Mar. 26th, 2018:
I did have a bit of stomach issues more. I did eat some takeout and did have chocolate. Most takeout was bc I didn't want to make a scene, I did have some stuff I shouldn't have. And I will do better. And workout and also have a deficit a couple days or more to restore things.
And hopefully ARL will get here soon and the ru486... so I can more easily return to work for now (temporary) and then find something I like better.
I can use my medicine to help me there, but I don't want to over rely on it. And I do want digestion to be better. I'll just take digestive enzymes for now and eat clean, and workout with the current stack I'm taking. I can work at a place temporarily stat, but last time I worked there I was sick many years ago and I came so far since then to only get sick again but, I'll improve. And it is only temporary, and being sick will get better.
I'll add daily and nightly meditation and also go to bed earlier. All this takes consistency and believing that it will help. So I'll try my best.
Random Tasks-
0. Get ready.
1. Call Endo - ask apptmt - not there. - done 3.40, April 5th some time - ask for an email agn.
2. Ask other person for (xx). - I did, they will not respond... --wtf.
3. Call and ask LM Homeopathy what is going on? w/hair test.
4. Hit the gym. 4.b. eat clean and lean. -did first part, doing the second.
5. Go to the library, work on some things... --- basically i do this at home between three different floors.
6. Get confirmation re: sending (xx). --------- hello ???
-Current Diet/ Exercise / Supps Log:
-03.26.2018:
-Clean and Lean again.
-I won't let ignorance get in the way of my diet, as it's #1 for importance.
-100mg R-A and 4-A at 11am, 200mg R-A and 4-A at 2.50pm... and worked out 3.50-4.45.
-7 lifts. Better on back lateral pulldowns (140lb iso), and better on leg press (130, 150, 170, 190lb in 4 sets). Triceps, iso-lateral bench press, Shoulder press not bad.
-good energy, and focused... and decent, like less than a minute rest between certain exercises, a minute otherwise. (Less than a minute is probably too quick).
-Walked a bit after and will again. Was out of breath a bit - asthma, slightly cold like 2 or 0 degrees (I don't really care unless it's actually cold, I don't check all the time).
-Diet: Some spinach and protein; and then again after gym like an hour later. One iced espresso (Deathwish) at home 11am or so, and then another later 6pm+.
-Slept 5-6 hrs, Ok... Better than very little. Not best quality.
-I ate lots of cooked chicken no seasoning maybe 400g or so, spinach, some potatoes, rice. And similar food. 2 shakes with water. Total 1800 cals/150gp or so. 70gfat, rest carbs. 120-142g carbs.. So I probably had more fat lke 90g.
-I'll eat spinach, protein, carbs a bit... later. I.e. eggs and spinach. Not many carbs, may be a lot hungrier later, Can't eat and then take care of stuff... better to eat later.
-03.27.2018:
-100mg R-A and 4-A and 250-300mg of Espresso (iced). Protein soon, a bit before working out - I will probably try squats, chinups (or similar), overhead press. And ancillary work.
-Eating lean, no nonsense today.
-Did laundry, cleaned a bit, planned my day mentally.
-Then go downtown or to university or the library (somewhere?), a cafe... and get some work done.
-take meds with me if I need it to focus on things.
-Get some almond milk.
-I'll use whatever I can for ARL/Electrolytes during snapback from ru*... Just in case. 3 or 4 bottles each... it's expensive... should be 200 cash for all that max.
-Nah it's like 1200 cals so far max, I threw away a lot of bread and looked up values... plus like eggs and what not... 1360 cals and some other stuff... And some choc almond milk, and 0.4 bananas like 170 or like 1530 cals max. And that's stretching it a bit. It's 7.30pm.\
-More of shake 1 after workout, along with the takeout (totally fine if digestion works, minus bread (bread = garbage)).
-And a tiny bit of chicken, like 1/5th of a serving or less. -And a protein + spinach + plain almond milk + some dark chocolate almond milk. 300 cals max/ 48gp...
-tiny bit of butter, 60 cals maybe, 1.5 teaspoons of avocado salsa.
-desert: 150cals more butter, 1 chocolate, another bit spat it out (I'm sick I know). And some gelatin, iced valhalla java coffee with some choco almond milk and some regular almond milk (all diluted with water). 270cals max. I'll fast more tomro and just work on things. Like 1970 cals/ 150-170gp I'll calculate it later. --edit 11.00pm Tues Mar 27th. woot woot!!! STAY LEAN AND GET JACKED AT THE SAME TIME OR CLOSE TO IT, BURN ALL EXCESS FAT AND LATER GET JACKED WITH COACHES AND DESTROY ALL.
-Damn, stomach hurting since I tried more electrolyte protocol (no offense to anyone - just not for me and not yet).
