Fighting….

bruschi11 · May 16, 2026

I think fat oxidation needs lithium b12 . Cuz nadh needs lithium b12 to make nad. Fat oxidation = nadh.

I’m back on reta. Iodine messed me up so bad I knew it raised insulin. I did what I did . I’m on reta with the idea I like it over tirz right now.

As I want to run on sugars right now not fasting. I feel Reta is about eating carbs for fuel. Tirz is about controlling insulin by not eating.

bruschi11 · May 17, 2026

Reta basically releases glycogen to glucose. Lithium stores glycogen. So calms that process down.

MNK99 · May 17, 2026

Boston must be ... super warm. hot as hell. humidity makes me ... it's not good i hate it.
toronto.. ny. ct.. nj.. boston etc must be helllll in summer. for me i mean. some ppl like the heat.

Hope you're doing relatively ok bro.

bruschi11 · May 18, 2026

MNK99 said:
Boston must be ... super warm. hot as hell. humidity makes me ... it's not good i hate it.
toronto.. ny. ct.. nj.. boston etc must be helllll in summer. for me i mean. some ppl like the heat.

Hope you're doing relatively ok bro.

Bro think about Texas and Florida zona lol these places are hot in summer.

It’s fine here.

I fucking suck I injected Retatrutide 3x the dose unknowingly yesterday. Meant to give ss31.

I went from functioning (with a brain damaged shrunken head) to not.

I think about it all. I lost my head in late 2023 for good. I just don’t know if I can get it back.

It was electric convulsive therapy first. Then I had a copper dump 2-3 months later with dhea that was so bad I can’t believe it.

It really has been over 2 years now since a day of feeing anywhere near normal.

I get myself to tolerable places so I can drive a car eat maybe get some libido. But it’s really the shape of my head that got destroyed.

I think it’s generally sod going down long term. Body loses control of oxygen . I’m saying liver pancreas needs to fix sod right now liver the access to copper pancreas iron.

RebelWithACause · May 18, 2026

How did you feel on the chelation stuff back then? I saw you did some cycles or some periods with it.

bruschi11 · May 18, 2026

RebelWithACause said:
How did you feel on the chelation stuff back then? I saw you did some cycles or some periods with it.

It was like when I was in decent spot in terms of iron copper metabolism. Like my mitochondrial disease was in somewhat control. Like late 2024… chelation was helpful. But more of a short term solution to something bigger going on in the body.

There was a period there in mid to late 2024 where I got to that more stable place but it was with a shrunken brain.

I think Reta really steals carnitine. And I gotta just feed that now heavily due to the high Reta dose yesterday.

MNK99 · May 18, 2026

ya well
Girls nice although many.. many ppl in Florida rite lots of dealers and gangsters and hoodrats too. Nice places too.

Isn’t Florida dry I guess not
By the water rite.

Ppl are mean in boston but i mean i only really hung out, near czn's old old aptmt and Harvard. So ya i mean surely lots of dbags there.
And also, the blue collar parts of boston... but im sure there are nice ppl there.

Vegas isn’t nearly as bad as Boston’s, Toronto, Asia, ny in summer.
Floridas Prettt bad true. Texas I have not been but it’s a desert isn’t it?

Geography was a long time ago
And I did a lot of substances since then and ya I mean I don’t sleep enuff so I don’t remember.
Mostly it's ADHD, and ya i mean grade school = long ago. Texas is a desert isn't it?? Part of it is, at lst.

Desert... like alberta...kind of (praire). plus 30 here is nowhere near as bad, tho pretty bad... vs plus 30 in toronto for instance, just
due to humidity and hyperhidrosis a bit (tho better, with cleaner diet... and i mean androgens raise my temp. prolly coffee does too.
ADHD medicine does too).

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Chihuahuan Desert - Wikipedia

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bruschi11 · May 18, 2026

MNK99 said:
ya well
Girls nice although many.. many ppl in Florida rite lots of dealers and gangsters and hoodrats too. Nice places too.

Isn’t Florida dry I guess not
By the water rite.

Ppl are mean in boston but i mean i only really hung out, near czn's old old aptmt and Harvard. So ya i mean surely lots of dbags there.
And also, the blue collar parts of boston... but im sure there are nice ppl there.

Vegas isn’t nearly as bad as Boston’s, Toronto, Asia, ny in summer.
Floridas Prettt bad true. Texas I have not been but it’s a desert isn’t it?

Geography was a long time ago
And I did a lot of substances since then and ya I mean I don’t sleep enuff so I don’t remember.
Mostly it's ADHD, and ya i mean grade school = long ago. Texas is a desert isn't it?? Part of it is, at lst.

