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@RebelWithACause Yeah I am lucky that I am not from third world country, but it is far from social system in Western/Northern Europe.. Because I work mostly some part time jobs. My pension money would be so low that I couldn't survive anyways. So for sure I don't give a fuck about that. If would do so good that I would survive and live to older where I can't no longer work. I would probably kill myself or try to make it to some warm country and live/die there a some homeless..
But so far how things look it doesn't seem I have to worry about what I will do in my 70s lol..
I am doing so bad it is almost funny..
 
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Yura said:
@RebelWithACause Yeah I am lucky that I am not from third world country, but it is far from social system in Western/Northern Europe.. Because I work mostly some part time jobs. My pension money would be so low that I couldn't survive anyways. So for sure I don't give a fuck about that. If would do so good that I would survive and live to older where I can't no longer work. I would probably kill myself or try to make it to some warm country and live/die there a some homeless..
But so far how things look it doesn't seem I have to worry about what I will do in my 70s lol..
I am doing so bad it is almost funny..
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What are you taking/doing currently??
 
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@RebelWithACause I think I had adrenals in much worse shape before, but my body in general was not that fucked up and aged.. That is the thing.. Now I think my body is in stress mode from the fact how hard it is to keep this body alive at this point.. It is just so many factors against me..
 
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@RebelWithACause I think I had adrenals in much worse shape before, but my body in general was not that fucked up and aged.. That is the thing.. Now I think my body is in stress mode from the fact how hard it is to keep this body alive at this point.. It is just so many factors against me..
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Yea it sucks. I'd just do a protocol and diet that at least make me feel better. Then just do that for a while. I mean there's no magic bullet sadly so you just have to find something that works for you at this point.

You can also read Helen he had like stilts like Thorne Extra + Resveratrol. Or Thyroid + DHT. Etc. I'd just take something that at least makes me functional then on top do detox stuff.
 
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@RebelWithACause Today I was here in new shitty Russian supermarket they had post on facebook that they hire people. They hired me and I staid there and worked 7 hours lol. Somewhat "ok" money like 1300 euro for 160 hours. But don't think I will last long there lol.. At least it is just morning shift from 8:00 to 16:30 or 9:30 to 18:00. I could rent apartment and have money left for food and some extra stuff with that money, but during 4 month probation period they can fire me anytime and I can leave anytime.. So it would be a bad idea to start to rent apartment during those 4 months. So dream scenario would be I am able to work there 4 months and after that I can rent apartment, be somewhat less stressed because they can't just fire me without any reason or they have to keep me there for 2 months from the day they fire me and also I would have some money saved from those 4 months. So I would be in great position to finally do some healing. But who knows. It is really hard work. In fridge as well. I can get sick or just crash from that stress and they just fire me.. Spend money I had left on good quality whey protein to keep amino acids up. At fist I wanted hydrolyzed whey, but chatGPT said that native CFM whey protein is much better for upping glutathione etc.. So hopefully it will help..
 
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Yura said:
@RebelWithACause Today I was here in new shitty Russian supermarket they had post on facebook that they hire people. They hired me and I staid there and worked 7 hours lol. Somewhat "ok" money like 1300 euro for 160 hours. But don't think I will last long there lol.. At least it is just morning shift from 8:00 to 16:30 or 9:30 to 18:00. I could rent apartment and have money left for food and some extra stuff with that money, but during 4 month probation period they can fire me anytime and I can leave anytime.. So it would be a bad idea to start to rent apartment during those 4 months. So dream scenario would be I am able to work there 4 months and after that I can rent apartment, be somewhat less stressed because they can't just fire me without any reason or they have to keep me there for 2 months from the day they fire me and also I would have some money saved from those 4 months. So I would be in great position to finally do some healing. But who knows. It is really hard work. In fridge as well. I can get sick or just crash from that stress and they just fire me.. Spend money I had left on good quality whey protein to keep amino acids up. At fist I wanted hydrolyzed whey, but chatGPT said that native CFM whey protein is much better for upping glutathione etc.. So hopefully it will help..
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Nice dude. I mean I used to work as well in freezers and stuff in supermarket. It never made me sick. Just take care of yourself best you can while working there.
 
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@RebelWithACause my family is insane. I had one of the biggest adrenaline dump ever this morning over so stupid stuff... and in work I was lifting heavy stuff and I got crazy shaky, started to sweat, had zero power in my muscles and my throat started hurting and I started coughing..
It is so fucking sad that you know my sister, father etc. would be nice and kind people if their body chemistry was not so fucked up.. Father 2 years on hormones after prostate removal. he is in complete burnout for sure. Sister full mouth of amalgams, was on birth control pills now she has copper IUD or something probably and thinks that meat is bad so eats loads of nuts, seeds, dried fruits, garbage like that.. Crazy estrogen dominant, metal toxic maniac.. Just talking to her and my armpits are soaked from adrenaline..
I know for a fact that once her estrogen drops from menopause it is game over for her. But what I stupid warehouse worker little brother I know right.. She and her husband work in hospital.. She knows everything the best lol..
I need have to create a lot of space between me and her that's for sure. Unfortunately she lives in the same building and I and my parents take care of her kids all the time..
Really can't wait for a day that I will decide if I want to see her or not. For now she and everybody else can just show up in my room and I can't do nothing about it.
It is just insane I didn't realized that this is the core issue for me. Why I struggle so much to get better for so long.
Hopefully some nice cheap apartment for rent will show up. I would probably risk it. I would rather work even night shifts, but come home to calm place knowing that if my phone is off. I am "safe" and nobody can fuck with me..
 
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@RebelWithACause my family is insane. I had one of the biggest adrenaline dump ever this morning. In work I was lifting heavy stuff and I got crazy shaky, started to sweat, had zero power in my muscles and my throat started hurting and I started coughing..
It is so fucking sad that you know my sister, father etc. would be nice and kind people if their body chemistry was not so fucked up.. Father 2 years on hormones after prostate removal. he is in complete burnout for sure. Sister full mouth of amalgams, was on birth control pills now she has copper IUD or something probably and thinks that meat is bad so eats loads of nuts, seeds, dried fruits, garbage like that.. Crazy estrogen dominant, metal toxic maniac.. Just talking to her and my armpits are soaked from adrenaline..
I know for a fact that once her estrogen drops from menopause it is game over for her. But what I stupid warehouse worker little brother I know right.. She and her husband work in hospital.. She knows everything the best lol..
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estrogen dominance really turn some human into garbage
copper will go into brain and uterus (in case of women), and make all bad shit that exists in this world. the best part -or the worst - that you literally cant help them. if you will try to help them you will probably end up being the ,,worst" beacuse of rage and lookin for easiest target estrogen cause. thank you for recalling me how contraceptives tools are fckd up.
 
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