look pretty and sad and girls will ask me out more but i need to live in a community with no poor people nor commoners. im working on trauma so i can deal with pricks and ppl i dont hate also.i watched hella shawn ryan alien episodes.


Feel pretty good. Lifted 5x, could be 6, maybe even 8x, worked out a bit in minus 33. shovelled. Lifted 11pm, 1am, 3am and 7am at gym, otherwise earlier times at home. I see nature of injuries for decades, many are hEDS/HSD. I look jacked, super lean soon. Some cannabis too much at times, for joint instability slowed me down, lifting wise and diet wise a tiny bit, but also I ate clean af and had like rice chips to cheat and some aged cheddar, it isn't that bad but 210 rather than 204 from 2015 the 2 weeks before. I will be down 5-8 this week o/w take it slow and recomp 3lbs a week till it is 2... and yeah I look strong but the eyes hurt, with the relflection of snow. And cramp after lifting and can trip. I will be lean and godly again. This is just diet/ fitness recomping, healing actual probs, like u know my spine. no pseudoscience here i explained 300x what i did to get better, i have memory probs, and im trying to make sure i earn 100-200% alpha over tsla, as in, 100-200% whatever their share price increases per yr. easy with options, easy enuff with trading crypto at size, i need it with stocks mostly and some crypto.

 

[MNK99]

I killed a gross spider today in the washroom and I also killed a spider like a week ago. I don't like spiders and centipedes and milipedes and scorpions. ANd I hate how shellfish look and those crabs and lobsters and I don't like too many fat mammals either.

--i will be super lean and jacked, and smooth and hairless (except where it counts), then I will swim like a shark and hunt my enemies like a UAP/drone strike. I will not be attacked by interdimensional beings, even if they can help me. I don't want the nightmares nor to be infected by their biologics. Some beings, once they start killing they acquire a taste for it. And they can't stop it.

-- "What use is all of this... if I keep waking up by myself, then you don't exist."
-- "IF I was braaavee.. I'd never get this feeling... It;s not your plllaaace."
--I ate tuna and eggs and aged cheddar and some sauerkraut and some rice chips and some chocolate after BONE BROTH POWDER FOR PROTEIN TO KILL THE HUNGER.
--BUT OSTARINE AND SOME EPI ANDRO CREAM AND TEST cream kicking in a notch, I get hunger pains... I need to eat... I didn't want to order 2 sandwiches or material for it, for 80 dollars.. SO i ordered
--groceries fri nite meat meat cheese kefir, they cancelled the beef and kefir. and I was high as fuck. ANyways, Now I am cool.. gonna lift more soon.. today and tmro.. 2x.. plus earlier so 3x 04x in 2d. WOOT!!
--we are recomping.
--I PICKED UP MY DRYCLEANING, BONE BROTH POWDER, and took vits medicine and weed lots and I will lift and get READY FOR THE NEW WORLD.
--I MAY FLUX up and down 5k 10k 20k 40k 150k soon 220k. so I must focus and not fuck around. 3weeks 5 weeks 10 weeks 2 weeks some time ill make 20-30k or ill go down 5k. won't close till up 200k.
--need 360cad saved up stat in one acct. then ya hellamore. avg down on melania coin and print 400 450k cusd.. and then 550-600k. gonna be a tough week prolly.
--see if trade invaliidated. load up a tiny bit on ocean and on this mofo CYNGIN then get back in TSLA. lets go. TSLA 353 later today. or far worse. 320 300 290 later in weeks. then 400 450 550 600 800.
--lets use profits elsewhere in stocks to channel back into TSLL and TSLA at one X, and have similar positions but smaller in my other stock acct.
--Murder the game, rip up, look good, and feel good... and meditate and journal, and use psychedelics and weed to kill ego and have fun and meet motherfuckers. Alrite, I'm out.
--Peace to the world and the Gods,
----ev1 who "called me out", is a little bitch and a loser. Die an incel. Fuck u pay me.
--dont get in my way, in real life. I'll fucking end you.
-- --sorry i can't go the mall. im gay. i'm trans. whatever, you know.