Desert... like alberta...kind of (praire). plus 30 here is nowhere near as bad, tho pretty bad... vs plus 30 in toronto for instance, just
due to humidity and hyperhidrosis a bit (tho better, with cleaner diet... and i mean androgens raise my temp. prolly coffee does too.
ADHD medicine does too).

West Texas - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

Chihuahuan Desert - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

I want to go to the desert someday. So bad. And play golf. And hookup with country desert women. I’ve been to Vegas. But I wanna go to Arizona. I wanna go to the Grand Canyon up to Lake Tahoe area.

I was seeing the world with my health issues and enjoying it best I could until 2023 when I lost all control and my life could be about nothing but healing.

I’ve seen most of USA I guess all the major areas not the desert tho beyond Vegas which isn’t the desert. I’ve seen bits of Texas Dallas Fort Worth for a week but never in summer. That’s when I wanna go.

Honestly if I just woke up good one day. I’d maybe just take it off.

Yura · May 18, 2026

I will probably never visit USA. So at least I watch videos like from this guy for example. Peter Santenello
He shows USA in totally different way. Interesting places, people. Some of those videos. I just watch and envy them so much.. All that space, nature, community. Like completely different world. Not the US we see in news like crime/homeless issues in big cities etc.. You are so lucky people from US. YOu can just travel and live in so many different environments. So much nature and space. There is none of that in Europe. That life style "off the grid" just somewhere in nature/with nature. I also envy those cheap houses. Like every broke red neck has some house, backyard. Where you can chill, do some hobbies, have bikes there, dog. Whatever. Here in CZ? You are lucky if you have apartment in apartment building and that's about it. House with backyard is just a dream for majority of people.. SO you just sit in your stupid small apartment and watch TV. You can't just chill outside, grill, have garage where you can do whatever.
Like I would love to have bike. But that means renting garage as well... Stuff like that people in US have no idea how lucky they are.. I even envy some broke people who have just some old trailer heh. Still better than living in 12 floor of apartment building.. heh

bruschi11 · May 18, 2026

Yura said:
I will probably never visit USA. So at least I watch videos like from this guy for example. Peter Santenello
He shows USA in totally different way. Interesting places, people. Some of those videos. I just watch and envy them so much.. All that space, nature, community. Like completely different world. Not the US we see in news like crime/homeless issues in big cities etc.. You are so lucky people from US. YOu can just travel and live in so many different environments. So much nature and space. There is none of that in Europe. That life style "off the grid" just somewhere in nature/with nature. I also envy those cheap houses. Like every broke red neck has some house, backyard. Where you can chill, do some hobbies, have bikes there, dog. Whatever. Here in CZ? You are lucky if you have apartment in apartment building and that's about it. House with backyard is just a dream for majority of people.. SO you just sit in your stupid small apartment and watch TV. You can't just chill outside, grill, have garage where you can do whatever.
Like I would love to have bike. But that means renting garage as well... Stuff like that people in US have no idea how lucky they are.. I even envy some broke people who have just some old trailer heh. Still better than living in 12 floor of apartment building.. heh

Sorry bro that’s tough

bruschi11 · May 18, 2026

2 of the worst days of my life now after tripling Reta dose accidentally. I was really bad prior smh.

I just took iodine . Maybe that is what we are shooting for herew with Reta “how to get my body using iodine without hurting me.”

And that’s where I kinda got in late 2024 when I had improvements in Oligo for awhile. And bloods.

But it was iodine that destroyed me in the end in spring 2025.

The thing is… iodine raises ERa raising insulin.

Insulin elevating destroys me. As I already have high insulin.

If Reta and/or Tirz can keep insulin down I could get thyroid running at just a little decent here.

But in order carnitine b12 lithium all come before iodine possibly sea water. Tmg choline folate.

We are gonna see. Bad bad bad day.

bruschi11 · May 18, 2026

I mean there are two main ways to nad from nadh in terms of the main enzymes.

B2 as thyroid . And b12 lithium.

So that’s it really.

We get fat metabolism working for nadh.

Then it’s thyroid and b12 lithium. Iodine has to happen when nadh turns on .