-I WILL try it fully later, maybe after healing or during snapback.
-I ate more... chicken, spinach, olive oil. So like 2500 2600 cals 180gp, a lot of carbs, a lot of fat. Actually 3300 Cal's 210 gp and lots of carbs and fat. Its ok. No dairy zero bread zero gluten only rice and potatoes and only that stuff on big lifting days. I doubt this will set back anything other than digestion and vanity a second. But it is inconsistent and causes fear /anxiety.
-but I can't deal with bloatedness. That's why supps in ARL/electrolytes are a last step thing for me, and I'll be ripped and vascular and have good digestion by then anyways.
Should be alright.
-I'm fasting tmro... IF I workout, I'll still have a fasting day. And I'm hiding my supplements, no bullshit - only what I know works for me and won't cause additional issues. If I ran ru twice already, fine my digestion would be miles better, but I'm not walking around fat looking nor feeling terrible. Digestion like 5-6 /10 and sometimes 7 or more... not my normal, but my normal gets bad too at times, so I can't risk this. --- 1.26pm, March 28th 2018.
-Worked out pretty good. Some chin-ups, and upper and lower split. Some legs, but being careful - feel left leg pain a bit when I run up and down the stairs (disorganization, looking for something/ getting energy out). Don't want to overtrain. Take a break.
-Ate a Dave's Triple -- threw most the bread, and 2 spicy chicken sandwiches (same thing), spinach, arugula, some olive oil, the rest of my spinach + matcha + protein + coconut water drink. -- 124gp and 1400cals so far, had 2 eggs and some spinach earlier. Maybe 1 more randro and 1 more 4andro for 400mg total. (post workout).
-It isn't the cheese nor the fast food, it's pfs and also strange supplements that hurt my stomach.
I'm glad it works for others, but it isn't for me yet. I'm sure fasting later for 20-40 days and recomp it will be better. Normal people shouldn't need to do any of this, and I hope to avoid it with ru486, so if I need to fast again, only at 80% OR HIGHER, and already having a lot of things I need outside of PFS on-lock.
-03.28.2018:
-Spinach + Chicken... at night 8pm. -and a tiny portion of eggs (like 1-1.5eggs) and spinach in morn.
-Fast Day.
-03.29.2019:
-Coffee, Iced Americano. Magnesium Citrate, 1 tums, 1 R-A, 1 4-A.
-Food soon it's 12pm, then gym.
-Not relying on dex to go to the gym or anything, but a bit to get structure on, I should be making 20-30k quarterly soon enough. ANd then way more. A lot to learn.
-12.40pm Vegan Protein shake, fibre, whatever else is in there, some almond milk, and added spinach. 200 cals, 28gp, 22gcarbs, fat? 2 small pieces of chocolate at 4.45am.
-exercise:
-Worked out 8 exercises, shoulders - watch hypermoobility left shoulder esp, one chest exercise, 4 back. No legs. Eat Spinach + Pro + Carbs. Chicken, Spinach, Rice myb.
-2.20pm to 3.20pm.
-WORK... focus upstairs top level and downstairs.
-Tasks:
-Hit Chapters Later, check some magazines, books. 3 R-A and 3 4-A pre workout. Eat a lot, but clean. Olive oil and stuff for extra cals (fats). No screw Chapters -- set up various things I need to. **2 I did, 1 more I need and to research many avenues. AND to verify tomorrow**
-Watch out for knees, don't run up and down too much.
-Diet + Supps:
-MSM 1 pill pre workout, 1 after (with hylauronic acid) and 1 Arginine/Citrulline pre-workout.
-9.30pm I had a burger thin, and lettuce wrap, some guac, some half chipotle sauce, zero bread.
-ANd chicken cooked homemade + spinach + arugula + peas, tomatoes... olive oil butter, some rice.
SO like 900cals/55gp, 45gcarbs.
-Like 400 cals and chocolate 500cals/60gp. And so like 1400cals, 115gp, soon more protein shake or a burger.
-A caloric deficit with lots of protein.
-another burger and lettuce wrap.
-diet coke. piece of chicken later, so like 1800cals and 143gp.
-03.30.2018:
-Digestive Enzymes with each meal. Reup on that and the Andros and the PCT get it soon.
-1. Pro + Spinach + Arugula + Almond milk + water + inulin (fibre) shake. 180cals/39gp. 1 iced coffee.
-100mg of R-A and 100mg 4-A. (keep it low esp on rest day. And have half as much 4-A as R-A like IHateFin). I want 60% and 65% post snapback PCT, and 75 and 80% feeling and 75 consistently + after ru trial one and then 85 - 90 as time goes on and more trials of both those things, and mood and health improvements overall too. --12.11pm.