--unrelated:
--it's only been a day... feels like eternity, since you walked away... I'M BLEEDING... Rivers Made of Tears... Mountains of Fears... Can't hold back this feeling... you've littered on my UNIVERSE, with your colours... My skies are grey.. IS it too late to say I'm sorry. Can I make you stay... can I have one more day?? To Say I'm sorry..

 

[MNK99]

--im cutting getting leaner, i logged ok im out bye. I worry a lot... about past and not living up to my potential. And Also disability.. and I can't see how to explain things to new friends, but yeah I mean im hiding my brace at gym... under my hoodie. and anyways i wish i could have opened up before... and asked for help when i needed it. and not have not taken any ADHD medicine for like 2 yrs and no androgens, pfs treatment like 4 5yrs . it was stupid. test and dex solve a lot. so does weed. so does... this other shyt, ostarine.. taping and bracing. i mean test cream.

Love i just want to be strong, mobile, safe, and happy. and mentally well. I want to be able to recognize social cues better and also I mean know when ppl like me and not run away from everyone. im shy, it's fucking hard. and i look intimidating at times and im strong and then ppl see me weak.. and i feel crippled and i cant trust ppl.

and i dont want to get hurt physically, nor emotionally. i needed help with the trauma 5-6 yrs ago even 7 10 15 18 yrs ago probably. found out about ketamine ill find next steps to get treatment here i did that breifly... anyways id be so happy if I could have opened up then and made relationships more... and id have continued treating pfs, Marek's 4-5yrs ago.. or at lst herbs first.. and also id be done school forever. bc theyd help me study, but this bitchy gay kid got in the way (bc he is a dbag not cuz he's gay). And I mean I needed to tell ppl i can't take the vax. lost so m time bc of illnes and chronic health conditions.


i like carniv bc i don't need to use the washroom and can instantly drop fat and water. but i mean ive been ripped before and will be/ but i want to be happy i was so close to it. ill fill my life with love. ill fucking have spiritual encounters with interdimensional beings and use ketamine, later MDMA. I want to heal.

So that I can feel loved. I don't understand why people can't just "understand me"/"get me", without having to talk to them and explain things. I don't understand why they don't just get EDS/HSD, or CPTSD.. or like pfs pssd scientists docs did zero about it basically. I mean wtf. I was literally perfect as i can be minus hair and perfect age to get married and start doctorate a few yrs ago, this fucking pandemic and lockdown ruined my life, as did the gay vax. I fixed everything, ill still be traumatized and have anxiety.. and hEDS/HSD. ADHD too but I don't care too too much except that ADHD + hEDS can literally kill you * but staying sober or only good drugs and having some stim/ androgen/ choline/ etc on hand can help. I hate feeling high with weed and having joint instability worsened at times, esp when I'm suffering from high anxiety.


I got really high doses yesterday bc I was chilling, then ate carbs, then got depressed later and now bad anxiety... ill make 10-20k at lst. in a mo or so.. that is good, that is like a yr takehome for some ppl, btwn that and last wk.. and later a lot more. and i just want to make time that is why i want money. anyways... im not desperate for anything nor anyone. but i deserved to be done school already and also i would have been happy with one of those 2 women, and they could saved my life. and helped me deal with trauma and heds/hsd, and tell me not to take the vax and understand why. even injured doing nothing, random women asked me out in that condo. next time i move i have to rmemeber all this trauma, almost dying in last condo before that. and this is too much. there's too many that things that have happened to me. i feel like damaged goods but im not. im cursed, it's just how it is for a Pisces. I'm getting older i dont have time to get hurt.. i just want to make 1-2mn takehome like live off interest 100k. and do school if i want it but make up for lsot time.

a bit confused and working on life at 30 25 is fine.. but i mean i look younger. when ready to date more and seriously ill get 27 30 25 year olds and i mean i can't fucking explain things to anyone let alone someone too young. idk there are a lot of smart and responsible and understanding women out there, but I mean i want them to know.. but know that mostly im all fine.

i will regrow hair and get leaner and more ripped so that i can act stupid and still get women.
but what matters is the insidde.
but trauma doesn't let u show what's inside.

i need ketamine.

and i need steel tendons and collagen and joints. I don't think the latter one is even possible.