RebelWithACause · Tuesday at 8:39 AM

Yura said:
I will probably never visit USA. So at least I watch videos like from this guy for example. Peter Santenello
He shows USA in totally different way. Interesting places, people. Some of those videos. I just watch and envy them so much.. All that space, nature, community. Like completely different world. Not the US we see in news like crime/homeless issues in big cities etc.. You are so lucky people from US. YOu can just travel and live in so many different environments. So much nature and space. There is none of that in Europe. That life style "off the grid" just somewhere in nature/with nature. I also envy those cheap houses. Like every broke red neck has some house, backyard. Where you can chill, do some hobbies, have bikes there, dog. Whatever. Here in CZ? You are lucky if you have apartment in apartment building and that's about it. House with backyard is just a dream for majority of people.. SO you just sit in your stupid small apartment and watch TV. You can't just chill outside, grill, have garage where you can do whatever.
Like I would love to have bike. But that means renting garage as well... Stuff like that people in US have no idea how lucky they are.. I even envy some broke people who have just some old trailer heh. Still better than living in 12 floor of apartment building.. heh

The USA has a lot of space it seems yea that's a big plus of the USA including nature. The houses are big too if you compare it to Europe. Even if the build quality is not great it is still nice to live in a bigger house and be able to not sit right next to your neighbour. I saw a video about south side of Chicago in those hoods who live in "poverty" and even they lived in nice houses. Yes much smaller than the average US house. But still big and detached with a garden, small gate, etc.

Even the worst looking neighbourhood there, they had space and big enough houses. Those people were complaining how they live in poverty. Although yes they also had these apartment buildings you see in Europe but they got rid of most of them. All of those people had cars too.

Although I do hear that for example in Detroit it is a lot worse.

If you live in poverty here I know people who live in boxes. Very small appartments and they don't have a car. They live in massive appartment buildings with hundreds to thousands of people living close to each other. Very depressing environments there as well. This is mostly in cities. In rural environments of course much better and more space.

10 years ago it was much better here to be honest. I could get a small apartment in a nice place/environment (nature). Now it's like mostly crap you end up living in some box.

MNK99 · Tuesday at 9:39 AM

global prison. commie blocks soon everywhere. as california gets 4 trillionaire ai douchebags and ev1 else homeless or worse.
west is done. world is done.

Ah it's not so bad guys.

MNK99 · Tuesday at 11:16 AM

bruschi11 said:
I’m saying I really need nadh….. well now that I’m moving Vit A well. Maybe it’s freakin time to take the stuff.

I healed while taking Vit A in 2020.

We will see here. I’m bad. I don’t want to take TRT again. Maybe Vit A will help for nadh as it should help there if it’s moved right.

And it’s being move right according to Oligo’s…

nadph+ injns?
or stimulating via diet and or other mechanisms?

TRT kinda ... useless for many ppl esp when chronically ill.

Helps me, but mostly bc I don't want to spend 2yrs fixing lh and fsh, and be more disabled. Want to lift and stay ripped.
and like, ya it helps pain im pretty sure with my connective tissue disorder. Positive outlook too. Makes me need less dex.

Some weed on top safer. I did try gabapentin last nite, and it did kind of work like Lamictal did (far more hardcore drug, Lamotrigine is).

So i can see... that for my ADHD/(what they said is likely BPII, but is actually HSD/hEDS + Audhd/CPTSD), that these AED's (anticonvulsants) mog antidepressants and all. however, I am a hyperresponder to many meds, so yeah I take like less than a child's dose of such things. And slowly titrate.

Keep in mind, these are hardcore ish drugs, not that bad really but I mean they can cause death.
Especially for some people. Like SJS/TENS.

I will add some stuff missing from Marek health's protocol soon.

TIME passes anyways Bruschi. Sometimes... you get 3 yrs-5yrs of work done in a year. Sometimes .. you have to just take it easy and work on health. it sucks and its brutal, but its better than giving up. At least you're trying something (various things) and not giving up.

MNK99 · Tuesday at 11:25 AM

1. If u do try test cream, try just that and some minerals/vitamins. for like 3-6mo or even longer.
seems better than test e, test prop, for PFS no?

But away from the other stuff you're doing.. not on and off each thing. Just saying.

I mention test cream, bc more 5ar activation, compounding is expensive.
Mine is like 350 canadian but every 80-90days. I stretch my dollar and get 100-110 days tho.

But often take more than I'm prescribed. I think hypermobile ppl burn thru test so to speak quickly.

Maybe normal ppl absorb 15% if they're lucky, with the rite ingreds in compounded pharmacy cream.

maybe I absorb 20-25% IDK. Pretty sure my test only looked normal rather than stupidly high,
bc RAD140 binds to SHBG and increases free test.. or something. I forget. Or like total test was reduced.. bc of Rad140?

(trashy sarm, not that bad but "the tren of sarms" anavar is clearly better. and more dry gains.. and similar to dht. somewhat).

DHT>anavar tho. but Anavar>> Rad140 in terms of LDL, HDL, polycythemia, heart attk, and stroke risk.
Donating blood soon just in case.

2. Test.
I mention test cream, bc more 5ar activation, compounding is expensive.
Mine is like 350cad but every 80-90days. I stretch my dollar and get 100-110 days tho.

But often take more than I'm prescribed. I think hypermobile ppl burn thru test so to speak quickly.