-3.5 eggs,spinacha, arugula, and some sea salt butter, and tiny bit of hot sauce. AND some chai tiny bit, and rest of iced espresso. And 200ml Beet Juice (Potassium, carbs).
-Get in at a low.
-Chicken and spinach, arugula, olive oil, butter, sea salt, dig enzymes before. Lots of protein so I had one HCL later. Didn't help digestion so far.
-WC 3 x but bloated still. It's stupid, bc I'd be lean and fit looking all the time relatively if that was fixed and better energy. Maybe getting rdy and or HCL helps brain fog and or mood.
-Only lots of coffee today 3-4 shots of espresso. Barely slept yesterday.
-I know that if digestion is fixed to 80-90% usually, and lean looking, and all that I'd be 60% or so. ANd then the rest, sexual changes, and other health... I just want to move on to the next step but I'm awaiting ARL results and more importantly for me awaiting ru still after all this time. Mar 30 2018.
-Maybe Randro or 4andro affects digestion with estrogen effects, or its just bad at times. It's still better than months ago, and pre fast... but not as good as post fast when eating really really clean. But, having some juice with potassium, taking mag different forms, taking HCL, gelatin, dropping all, whatever does not change it too much. At it's worst it's still better than a month ago, but it does hold me back.
-More chicken roasted chicken white meat, some dark meat, rice, and veg - spinache, peas, some sweet potato or similar (IDK).
-And a protein shake spinach, some iced cofee, and almond milk and some choc. So like 1800cals140gp, 80-100g carbs, 80-90gfat. Not bad... No gym.
-03.31.2018:
-Awake 8am, from 4am. Slept again 10.20am. Then eat protein shake spinach tiny bit of choco almond and reg almond milk more; iced espresso.
-1 MSM pill, 2 RAndro + 1 4Andro, some puffs. 3 dig enzyme pills - need more; and will need more of the Andro's.
-get rdy, shaved yday already, and go to CDAPOST and then BANK and then tsf money in, and then go to gym. Deal with bs later, dinner with ppl... but take care of myself and my funds and body. Face, FUNDS, IQ, body, health, drgs, sex, confidence, hair last *** for priorities.
-wc once, and getting rdy to go take care of all that shyt 11.39am. Can get rdy agn later. -187lb. Ok... really 186. Cut likr 5-6lb and I'm nearer genetic potential. Cut and recomp with KX* even better, then eat a lot more and jack up with KX*, and then cut... and boom super fit looking and actually fit as well. --> LATER, don't worry, just don't go too hard on legs. Lift medium light there and higher reps, and do lunges more. And that other thing which is like single legged lunges/ squats - full range (I hate that stuff, but definitely helps recomp everything and make legs stronger too).
-I worked out 1 hour, so that's 4 workouts, 2 long walks, a few short walks not bad. Pretty good. Get to 7hrs proper exercise per week, and I'm relatively fit again.
-I just know I can get better results quicker, later on at my preferred gyms... but for now, I need to work with what I have.
-Diet March 31: Most of a burrito bowl - double steak, some pinto beans, 1cup of rice, spinach, arugula, olive oil, butter, lemon, various veg. Most of it, eat rest later. And pre-shake... so like 1200cals/ 65gp so far. GET DIGESTIVE ENZYMES - I have to go to someone's house tonight, I'm going to be in a bad mood if I eat and then have messed up digestion, so buy it asap.
-0.5 sugargree redbull - 7pm.
-10.30pm finished spinach, arugula, ginger, garlic, some random veggies, chicken, 2 pieces of chicken curry homemade. Decent.
-maybe more mexican food at home, maybe not. AND more digestive enzymes (I took morning, and also before leaving). WC 2.
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1500cals/88gp. And maybe just a shake at home... GET PROTEIN up, I did workout and I want knees and legs to heal.
-ATE ENOUGH MAR 31 2018, and 3 dex, 5 randro, 3-4 4andro, mag like 2-3 pills, 2 tums, 1 advil (knee pain at nite), and enough protein and spinach. Forced myself to eat all these veggies and whatever... yuck. Esp with dex.
Really need some business stuff to go smoothly/ but it's bank holiday. So that's going to be unlikely.
-More burrito bowl, rice, some guac salsa, and bruschetta salsa, and some butter, and pb, pecans like 500, pro and water so 2200cals/123gp. Ok... eat whatever I want.
Maybe 2700 cals/ 146gp. Pretty good. Added yogurt (Dhai), and sea salt, olive oil, butter, pecans (once in a while this won't kill me). Needed cals.
-diet.Sun.April1st.2018:
-Fasting Day. Eat at like 8 or 9 or 10pm, eggs, spinach, etc.
-I felt bloated and was bad then digestion was ok, and I look lean... and feel better.
-Dealing with other bullshit tho (non pfs).