I need to go back in time. To 2019.. and get really rich pre covid crash and keep all my BTC, and get ketamine.. and use it.. then hide 4-5mo study for test.. then go and live.
i couldn't live it up with law school and learning to trade.. that nitemare and all that other stuff. i felt cured but had some issues but then... i mean i got really sick again yrs later.. and i didn't treat pfs nor ADHD bc i was depressed but not treating ADHD will depress u like fuck. idk what the fuck.

I can't afford self destruction and I need to stay young forever. Otherwise I can't be happy.
I need someone to save my life. Love will save me.

But it's a cruel world and people are mean. And I get in trouble like anytime I go anywhere, unless I'm high or something... even then probably at times.
But I stay low key and I'm secretive and mysterious and people try and get to know me. But they don't understand I want to get to know someone, when I have the time...
and when It is all night when i can stay up all night. If I didn't get sick, I'd spend more time with my Toronto friends.

I live in a dictatorship. I needed things younger... and I needed to avoid the trauma and I needed to fix mental health stuff younger.

And I needed a meat only diet as a child, then I'd be perfect.
My feet are bad and my arms are longer than my height...
My eyebrows and eyelashes are thinner than they were years ago like 10-11 yrs ago. Since dexedrine and the vyvanse, adderall briefly.

ANyways, I want to look good and I will and I do but I can look better.

And I want to be able to say the things that I want.
I will get leaner, slightly taller, and whiten my teeth, and I will fix what I can of the connective tissue, and I will regrow my hair.
And I will make money, and take care of life. I probably won't get taller actually nor regrow all my hair maybe some or just prevent loss and get FUES.

But Erase my trauma... i thought we were friends.
Why are you doing this to me??!!

LOVE is supposed to save everything, but you need COLD CALCULATING LOGIC.
I used to hide my clumsiness and was fast like a cat, with the reflexes (probably still am mostly, but sure I need to train and get faster).

I was hiding the way my neck moved and swaying upper torso, that was a fucking disability what the fuck?

I feel too intensely or I'm dead inside. I need to be able to make myself vulnerable but I need to lose my shyness. I'm a cool as fuck guy, but I mean like yeah strength training makes me more confident again and working out despite disability. It isn't too late for me, I'll never get depressed a year again/ Medicines will get better in the future and I am still young. I will catch up in life and I can still have kids... and like I should already have them.. I met women that could have saved me and they tried some of them but they are shy too many o them, or they were alpha as fuck, and I just can't hangout with 30-40 ppl and I can't act like everything is ok. I can be popular but to be friends with a really attractive girl that is new is one thing, but someone who is the alpha at downtown and stuff, like ok i can be cool but i need drugs to act normal but they make me too robotic, then i need other stuff... and they spike dopamine too much.

I am just trying to be healthy, stay strong.. and fix trauma, and never get hurt, sick, nor emotionally destroyed again.
Ill help ppl with podcast whatever, ill fucking do yoga classes at next condo, whatever.. ill force myself to stare and look at ppl when they talk to me, and ill get the number of women first time i meet them, even 11/`0 two women come to mind, i gave them my number lol and it is east coast area code.. and i live in west. It is a Toronto phone number.

I look like a gangster. Everything about me seems sketchy but Im congruent and aligned. I am a professional but I don't know if I can act, write, trade, do law school, and like have a podcast all at once.
I need popular women to help with that bs above but I need love for the stuff that matters (not friend, but a wife, not just a random bang), I need someone to help me interface with society. I'll tell them the truth and help them too. But I need to erase trauma fast.

I could have had a perfect life at 25 if some financial decisions were done differently and medical treatment just rejecting it and the testing for hEDS/HSD was better and all that... and like ADHD was treated then... anyways at lst i know treating ADHD, fertility, hEDS/hSD, or even a cough... like whatever happens to me, even if I got some mild cancer sometime, I can take care of it with ADHD medicine.

I need money to keep me safe... I need to be strong to keep me safe. I can save others... but who will save me?