Maybe normal ppl absorb 15% if they're lucky, with the rite ingreds in compounded pharmacy cream.

maybe I absorb 20-25% IDK. Pretty sure my test only looked normal rather than stupidly high,
bc RAD140 binds to SHBG and increases free test.. or something. I forget. Or like total test was reduced bc of Rad140?

(trashy sarm, not that bad but "the tren of sarms". anavar is clearly better. and more dry gains. and similar to dht somewhat).

DHT>anavar tho
but Anavar>> Rad140 in terms of LDL, HDL, polycythemia, heart attk, and stroke risk.
Donating blood soon just in case.

3. NOTE: NOT SAYING TAKE SARMS at all.
I am also not saying they're good for pfs, they probably are just the opposite.

and I am not saying take AED's like gabapentin or lamotrigine: that's bc of neuro/psyche things.

the test is bc of the physical parts of the conn. tissue disorder, mostly. And yeah, i mean maybe I don't need dexedrine as much with it.
kind of like CBG, CBD, CHN, CBN, need less psyche meds, and they aren't as harsh.

dex and test alone: am too hyper / workaholic, and like. a bit dead inside. SO some weed, to calm down, be chill, and happier is fine.

same with it on top of Lith orotate or say if I did get on Lamictal some day (thought abt this yrs back, and did try it, pre fin. It was great..

just i mean it can cause a few severe deadly syndromes... and that's not cool.

--sry so long, lots of info I want to get out. Now tendons/ligaments in neck acting up... snapping a bit out of place... elbow, ankles also.
--going to meditate and put on my braces.

bruschi11 · Saturday at 10:49 AM

I’m down 9 lbs overall in 3 weeks. I think the biggest key is to not have any big crashes. A big crash last week from excess reta was bad and I put weight back on those days. So staying big on electrolytes and carbs/ proteins needs to happen.

And I just can’t work too much and cause crashes with that. I need to be careful with my rest.

Getting a protocol down.

TRT cyp: 20mg daily / 140 a week

Meb12: 5mg injection 4x daily and I eat meb12 lozenges several times a day in between.

Ado b12: 2 dibencozide lozengers daily.

Injectable carnitine: 2-2.5mg EOD

Tirzepatide / Reta:
day 1 Tirz 1.2mg
Day 3 Reta .3mg
Day 5 Tirz 1.2mg
Day 7 Reta .3mg

And repeat. So I’m basically giving the minimum weekly dose of each split over a full week.

Iodine 25mcg
Lithium 5mg 2x
come next as really important pieces. Some days I won’t take iodine.

Then really main normal nutrients.
B complex Cal mag zinc methyl folate tmg cholines

Potassium supplemented at pretty high dose 1-2x daily.

Even tho I’m really fighting to lose weight here. Im finding a really big breakfast should happen daily. High carb, high protein.

From there , eat good smaller meals high protein with carbs.

Been drinking a lot of orange juice. Body just wants these carbs as I oxidize.

I hope it’s not too late. I hope I start improving. I’m worried about the weight. It’s really tough. I didn’t notice it happen over winter. I put on 15 lbs quickly and I didn’t even know it. I wasn’t weighing myself .

I started this fat oxidation approach 3 weeeks ago and I was 255 when I started. I’m 246 now.

9 lbs in 3 weeks doesn’t sound that great but realistically I crashed so hard half way into it and put on 3lbs in that time period.

Need to keep sea water / Epsom salts/ mag cl baths in mind here . Mag cl bath today was decent and sea water woke system up the other day.

RebelWithACause · 2026-05-24T07:55:48-0400

Crazy how fat you got bro but I get it, I got fat sometimes too in the past but nibbed it in the bud on time every time. Now I don't gain weight so easily anymore.

bruschi11 · 2026-05-24T18:30:42-0400

RebelWithACause said:
Crazy how fat you got bro but I get it, I got fat sometimes too in the past but nibbed it in the bud on time every time. Now I don't gain weight so easily anymore.

Yea it’s really sad I was living at 165-175 in early hackstasis days

bruschi11 · 2026-05-24T18:38:48-0400

Reta’s affects on glycogen / glucagon —>co2 are definitely addictive.

Where I can’t get off. Today was really bad. It was 6 days off Reta. But I had been taking tirzepatide 1mg every 4 days since. I knew things were getting worse. But then today complete death.

Reta .3 and b12 helped carbs red light too. Then more b12 helped hours later. Then .2 more of Reta is hitting me again but not really helping .

I think Reta can be fed at such a low dose. And should be fed quite low. As its actions can be nutritional depleting. But it just keeps the glycogen component going drive for co2 that is severely needed here.

I think my system needs Reta for a long time. And I’m worrried about the addiction piece. But I really don’t think there are any other options.

Fighting….

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