-Iced Espresso at 12 or 1, iced espresso with a tiny bit of dark chocolate almond milk and a drop of lactose free milk 3.40pm+.
-Eat meat+spinach+arugula+sea salt+ olive oil etc later, and take 2-3 dig enzyme pills with HCL in them (Newroots). Cool. Get my work done tho, and ideally reach great solutions asap. It's hard when It's Sunday and I have other stupid commitments in the week, and banks are useless.
-300mg total R-A and 4-A(rest day, should do cardio knees hurt and will it even help? I should be cut as hell now and just be getting jacked... AND would be if not for pfs).
-go for a walk and call people that need to give me some info, regarding some other things.
-Eat lamb and spinach arugula later at nite. 6.27pm now.
-Dinner: Lamb Shanks + spinach/arugula/garlic?/ginger?/sauce. Iced coffee. 360 rice too o like 470 and olive oil some other stuf before 650-700 cals 45gp/30gcarbs/30gf.
something like that, major fast day. MAY TAKE PRO AND WATER, so 120 cals/27gp, 800cals/72gp/30gc/30gf. GOOD STUFF. --10.40pm, drink 12 or so. Fasted 20h.
-10mg dex, maybe 10 more I'm still not sure wtf I was supposed to work on, and realistically can't on Sunday. I've gotten some done... Not enough.
-some potatos like 100 cals or less, to tide me over, and some cilantro. - earlier. -with dinner, 2 dig enzymes and 1 HCL (plus 10 drops each dig enzyme). Total nzymes is 4 caps. Tired... 10.40 qh
wn
-doing heev perfectly (except sleep, and getting rich), and still bloated. Makes sense.
-I'll fix this and end those that caused it.
-n works out like 6-7 hrs more per wk than me and eats more... and is a pro athlete tho. SO, we're different. I mostly do strength/functoional... 7h or o if i do that, I'd be super fit and athletic looking as long as rest and can do things there.
-April 2nd 2018:
-Banking stress.
This is the same with pharma, banks, laws, "old rich white guys" (pfizer, merck, bmo, g20, WTO, DSMI-V) that ruin the rules for everyone else. I'll raise capital regardless, I have like 8 different plans for 1+ year from now to generate money. In the mean time I'm stuck here tho, and the rules are ridiculous. Just watch. Banks will start their own crypto exchanges for high net worth investors only, after spreading fear about them for years. Internal emails and statements by BMO confirm this.
-This is all pretty much true, even if Bitcoin is a massive scam (so what? Made lots of millionaires, lots of scams do).
-3.30am: Pecans, arugula, eggs. Later chicken, tiny bit of lamb, olive oil, and butter. So like 700cals/45gp. Dig enzymes.
-I am dealing with someone coming here to fix something 1, raise cap find better places 2, 3 workout 4 eat a perfect diet after late nite snack. 4 workout 5 x this week, 5. Move x amount of funds, or raise it. 6. Close off accts as needed, 7. s-> and back.
-4.45-6pm protein shake almond choco milk, lac free milk tiny bit, spinach, protein x2 servings almost. 50gp, 250cals. 3gfat, 20gcarbs. NUMBERS arent super accurate today but protein and estimated cals are.
-9.00pm , rice some potatoes, spinach, butter,... tiny bit carbs before gym. 350cals 30gc, fat 12g, protein not much.
-11pm + rice a bit more, chicken lots coconut cream, basil, spices, etc, + spinach + arugula + olive oil + butter (lots before and now), and more old veg...
Like 1100 cals/ 45gp, 40gc, 60gfat.
-more chicken coconut cream, arugula spinach and olive oil some butter so like 450cals/22gp and like 2850cals/ 122gp. Another pro/water drink pre-bed.
-2970cals/ 150gp. Or just have more protein and water and save current food. BC I am full, and took 3 dig enzymes with HCL pre eating dinner and like 2 more and like 2 Betaine HCL's too. --> ELECTROLYTE PROTOCOL isn't there no more.
I will use ARL in future.
-I took potassium - 200ml of BEET JUICE. 600mg K or close. Pre-wrkout.
-HCL afte dinner and possibly this morn after late snack. And I bet 1000 dollars, I will look fat bc of HCL, despite it seeming like a good idea.
-1 more pro and water drink/ take 3 MORE HCL just to see if it helps digestion that much or causes stomach to stick out like I have a physical disease there.
Oh well.... I have other shyt to worry about, like serious M.I.
so like tasks:
-1-7. Done. Some important work.
-9. Make sure I get my ADHD/Mood supps soon enough.
-10. Ask LMH - where is the Hair test?
-11. Ask Medside - where is the package?
-12. Raise at least 8X, and have 30-40X on the way asap. I don't have time for this.