 

[MNK99]

I only want people to see my emotions when I look my best. Like I don't want to look sad nor cry when I am not at my best. I don't want ppl to need to save me.
At the same time

 

[MNK99]

i need to look how i looked at 27 but only more ripped. i need to be 27 forever also. otherwise i cant be happy. i had everything in life then and a few yrs ago.. mostly, well on my way at least. i needed to be married by a certain age and also done my stupid doctorate (i mean ya i want to be a lawyer in many ways, at the same time i mean i cant do 3-4 things all at once so easily). and i gotta take care of phys disability. but i dont want to ruin my life... nor have it stay bad in ways. i was happy in 2019 my life was right and i was getting what i need and deserve for once... 2018 also but i needed help with trauma and opening up and whatever.. therapy. i needed ketamine and or therapy like 10-15 yrs ago. idk what to do. i hate losing time. i dont know i feel like im mobile and fit 30-50hrs maybe with low dose dexedrine... 50hrs, and some androgen and taping and bracing. but with more dex maybe 70-80hrs... same time neither that nor androgens cure hEDS/HSD obviously. i mean i need it but maybe only for school at the end. fk i dont know. i need dex to function and i need the other shyt to be happy ish... and i need habits and discipline all in place and in check. it is hard. --im cutting getting leaner, i logged ok im out bye. i need to be perfect, so i can be happy. so i can have my happy ending in life. i made everything like near pefect and people really liked me, but things got ruined anyways. I'm trying to fix things that I can't probably, and I'm worried about my future. I rewrote my story yet again, and things got ruined, I couldn't explain. Medicine that helps me, probably ruins relationships/dopamine spiking, and maybe it isnt that bad and I use it responsibly. I had a community, people loved me.. and all wanted to hangout, I pushed them all away.. and I couldn't open up even when they saw I was crippled and needed help. I don't understand, why I took the vaxxine after my medical history, and why I got so depressed in 2021-2022.. I needed to make friends soon as I moved out on my own again, ppl wondered why no instagram this and that, im a private person. ppl tried to make me get in an ambulance and go to the hospital some friends worked EMS... like a doctor committed malpractice and abused me (even tho id destroy them physically and mentally and financially soon, later legally, bc i'll sue them), but the point is too many bad things have happened to me. PSSD, later PFS, movement disorder, i mean misidagnosed ADHD and connective tissue disorder forever. i cant explain... i needed my longer term friends, i couldnt see em, i moved in PFS crash still had to pay like 10k rent. i had no money. i barely do now. there is no amt.. 20mn that will bring back tie and make the life that iw as supoosed ot have. i already fixed everything. the rest ok what i needed a therapist i mean it closed the world shutdown 3-4 yrs ago. needed it before school? i was smarter and healthier tho. it doesn't make any sense. i could have been happy.

 

[MNK99]

--it is like I need one drug to focus and stay calm and kill anxiety, and one to help mood and like be kind and like open up and be vulnerable. and maybe a set of drugs to be as strong as possible. id also like to regrow my hair. but ya i mean that would kill me probably. so ya. dont know i want to be perfectand i was closer and ev1 loved me but i ran away from them and like i needed to write my exam and focus. but i needed someone to help me with life structure. like some female friends and a girlfriend for other stuff. but really hot women i dont know... i mean can u even be friends and yet if i did ya id have 40 other friends that one women was the most popular ish person there. and this other one new to town we should have been married. anxiety ruined my life for sure. as did medical stuff. ill fix what i can but i mean i cant take it anymore sometimes.

mentally, it is exhausting.

ill be fine tho. i gotta be great. ill cut down the weed.
and study. and ill make friends including women even if i want to just be friends or date or meet someone thru them.

and it is ok to not be perfect. i was pretty damned good tho tbh but ya i will be again. im doing welll mostly but ya there's stuff id like to fix. like hair.
and id like to be taller and look like i looked at 27 forever. and i want to get rid of a scar and whiten my teeth.

and i want to fix my disability...

this can calm me down and helps me sleep. i am not saying i need to sleep, right now but ya.

I like the rain in cabins and stuff like that cars passing by downtown.
Trance also.

they should have fed me only meat as a kid.. and I should have had knowledge about hEDS/HSD, and they shouldn't have misdiagnosed me so many times psychologically and otherwise probably.

And they shouldn't have almost killed me with meds.

And my friends shouldn't have betrayed me at 19.

And I should have had the rite drugs and therapies for autism, trauma as a kid.. or whatever something like that.

hEDS/HSD gets in way of scheduling so does ADHD. I need a female secretary friend locally (I actually have a couple in Toronto).

And also a super hot female friend and gf, but they should be seperate. So I can recreate circumstances.

I need to go back in time. Even if not perfect, people loved me.

I was really handsome and now like I'm slightly overweight and older.

I'm still good and will peak again later but I cant do this anymore. I cant get sick.. then train hardcore and be ripped for yrs or near it... and then get like sicker than ever again and depressed.
i need money in case of health stuff and also to keep me safe mentally.

and keep depression away.

--note some worries:.

Master 1st TA, 2nd Ls. T SL’s 2-3% max, -meditate. wrkt at home. get fresh air.wrkt main gym. getlean. 192lbs. im tripping out. STUDY TA and ls. take care of things, get super lean. Win. fix the sitn. selling tsla and buying dips in rigett then cyngin then sell* pre mkt that'd be 160k to 400k 800k 1.5mn even by now. not joking look at rigetti breakdowns and up.. and cyngin up 50% this premkt. 700 later. -- tk care of this other shyt. work and focus, meditate... fix disability? go back in time? regrow all my hair? get talleer? im six feet and huge good enuff. and i cant do these things i cant go back in time... i cant regrow all my hair. who will save me? i dont want trauma and whatever addictions to ruin my life anymore. they could have saved me. it was fate, i needed help to make it all come true. now i have to make frds bc im disabled? i dont understand, i always was. friends and medicine nearly killed me when i was younger. i needed the rite diet and upbringing and i needed help with the autism, trauma, adhd, disbaility younger. my life is ruined. i fixed everything it's not fair. i needed help tho.


--in work 9.45am, showered look nice. really nice. now
--k cyngin up 65 70%. do 2 more days in a row like that please, 3 green candles up come on. but ya i can sell and that is 27k-30k profit last week tkhome Ibc not taxed yet, not withdrawing and 27k this week but minus 17k in one stock that is trash. this will be up 99-200k sn.
--or 8k profit bc of the one stock down so much but ya this shyt will run eventually up 100s of k's. good im out. gotta focus and cant fk around. gotta be serious i look damned good too could use a haircut and more texture and stuff.. some ru58841 but whatever.
--2 27k weeks in a row however. itll be much more and shd be. i want at lst 60k gains from this shyt, for 150%. but whatever take what i can get and slowly bank wins. or hold and bank a lot more but ya it will get shorted


120-140% so 60% for me but soon.. 100 200% yeah if not 300 400% or 500% i hope but ill take what i can get. i hope 1000 or 1400 2000% to be honest but in and out in such a risky stock is fine.
-- a year of rent or so.
--but ya 10yrs is better.

CYNGIN up 140 %. im at home and have not lifted here yet too hi.. but 59-60% for me... 24k and unrealized in TSLL, that is 44k or so total. but ya close and that is 80k nearly or so since last week.
--working out late still hi from 16 and 124 36hrs ago maybe.. idk. but up 22k. cad.. well up more than that unrealized like 45k but shd be higher but 22k cad in a week or so in cyngin. take home some and 60-70k or so takehome last 2 weeks. good. doing good. i mean that is not taxed till i cash in some, then effective tax rate wh will be lower... bc ill incorporate.
--had long msg cut it down.
--was gonna add more. on disc. i kept it short.
--im cutting getting leaner, i logged ok im out bye. i need to be perfect, so i can be happy. so i can have my happy ending in life. i also have to be young forever and live forever... and also go back in time. but a lot of this is impossible. so it's hard. *The curse of the Pisces.*I had everything and everyone loved me but i got sick and my life got ruined again... and then ev1 wanted me and i ran away and then other shyt happens and most of ruined lifetimes weren't my fault. i dont think any of them were. i needed help with trauma, disability.. etc then. and or autism. as a kid. i fixed everything and life got ruined again. i coiuld have been happy. i couldn't work and socialize i could only do one and i couldn't trust people... and i couldn't recognize ppl too half the time bc of the masks./vision/memory issues, plus i barely look at ppl in the eye unless i really trust them or we banged or like i like them a lot. and i had to stay silent bc of dictatorship. too m bad things have happened. too late now. ah ill be ok long and medium run.. and for now less ok but trending up to great. it is just relapse of something and too much cannabis and sure actual trauma and anxieties, I look fwd to ketamine and going out more. --monetizing writing and audio later. soon. could take home 80k last week and now but shd be a lot more. i want to make 350-450k but more like 550k cad and then 100kusd. but decent. 170% cyngin told u 2mo ago but way higher price and friday weds and today. 220k yr incoming then 350k-500k.

 

[MNK99]

--i just wanna say. i called it. health or not. it is part of hackstasis. i said cyngin like 20x. and ya that is 220% today. maybe 150-160 for me. maybe 50k cad in like 10d of holding. maybe 5-6d 10d... 15d not sure. but most posn was built last week/ --barely 111% wtf. but ya i meant to buy more at cheaper price. ill close at 500% or 1000% keep some for 2 yrs for 10000-20000 percent but sell most incase (bear case bankrupt).. bull case 2.00-20 dollars. 2yrs or 5 yrs. and realistic close bull case 20 cents 40cents 1.00 1.50 will be hit agn. but could go down 90 percent tmro. maybe 40 perc. so may tk profit. also 80%ud be on this other shyt, TEMPUS AI or something, and some 20%on asml. mentioned all those and others but ya i know ppl are sick here (im kinda fkd myself). but ya. also ocea pharmaceuticals buying bottom of channel u can do 30-80% sometimes. Ocea i mentioned it was 60% today pre mkt or smthing. and 25% some day last week. still down in it somehow or barely up between minus 25 percent and plus 20 percent or so.

--im cutting getting leaner, i logged ok im out bye. i need to be perfect, so i can be happy. so i can have my happy ending in life.(dictatorships and fears, anxiety)--monetizing writing and audio later. soon. could take home 95-100k already this yr. good. took some last week, perhaps this wk n last 90k. good stock stuff updated on crypto thread and my log. --among 20 other things..crypto n stocks. basically 220% cyngin u could be today in one day. and also other stuff ocea pharma 18 % maybe rite now.. and 25% some days. and 60% pre mkt or open. nyways gotta run. tk care. peace and love. u cd be 3x plus... buying the bottom. anyways i could have made 80-100k or smthing but 43k in on bus day is good. im not greedy. ill sell for 80-200k or 400k ideally 800k but in and out 50k 100k 150k gains whatever good too. bottom of channel, will go down 40% in a day and 99% in a week at times.

 

[MNK99]

how come u upset then? uh trauma in my life. extortion would kill u 17 yrs ago 15 yrs ago whatever. i shd have 3-4 degrees 10 yrs ago so ya. i have reason to be stressed maybe 3-5 yrs ago. or now but still.

KK good luck. Cured PSSD at like 22, and PFS, yrs later... in like 8mo. Long vsn of this is on my log, for me. Reasons: Various. --since your bitchmade comment 80k. since bdvinces soon 300-400k. lol blow me haters i dont give a fuck. ill do law and still be a gangster and 160iq pts higher than you. so gfys. steal from me, that's a problem too for anyone. --ev1 who ever fkd w me in real life never achieved fk all. online too. so keep hating and be nothing and don't ever ever disrespect me again. How about you gfys you fucking little bitches. too good looking, successful, educated, and jacked and cut to care. and y ai attract women like 20 a day at times if i tried like 3 new dates a week. like 8-10/10s so ya. fuck u pay me. ill get married and have kids and theyll be slayers like me too.

--that is to ED vince and other incels that dare fuck w me. you dont like me. that breaks my heart. but you will respect me.

gotta go make funds and stay lean and go look pretty and fucking succeed more. what u doing? beating your dick to my pics? praying on my downfall?

that's what i thought, bitch.